NOTES â idk what happened to me all i know is i blacked out and then this was made. enjoy i guess
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Despite the pure monotonous routine youâd gotten used to during your two months in Alexandria, you couldnât say that it wasnât sometimes extremely boring. Your only saving grace was the mealtimes you had with Aaron and Eric at the end of the day. At least they had the sense and experience outside the walls to be able to carry out a conversation that wasnât about what food you were eating or how the weather was.Â
It was why you hated when they went out on recruitment runs. As their roommate, you felt awkward being in the home by yourself when they left the walls; as though you were intruding. You felt that way in a lot of aspects. An intruder on a perfect life that these people had grown used to in the wake of the apocalypse. A life where their only worry was whether or not Aiden and Nicholas would find the right ingredients for the food theyâd planned on cooking during their supply runs.Â
But there was nothing to be done aside from making a meal for one, eating alone with only a soft classical music CD to fill the silence, and to wait for the couple to come back home so you would have normal people to talk to.Â
You were glad for them and the runs they went on, though. Or they never wouldâve found you, and youâd likely be dead in a ditch by now.Â
Your hand shook as you gripped the handle of your blade, wide eyes searching the pharmacy for any signs of walkers, or people. Being on the road alone for as long as you had been was making you feel like youâd gone crazy. Maybe you had already.Â
Sweeping the small aisles, you found no signs of life. Most of the shelves were already empty, likely having been raided during the early days. Still, you grabbed whatever was available to you, shoving it into your bag before ducking into a corner, knees pressed to your chest as you rooted around for one of the final few cans of food you had left.Â
Youâd been rationing out what used to be a plentiful supply for a few weeks now. One can of food per day, nothing more. A lot of what you had was thanks to the traffic blockages on the highways and interstates youâd wandered along on your way out of Georgia. What used to be two cans a day for almost three weeks turned into one for the past week and a half, bordering on two.Â
The lack of food wasnât your only issue anymore. With no signs of life from your former group, you had every reason to believe that they were all dead. Logically, you knew they werenât. Youâd seen some of them escape in the firefight, yourself included. But without any real way of tracking them down, they were as good as dead. Not to mention the sudden and constant fatigue that the southern sun seemed to give to you, making traveling more difficult than you had originally planned.Â
Even with no end in sight, no real indicator that the man you called your husband was still alive, and no true hope for your future, you still persisted. You found places to sleep for the night, whether in abandoned cars or gas stations off of turnpikes. You found just enough food to supply you for a few more days if you managed to stretch it thin enough, and you kept going.Â
Just as you were about to crack open a can of corn, the crunching of glass and shuffling of footsteps alerted you to the body that had just entered the pharmacy. Its footfalls sounded too heavy and spaced out to be anything but a human.Â
Gripping onto your knife, you held your breath and gently placed the can on the floor. With your bag still on your shoulders, you kept your body crouched and your ears peeled, moving around the person â no, people â moving around the pharmacy.Â
âIâm telling you, weâve already been here. Thereâs nothing left to take,â a voice reasoned.Â
The footsteps ceased for a moment, and you paused, praying they hadnât heard you. âI know. Doesnât hurt to check, though, right? I mean, we canât exactly go back empty handed. Aidenâll have something to say about it.â
âBut we arenât out here for supplies,â the other stressed, âweâre out here for people, remember? New members?â
âI know,â their partner chuckled, footsteps resuming as they rounded the last aisle. You ducked between the shelves closest to the door, hoping to just outrun them and not have to fight them. There was a pause, a palpable beat, before he spoke again. âBut I think we might not be coming back alone.â
