omg i love your recent new little fic of levi have a nightmare about him losing y/n and becoming clingy... so cute!!
okay but hear me out, what if it was reversed with y/n having a nightmare about losing levi.
pairing: levi x reader
tw/cw: panic attack, angst in y/n's nightmare, comforts from levi <3, alternate version of this
author's note: i have a lot of angst in my inbox, who hurt you guys? are you guys okay?
- i'm still here -
blood. there was nothing but blood and mangled bodies on the floor, you felt trapped. every direction you turn to, there was a familiar face that stared back at you with a dead expression.
walking a bit further, your knees gave in as the bodies of your superiors laid on the floor. erwin and hange were dead. a few feet away from them were the bodies of the cadets of the 104th, all staring back at you with a dead expression.
you let out a gut wrenching scream, pulling at your hair as tears fell down your cheeks uncontrollably.
"y/n!"
your head shot up towards the direction of the voice, the scream. that voice yelling your name was the same voice that gave you comfort. that you called home.
levi.
with blades drawn, you got up and ran to the direction of his voice. your body trembling in fear, you already lost everyone else. you can't lose levi too.
"levi!" you yelled as his pained screams were all you heard. it made you panic even more, hearing him scream in pain but not being able to do anything but listen.
you ran even more, tears blurring your vision as you saw a titan and you felt your heart drop to your stomach. levi was on the floor, in a pool of his own blood as you angrily slashed the titan before running towards your beloved.
"levi? levi, can you hear me?" you asked, hands shaking as you laid his head on your lap and put pressure on the gaping wound on his neck - desperately trying to stop the bleeding but it was no use.
"y/n" levi choked out weakly as he reached up and cupped your cheeks. you held his hand tightly, afraid that he'll slip away if you let him go.
"please don't leave me, you're the only one i have left. please, levi. i don't want to be alone again" you pleaded, sobs racking your body. your mind was too hazy to function, unable to think of anything else but the blood, levi's blood, on your hands.
"i'm sorry" levi said, barely above whisper as his hand went limp and his eyes closed. your entire world stopped, shaking your head in attempt to wake yourself up from this living nightmare.
"levi! levi, no. please, no. don't leave me too"
"please! please come back!"
"levi please! i love you!"
you shot up in bed, breathing heavily as tears fell down your cheeks. you curled up into a ball and tried to even out your breathing but it only made it worse.
you pulled down at your collar, desperately trying to get some air as a panic attack started. your breathing was shallow, dangerously shallow as tears streamed down your cheeks.
the door to your bedroom was opened as hange rushed in. she rushed to your side, holding onto your arms in attempt to get your focus towards her.
"are you okay? what happened?" hange asked as you looked up at her despite the tears blurring your vision.
"l-levi" you sobbed as she nodded, immediately understanding and quickly left the room. you could hear her hurried footsteps running to the other end of the hallway.
you sat there, your panic attack getting worse with each second that passed as you felt like you would pass out at any given moment. the door was suddenly opened again but this time, it was levi.
you immediately reached out for him as he pulled you in his arms. you closed your eyes and pulled him closer to you, needing to feel his body pressed up against yours.
"shh, deep breaths. deep breaths, y/n. come on" levi instructed as he took deep breaths with you and you followed, you were still trembling in his arms as he tightened his grip on you.
"one more" levi said as you both exhaled deeply before letting it out, your body slowly stopped shaking but tears still fell down your cheeks.
"there you go. there you go, y/n" levi said, kissing your forehead as you pulled away from him a bit to look at him.
"y-you're actually h-here?" you asked, reality still not setting in as levi nodded, cupping your cheeks and gently caressing it with his thumbs.
"i'm here, y/n. you're safe" levi assured as you gently put your hand on the side of his neck, where the wound was in your nightmare, and gently caressed the soft skin with your thumb.
you nuzzled your face into his neck as he ran his hand through your hair and down your back, repeating the same gesture to further calm you down.
"don't you have paperworks to finish?" you asked after you managed to calm down after a few minutes.
"tch. you just had a panic attack, you're more important than those paperworks. erwin can wait for those tomorrow" levi said as you smiled softly and kissed his neck in reply.
