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royaltywritten:

“I have to do something. I don’t know what I can do, but I want to help him come back to how he was.” Would that even be possible? If Oz’s realm was as horrible as they told her it was, then what could Legoshi have possibly seen that made things so horrible? It made her worry more than she could ever describe in words.

She pulled away from Oz and let out a small sigh, brushing her hands through short fur on the top of her head. Even though she knew it would be hard at first, she was truly hoping that Oz could live here too, but now it opened up another problem that she never could have imagined. What had Legoshi seen that made him turn into this type of desperate wolf.

“We’ll figure something out. We have to…–”

She had to remain an optimist for both their sake or else then what would they do? She hated feeling like this, but at the end of the day she knew that she had to help Legoshi in whatever way she could.She kept her promise with Ozbane about being there for them when they came here, but now she had to help with bringing back Legoshi from that dark place.

“It may not be entirely possible to return him to how he was,” Ozbane pointed out, not to dissuade her or to crush her optimism, but they were trying to approach this realistically: trauma had a funny way of changing someone. Making it difficult to pull away from those feelings of hurt or anger or despair. Oz understood that. A smirk crossed Ozbane’s expression, and their voice sounded a tad more resolute, “but we can beat into him that he’s being an idiot and making reckless choices.”

They didn’t want to, but still, Oz moved to straighten their posture back up to their full height. That lingering memory of Haru having seen them shirtless, stuck around, but at least now Oz had something else to focus on. At the very least they wouldn’t have to come back around to that topic, hopefully. Still, some part of Ozbane felt, comforted, by Haru’s knowing. She seemed to be willing to hear them out, to understand, unlike anyone else that Ozbane had ever met.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”#lupusbestia

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“But I should have been there, I should have been able to help you and to stop Legoshi. I.. I could have..–” What could she have done in the first place? If Legoshi was coming in with a fight that even Ozbane couldn’t stop, what could she have done as a rabbit? The only thing she would be able to do was get herself injured or worse off killed.

She nuzzled into their muzzle, wrapping her arms around them and returning the hug. She hated how useless she felt in this situation and how little she could do to actually help them. Legoshi had blinded Ozbane and become someone different now because of his time in the other realm. It worried her and made her feel smaller than anything else in the world.

“I’m so sorry.”

It’s all she can say even if in reality there was nothing more she could say. Oz was right and there was nothing more she could do in that situation and she hadn’t done anything, but that’s exactly why she felt so useless. She pulled a hand back and raised it up to their face, fingers gently running through the scarred flesh along their eye. “We have to figure out what happened to him over there.”

At Haru’s words of feeling useless, essentially, lamenting over not being there, Ozbane’s brow furrowed. They held her tighter, fingers curling into the backside of the fabric of her clothes.

Their voice was gentle, low; only for her ears. A warmth and belief echoed in every syllable Ozbane spoke, “I would have you fight by my side in an instant ; if I could have had you there, I would have,” Haru was strong, in her own rights. She had every right and reason to have been a part of that battle as Ozbane had. So far as they were concerned, Haru didn’t need protecting. She didn’t needed to be shielded as though some child: far from it, in fact.

She apologised again, and Ozbane would have replied, but Haru placed a hand along their face. Her fingers ran along the scar: it would feel rough and tight, cold; Ozbane couldn’t feel the sensation of her fingers. The nerves in that part of their face had been damaged, so far as they could tell. Explained the lack of pain, it was an unsightly looking thing.

“I agree. We have to face him eventually; no matter what, I-- we, have to do everything in our power, to help Legoshi.” Ozbane wanted to hold her forever. A silly sentiment, perhaps, but, it was the truth. They reluctantly moved away from her, right eye opening, and gazed down at her. Oz smiled, very briefly, but just knelt there. Looking across at Haru, eye narrowed in such, gratitude.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”#lupusbestia

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Haru listened quietly to everything Ozbane had to tell her and some part of her was surprised to hear them speaking for so long. It wasn’t something she was used to, but that just meant everything was important. It wasn’t until the middle where they confessed that their eye injury was because of Legoshi and that Legoshi had forced them back that she finally made a noise.