A cold chill ran through your veins at the formerâs words. He knew you were in here. Heâd seen your can of food, or heard your shuffling around the pharmacy. In an instant, you were at your full height, eyes wide as your fingers clutched your knife tighter and you ran, against your better judgment, toward the pair. The blond was the one closest to you, his back facing your front. With as much energy as you could muster, you hooked your arm over his shoulder, dragging him to your chest as you pressed your knife to his throat. It wasnât hard enough to do any real damage, but you knew that if you absolutely had to, youâd apply pressure.Â
âWho are you?â You spat, hand shaking as it gripped the knife. âWhat do you want?â
âWoah, woah, calm down. Itâs okay. Weâre not here to hurt you.â The brunet immediately jumped into negotiation mode, putting his hands in front of him. The position reminded you of Rick, oddly enough, and your heart twinged as you adjusted your grip on the knife.Â
âThen what are you here for?â You spat. âLike you said, thereâs nothing worth taking here.â
The faintest of whimpers escaped the lips of the man you held hostage, dragging both yours and the brunetâs attention to him. âWeâre justââ the blond gulped. âWeâre recruiters. We have a camp not too far from here. A safe one. Weâre looking for people to join us. People who haveâ have experience, out here.âÂ
His words, as stuttery and fearful as they were, confused you.Â
âIâm Aaron,â the brunet said, keeping his arms up in surrender as he slowly slid the backpack from his shoulders. âThat man you have is my partner, Eric. Everything heâs saying is right, and I can show you. I have pictures and a brochure in my bag, if youâll let me get it.âÂ
Hesitantly, you nodded. Even if he had a weapon, most of your body was blocked by his partner â Eric. There was a highly likely chance that he wouldnât try to harm you while you kept his friend in your grip, however weak it was becoming.Â
Slowly, Aaron reached into his bag, pulling out exactly what he said he would. With Eric still in your grip, he showed you pictures of the place he and his friend called home â Alexandria. âLook,â Aaron sighed, stepping back a bit. âYou seem like someone we could use. You have experience that we lack. Plus, it seems like youâve been out here by yourself a while. We have walls, food, running water, and proper shelter. And if you decide to come with us, our leader, Deanna, will interview you. If she allows you in and you donât like it, you can leave any time you want. We wonât keep you there if you donât want to be, okay?â
With a shaking nod, you let go of Eric, nudging him toward Aaron, who enveloped the other man in a tight hug. âIâ I can leave if I want to, right?â
âOf course, you can. No one will stop you, and thatâs a promise.âÂ
It took a bit of getting used to, but you were glad that Aaron and Eric had found you that day. Youâd been skeptical of things in Alexandria for the first few days, but you warmed to the entire situation a lot easier than you thought you would. You supposed it was because of how things were at the prison, but even then you werenât alone.
Aaron and Eric, while not pushing the topic often, had managed to get to know enough about you and where you came from before theyâd found you that they considered you a close friend.Â
Youâd only told them the briefest of answers. That you were with a large group in Georgia from the beginning, that youâd been with one of them for most of that time â even, at some point, considering yourselves to be married, though the symbol youâd had to show it had been lost months ago â and then another group came along and took everything away from you, simply because they could.Â
The safety and privacy that the couple provided was something you were more than grateful for, even if you were sure you wouldnât be able to have it forever.Â
Because while Aaron and Eric, along with the rest of Alexandria, provided a structure and a sense of normalcy for you, you couldnât shake the grief that fell upon you every time you were alone.Â
The thought of Daryl being out there, combing every inch of Georgia for you while you were so far away, was enough to bring you to tears. It was another thing to think about the possibility of his rotting corpse roaming the woods in search of something living to eat. The thought that youâd never see him again, dead or alive. That youâd just push through life â however much longer that would be for you â without him, even though he promised youâd never have to go through something like that.Â
The thought of your baby never knowing who their father was, and their father never knowing who they were, either.Â
You could go an entire lifetime without ever seeing Daryl again, and the idea of it nearly killed you when he was still around. It hurt a hundred times worse now that it was practically a reality.Â