"what caused your panic attack anyway? you haven't had one in a while" levi asked in a softer tone, silently telling you that you didn't have to answer if you didn't want to as you stayed silent for a few seconds.
"i-i had a nightmare" you started as levi's grip on you tightened as he himself knew how bad nightmares can get.
"do you want to talk about it or do you just want me to continue holding you?" levi asked as you nodded your head before sighing, you untangled yourself from him a bit to look at him properly.
"we were on an expedition and it all somehow went wrong, everyone was on the floor. d-dead. hange, erwin, the cadets of the 104th. i-i lost it upon seeing them but then i heard- i heard y-you. i was so scared and w-when i found you, i was t-too late. i couldn't- i couldn't s-save you" you choked, levi cupped your cheeks and wiped away the tears that managed to slip down your face.
"it was just an nightmare, none of it was real. hange's here, erwin's here, the brats from the 104th are here, and i'm still here, with you" levi said as you smiled, leaning into his touch.
you slowly leaned in and kissed levi on the lips as he immediately returned it.
"i love you" you whispered, pulling away from the kiss as the both of you panted softly from the lack of oxygen.
"i-i love you too" levi stammered, a pink shade tinting his cheeks as he still gets shy from saying those words despite dating for a few years and you chuckled.
"shut up" levi grumbled, rolling his eyes but gave you one of his rare smiles - the smile that only you have the privilege to see often.
"do you want to go to sleep? it's late" levi asked as you nodded. "can i sleep in your room? i don't want to be left alone"
"tch, brat. come on" levi said as he stood up from your bed but you didn't move from your spot. he raised an eyebrow at you as you grinned and made grabby hands at him, indicating that you wanted to be carried to his room.
levi rolled his eyes at you but scooped you up in his arms without hesitation, kissing your nose as he brought you down to his office on the other end of the hallway.
he gently set you down on his bed as you immediately curled up underneath his covers, inhaling the faint scent of cleaning supplies and black tea that came from his bed as well as the faintest scent of your perfume.
"tch. move" levi said, pushing you gently to your side of his bed before getting in beside you as you giggled.
levi pulled you to his chest as you laid on top of him, his arms wrapped securely around you as you buried your face his chest. the soft thumping of his heart putting you at ease, an indication that he was still here, with you.
"goodnight, brat. i love you" levi whispered, kissing the top of your head as a small tired smile pulled at the corner of your lips.
your breaths came out in dangerously shallow breaths, your lungs never seemingly getting the oxygen it needed. you were having a panic attack and your mind was starting to focus on your attack and nothing else.
you sunk to the floor with a loud thud, desperately trying to hold your trembling body together. the door was suddenly opened and hange peeked her head through the gap, concern and worry washing over her upon seeing you on the floor.
"i heard a thud, are you okay- shit, y/n. do you want me to get levi?" hange asked, kneeling in front of you and holding your arms to get your attention as much as possible. you looked up at her with tears in your eyes, words seemed foreign to you so you could only nod at her.
hange nodded, hastily running out of your bedroom and sprinting to the office at the other end of the hallway. you closed your eyes, trying to get your breathing steady but even that was too hard to do.
the door opened for the second time, your eyes opened and you looked at the door despite the tears obstructing your view. your hands reached out desperately when you recognized the person that came in.
"l-levi" you whimpered, reaching out for him. levi was beside you faster than you could blink, pulling you into his arms tightly. he set your curled frame on his lap, gently rocking you back and forth.
"shh, shh. you're okay, you're safe" levi said, running his hand through your hair as you fisted his uniform in your hand tightly and buried your face in the crook of his neck.
"you need to breathe, can you do that for me? inhale and exhale, come on" levi softly commanded, pulling away from you and you looked at him. you tried to match his breathing but it was still too hard.
"i-i-i c-can't, l-levi" you choked, finding yourself spiraling further into your attack. levi shook his head at you, cupping your face in his hands gently.
"yes, you can. look at me, inhale and exhale" levi said, you kept your eyes trained on him and tried to match his breathing again. he carefully caressed your cheekbones and continued to take slow and steady breaths with you.
"there you go. a few more times, inhale and exhale" levi said, nodding at you encouragingly. you took a few more breaths until you've calmed down enough to talk coherently.
