:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top. I climbed the tree to see the world. When the gusts came around to blow me down I held on as tightly as you held onto me.

[eden-mayer]

sidney

Sidney nodded and smiled, a bit over-enthusiastically. “Th-that’s great! I’m so glad to hear that!” It had been the longest time she’d spent without seeing Emmy, and it was hard to not feel overwhelming guilt for losing touch with the child she loved while she started to become a real person. Ultimately, it was up to Eden to invite Sidney to spend time with Emmy, and she just had to wait for Eden to decide. She tucked a lock of caramel colored hair behind her ear and looked away as she tried to gather herself, telling herself she could let herself feel the guilt later when she got home. 

“Um… Well, I’ve mostly just spent the last couple of weeks moving and packing and getting ready to come back to work here, so…” Sidney trailed off, realizing that’s what she’d already said. She looked at Eden and instantly just dropped the wall she’d put up. “And I went to rehab,” she blurted, her eyes wide with vulnerability.

Eden gave her ex-wife a nod, accompanied by a sweet smile. Was it really great, though? The question held too much weight and depth, and it was one that the blonde wasn’t too keen on dwelling on for too long. 

There was more nodding as Sidney spoke, filling Eden in on the mundane bits of her journey— bits that Eden was fairly familiar with. It was that last sentence, those five words that caught Eden’s attention. Eyebrows raised a tad, and Eden looked at Sidney with a soft simle. “Really? That’s.. that great, Sidney. It went well, I’m assuming?”

[eden-mayer]

sidney

Sidney took a deep breath and raised her eyebrows, tucking her tablet under her arm before replying. “Well, um, I-I got back… three? Three days ago. I’ve just… I’ve been moving in and getting ready to come back to work.” Sidney had spent the last three days getting settled in, unpacking, grocery shopping, and calling therapists and searching for more AA meetings around town, but maybe it wasn’t quite time yet to lay all of that on her ex-wife.

 She smiled nervously for a second and then took her tablet back out shakily. She unlocked it and glanced at the chart once more, but immediately forgot what she was doing with it. The doctor looked up at Eden again and smiled again. “Um, h-how have you been? How’s… How’s Emmy?”

“Three days,” Eden repeated with a slight head nod, really trying to wrap her head around whatever was happening. In theory, three days wasn’t that many days. But somehow, in that moment, it felt like three days was way too long for Sidney to be back without even saying a word. Their communication skills had improved miraculously a little while after Sidney moved, but over the last few months, there’d been a lot of ghosting. Which was fair, they both were women who led busy lives. Though, Eden still wished ( irrationally so ) that despite the lack of communication on both ends, that Sidney would’ve thouht to tell her she was coming. Not that Eden would’ve if she was in her shoes, but she hated being this caught off guard.

She nodded, eyes flicking back to the glowing screen before her. “Fine. We’ve been fine. Good’s probably a better word— fine’s probably an understatement.” Emmy had been on a little gratitude kick ever since Thanksgiving, and it was really starting to rub off on Eden. “What about you? What’ve you been up to?”

[eden-mayer]

@doctorxseuss, @jordyngarcia, @toni-rowland

i have gathered u all here today to embrace eden’s fairly poor decision making let it also be known that jordyn is represented by april here because as far as the toeknee and sidknee know it’s just awkward because of the three of them but jordyn knows tha real hard truth that eden knows and that’s the tea thank you for listening to my speech god bless edenmerica

[timothechallamet]

[eden-mayer]

sidney

Sidney found herself on her way to the intake office after being handed a chart by one of the nurses. She scanned over the information as she walked, slowing to a stop as she entered the room. The doctor looked up and made eye contact, equally shocked by the other person in the room. Eden. She actually dropped her tablet, though its fall was fortunately broken by its case. Sidney quickly stooped down to pick it up, not even taking notice or registering any relief when the screen appeared to be uncracked. 