The night passed without word from or the arrival of Aaron and Eric. It was common for them to be gone a while at a time â this particular trip lasting almost a week â but you hated sleeping in the house by yourself now. You were so used to waking up to Eric clattering dishes in the kitchen that waking up midday when they were gone only proved how fatigued you seemed to feel nowadays.Â
Waking up to a knock on the door wasnât unusual as of late, but it was certainly unpleasant. You were, however, grateful for the fact that when you were given a room at Aaron and Ericâs, it was on the first floor.Â
Rolling out of bed got harder and harder with each passing week, but you managed it anyway. The knocking persisted, and you sighed as you made your way into the living room, shouting out, âIâm coming!â
The knocking ceased, and you pulled on the fabric of your shirt before answering the door, only to find Jessie. âOh, hey,â
âHi, hon,â she smiled, and you felt bad for being upset at her moments before. âPete sent me over, said you were supposed to see him this morning?âÂ
âOh, shit, Jessie Iâm so sorry,â you said, brushing some stray hair from your face. âI overslept, normally AaronââÂ
Jessie smiled warmly, reaching out and putting a gentle hand on your arm. âI understand, Y/n, no need to worry. Just get dressed and head over to the infirmary. Itâs not like Peteâs in any real rush.âÂ
âAlright,â you nodded, bidding Jessie goodbye and closing the door as she headed down the porch steps.Â
Padding your way through the home, you went back to your room, pulling on some fresh clothes before freshening up in the bathroom. Routines like these were simple, but they kept you sane. Youâd had something a little closer to it at the prison, but it was nowhere near as nice as it was in Alexandria.Â
After eating a small breakfast, you were out of the house and on your way to the infirmary. The streets were quiet, as always, and the sun was anything but forgiving. People smiled and waved, and you did the same, even if you didnât know half of the people in this place. Even after being here for two months, it was hard to remember such trivial things about so many people. Plus, putting names to faces was never one of your strong suits.Â
Stepping into the infirmary, you were grateful for the burst of air conditioning that fell over your body. Smiling, you greeted Denise and Pete, the former of the two sitting on one of the beds as she pored over the book in her lap.Â
âAlright, letâs take a look at you. Sound good?â Pete smiled, and you nodded back.Â
While you hauled yourself onto the bed, Pete readied the ultrasound equipment. Pulling back the loose shirt you wore, your eyes glued themselves to the obvious, albeit still small, bump you were sporting.Â
âHey, Iâm about four months along now, right?â You asked, eyes darting up to Pete, who confirmed with a nod. âThat means you can see the babyâs gender, doesnât it? I remember hearing that somewhere,âÂ
Pete chuckled, powering on the machine and taking the gel from its holster. âMost of the time, yes. If you want me to look around for it, I can do that. After I make sure everythingâs okay.âÂ
âI really wanna know,â you said, wincing at the cold gel making contact with your skin. âItâd mean a lot. Then I can go full nesting mode. And so can Aaron and Eric, really.âÂ
The ultrasound went off without a hitch. According to Pete, your margins were clear, and everything looked healthy with the baby. It was always a relief to hear. There was little room for error with these things now that you had scarcely little supplies to work with. Finding the ultrasound machine early on in the apocalypse was a miracle in itself.Â
âOkayâŚâ Pete hummed, the wand moving and pressing over your skin. âThe kidâs giving me a hard time with this one. AndâŚâ he pressed a few buttons, eyes focused on the screen before him. You watched his features intensely, as though his expression would give the answer away before he could say it. Peteâs eyes broke from the screen as he smiled, lifting the wand. âYouâre having a little girl. Congratulations.âÂ
Your heart swelled, a wide smile overtaking your features as Pete handed you a towel. âA girl,â you whispered, eyes locked onto your belly.Â
Before you were able to stop yourself, you were once more reminded of the likelihood that youâd never be able to share this with Daryl. Tears welled along your waterline as you sat up, swiping the scratchy cloth across your belly. Whether Pete noticed or not, he made no indications. You were thankful for it, and for him leaving the room to put the ultrasound equipment away.Â
When he came back inside, he pulled Denise from her books and into the kitchen to talk, but you paid no mind to them. They were talking too low for you to listen in, anyway, and you were too busy trying to quell your emotions on the makeshift examination table to want to eavesdrop.Â