"i'm sorry, i don't know what caused my attack" you said, looking down to avoid his gaze. levi put a finger underneath your chin, carefully lifting your head to meet his gaze again.
"hey, none of that. we've talked about this, you don't need to apologize for things you can't control" levi said, tone stern but gentle. you nodded and he kissed your forehead, tucking your face into his chest again.
you sat there for what felt like hours, taking comfort from levi's arms around you and letting his presence ground you. your eyes started closing, feeling the emotionally draining effects of having a panic attack settling in.
levi noticed that you were starting to get tired, pulling away from you a bit to look at you. he gingerly brushed away the hair from your face and you looked up at him tiredly.
"do you want to sleep in my room tonight?" levi asked and you nodded, he mumbled a small 'okay' and lifted you in his arms with ease. you nuzzled into his chest again, letting your eyes close.
levi brought you to his office down the hall and to his bedroom, setting you on his bed. you curled up on his sheets, taking comfort from the faint smell of black tea on the blankets.
"do you want to change into comfier clothes?" levi asked, showing you your clothes that you left in his closet. you nodded, sitting up on his bed and started unbuckling the remaining straps that you had on.
levi looked at you, slowly reaching his hand out to help you with the belts and giving you the option to stop him. you nodded at the silent consent he was asking for.
respectfully and carefully, levi took off every belt and helped you get dressed into comfier clothes. afterwards, he also got changed into comfy clothes and got under the covers with you.
you nestled close, resting your head on his chest and listened to the soft thumps of his heart underneath - steady and calm. levi wrapped his arms around you, pulling you closer and cradled the back of your head gently.
"thank you, levi" you whispered and closed your eyes. levi kissed the top of your head, letting it linger for a bit. he held you until your body went limp in his arms, your breathing calm and even.
you slipped into a state of unconsciousness, safe and protected in levi's arms.
Hii, I have a request idea for Captain Levi X femreader in the canon universe. How about one where he's his usual cold self and has never taken notice of the reader because she's on a separate squad but one night at like 3am, he finds her having an anxiety attack in the mess hall and decides to help her out? Hope that's okay, thanks :)
Yay! You're back again!! This idea is perfect! So sorry for the wait, the last two weeks of school has been kicking me in the tail feathers 😑.
I've done this one as platonic so it ends with Levi and Y/n becoming friends, if you want it changed, you know the drill 😉.
Thanks for your request and I hope you enjoy!!!
Levi Ackerman x Reader: Nightly Comforts
Trigger Warning: Panic attacks. Please keep this in mind while you read.
It was three in the morning and as far as Levi knows, no one is ever up at this time, willingly. Most of the time, nightmares are held responsible. But the Scouts aren't babies, they can deal with them alone, their squad or with their friends. Nightmares are considered normal after the constant trauma everyone goes through and Levi was no exception. He's just better at keeping things concealed.
Three in the morning was the normal wake up time for him. His insomnia gave him a very strict time period for when he could fall asleep. Anywhere between midnight and five in the morning. However his nightmares also had their own rules too which is why he's now on his way to the Messhall to make tea so he can replace his exhaustion with caffeine.
Little did he know that you were curled up in the far corner by the kitchen entrance, struggling to get air into your lungs. There was little light at this time and most people wouldn't have noticed your form there. You did well to keep your noises muffled in the sleeve of your night shirt and keep your breathing as steady as you could but it wasn't perfect.
This came out of nowhere and it pissed you off. What started as an inability to fall back asleep, turned into a walk to the Messhall. Something that's considered routine for you but something changed this time. There was unsettling feeling that started creeping up inside of you and with every step you took, it grew until your chest constricted and your heartbeat was thundering in your ears. The hallway was suddenly deemed as a threat by your mind and your room was too far back so the best option was to hide in the Messhall. Your body turned on autopilot to get you further into the empty dark room. The only light came from the windows in the kitchen, which is why you were curled up close by. That's where the autopilot was turned off and you collapsed into unexplainable sobs.
