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collage of some recent images

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installation images of my video work for What Did They Tell You in Alexandria Sydney, a show about chronic illness and medical misogyny

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recent photos

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a little late night theremin playing, and an illustration experiment...

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Sample of a series of animations I've been working on, using my own images. Everything relates to my chronic pain, to my body being taken over by disease. For years my body has been growing something it should not, a useless new organ that bleeds + eats + destroys, but it also creates, and as much as it takes from me, it also fuels me...

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Images of yet another dropped tail. These feel explicit, well I suppose a discarded tail is always explicit but these photos especially, I feel a little like Vaughan, taking pictures of car crash victims from afar for my own gain, crouching in the tall grass, unseen, unheard, the tail wholly unaffected by my presence, dying, bloodied, having just experienced the ultimate release

The blurring of inside and out, the basis of taboo, to break down the barrier, to expose oneself fully to the world… I’m dropping my tail, or something to that effect…

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stills from a current animation wip

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a little animation experiment using my images + sounds I recorded in Sydney, more to come

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Small selection of images from my 2023 solo show 'pain in birth, trouble with earth'

all images owned by me, please do not replicate

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+ some new images

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more video documentation

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Sanguine Convalescence video documentation

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Sanguine Convalescence photo documentation

video projection, sound, human hair, wood, SCOBY’s (self contained organism of bacteria and yeast), dates, textile

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scoby making!

30/4

scoby came in the mail!

3/5

4/5

6/5

making a new batch to birth another scoby

15/5

good growth! looking creepy. raisin’ scoby babies

+ also 3 new batches, each coloured with different amounts of beet juice, one coloured with food colouring

18/5

only 3 days later and there is already growth! these ones kinda unnerve me

+ also an update on my second batch

23/5

28/5

the start of the drying process

2/6

drying progress

9/6

installing the scoby’s!

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my mouth bow, made from the branch of a rather tall jacaranda tree from my front yard

mouth bows are as ancient as the drum, and have been fount in virtually all communities who used a bow and arrow for hunting. it is strummed up against the players mouth, and the concave of ones mouth amplifies the sound. as one changes the shape of their mouth the sound changes, and as one bends the wooden bow the pitch changes

what I love about this instrument, besides how fun it is to play (+ it really is fun!) is its hidden poetry. Buffy Sainte-Marie talks about how Native North Americans out on the prairies would collect buffalo chips (buffalo shit), and would use it as fuel for their fires. the mouth bow encompasses the exact same concept -- it takes something something used to cause pain and turns it into art, turns it into something that encourages community and connection and creativity

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books and articles I’ve read this semester for research on pain

Endometriosis: ancient disease, ancient treatments, Camran Nezhat, M.D.,a Farr Nezhat, M.D.,b,c and Ceana Nezhat, M.D.a,d a

The Culture of Pain by David B Morris

The Yellow Wallpaper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman

The Use of Force by William Carlos Williams

The Elusive Language of Pleasure and Pain by Richard Selzer

Passions and Tempers - A history of the humours by Noga Arikha

Narrative, Pain and Suffering by Carr, Loeser, Morris

+ some films that have informed by understanding of pain

The Hospital 1971 directed by Arthur Hiller

The Ninth Configuration 1980, written and directed by William Peter Blatty

Antichrist 2009 directed by Lars von Trier

Amour 2012 directed by Michael Haneke

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NARRATIVE IS THE CONVERGENCE BETWEEN ART AND MEDICINE IT EXISTS IN BOTH AND BETWEEN BOTH AND IS OFTEN BOTH WHEN I WRITE IT IS MEDICINE + WHEN MEDICAL PRACTITIONERS WRITE IT IS ART