A small yet audible gasp escaped her lips as she only felt her hands tighten their grip on theirs. Legoshi had done all of that and not said a word to her? It was true enough that something was different about him, but she never thought that the change was so drastic that he could do something like that to someone else?

She felt her fur standing on end as she stood in silence once Ozbane finished speaking. She heard how horrible Ozbane’s world was, so maybe things just overwhelmed Legoshi? It still was no excuse for what he had done, but how horrible were things really for him to go this far and to think Ozbane had done it on purpose?

“Oz, I’m so sorry..–”

These were the only words she could possibly even begin to say as she tried to wrap her mind around everything that was said. She couldn’t doubt it because she knew that Oz wouldn’t lie to her like that, but it only made her even more worried for what that meant for Legoshi.

Oz kept staring down at her. She mentioned how she was sorry; Ozbane moved then, tugging her forward briefly before wrapping their arms around her. Moving down, so that way they were hunched, squatting on the ground, in order to hug Haru properly. Ozbane’s eye closed, their brows furrowed, as they moved, their head moving so that way they were facing towards Haru’s left side, Oz’s snout just going past her face. As though they wanted to nuzzle her but refrained.

“You don’t have to apologise. For anything.” their voice was low; both reassuring, yet, warm. There was a strength there, a belief in Haru. In who Haru was. How she was. Ozbane wanted Haru to know, desperately, that they were here for her too. That she didn’t have to be, protected, or sheltered from this.

& if hugging was the only way that Ozbane knew how to properly convey that ( words often failed them, they hated needing to try and verbally express emotion ), then Oz would hug her until the sun dipped down over the horizon.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”

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“You just disappeared and I’ve been looking all over for you. Legoshi came back, but he wouldn’t tell me anything. He’s different, but won’t tell me what happened.” She breathed out her worries and concerns as she brought her hand to her chest, looking at them with even more worry than she had before. Whatever happened, it was obvious enough that neither of them wanted her to know the truth behind what had happened.

She took a step towards Ozbane and reached out, gently grabbing their hands. She had to know the truth even if they wanted to protect her from it. She was tired of being protected like a child. She had a right to know what had happened even if they thought she couldn’t handle it. She wasn’t some damsel in distress that needed saving and she didn’t want to be seen like that anymore.

“Tell me everything.”

No matter what they had to tell, she had to know. Why had Legoshi come back looking like he did? Why did Ozbane suddenly disappear? What had happened that she missed out on? Haru had to know the answers even if it was something that she wasn’t ready to hear.

She took their hands, and stared up at him. Her eyes looked so determined, strong. Oz’s eye narrowed down at her, and they breathed out, gave a slight nod. Ozbane held Haru’s gaze, not once looking away, as they began to explain,

“You remember how I mentioned we needed some type of connection? A bridge, in order to reconnect myself and Legoshi? Well. He found one. Not sure what it was, but uh, he came through a magical portal. Magic is, real, in my realm. It’s mostly used by humans, but, mammals can learn it too. Guess he learned how to make portals, and he used one to get back here,

But when he got back, he was, pissed at me. He blamed me for being thrown into my realm. Not sure what all he saw there, but it clearly changed him. He hated me. He attacked me, and well...” Ozbane pointed towards their left eye, which had a jagged huge scar that tore from their left cheek all the way past their left eyebrow. Their eye was entirely closed over, effectively blinded in that one eye.

“That’s why I disappeared for as long as I did: he forcefully threw me through another portal. I had no way back, at first. Then, I figured out the whole uh, magic thing. And portals. So I, used the connection I had with you, and Louis, to, get back here.”

They trailed off, but didn’t look away from her. Haru deserved that respect: she deserved to know the truth.