Levi saw you and his journey for tea was quickly forgotten. He's never been with you face-to-face since you both worked on different squads but he's heard of you. You were all Erwin had talked about the last few weeks. You were the one who had helped on the front lines during the Battle of Trost. Clearing the way so that Eren could seal the hole in the wall. He knows that you've been with the Scouts for a while but with hardly any squad interactions, there never really a need to get to know each other. He knows your name and you know his. That's all you've learned and that's all you both ever needed until now.
"Scout?" He called out, his tone staying the same bored one he used with everyone else. You gasped, his voice breaking you out of the mental spiral you were trapped in. You knew his voice, hell, everyone did and normally it hardly made you bat an eye. This time, however, it caused more of a stress. Instinctively, you curled into a ball and held yourself tightly and Levi recoiled a little. You weren't scared of him, were you? He wasn't the best with comforting people and seeing you try more to get away from him, didn't help the situation. He knew that breathing was becoming more and more difficult so he had to get you to focus on something or you were going to pass out on him.
"Scout, I need you to look at me" Levi urged, kneeling down in front of you. From your huddle, you saw his knees and his hand that hovered hesitantly above your foot. He wasn't going to cross any boundaries if he could avoid it but he would if it would get you to snap out of your panic.
"There you go" his voice softened as you raised your head and rested it on your arms. Your eyes were big and flickered across his face. His face softened slightly but his eyes flashed with relief.
"Breathe with me" he leans back a little more so that you are able to see most of his torso. Taking deep breaths and exaggerating the motion with his hands too so that it was clear how you were suppose to follow. He felt ridiculous doing these actions but he pushed that aside for now.
You tried your best to follow and it worked for a little. Your breaths became longer and started to form a proper rhythm. You untucked yourself from your ball and looked back to the floor as your face heated up in embarrassment. Levi stopped doing the action and sat on his knees waiting for you to explain yourself.
"I'm sorry sir...I know I'm not suppose to be out at this time but I couldn't sleep. So I thought I would take a walk and I-" the feeling came back before you could finish your sentance and the panic came back at full force.
"Hey, hey, you're ok. Breathe with me again" Levi said again, leaning in slightly. He thought you had calmed down so this sudden relapse also caught him off guard. He repeated the same actions as before to help you steady your breathing.
More tears gathered in your eyes as you calmed down, completely this time. This was ridiculous. You couldn't even get a sentence out before panic over took you again. Not only that but it had to be in the presence of Captain Levi.
"Are you alright now? Or at least better than eariler?" He asked, snapping you out of your internal spiral. You nodded, not wanting to risk another panic.
"Good. Then get on your feet and follow me" he stood up, not waiting for your response or any confirmation and headed into the kitchen. You slowly got up and followed, seeing him waiting for the kettle on the stove to boil. There were two cups to his left and a few more candles were lit to help light up the areas where the windows didn't reach. He didn't turn to acknowledge you until after he stopped the kettle from screaming and poured the steaming contents into the two cups.
"Since Erwin's always talking so highly of you, I have no reason to suspect that your nightly walks to the kitchen is something I should question. But seeing that this time, something caused you to have a panic, care to clarify what that was about?" He passed you your cup then waited for your reply. Based on his tone, it was clear you didn't have to speak up.
"I don't know sir.." you mumbled, savoring the feeling of the warm cup in your hand before trying a sip. You keep your eyes averted, guilt still eating away at you.
"And you don't have to. This happens to the best of us from time to time" Levi responds, also not looking at you. You weren't able to tell but he felt awkward being the one to comfort you. His people-skills were lacking and he could tell from your body language that you were on edge around him too. So he wanted to try and at least become more acquainted with you.
"I'm glad I was able to help calm you down. This isn't something I do often" he admits which makes you raise an eyebrow. You look at him, waiting for him to continue.
"I've seen soldiers all the time, having panic attacks but normally they have someone with them...I didn't want you to go through it alone" he looked up at you once he was done and the small smile on your face shocked him.
"Thank you sir...that means a lot" and you meant that. There was some nights where you did have panic attacks alone. With his reassurance as well, it helped get rid of the guilt/embarrassed feeling you had about him seeing you like this.
"If you can't sleep or if these panic attacks come back, my office is always almost open. You're a good soldier, one I wouldn't mind getting to know better too. So if theres anything you need, come find me please Y/n" Levi adds before finishing his tea and getting up to clean up.
"Of course, thank you Captain" your smile grows more.