“H-hey,” she stammered as she stood up. “Nice to m– G-good to see you.” Her nerves had certainly gotten the best of her already, but it wasn’t as though she hadn’t expected this. “Y– Um, d-did you get my text? Or, um, yeah, we should just… Hank Gelfand.”

“I did, I just, um.. clearly misinterpreted it,” Eden chuckled softly, turning back to the brain scans that lit the dim room. There was almost another soft bit of laughter at the situation— how one glass of wine after a long day had somehow made her read a text from Sidney of all people incorrectly. But the blonde held it in, in exchange for a smile on her lips. Should she have been happy to see Sidney? Probably not, especially given... whatever it was that’d been going on between Eden and Jordyn. 

“Right, Hank,” she nodded firmly with each word, eyes narrowing at the scans before shifting back to Sidney. “Have you met him? He’s a real trip. Despite his age, he’s been a patient of mine for a few years, but we only recently found out that he’s got this massive tumor in his frontal lobe,” Eden pointed to the scan as she spoke. Thoguh, it seemed like she was only able to focus on Hank for a minute at a time. “So, did you, like, just come back last night? Or have you been back?”

[eden-mayer]

jordyn

An immense amount of learning had been done in the last few years of the Latina’s life, she had jumped though many a obstacle and had been growing mentally. Each of her past relationships had taught her patience in different ways, Daniel had taught her that not everyone is going to be as infatuated with her as the last person and to be patient because not everyone’s affection was the same. Kim taught her patience in the category of being a woman as a whole, same sex relationships were more complicated in her opinion and woman’s feeling needed to be taken more seriously and attended to quicker. Woman need to be assured and loved a completely different way than men and for a long time Jordyn couldn’t understand that because she herself was more like a man when it came to being loved. Eden’s blue eyes were beautiful as she looked into Jordyn’s, her smile lit up the brunettes whole aura. “Absolutely. Thank you for coming to see me today.” Her words flowed out of her mouth like water, calm and smooth. Their eyes stayed connected for a few moments before Jordyn took her free hand and placed it on the side of Eden’s face, rubbing her thumb along the other woman’s jaw line. She pulled the blondes face closer to her, sending a soft smile before connected her lips with the others, hoping to god the signals she was getting from Eden were correct.

Eden almost nodded and turned out of the brunette’s office. 

Almost. 

But when she seemingly suddenly felt Jordyn’s hand on her jaw, nearly freezing at the sensation alone. It was something that Eden never realized that she wanted— not until that very moment. Plenty of thoughts stirred around in her mind, though the blonde ignored them, as difficult as it was. Now wasn’t the time for any what if’s, it wasn’t the time to think about the past or the effects on the future one simple action would have— Eden practically yanked herself from the deep well of thoughts to bring herself to the present. The present, which was, intentionally deepening the kiss between the two, backing Jordyn further into the office— and feeling incredibly grateful that she’d closed the door on her way in.

[eden-mayer]

Over the last few days, Eden had practically thrown herself into work. Even if it meant spending hours doing the most mundane and tiring parts of her job— that’s what she was doing. She’d asked one of the nurses to go grab a doctor for her, one to help her assess a new patient with her from differing standpoints. Since she was so into the case, Eden hardly noticed when someone else had entered the room, and when she turned her head to speak to them she nearly dropped the tablet in her hands. 

“What?” She was dreaming. This must’ve been some exhaustion-induced hallucination, and blinking a few times would surely show that Sidney wasn’t standing right beside her. A few blinks later, and somehow she was still there. Somehow, this seemed familiar. Like she should’ve known Sidney was in the building. Which, she absolutely did, she’d only just misinterpreted Sidney’s words as they jumbled up in her tired mind the night before. But, Eden didn’t quite know that yet. 