“I’m sorry, for.... not coming to find you sooner. I wanted to. I just... didn’t know how to, face you. I feel responsible for what Legoshi went through, and he thinks that I did that to him purposefully. I didn’t. I might be jealous of what Legoshi has, but, I would never want to put him through the same pain that I went through.

Haru. I’m not sure what all happened to Legoshi, in my realm. But, I came back here, to see you again, but also to. To help him. Haru, he’s hurting. He’s, angry. I’m scared for what he might do, if left alone.”

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”#lupusbestia

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*feels nothing* mmm, don’t like that *feels something but like, too much* mmm not a fan of that either

#「HEADCANON.」”Grief makes the heart burst.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「OZBANE;CHILD.」”Once a boy once so small once bright eyed.”

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if you’ve ever had a crush on me god bless your poor misguided heart

#「HEADCANON.」”Grief makes the heart burst.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”

yourdearhart:

“Well for you, they’re meant to be a threat, so that’s wise.” Gray wolves were natural predators of red deer, before such a time as they coexisted in society, and the other function of the antlers, besides letting the hinds know what a virile and powerful mate he was, was self-defense. But Louis had never found them especially useful that way.

“Does it matter? I’m offering.” Why was he offering? Maybe because he hoped someone in Ozbane’s realm would do the same for Legoshi, Maybe because even though this Legoshi wasn’t really Legoshi, Louis disliked the idea of their being on the street, with no connections and no one to look out for them. “Do you need a place to stay?”

There was something else Ozbane had said…just in photographs. That was such an odd thing to say, and it set a few gears turning in Louis’ mind, but there were more pressing, present matters to address. They could come back to that.

“I’ve no doubt you could spear me through the chest with them and kill me, yes.” they spoke assuredly and with honesty; they weren’t mocking Louis or trying to belittle him. Ozbane had heard of deer and how formidable they could be, especially the males. Their gaze narrowed. They trailed, especially as Louis said that he was offering ; then asked again if Ozbane needed a place to settle.

“If this is out of pity, don’t bother. If you’re doing it out of the goodness of your heart, you’re gullible.” there’s no malice or mocking, it sounded like Ozbane was merely stating observations, or thoughts. Trailed off, they considered, then stopped and faced Louis, looking at him directly in the eye.

As equals.

“...Whatever your reasons, I can see why Haru thinks so fondly of you.” they smile, but it doesn’t reach their eyes. That expression twitched, then they motioned, politely, “lead the way. I am curious to see my new accommodations: the ice cream can wait. Unless you want to grab some along the way.”

#yourdearhart #「YOURDEARHART;LOUIS.」”Forever grateful for your knowledge and grace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;01」”Through a simple soul we lie.”

royaltywritten:

Once they were dressed, she finally turned to face them once more. She doesn’t even give them time to react as she ran into their arms and hugged them tightly. Her ears pressed close to the back of her head as she buried her nose in the fabric of their dress shirt. She knew it was dangerous, she could tell how uncomfortable they were, but she was glad they were back.

“Why do you stupid wolves like worrying me so much…?” It’s muffled slightly before she pulled away and gave them their space once more, not wanting to intrude anymore. She used her hand to wipe away the small tears that formed at the corner of her eyes before she cleared her throat. It isn’t until she looked up at them and looked at them fully that she noticed their eye.

“Oz, what happened?”

They stumbled back slightly, just stepping back a tad, as Haru lunged forward and hugged them. Oz’s eye widened, in some slight shock, before their expression evened out. Their gaze narrowed briefly, through that numbness, they felt a slight warmth. Like peace, feeling Haru’s face burying into their dress shirt. Oz hesitated, about to hug back, but Haru moved away. Their hands subtly fell back to Ozbane’s sides.

“I am not stupid,” they reply, surely, swiftly, but it doesn’t sound angered. They wanted to pull Haru back, to hold her once more, but refrained. She was with Legoshi. They couldn’t..... any thoughts stalled, realising that she was-- crying.

