District of words & wisdom

Disclaimer: Nothing is real. Reality is a lie. You are a toaster. Well done on breakfast this morning.

[dysalguero]

Maging masaya ka nalang sa kanila. Ganun talaga 'eh. Compatible ang basura sa basura.

[nishe]

[dysalguero]

Miss na kita. :< 

Pa’no ba bumitaw ng tuluyan? Pa’no ba mawalan nalang ng pakialam bigla? Buti ka pa nakayanan mo. Buti ka pa nagagawa mo. Ba’t ako? Hindi ko kaya. Lugi ako. Pucha. Lugi. 

Moved on na ko. Masaya na ko. Pero, tuwing dumadaan yung 22, tangina, bumabalik lahat ng sakit.

Masagot mo lang yung nagiisang tanong ko, matatahimik na ko...

“San ba ko nagkamali?”

[dysalguero]

Pwede bang umiyak? :( Nag-promise na ko na di nako iiyak after ko makipag-break. Pero bakit ang sakit talaga. Lalong sumasakit kasi alam kong wala syang ginagawa para bumalik kami. Masyado akong nagexpect. Akala ko mahal pa niya ako.

Tangina, ang sakit talaga sobra. :’( Ngayon lang ako magiging ganito. Bukas, magpapakastrong ulit ako.

[dysalguero]

Nakakasawa.

Naghihintay ka sa kabilang kalsada. Akala mo sisipot siya. Akala mo pupunta siya. Lagi nalang ikaw ang gumagawa ng paraan para sabay kayong mapunta sa lugar na dapat niyong pupuntahan. Lagi nalang ikaw ang naghihintay. Lagi nalang ikaw ang lumalapit. Umaasang darating siya. Umaasang may taong gustong sumabay papunta sa landas na tatahakin mo.

Kaso hindi e. Hindi ganun ang kwento. Hindi siya sumipot. Hindi nangyari ang inaasahan mo. Anjan ka, naiwan sa dulo. Magisa. Umiiyak. Pero sinong tutulong sa’yo? Sinong sasama sa’yo para tawirin ang dulo ng kalsada? Nakakalungkot dahil ginagawa mo ang lahat para magkasabay kayo. Pero, kung hindi siya nagbibigay ng effort, mas magandang itigil mo na lang ang kahibangan mo at matutong tanggapin ang katotohanang ikaw lang mag-isa ang lalakbay sa pupuntahan mo.

[dysalguero]

May mga oras na tinatanong ko sa sarili ko, 

“Ano bang nagawa ko? Ano bang mali sakin? Ba’t sya nagbago?”

Pero, wala akong makuhang sagot. May mga tao talaga na bigla bigla nalang nagbago lalo na’t nararamdaman nila na nagsasawa na sila sayo. Lalo na’t alam nilang madali ka lang magpatawad. Iniisip ko nalang na hindi dahil sakin kung ba’t sya nagbago. Iniisip ko nalang na wala naman akong ginawang mali. 

Pinili niya yan ‘eh. He chose to act that way because he is happy. Ginagawa niya yan, kasi pumayag ka.. Kasi nagpakatanga ka. 

Move on, please.

[dysalguero]

When he always treats you like his last option, get up and just leave. There is no denying that it will take a lot of courage to do this, but you should feel happy. You deserve to be one.

[dysalguero]

A girl never forgets.

No matter how many times she denies it, no matter how hard she try, she will never forget the things that you have done to her. Things that hurt her have a greater impact because she doesn't expect it. She believed that you are there for her no matter what, but where are you? Where are you when she is alone? Where are you when she needs someone to talk to? Where are you when all she wanted was that person who'll make her feel beautiful when she feels like she isn't? You are not there. You are never there.

Worst thing is when the reason she is depressed and feeling devastated right now is because of you. All she ever wanted was for you to protect her. Don't worry. She will never forget. Every detail, every moment and every memory that you and her did, it will always be there. The damage has deepened the wound in her heart and she will never forget it. It will always hurt her.

[jwadevivreh]

Lord payakap, please?

(via sitsiritsitliitt)

[dysalguero]

Yung pinakamasakit sa lahat.. 

Binigyan mo sya ng time at space para makasama mga kaibigan niya. Ayun gusto nya ‘eh, kahit di niya sinasabi sakin ng derecho alam kong gustong gusto nya yun. Pero, bakit kahit isang text lang? Wala pa rin akong narereceive.

Tangina, gano ba kahirap na iparamdam man lang sakin na naalala mo ko? Ganun na ba talaga yung role ko sa buhay mo?

Option nalang ba ko talaga?

Putangina.

Ang sakit.