@doctorxseuss

[eden-mayer]

jordyn

Jordyn’s eyes squinted as she listened to Eden begin her speech. Halloween night definitely got interesting to say the least, the way Eden had reacted to the topic they were discussing caught Jordyn off guard, reminded her of a familiar feeling she would experience when Kim would get overwhelmed. In the last few weeks the two had barely interacted, a sense of awkwardness filled each space they were caught together in. However Jordyn didn’t feel an ounce of awkwardness in these moments, the brunette couldn’t help but smile softly when she realized that Eden liked spending time, she enjoyed the company that she provided and this was never something that could ever have been predicted, nothing close to this. These two clicking? What an unexpected situation. Jordyn didn’t speak while Eden spoke towards her, however her eyes made it clear that she was listening and was taking every single word in. A smile came to her face as she got up off her chair and walked around her desk towards Eden, she bent down onto her knees. “Listen Eden, you are allowed to be scared, absolutely. Fear is real and is normal and okay to feel.” Jordyn reached up and took the blondes hand in hers. “You are not a Kim, trust me. What you did was completely different than what Kim chose to do. You protected your child, Kim punished her ex-wife with no reason to punish her. You do not stand close to a Kim, understood?” A small smirk appeared across her lips “and for the record, I’ve really liked having you around too and I definitely do not like having Kimberly around. Got it?” Her eyebrows raised, tilting her head to the right while looking up into Edens bright eyes.

“Got it.” It wasn’t like Eden was expecting Jordyn to respond with an argument— inisiting that Eden was, in fact, a Kim. But for some odd reason, she wasn’t entirely expecting the reassuring response that she received. Jordyn’s words, all of them, echoed throughout the blonde’s mind, and she nodded her head. It was almost like Eden could feel the relief coursing through her veins. Eden had never been a fan of Jordyn in the past, and she never quite understood why the brunette and Kim got on at all. Though, hindsight seemed to be 20/20 on that situation. She absolutely never expected to grow as close, and as attached, to Jordyn nearly as quickly as she did. Nor did she anticipate feeling comfortable enough to open up to her about the tricky situation. Eden hadn’t noticed that her gaze had fallen to the floor while she was deep in thought, and quickly looked back up with a sweet smile on her lips, “thank you.”

[petitececily]

THE BIG REUNION || EM, CA, EA.

[eden-mayer]

cecily

‘‘ REALLY? ’’ she exclaimed, sitting on her knees. ‘‘ I like meerkats. I saw one on TV one time and it was just so cute, I just wanted to cuddle it forever. ’’ dear god, stop talking. ‘‘ I don’t think meerkats would like garlic bread, I learnt the hard way with Olaf the cat. WAIT, are you talking about a meerkat or a person? ’’

Nodding along, hoping that depite the girl’s distractions— she still had some sort of grasp on what she was trying to tell her. “I’m talking about a person.”

[eden-mayer]

jordyn

“Believe me Mandy, If I get to the bar and there is not a drink already made for me I will probably drink the window cleaner instead.” A frustrating sigh filled her office, her whole day had been filled with unpleasant interactions and god was she glad that her day was over. She placed her head down on her desk and let out a louder groan of annoyance, not expecting a familiar voice to fill her ears. The Latina lifted her head to see the blonde and two coffees, not quite vodka but the smile on Eden’s made up for it. “Oh!..Eden…” She paused, her eyes carefully taking in the blondes expression before smiling her own soft smile at the words she was saying. “Just sit down wont you.” Her arm extended to take the coffee from the other woman. She took a sip of the coffee “Wow, the self-deprecation really just makes the flavour.” 