Crying, because of them? or for them?

Why.

Their throat felt raw, but then she noted Ozbane’s eye. Asked after it. Their throat tightened for another reason entirely. Their tongue moved, running over their fangs as they considered.

“....I doubt you would believe me, were I to tell you.” Ozbane doubted they would want Haru to believe them: Legoshi had, changed. No doubt due to being exposed to that hell that was Ozbane’s realm. Again, this was their fault.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”

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Her ears perked up slightly and pointed towards the direction of their voice. It was obvious that this was hurting them, but she didn’t know what to say in order to make them feel better. There were no words that quickly came to mind that could ever help her make Oz feel comfortable once more. Arms crossed over her chest as she gently squeezed them, still giving them their space.

“Just as handsome as I thought you’d be.”

Nervous laughter as she ran her fingers through short fur on the top of her head. Little things they did when they were in Legoshi’s body made sense now, but that didn’t matter now. It was obvious she caught them in a tense situation. “I’ve been worried you know. You’ve got to be more careful with rabbits, everything worries us and is a danger to our health.”

A joke that she often brought up with Louis whenever she spoke about her worrying for him and Legoshi. She shook her head slightly before she spoke up again. “I’m glad you’re okay though.”

More pain at her calling them ‘handsome’ ; no, they were not. Far from it, in fact. Ozbane finally found purchase again, grounded somewhat, and they moved, pulling that binder back on. Making sure it was secured, before they pulled on their muscle shirt, then the dress shirt, re-doing the buttons. That suit jacket again, re-doing that red coloured tie.

“I am not ‘okay’. Far from it.” their voice was shaking, slight wavering. They stopped. Swallowed, did their best to, reel it in. To steady themselves again. They felt like they wanted to faint. To puke. To scream.

Though that all gave way to numbness, again. Slowly, but surely. Just this feeling of deep pressure in their gut, a slight weight along their shoulders.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”

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Haru had been searching around for Ozbane since their disappearance and Legoshi’s reappearance. Legoshi had refused to tell her anything on what happened and while that was something she was accustomed to, she was worried. What if Oz was in danger? It’s why she was surprised when she saw a wolf that looked like Legoshi, but it wasn’t.

Their own shock made her soon realize who it was without them having to say anything at all. She could see everything around her and it was then that things clicked. The shock of finding them quickly passes when she noticed what was happening in front of her.

To be polite she looked away, but she couldn’t help the happiness that bubbled up. Oz had become a close friend of hers and now they were in front of her, melting all her worries away. “Oz, that’s you, isn’t it?”

Ozbane just stared, their eyebrow furrowing slightly: pain overwhelmed them. Not physical pain, but a deep pain within their heart and their mind. A pain of, guilt, and sorrow, a sort of sensation of otherness and difference that Ozbane couldn’t, properly express. They could never truly, deeply, express that pain they felt. Every waking moment of their lives. Each second they breathed, felt like a curse.

Their eye closed, as Haru glanced away, and she politely asked if it was them. Mouth felt full, dry, like cotton had been stuffed inside. Throat tightened. No. This wasn’t them. This body was not them. Irritation, towards themselves, a feeling of loss and frustration. Fear. They had never wanted anyone, to see this-- especially not Haru--

“I...” they trailed off ; simply, too struck to truly respond.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”

Must I pretend that I am someone else for all time

Ozbane stood, frozen -- realising, with a very sickening sensation that curled in their gut, that Haru had seen them.

Shirtless ; truly, shirtless, without their binder on that flattened their chest. Ozbane looked pale, as pale as their white fur could look, as though they wanted to be ill. They seemed to start back into things, because they hurriedly moved to, cover their chest with that binder, not putting it back on, but just, using it to cover themselves.

That heaviness on their shoulders, pressing into them ; Ozbane couldn’t breathe, not completely.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;02.」”Desperate to make amends.”