By the time you were ready to leave, Olivia entered the infirmary, eyes scanning the room before landing on your frame.Â
âY/n, theyâre on their way back,â she smiled, and you nodded gratefully.Â
âTheyâre okay?â
The woman nodded. âEricâs a bit banged up, hurt his leg I think, but otherwise theyâre fine. And they brought a group. They should be getting here soon.âÂ
Exhaling a relieved breath, you slid from the bed, bidding goodbye to Denise and Pete as you followed Olivia onto the street. You walked side by side in silence, mulling over what sheâd said.Â
âYou said they brought a group?â You asked, following Olivia up the steps to the house that held all of your inventory. âHow many?â
Olivia huffed, brows cinching. âDeanna said it was a big one. That they had a lot of weapons, been on the road a while.âÂ
Your eyes widened. âA while as in the entire time, or?â
âNot sure,â Olivia shook her head. âAll I know is I gotta get the weapons cart to the gate, if you wanna help?âÂ
âSure. Should probably be there to get Eric to the infirmary, anyway,â you decided.Â
And, sure enough, Aaron helping a limping, sweating Eric through the gate was the first â and for now, only â glimpses of the new group you would get. Aaron smiled apologetically as he spotted you, tucked out of view from the newcomers.Â
âWhat the hell happened to you?â You said, looking pointedly at Eric, who grimaced as you took his arm from Aaron.Â
âRoamers,â he sighed. âItâs broken, I think.âÂ
âYou think?â You asked, eyeing the bruising flesh. âI can tell itâs broken. Come on, letâs get you to Pete.âÂ
Aaron thanked you as you wrapped an arm around Ericâs waist, helping him up the road and back into the infirmary.Â
As Pete worked to wrap Ericâs ankle, you couldnât help but ask questions about the trip.Â
âIt was a disaster,â Eric groaned. âThere were roamers everywhere. Plus, this group, theyâre headstrong. Been out there a while.âÂ
âHow many of them are there?â You asked. âOlivia didnât tell me.âÂ
âFifteen,â Eric hissed, squirming as Pete positioned his ankle properly.Â
Your eyes widened, throat going dry. âJesus,â you huffed. âThat many of them and theyâre still going?â
âWith a baby,âÂ
âOh my God,â you gasped. Your mind flashed with images of baby Judith, heart clenching. The fall of the prison meant that you never found out exactly who made it out alive, and you never dared to venture the thought of whether or not she did. âThey must be some lucky sons of bitches.âÂ
Eric laughed. âNot only are they lucky, but theyâre tough. And really close. I think, once you get used to them, youâll like them. They remind me of you when we found you.âÂ
âSo, scrappy, hungry, and tired?âÂ
âYeah, pretty much,â Eric laughed, and you couldnât help but do the same.Â
âIf you need me, Iâm four houses down.â Aaron pointed, Rick and Carl following his line of sight. âIf Iâm not there, Eric or Y/n probably will be.âÂ
Carlâs eyes snapped back to the brunet, a mixture of confusion and skepticism floating within them. âY/n?â
Aaronâs brows furrowed at the boy. âYeah. Sheâs a friend of ours, came here a few months back. Why?â
âWe, uhâŚâ Rick stepped in, a hand scratching at his beard. âWe used to know someone named Y/n. thatâs all.â
âOh,â Aaron nodded, stepping away and heading back home, where you and Eric were sitting at the table, sandwiches in hand as you giggled about something he wasnât aware of.Â
Upon his entrance into the kitchen, you stood excitedly and hugged the man. âGlad youâre back okay,â you said, heading back to your chair. âI heard the group you brought was tough.â
âYeah, they are.â Aaron chuckled, still mulling over the puzzle pieces in his head. âYou said you were with a big group before, right?â
âYeah, why?â
Aaron huffed, glancing at his shoes. âI brought up your name to one of the new members â just a name, nothing else â he said they used to know someone with the same name.âÂ
Your heart stuttered in your chest, limbs freezing as you were bringing the sandwich to your mouth. Clearing your throat, you forced yourself to put the food back down, looking up at Aaron with shining eyes. âThis man, whatâd you say his name was?â
âRick. Rick Grimes.âÂ
If your heart had been fluttering before, it was banging like a drum in your chest now. Your stomach fluttered, your hand coming to rest on the swell of your belly, hoping to quell the anxiousness.Â
âWhere are they?â You asked, and Aaronâs mouth only remained agape. âAaron, where are they?â
âDown the street,â he finally said, voice cracking. âThe house on the curb, the one you said you liked.âÂ
