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Dubi/18/boring/diary

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I feel like my soul is leaving my body

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vent, pls don't ready if u don't feel like it.

I FEEL LIKE EVERY1 IS STILL LOOKING AT ME.

IM PROLLY JUST OARANOID AND IM IMAGINING THINGS BUT GOT ITS SO PAINFUL. I DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE I DONT WANNA BE WITH PEOPLE NEAR THEM ABD UGH JUST ANYWHERE BEING AL9NE BARELY HELPS AT THAY POINT. GOING OUT TO THE WOODS ISNT HELPING SNYMORE EITHER.

Help me what do I do. ATP I don't even feel like colouring my words BECAUSE NOONE EVEN SEES THE MEANING AND THOSE POST OVERALL.

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There's 1 way to end my suffering.

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I wish, I wish you were here.

You were my best decision in my life.

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I miss my life before my fu@k ups. I would give everything to have it back. All of it was like paradise, ofc there were ups and downs but I was able to get back on track with my person. It was lovely and we know it. I just wish we could have it back. Promise..

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Is anything even real??????? ?

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They placed a mirror next to the stairs and I'm so fucking afraid of it. It's so hard for me to go downstairs now.

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Everytyme it's me being the fucking problem

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Had another dream with u that messed me up again, why are u still here? Maybe THIS is the sign.

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Kill me.

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I want to disappear into the woods and never be seen again.

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Why tf are they looking at me ughhhhhhhhh

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I just feel like my life is a nightmare and I have to do something to wake up.

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Guys I just showered !!! I hope some1 can be proud of me now and yea!!

I washed my body and hair cleaned my face and teeth after I think 3 days ? It's not my longest streak but.. still I did it and I think I'm happy?.

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I failed again.

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I'm getting Thinner and thinner everyday.. I like the way I look and all but.. I'm loosing my strength so everything is getting harder to do ( walking running and all) idk I wish I could eat more to look healthier but it's so hard with my small stomach. Idk what to dooooo ;P :[

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I need attention.