Thank you, Tumblr, for being a place where I can just vent. Cause at least no one I know knows that it’s me.
Holy shit. I’m just so tired. Of everything. And yeah, I know I should be happy and all that I passed my licensure exam, but well, that’s it.
I still that pang of sadness every now and then. Like I could’ve done better, but didn’t. Like I could’ve done more, but didn’t. Like I could’ve been doing something with my life already, but aren’t. And I really still can’t bring myself into terms of not hating myself.
I’ve told people time and time again that it’s okay to not be at par with everybody else. And yet here I am.
I’ve told people countless times about what to do and what not to do about certain things in life. And yet I can’t bring myself to follow what I say. Practice what you preach, but I just keep on spouting.
I’ve been thinking how much better off the world will be without me, but thankfully, I haven’t done much about it.
It hurts. It’s tiresome. I want out, but I can’t bring myself to do anything about it.
I’m sorry if I’m just wallowing in my sadness. People have told me time and time again that I just need to do something about it. But if I don’t like myself enough to want to do something to make me better, what then?
Oh well. For now I’ll just rant here again.
And oh, after waiting for a while, I’ve just been told that the one I love probably can’t bring themselves into another relationship, and that I should stop waiting for them, cause it’ll most likely not be me, if ever. And well, it sucks. After a roller coaster of a relationship with them, we’ve figured out that we just needed time. And apparently, it was for nought. Unrequited love sucks.
Unrequited love with your best friend (who you essentially see everyday because holy shit your friendship is worth so much to the both of you) sucks even more.
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