There was a small nod before the blonde sat down, unable to keep from smiling at Jordyn’s own joke about the coffee. “Yeah, I hope so, because there’s a whole lot of it in there,” she huffed, leaning back a little. Talking is good. NOT talking is NOT good. “I just wanted to make sure that you weren’t, like, I don’t know..” gone. “It was just.. not the most fun topic. And hearing you say all of that stuff about Kim really scared me because I think I am Kim. I mean, I’m not really Kim, but in the whole.. separation and custody stuff: I’m a Kim.” Pausing, Eden sat up a little more, tucking her hair behind her ear before taking a long inhale. “When Sidney left, and she did all of what she did, I took Emmy and I went home for a little while. And, years later, when we tried working things out, she showed me time and time again that she couldn’t keep her promises. I tried giving her extra chances to get to know her three year old, and she just kept.. she kept proving to me that I couldn’t rely on her. So that’s when I gave her divorce papers, by throwing them into her office like a paper airplane no less. She’d been sober for a little while, and then we were gonna try to do a shared custody thing. Before we could even do that, she showed up at my house absolutely hammered. By showed up, I meant literally walked into my home. That’s when I got a lawyer and eventually, after a long, tortuous trial, got full custody of Emmy.” Pausing to blink tears from her vision, Eden took another deep breath, “I got scared, hearing how upset with Kim you were, and how much anger you felt toward her. Valid anger. Because, regardless of when my stuff happened, or how different it is, I’m still a Kim.” Shoulders lifted in a small shrug, and Eden cleared her throat once more before speaking again. “I’m still a Kim, a-and I’ve really liked having you around and I was scared that it would chase you off.”

[petitececily]

THE BIG REUNION || EM, CA, EA.

[eden-mayer]

cecily‌

Cecily examines Eden carefully, trying to read her mind, her thoughts. somethings bothering her, what could it be? the child hopes it not her. that’s a constant fear, ONE BY ONE she fears everyone will leave, well, everyone that’s left.  But than Eden talks, and Cecily brings her attention back to the current room. ‘‘ someone like me? like … a meerkat? ’’ No.

“I mean, sure,” Eden nodded, trying to go along with Cecily’s words. If she could get the younger blonde to describe things on her own, she’d understand it better, no doubt. “There’s, just.. there’s someone that I met who’s a lot like you. You’re the same age, you both.. don’t like the way that some things feel on your skin,” and you literally came from the same womb. “And I’m sure he probably likes garlic bread. But if he doesn’t, he’d be a good friend because then he’d have more to give to you, you know?” Offering Cecily a kind smile, she examined the girl’s features. “Do you think you’d like to meet someone like that?”

[petitececily]

THE BIG REUNION || EM, CA, EA.

[eden-mayer]

cecily‌

Cecily sat cross-legged on the chair in Eden’s office, she often spent time here, especially after her appointments. Today was different though, Eden had actually asked her to stay behind. And well, ever since Nate left, she’s felt almost totally alone and she’s never really in a rush to get anywhere, so here she is, lingering in the office with her sippy cup of milk and a couple of Emmy’s frozen dolls. She plays quietly, allowing Eden to get on with whatever it is she needs to get on with. ‘‘ come on elsa, get it together. ’’ she mumbles from time to time as the Elsa doll struggles to stand upright. A few more moments of silence fall between them before the child puts the toys down, looking up at Eden. ‘‘ How much longer am I gonna be here? I wanna watch sophia now. ’’

// @eden-mayer

It was all relatively new, yet it still somehow felt brand new. It still felt like Eden had only just learned the information a few moments ago. At first, having everything thrown at her at once nearly caused the blonde to lose it, but it didn’t take long for her to feel a sense of obgligation. If anyone was going to handle the situation, Eden wanted it to be herself. The odds of someone else doing it and screwing it up were higher. Once that phase ended, then came the how to do it phase. She had to sit on it for a while, to think every possible outcome through. And even though there were plenty that weren’t all too favorable, Eden knew that eventually, someway, somehow— the two were going to meet. They were still young, though, so they maybe wouldn’t have figured things out as quickly. Regardless, Eden had convinced herself that there weren’t too many things wrong with kickstarting things, and speeding up the process a bit.

The girl’s voice brought Eden’s eyes up and away from the files in front of her—  files which were nearly identical. Drawing in a long breath, Eden propped one of her elbows onto the surface of her desk, placing her chin on the end of her palm as she thought of an answer. When one didn’t come to her head, she decided that a question might hold things over, just a bit longer. There was nothing in any of her classes, text books, nor medical journals that had instructions on how to handle a situation similar to this. “What would you think about meeting someone new?” Her tone was upbeat, but not too much so. Just enough. “Someone that’s a lot like you?” Subtle. Very subtle, Eden.