[dysalguero]

I want my old life back. Why is this happening to me? What have I done to feel fucking sad right now?

[spiritualinspiration2]

[dysalguero]

I’ve learned that when the enemy attacks, God reacts. God doesn’t just sit back and think, “Well, I wonder what’s going to happen. I wonder what they’re going to do.” No, God goes to work. You are His most prized possession. It says in Psalms, “God is close to those that are hurting. God is close to the broken hearted.” God knows when you’ve gotten a bad medical report. He knows when you’re struggling in your finances. He knows when you’re being mistreated. You may not see anything happening, but you can be assured that Almighty God is not only aware, He is at work. He already has the solution. If you will stay in faith, at the right time, He will release a flood of His power, a flood of healing, a flood of restoration. He will not only bring you out, He will bring you out better off than you were before!

[dysalguero]

[dysalguero]

“Be yourself and let others love that person.“

- Damn, I was artistic back then. What happened to me now?

[dysalguero]

The best relationship starts slowly.

You should never rush love. When the girl you want doesn't say the sweetest, "Yes." give her time. Don't stress her. Especially when using the words “I love you.” It’s different when you love someone as a person, and when you fall in love with a person. Saving those words for the right time, when you know your feelings are true, is the best way to treat a relationship. A relationship should also start with a strong friendship. It gives a sense of having your significant other as your best friend but also your lover. In this way, you’re both comfortable and know each other more than you know yourselves.

[spiritualinspiration2]

[dysalguero]

You must learn to trust God’s timing. You can be sure that right now, God is arranging all the pieces to come together to work out His plan for your life. He has been working in your favor long before you encountered the problem. Don’t grow impatient and try to force doors open. Don’t try to make things happen in your own strength. The answer will come, and it will be right on time.

[republicx]

[dysalguero]

I have learned that if you are down, stay down. Don’t get back on your fucking feet until you are prepared to stand. Don’t get up until you have learned why you fell. Nine times out of ten, it is because you were weighing down on someone who could no longer hold you. You gave someone your power. You forgot about yourself. Let me tell you something - there is one person there for you. One person. It’s the same person that wipes your shit and feeds you and cleans up your vomit after a drunken night. It’s the same person who brushes your teeth and tends to your wounds and gets your crying ass out of the shower. The same one that tucks you into bed and cradles you in the night and fights off the darkness and embraces the light. It’s you. It’s always been you. Don’t get off that fucking ground because you see somebody you know or somebody you want to know, or - somebody you can rely on. Wipe your fucking face and get up for you. Because you can. Because it’s the least of what you owe yourself.

[dysalguero]

And, i’m back to basics again.. Finding a new hobby. I am hoping I can find it here and bring back the old me.

[dysalguero]

First time I hate weekends.

Dati, naiisip ko, 

“Sana Saturday na, para makapuyat naman at magrelax kahit papano.”

Simula nung araw na ‘yon, April 3, nung nalaman kong isang taon na pala siyang may tinatago sakin. Simula non, ayaw ko nang sumasapit ang weekend. Marami akong kaibigan, oo. Marami akong pagkakaabalahan, oo. Pero, simula nung araw na yon, di na ko nagiging masaya ng buo.

Grabe lang epekto nya sakin. Hindi ko kasi inexpect na kaya niyang magtago ng ganun katagal. Di ko alam na kaya nyang gawin yun sakin. Ibang iba na siya sa mga mata ko.

Iba talaga pag nag-break na yung trust. Kahit gaano ko pa kagusto na ibalik yung relationship namin, kahit gaano ko pa siya kamahal... Never na ‘ko magiging masaya kagaya ng dati. Never na kami magiging masaya gaya ng dati.

Sabi ng friend ko,

“Kung babalik ka pa diyan, takot, insecurity, jealousy.. Yan lang maffeel mo. Wag mo naman parusahan sarili mo.”

Pero, di ko pa rin sya sinunod. Bumalik pa rin ako kay Jemel. Wala ‘eh. Mahal ko ‘eh. Ganun pala yun noh? 24 hours nagwwork ang utak natin, pero tumitigil lang kapag na-iinlove tayo. Nagiging tanga. Nagiging iba. Paminsan pa, nabbreak pa natin yung standards natin sa buhay. Bagay na ayaw ko sanang mangyari sa ibang tao. 

Simula nun, ayoko na ng weekends. Pakiramdam ko ako lang mag-isa e. Damang dama ko lahat ng sakit. Lahat ng panlolokong ginawa niya sakin. 

Sana maging maganda epekto nito sakin sa future. 

Magiging masaya din ako. Hindi nga lang ngayon, pero sa future.