Within moments, your food and friends were abandoned as you practically ran from the home, shooting down the porch steps and down the street. You were thankful that no one was out and about right now, or you were sure theyâd think you looked crazy. You didnât even register a person in your path until youâd already bumped into them.Â
âOh! Y/n, are you alright?â Jessie asked, her hands on your shoulders as her eyes searched your wild ones.Â
ââM fine, Jessie.â You muttered. âIâve gotta go.â
You gave the woman no time to respond before you were wriggling out of her grip and hurrying down the street. Up more steps, you were greeted by the charming yellow door of the home youâd wished you lived in, knuckles rapping frantically and unyielding on the wood.Â
The door finally, after what felt like decades, creaked open. Your heart stopped in your chest as you took in the sight of your husbandâs best friend, clean shaven and hair dripping from a recent shower.Â
Rickâs eyes flooded with tears as they met your own. In seconds, you were pulling him into your arms, grateful that you werenât the only survivor of the Governorâs wrath.Â
You sobbed into his shoulder, gripping tightly to the clean white shirt he wore. âRick,â you croaked, âis heââÂ
âHeâs fine,â Rick whispered, heart breaking when your sobs worsened out of pure relief. âHeâs just fine.âÂ
When you finally found the strength to let go, Rick led you inside. âWe thought you were dead,â
âThere were times I wished I was,â you said, taking a seat at the edge of the couch. âI was by myself for just over a month. Found some train tracks, lost âem, then stuck to interstates, mostly. Got lost in the woods, found a small town, and from there, Aaron and Eric found me. Iâve been here for two months.âÂ
Rick huffed a laugh, disbelief filling the sound. âSounds like you had one hell of a trek.â
âI had a car, for a bit.â You shrugged. âWalkers ruined that part. I crashed it into a tree. Stuck to walking after that.âÂ
âWhen did youâŚâ Rick glanced down at your swelling belly, forcing a laugh from you.Â
Shrugging, you smoothed your hand over your belly. âFour-ish months ago. Didnât find out until I got here. Been terrified ever since, really. Not knowing if Daryl was out there, if Iâd see him again.âÂ
âYouâll see him soon,â Rick assured you. âHeâs talking to Deanna now.â
âAnd the others?â You asked. âBeth? Judith?â
âJudith is just fine,â Rick said, eyes leaving yours as he sighed. âBeth got caught out in Atlanta. A woman in a hospital killed her.â
Your stomach churned at Rickâs words, guilt crushing your lungs and bile rising in your throat. âOh, my God,â you whispered, pressing your fingers to your mouth to try and stop yourself from throwing up.Â
Rick nodded, resting a hand on your knee. He watched you stand, your arm resting over your belly, beginning to pace the floor before him.Â
âI have to⌠I need to go see the others. Daryl.â And without another word, you were leaving Rick behind in an unfamiliar home, nearly running down the familiar path to where Deanna and her husband lived.Â
The group milled about in the small courtyard in front of Deannaâs house, hidden behind the brick walls that fenced it in. Everyone was either sitting or leaning against something, sticking to a tight group, and completely blocking your path to the inside of the home.Â
With your mind so set on seeing Daryl, on simply getting close to him again, you failed to register Carol saying your name. Once again, you were pulled from your thoughts only when someone was right in front of you.Â
This time, Carol was pulling you into her arms, her grip on your body tight. You hugged her back, despite the sweat and grime that covered her. Soon enough, Glenn, Maggie, Michonne, and Sasha had joined her. You were surrounded by your family, all overwhelmed at your presence, but happy nonetheless.Â
When you finally requested to be let go, they obliged, and you finally spotted Judith in the arms of someone you didnât know. Relief flooded you, seeing the baby healthy and happy as she could be.Â
âWhat happened to you?â
âWe thought you were dead!â
âAre you okay?â
âGuys, Iâm fine, I promise.â You chuckled through tears. âIâve been here almost the whole time, and Iâm perfectly healthy. The doctor said so this morning.âÂ
You smiled as Carolâs eyes drifted from your face to your belly, shock overcoming her features, before her smile matched yours. She said nothing, but you were sure everyone else was either figuring it out or partially aware, just based on the interaction alone.Â
