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everyday that continues the less of a reason i have to be here

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i’m so gross and i’m so tired and i’m so embarrassed and i’m so unloved and i’m so unloveable and i just want to fucking die

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god the urge to relapse is so strong 😃👍

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go fuck yourself

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literally numb

no emotion

it’s empty

i’m empty

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i don’t belong here

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what if i ended it all

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stop fucking talking about yourself for ONCE in your FUCKING life

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I’ve been doing ok lately. My wonderful boyfriend has helped me thru so much. I just wish we weren’t so far apart.

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haha.

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tbh only reason haven’t relapsed cause idk where my exacto knife is

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the suicidal thoughts were supposed to go away!

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fuck you o

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now i’m gaslighting myself

was all the shit you did to me ever even real

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i fucking hate this whore

i thought i left you behind

why did you pop up in my social media

gross ass bitch fuck you

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god the urge to relapse is so strong 😃👍

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i gotta stop myself before i dig so deep into this hole

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gross gross gross

i need to do better