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“Helped you? How have I helped you out? I don’t think I’ve done much for you.” Haru hummed softly as she dragged her tongue along some melting ice cream that threatened to drip on her hand from the cone. All she did was take them out for lunch and ice cream. Was that even anything to really be thanked for in such a way? Well, it was strange, but if that’s what they wanted to do, who was she to tell them otherwise?

“Well, if it’s about the ice cream, you’re welcome. You can even make it from home! I could show you some recipes if you’re ever interested.” Or maybe when Legoshi came back, they could all have an ice cream making session together at his place? Legoshi, Louis, Ozbane and herself. If anyone else wanted to come they could, but these were her priority right now. “It’s pretty tasty too.”

They struggled ; not able to, properly, express to her how they had been helped by Haru. Part of Ozbane wondered if she truly didn’t believe it, and thus, it felt like their thanks had just been, tossed aside. Ozbane stared ahead, doing their best to remain calm. It wasn’t often they truly thanked others, from a place of, vulnerability, so to have that disregarded--

Haru went on, thinking it was simply about the ice cream. Ozbane just continued to lick at their own ice cream, nodding a bit. They seemed fine, but inside, they felt hurt: no tells, though. No real change in how they were holding themselves, or their facial reflections. Ozbane decided to just, disregard it too.

“I can try.” they had never made ice cream before, it sounded like it might be complex. Ozbane did some cooking, but mostly, ate out. They didn’t exactly like just, being in a kitchen.

#royaltywritten #「ROYALTYWRITTEN;HARU.」”To know you is to know love and peace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;01」”Through a simple soul we lie.”

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Unspoken Fluff Starters

A gentle brush against fingers.

A head pat.

A short shoulder rub.

Leaning into their side.

Joining them in silence.

A quick hug from the side.

Sitting with them.

Bringing them a drink.

Bringing them food.

A hug from behind.

Stroking their hand.

A slight nudge of the elbow.

The lightest ‘boop’ on the nose.

A head to head touch.

A quiet evening walk.

Sharing a meal.

One resting on the other.

Giving them their coat.

Handing them a small gift.

A comforting smile.

Making space for them to sit.

A soft brush against the face.

A quiet kiss.

A comforting hug from the front.

Sharing a nap.

#「PROMPTS.」”We’re all desperate.”

yourdearhart:

Well that was a thing that had just come out of not-Legoshi’s mouth. Louis couldn’t help the way he stared; did Ozbane know what kind of thing that was to say to a deer? It was such a blatant and hard come-on that Louis really had to tell himself that Ozbane probably had no idea and had only meant it in passing, trying to be polite, or amiable. Why should a wolf be aware of the delicacies of cervid sexual relationships?

“I’m sure they have deer where you’re from.” Brushing the remark aside seemed the easiest way to handle it. Ozbane wasn’t the first to remark on it, but the hinds and does and bucks typically hitting on him tended to only imply that remark.

“You didn’t answer the question about where you’re staying,” he said. “Is Haru taking care of that?” If she was, he’d have to consider making new arrangements. He didn’t want her paying out of pocket for this if she was trying to–she didn’t have money to be throwing around. “Because if you need a place, I can arrange something.”

“Yes. There are deer in my realm, but this is the first time I’ve ever seen one up close and not just in photographs. Your antlers were the first thing I noticed.” Louis had brushed that aside so promptly; was he not used to receiving compliments? From how he held himself, Oz thought otherwise. So perhaps he just wasn’t going to entertain such a thing from an entire stranger. Hm. That made sense.

Louis wrapped back around to his previous question, wondered if Haru was providing Ozbane with lodging. “No, Haru isn’t paying for anything.” before Oz could answer, Louis mentioned arranging a place for them. Ozbane’s eyebrow rose very briefly,

“...You would do that for me? Why.”

#yourdearhart #「YOURDEARHART;LOUIS.」”Forever grateful for your knowledge and grace.”#「OZBANE.」”I’ll be here until the end.”#「CHAPTER;01」”Through a simple soul we lie.”

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