Video poetry post for of my old poems. #poems #poetrycommunity #selflove #newpoetry #videopost #growthjourney #healing https://www.instagram.com/p/CVkas-DInTPDFdKoEPYVZ4j6augNz0P3U5_3rc0/?utm_medium=tumblr
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Video poetry post for of my old poems. #poems #poetrycommunity #selflove #newpoetry #videopost #growthjourney #healing https://www.instagram.com/p/CVkas-DInTPDFdKoEPYVZ4j6augNz0P3U5_3rc0/?utm_medium=tumblr
It has been a while since I have written a poem, but I had a lot of growing to do. This one has been on my mind for a little bit. My growth journey continues on... #beingthebestmeicanbe #nextchapter #newpoetry #growthjourney #cuttingoffdeadweight #reflection #lovingmyself #manifestation #spiritaljourney #newme https://www.instagram.com/p/CSIJqhZrAUXm-jbmhDCUee0_s8-HLLYsBTU9zw0/?utm_medium=tumblr
I decided to write this because I have been self-harm free for a year and 8 months. It has been a struggle and battle to get here, but I keep fighting. I wanted to face my fears and start putting more of my work out there and being vulnerable. There are so many goals I'm trying to reach. #poems #emotional #battling #poetrycommunity #selflove #goals #fighter #selfharmfree #yearand8months #poetry https://www.instagram.com/p/CNm6ZVzMNDoRx5onBa5lpJbFl3OaYLr9GV-tso0/?igshid=idp7mrorho6c
I got extremely emotional writing this poem, but it had been circling in my head too long. This depicts how I feel every time I have passed out with my health condition. It is a struggle I have to keep battling when I'm unconscious. #pain #poems #emotional #battling #poetry #releasingemotions #healthconditions #helpingothers #basilarmigraines #livingforme https://www.instagram.com/p/CLIJXy_M2BqattY7bTVA8SYeIxvsSnXbc1ltzk0/?igshid=1ml0i2pg0ok9p
Happy 25th birthday to me!!! This past year has been a hard, eye-opening experience to say the least. I have battled so many things on my own and have started to become stronger for it. Lost people in my life but gained more family. Reached milestones that I didn't think I would ever see after the hell of last year. I have grown as a person and reaching for the future. I don't know what this next chapter holds for me, but the only way to climb from here is up!! #happybirthday #cancerzodiac #cancerseason #25thbirthday #livingmylikelikeitsgolden #nextchapter #milestones #gettingstronger #beingthebestme #allstartswithyou #yellow #eyeopening #family https://www.instagram.com/p/CCj7yfDAGPxy3tOdYmM2kXYsHYQ6M1LBQvlPuE0/?igshid=147x2ldjv4300
With each video that comes out, the more the fight has to continue. This poem has been forming for weeks and finally needs to be heard. Sometimes we just have to speak from the heart! #blacklivesmatter #thefightcontinues #lifteveryvoice #blackkingsandqueens #speakup #leadwithyourheart #poetry #doingwhatisright #lovecancelshate https://www.instagram.com/p/CCWlZZigsgp7aevJZSsz-mUP8lTcqs8E29ULoA0/?igshid=ll1p6yk2nd8c
The anger I feel at all these senseless murders is through the roof. Melenated kings and queens just want a safe space in this world. Black lives shouldn't be seen as less to any other lives. The system is broken and needs to be fixed. Until then the world will continue to get the rage of the unheard. #poetry #melanin #blackkingsandqueens #anger #unheard #justice #blacklivesmatter #blmmovement #struggle #poems #fear #pain #rage #systemisbrokenandcorrupt https://www.instagram.com/p/CAyJBwWgfPE2lT-THssJksea7yMkzjHLVUxK2c0/?igshid=1uurezrv8kioy
Felt creative today after a hard couple of weeks. Lost people close to me and realized that I can't keep taking life for granted. My gifts have to be put out into the world one post at a time! #poetry #positivevibes #creative #usingmygifts #takingcontrol #helpingothers #hardtimes #livingforme #poems #emotions #empowerment https://www.instagram.com/p/CAgImE2gpduybevh1iQ6ndx7YpTS4BdUUzsuKQ0/?igshid=3glm25gk9j6a
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Games
Feeling like no one understands the world I walk in The pain I feel, the deceit I have seen Always on the outside looking for a way to begin But never get a chance because I'm not playing the same game as everyone See I was raised on treat others how you want to be treated While everyone else was raised on use people until you don't need them How do you win in that type of game when you are behind? When does that thinking start to change who you are? I want someone to love me for me, not what I can do for them I want people to lift me up just as much as I do them. Reciprocation is the name of the game I'm after. Is there anyone out there friend, family, or more willing to play me in the game I'm looking for?