[flowellch]

[eden-mayer]

@toni-rowland

[eden-mayer]

Slowly approaching the other therapist’s office, Eden clutched the coffee cup in her hands tightly, as if somehow that’d make her feel better. As she neared the door, the blonde inhaled a long, staggering breath just before knocking lightly. The immedaite sight of Jordyn alone in her office brought the blonde an unbelievable amount of relief, and an insane amount of fear as well. A soft, dimpled smile slowly appeared on her face as she walked towards Jordyn’s desk, setting the coffee down gently. “That’s some.. sorry that I ruined Halloween a little bit with my dramatics coffee,” she spoke softly. “It’s a really.. it’s a nice blend of, um.. self-deprication, lots of apologies, and just a little dash of shame.”

@jordyngarcia

[eden-mayer]

demi

The illusion? Such a mom thing to say – though it didn’t matter because the more Eden did not know, the better. Demetria couldn’t have anybody finding out about her tutor boyfriend, otherwise they were going to be OVER and in all honesty, there would be nothing else that could set Demetria back any further than what she had come. It seemed as though most people were beginning to notice her laid back approach to things and that was simply because Jared was teaching her more about HUMANITY than she ever could have imagined. Little pieces of their personalities was beginning to chip away, gradually embedding itself in the others skin – morphing them into becoming much better human beings that they were before. Luckily, the therapist had taken it upon herself to change the topic, back on to her secondary daughter ( the younger, biological one who didn’t have fucking ISSUES ). “If her persuasion technique is THAT good, tell her to run for PRESIDENT – I heard that the outside world is currently all fucked because of the giant dickbag sat in office. Thank god I’m not out there… I mean, I don’t really understand politics like that but I am one opinionated bitch and the world needs more people like Emmy. As for the costume, I could only be tempted by Belle. Let’s be honest, I have the features for it.” A coy smile lifted to the corners of her lips, lightly nudging Eden with the crimson wings that accompanied her shoulder blades intentionally but it was too good to be true – again, the topic had circles back to the beauty, her hazels now not looking for anybody in particular, in case it gave her act away. “Technically, he is not my date. It was never a mutual agreement that we would come together but more so, see each other here? I don’t know.”

“Mm, I’ve been picturing her as a lawyer more often lately. Persuasive and argumentative. But, I wouldn’t be mad if she decided to run for President. She’s pretty alright,” Eden shrugged, dimples popping a bit as she smiled. Despite the ups and the major downs that Eden had faced with her daughter, there were only few occasions when talking about the younger blonde didn’t make Eden smile, or at least make her feel an overwhelming sense of pride. It was something Eden was aware of, and knew that she was easy to distract once Emmy was brought up. In fact, the same could almost be said about Demi. Even though Eden didn’t birth her, nor raise her from birth to nineteen ( though she might as well have ), she still felt just about the same way about the brunette. The smiling thing may not have always rang true when Demi crossed Eden’s mind, because she was more frequently concerned about Demi than Emmy with their differing life situations, but the pride never failed. Eden could barely even remember their first conversation, only remembering that their first few interactions centered around their shitty relationship-y situations at the time, but there was no denying that Demi had grown so much since then. And now, hearing that some mystery man, although the secrecy was a bit off-putting, made Eden so, indescribably happy for her pseudo-daughter. “As strange as all of this sounds, I do hope you see each other. And that you have a nice time. And that you make great choices." Ending with a playful wink, knowing just how borderline overbearingly motherly she sounded and enjoying every last bit of it.

[sseureki]

[eden-mayer]

@jordyngarcia

i feel like this was them back in the day when they had to hang out for sid and kim’s sakes 

[flowellch]

I wasn’t angry. I was gracious. I was nice and I was accommodating and I tried to help you, and yet here you are again, asking for even more.