A loud scoff echoed from the porch door, followed by low, gravelly muttering. Your heart stopped at the familiar voice, before thrumming in your heart like a rapid drumbeat. There, walking with careless ease, picking at his thumbs, was your husband, covered head to toe in layers of dirt and grime. You choked a sob as the group seemed to part around you.Â
âDaryl,â you croaked, just loud enough for him to hear it.Â
Daryl paused at the top of the steps, his eyes locked onto yours through the hair heâd let grow too long. In a flash, he was down the stairs entirely, rushing to pull you into his arms. You met him in the middle, colliding with his body and bringing you both to the ground. With one hand cupping the back of your head and the other splayed between your shoulder blades, Daryl cradled you close to him, rocking you as you clutched to the leather vest on his back tighter, sobbing in his embrace.Â
âI thought ya were dead,â he whispered, fingers digging into your back. âI thought I lost ya,â
A choked sound escaped you as you shook your head. âNever,â you promised. âYou could never lose me.âÂ
âYer necklace,â Daryl croaked, tucking his face into the side of your head. âI found it, on the tracks in Georgia. Thought ya were goneâŚâÂ
âIt fell.â You said, words hushed and shaking, as though they were a desperate plea. âWalkers were coming for me, too many for me to take on myself. It snapped off in the fight, I couldnât go back for it.âÂ
By the time you felt okay enough to stand on your own, everyone had departed from the courtyard, likely into Deannaâs home. With a vice grip on his arms, Daryl helped you stand. His eyes raked over your face, tear-stricken and flushed with emotion. No matter the state you were in, Daryl could never see you as anything other than utterly beautiful.Â
âYouâre okay?â You asked, hands gently brushing the hair from his dirt-caked face. âYouâre not hurt?âÂ
Daryl shook his head, leaning into your delicate touch. Hands smoothed over cloth, over skin, dedicating the feeling of your body beneath his touch to memory. He watched your eyes flutter closed as he did so, relishing in the slight pressure of his palms against your skin. They slid down your hips, your waist, and Darylâs brow furrowed. Heâd committed your body to memory long ago â every curve, every bump, every scar. Slowly, and with a hand that was less steady than it had been a moment ago, Darylâs fingers drifted delicately over your front, eliciting a small gasp when he found what heâd suspected.Â
The sound forced your eyes to open, meeting the bright blue of his own, widened in shock. Immediately, your stomach churned and you pulled your bottom lip between your teeth, a habit youâd been unable to shake since high school.Â
âDaryl?â Your voice shook.Â
âYerâŚâ he breathed, eyes darting down to where the backs of his fingers rested, the slight swell of your stomach confirming what heâd been about to ask. âWhenâd you⌠did you know?â
âNo, noâŚâ you whispered gently, shaking your head. âI had no clue when⌠I didnât know until I got here. I suspected it on the road, but⌠no, I didnât.âÂ
A shaking breath fell from his lips. âAnd yer okay? Yer bothâ both okay?â
âWeâre just fine,â you smiled, resting your palm on his cheek. âI promise. Your girls are just fine.âÂ
Darylâs breath caught in his throat, a new wave of pure emotion rolling through his body. It seized his muscles, freezing him in place as he struggled for breath and blinked away tears. Girls. He was going to be a dad. He was going to have a daughter.Â
âYa have no idea how much I love ya,â Daryl muttered, his head dipping low, forehead resting on your shoulder.Â
âI think I have a clue or two,â you joked, voice as soft as you could make it.
Daryl scoffed, lifting his head and pressing his lips to yours. It was short, shorter than you wouldâve liked, but it carried as much love as all the other kisses youâd shared and stolen with the archer over the years. Still, he was here, and he was safe, and so were you. Nothing else mattered except that.Â
The horrifying reality youâd thought yourself to be in was nothing but that â a mere thought. For now, you and Daryl were safe. Together. As a family.Â
And you knew that, as he slipped the necklace back onto your skin, this time on a leather rope tied tight, there was nothing either of you wouldnât do to stay that way.Â
I will take a break, my last drawing doesnât seem to have been appreciated, I will redo it because I myself donât like it, I try to work on shadow play but itâs not easy. In the meantime, I leave you with a sketch that I had thrown away but that was not so bad.
I have two projects for Raphael The cambion, one in his human form with a Tav both romantic and betrayal.
The other in his form of the powerful and proud red devil, the devil in all its form like my frist fanart .Now, I have to decide on which one to start ....