so what if my mother never hugged me?

Am I stalking you? Probably. // He/him. Eavan. INFP/CSRP. Philophobic. Tired as fckkk.

[borgevino]

rt if you like damaged goods

[eavanderthehottie]

I mean, I'm right here.

[kitchen-light]

“It is so lonely to feel deeply about the world and be met with the complete failure of language to communicate it. Poetry gets us marginally (but importantly!) closer than rhetorical language, like how standing on a roof gets one a few feet closer to grabbing a star than standing in the dirt. It makes the loneliness of being here a little easier to bear.”

— Kaveh Akbar, “Galloping Towards Delight: A Conversation with Kaveh Akbar and Ilya Kaminsky”, published in Magma Issue 83, Solitude, Summer 2022

[rebelion-deactivated20230213]

fuck love. I only want a secret admirer who tells me all their sick thoughts they have about me.

[eavanderthehottie]

yes like send letters, unknown texts, random dms from alt accounts. idrc who you are but damn does it make life more interesting trying to find out.

[rebelion-deactivated20230213]

oh sweetheart, don’t compare a useless loser to me.

[lovegore]

Mutually obsessive / possessive relationship is literally the healthiest relationship I've been in-

Like I've seen so many people (who aren't obsessive / possessive) discourage it and I'm just like why????? I've tried dating other people who weren't like me and it always turned out for the worst????

Anyways normalize mutually obsessive / possessive relationships with healthy boundaries.

Also like why would anyone wanna go back to a relationship that is like 20 / 100 if they don't tell you how much they love you daily and find your gushing cute AND understand your random obsessive / possessive urges is it even love?

[to4stmp3]

partner who never gets upset that you need reassurance when your insecurities get the best of you. partner who listens to your interests and supports you no matter what. partner who makes you laugh and smile even when you're sad. partner who misses you even though you just talked. partner who makes time for you. partner who makes all the love songs and books and movies make sense. partner who respects your identity and pronouns. partner who calls you pretty and smart even when its hard to believe. partner who listens as you ramble about random things that happened to you that day. partner who is so safe and kind and understanding and loving that they're who you immediately want to talk to when you wake up and who you fall asleep thinking about.

[lanaknowsitried0]

Yass <33

[eavanderthehottie]

My inner monologue >>>>>

[liebemich-deactivated20221113]

the urge to stalk your entire account and copy all your interests, so we have more to talk about,

to stalk every single person you interact with, so i know exactly what i have to act like to get you to love me,

to copy your behaviour completely, so ill be just like you, so youll have someone that just ''gets you'' and shares your humour

[eavanderthehottie]

Yes please, I would love that in my life.

[lescarnetsdehaku]

The year is 1957, and you are enjoying summer.

[eavanderthehottie]

We can still do this now. This can still exist.

Anyone wanna run away with me from our responsibilities and instead of sleeping forever, we can open our eyes and see the world beyond what society leaves open for us?

[heavyrain-dc]

“Things will happen in your life that you can’t stop. But that’s no reason to shut out the world.”

— Unknown

[eavanderthehottie]

Unless it is one; like, for instance, when you have to take time away to recharge. Make a new plan. Make peace with a new thing that has come into your life. There is no reason to shut out the world, but there is reason to close the door as long as you know you'll open it back up once again. There's no reason to shut out the world, except for when the only way for you to feel better is when you take time away from this world to go into your own.

[weaiintboyz]

humble enough to know i can be replaced but wise enough to know ain’t nobody else like me

[ruhlare]

humble as ever, but aware of my value

[eavanderthehottie]

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[eavanderthehottie]

Blaming shit on your mental health makes me SO outraged 🥰🥰 like okay, I get it, you're fcked in the head, but we're gonna have a problem when you try to make that MY problem, mkay?

[eavanderthehottie]

Spooning- BUT FOR STOMACH SLEEPERS. Let me just lay on top of you please and wrap my arms around your torso as I press you close to me and rest my face in the crook of your neck beside yours to stay warm with the ac on max.

[consensualdomination]

I’m not a god, silly

I’m your god

So go on

Worship me

[eavanderthehottie]

.

[perfectquote]

“Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth, “You owe me.” Look at what happens with a love like that. It lights the whole sky.”

— Hafiz

[eavanderthehottie]

It's beautiful really, despite all the light and warmth the sun provides, the fact that earth would be an inhabitable planet if it weren't for the sun, the sun has never looked to the earth with pure intent to burn it. It, naturally, doesn't over feed the earth with it's warmth; but, from a distance, it loved it enough to nurture life and light onto what would honestly be just another rock in the sky. From this perspective, the whole thing is beautiful in my eyes.

[classyinnie]

Mature men when it comes to arguments. Who always sets aside their thoughts to hear you out first. Who would calmly ask, “Alright, what’s the source of the matter here?” Not to belittle you, but to ensure he understands your point of view. Men who make sure your point is well-taken before voicing their own – who listen not to reply but with the intention of truly understanding.

—AKAASHI, Kita, Ushijima, Shirabu, Kuroo, DAICHI, Osamu, Sugawara, Iwazumi, SAKUSA

[eavanderthehottie]

KIRISHIMA, Deku, Shinsou, Armin, Levi

[eavanderthehottie]

Hi :3 I'm new to the yandere community (more so looking for a yandere partner/friends) and I just found your blog and you seem cute and easy to talk to so I just figured I would say hi and ask where you've met other yanderes?

Hi! :)) Thank you for the kind words!

I've met yanderes both here and amino, another social media app! Careful though, sometimes they can be quite bad for your mental health haha 😅

Sounds strange from someone coming from within the community, but still! Healthy mutual yandere relationships (or friendships!) do exist and should be the goal! <33

I hope you stay safe and have a good rest of your day/night! Feel free to ask again anytime! X))