"Just Levi when we're alone" he glances over his shoulder at you.
"Alright 'Just Levi'" you giggle slightly and he rolls his eyes.
"Watch it brat, or I'll take it back" he lies and you can see straight through it.
"Joking, joking. Good night Levi" you bid farewell and he does the same.
Okay but his panicked little gasp as MC falls? Another instance of how MC almost/actually getting hurt is the only thing that is capable of cracking Sylus' composure :( his third myth – where going by the trend, MC will probably die – is going to hurt
Now that I think about it... there's been a couple of instances recently of MC falling or tripping, and of Sylus catching/grabbing her to ensure he doesn't lose her... hmmm... is that future myth angst foreshadowing I smell? In a few months we will all be in Spain without the S my fellow girlies :')
On a lighter note, the fact that Sylus can pull MC up with just one arm is 🫦
You lifted yourself up on your forearms looking around. Vision distorted, discombobulated body and all. You couldn’t even see your poor lover dead asleep beside you because he’s buried in the pillows and sheets.
“Zayne?” You called looking around the room and not seeing him. You lift yourself higher.
“ZAYNE!” You called louder making him rise from the pile with messy hair and an extremely tired look.
“Why are you yelling?” He blinked slowly as he turned to you. You sighed falling into his tired body.
“I couldn’t find you.” You mumbled tiredly as you fit into the gap between him and the mattress. He ends up practically laying on top of you.
“I’m always nearby, my love.” He mumbled sleepily as you both dozed off once more.
Poor you getting dragged into having a midday nap with Sylus. You were dragged to the bed when you came home from running errands. Something about it’s his bedtime and that you needed rest from being away from him for so long.
When you woke up the room felt stuffy and your skin was clammy. Guess who wasn’t clammy though? Your behemoth of a boyfriend. He was sound asleep and the sun was setting. How long were you both sleep?
“Why are you looking around like a lost kitten?” He questioned, his eyes still closed as you turn to look at him.
“How long have we been sleeping?” You asked looking at the window blocked by curtains as the sunset leaks through.
“It was a midday nap we’ve hardly been asleep.” He reassured you. He pulls you down and basically purrs as he drifts back to sleep.
What are you going to do with a sleep schedule like this?
Xavier always snuck a nap into his schedule. Getting you to take one was the issue. Especially since he held you hostage during said nap. You thought you’d never escape his grasp again.
Today was different! It was a long day and Xavier knew he could get you to nap with him. After a solid nap you had to go to the bathroom. Sadly for you your boyfriend wakes up whenever you’re not near. When you left the bathroom, drying your hands with a random hand towel, there he was sitting up straight like a meerkat.
“Hello…” You trailed off suspiciously. His head snapped to where you stood before relaxing.
“You left me.” He pouted tiredly. His hair strewn every which way.
“I had to pee you big baby.” You crawl into bed and snuggle him to which puts him back to sleep.
Rafayel holds you for dear life during a nap because he gets nightmares due to the lack of sleep he gets. You felt like an octopus was trying to pop you like confetti. It would wake you up and you’d have to detach yourself from him. The huffing and puffing and the amount sweating it took to pry him off was ridiculous.
“Finally.” You huffed falling on your back tiredly. You sighed before dozing off.
When you woke up again? You’re held tighter than before and now he’s laying on your chest.
“Rafayel, have mercy.” You plead making him groan in his sleep.
“Don’t push me away.” He grumbled tiredly making you sigh deeply as you caressed his scalp.
Caleb runs like a furnace everyday of the year. You hate taking a nap with him sometimes because on top of that he’s a cuddler. It’s ridiculous. When you know he’s getting sleepy you go busy yourself. You love Caleb don’t doubt that it’s just the excess body heat.
How could you resist those puppy eyes when he asks you though? You’re caught in his trap and he holds you nice and tight against him. He snores a bit but it’s white noise to you at this point when you wake up you’re fanning yourself rapidly.
“So…hot.” You said exasperated. Caleb’s grogginess doesn’t stop him from handing you some water.
You take three big gulps and then you’re pulled down by him into the pile of fluffy blankets and pillows.
“Finally.” He sighed in relaxation as if you were drinking for far too long.