Dark Side Of Me
I debated for a long time on whether I wanted to share this, but I know this is part of my healing process. This post will probably be one of the hardest blogs that I will ever share. So, I will go ahead and preface this with a TRIGGER WARNING! This topic is not to be taken lightly and might be hard for a few to read. I have always tried to be a positive person in my everyday life and be a ray of sunshine for other people. From an early age, I noticed that I seemed to take on people’s feelings and understand their perspective. People have come to me for motivation, a shoulder to cry on, or even advice. But I always kept my true issues close to the chest knowing no one wanted to help. Taking on other people’s problems started eating at my emotional stability because it felt like they were transferring their feelings to me. I was then walking around with my feelings and everyone else’s feelings as well with no outlet. My first suicidal thought came to me in junior year of high school. I had been called out of my name by a guy that I liked, sports were getting overwhelming, the pressure to get into college, and still help everyone with their problems. I knew I didn’t want to die but there was a pain I wanted to get rid of. So, I cut my arm for the first time to get rid of pain on the inside. I went through the rest of high school occasionally doing that to release what I needed. Sometimes the pain became an enjoyment. Head to college and my emotions were even worse there. I ended up having a mental breakdown in my sophomore year of college because I was trying to help everyone else but myself. My therapist said that most likely that I was an empath and took on people’s emotions to the point of anxiety, panic attacks, and tantrums. I got better with help with minor slip-ups of cutting. I made a pact with a friend that if felt like cutting or worse to call them and we would talk it out no matter what. My life was going great and on the track that I wanted it. Till it drastically blew up with this medical condition. It at first was no big deal but it slowly took all my independence away. But I stood strong without cutting until I lost everything else in my life as well. I felt so alone and felt like I had hit the level right before rock bottom. My suicidal thoughts came back ten-fold and it wasn’t just slitting my wrists. My thoughts went from overdosing, getting hit by a car, driving into a tree, causing a car accident, carbon monoxide poisoning, etc. I wanted to end my life because what was the point of living when my life had crashed and burned. Then I tried to reach out to that friend I made that pact with and they just blew it off like it was nothing. I am not supposed to be driving, but after they blew me off, I got in my car and drove around plotting where I wanted to end it. I didn’t care anymore because I was tired of being there for everyone, but I was alone in my time of need. I couldn’t find a spot that wasn’t extremely busy, so I went home and was going to do it the traditional way of slitting my wrists in the tub. But my brother talked me out of that thankfully even though I was still in a dark place. Then days after my birthday I went in that darkest place again and cut my wrists good to release the pain. I have even thought my family and a few friends would be better off without me. But I had concluded that I have too much to get done on this earth before I depart. I also couldn’t do that to my family and leave them behind thinking they did something wrong. It has been a long process and I am not done with it by a long-shot. Some days are harder than others, but I take this one day at a time. I have grown so much in this complete tear-down and I know that my comeback is going to be amazing. God has a plan for me. I hope this blog can help start a conversation for someone who may be going through this and for people to check on their friends and family that always seem happy. Smiles often hid the most pain. Thank you for reading my blog.
MAKE ME ADMIT STUFF
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 3. Have you taken someones virginity? 4. Is trust a big issue for you? 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? 6. What are you excited for? 7. What happened tonight? 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? 9. Is confidence cute? 10. What is the last beverage you had? 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 14. What are you going to spend money on next? 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 18. The last time you felt broken? 19. Have you had sex today? 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 21. Are you in a good mood? 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 24. What do you want right this second? 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 34. Listening to? 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? 38. Who did you last call? 39. Who was the last person you danced with? 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 44. Do you tan in the nude? 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 47. Who was the last person to call you? 48. Do you sing in the shower? 49. Do you dance in the car? 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 53. Is Christmas stressful? 54. Ever eat a pierogi? 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 57. Do you believe in ghosts? 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 59. Take a vitamin daily? 60. Wear slippers? 61. Wear a bath robe? 62. What do you wear to bed? 63. First concert? 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 65. Nike or Adidas? 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? 69. Ever take dance lessons? 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 71. Can you curl your tongue? 72. Ever won a spelling bee? 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 74. What is your favorite book? 75. Do you study better with or without music? 76. Regularly burn incense? 77. Ever been in love? 78. Who would you like to see in concert? 79. What was the last concert you saw? 80. Hot tea or cold tea? 81. Tea or coffee? 82. Favorite type of cookie? 83. Can you swim well? 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 85. Are you patient? 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 87. Ever won a contest? 88. Ever have plastic surgery? 89. Which are better black or green olives? 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? 91. Best room for a fireplace? 92. Do you want to get married
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