@dougie-anderson: @dusty-andersonâ @dannyâandersonâ
Danny fell into silence as they walked, feeling like the atmosphere in the high school suddenly shifted into a much colder wind or a dark sky. Out of all the years that Bobby Anderson had been gone, neither one of them had a hunch that they saw him. Sure, the first few weeks they slept with one eye open but they eventually knew that he wasnât going to darken their doorstep again. As DJ rambled, Danny just watched his younger brother. It transported him back to being a kid, the way Dusty was trying to make himself look ten times as big, the way he went quiet but DJ tried to fill the silence with pointless words. âWe wonât.â Danny replied, which was his way of reassuring DJ despite not really hearing a damn thing he said.
When Danny heard the hollow voice of his father, he remained staring at the older man but then glancing to his two brothers. He knew Dusty would be the first to speak up, have some smart ass remark as always but he wondered what DJ would do. He wasnât the exact same as he was as a kid, DJ had eventually unlocked the Anderson curse of buried anger that could show up at any moment. Danny didnât respond to anything, other than tapping Dusty on the arm. âLeave it.â he said quietly. It wasnât out of fear, or perhaps it was. Maybe that tiny glimmer of fear would never go away and it was bestowed upon them simply because of who their father was. But in Dannyâs mind, they had the whole town watchingâŚhe had a son now. He had avoided jail and wanted to at least keep it that way for a while longer. âNot here, alright? Calm it.â he addressed Dusty as if Bobby wasnât even there, looking the man up and down. There was absolutely no love in any of their gazes and Dannyâs attention then moved to DJ. âGo, keep walking.â
Itâs crazy how a voice can haunt someone when there are years between the last time they heard it. DJ hasnât once forgotten how coarse and empty Bobby Anderson sounds. He doesnât hear the actual conversation, but falls silent much like Danny does. All three of the brothers fall silent in different ways, they always have done. Dusty prepares for a fight at any time, Danny observes to see when best to strike and DJ falls into silent panic.Â
Then, the brothers quickly remind the world that they are the same. They all share the anger that rises. DJ looks to Danny, whoâs looking back at him and nods to continue walking, but DJâs eyes transfix to Bobby as he slowly steps away. âYouâre real fucking lucky the whole town is here.â he bites, feeling the adrenaline building up. He doesnât want to walk away, he wants to relive that day when he was twenty, enjoying the revenge a little too much for someone who claims to be a pacifist. But in moments like this? Moments of being a kid again? Danny knew when to say go, and DJ learned young to listen. The lingering stare DJ gives to his so called father is harsh, blue tones swept with betrayal and pain. The only way he can release the ever growing anger is by spitting to Bobby Andersonâs shoes as he leaves. @dusty-anderson
dusty is the first to speak, of course. reminding bobby of the eldestâs antics to always use words to instigate and interrogate. âhavenât lost your sense of humor.â bobby comments, straying his eyes over the trio of sons. then thereâs danny, taking it all in like a fly on the wall. has the boy ever been present? âgood thinking, dann-o.â bobby encourages sarcastically as a sinister smile lifts at his lips. then to dj, whoâs more flight and fight mixed together than anything else. âwho do i gotta thank for my luck, god? or you?â bobby can sense the anger dwelling between them all, a mutual hatred that began years ago and only grew. bobby never wanted to be a father, not for one second. he watches as dj begins to peel away from them, eyes locking on like a shark. bobby remains grinning, and politely nods his head in farewell. âare you joining him?â he asks, flicking eyes back to dusty and danny. itâs a secret order. go on get, out of my sight. disappear. something bobby did frequently when they were children. âdonât let me stop you.â
Any emotion except for anger was disallowed in their trailer while growing up. Dusty saw how pure rage was the only way to let out feelings, and it was about to happen now. He hit away Dannyâs hand, not addressing his brotherâs attempt at mediating. âGet off.â he scolded, looking directly at Bobby. âYouâve made the biggest mistake of your life, old man.â he finally said, after listening to their uncaring father hit back with measly sarcasm. At first Dusty refused to move as his brothers began to walk away, and he remained there standing in place in the stare down with their father. âWhatever it is youâve come back for, you should leave as soon as you get it.â Dusty warned him, already getting dangerously close to flipping into the anger that he was gifted from the very man he hated. He walked away soon after, following after his brothers.
Once re-grouped, Dusty directed his anger to the easiest culprit. Danny, simply for trying to get him to calm down. âDonât fucking tell me to let shit go again, alright? Always trying to fucking mediate shit like Oprah or Maury. Itâs pathetic, that piece of shit should be dead in a ditch and you know it.â