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I am hurt...so much...but somebody who wasn't even mine to begin with...but I don't love myself enough to just say good bye. I go in & torture myself what I have done wrong over & over again. Over analyzing and overthinking it. Did I say something to push him away? Was I testing him. I did sabotage it, but was it taken so wrongly to back splash at me with blocking? Like how much you hate me to not want to hear from me ever again? And then why delete me, add me back watching my stuff & then go into block. No explanation, no opportunity to resolve. I did like you. A lot. You felt different. Not the one. But still just comfortable to be around & spend time with. How conflicted were you to go back on your decision once? So you think of me? Or are you so disgusted? Did you want to hurt me or you just don't care? Or I was nothing meant nothing & what you said about being real with each other was fake? I still wish you change your mind & come back to me. I gotta let you go, but I need time.
