i wanna tell y'all a little bit about me βΊοΈ. for those who don't wanna read this long ass message, then scroll the hell on π. but anyways, i'm insecure, yes, very insecure. i always doubt how i look, how i dress, how i wear my hair, the whole 9 yards. it goes on everyday a week, 24/7. i really don't like being insecure cause it's some days when i feel like i'm slaying for the Gods ππ
πΎ, but it's my mindset that's holding me back βπΎ. some people ask me why i feel so insecure about myself, & i just say that i do. i really never feel like telling them the whole story. but i try to break it down. for years, i've been verbally bullied (it never turn to physical bullying because folks knew they could get that WORK πππΎ). people said that i looked like a MAN π¨πΎ, a MONKEY π, & that my face looked like a CRUNCH BAR π«(even though they good ASF), & they said i would be desperate all my life & i would never be attractive for anyone to want me. i would never look like the girls on social media π± or TV πΊ, so i will always be a lame & forever be lonely. now when they said that, it really hurt me deeply because i thought that they were right π i never thought i was pretty, just because of the simple fact that those people said so. it went so far as to me having suicidal thoughts because i felt that i would NEVER amount to anything just because they said so. every time somebody complimented me, i would look at them like π€ where you see anything decent about me at? help me find it cause i been looking for a loonnnggggg time π hell, i still do it to this day, and when i do it, people just look at me crazy. but deep down i hope they understand that i'm not trying to do it for attention π it's just weird to me that people compliment me when others said that i'm not worth complimenting. whenever my mom says that i look pretty, she gets a π€ look from me as well, & then she always tells me there's no need for me to be insecure because i'm pretty, we're all pretty. as long as i accept myself for who i am, i will be okay. i don't need acceptance from everybody else, F**K EVERYBODY ELSE. now whenever she said that i would always say in my mind (because if i said it out loud she would knock my ass), "girl you don't even know what the hell you saying cause you ain't never been in my shoes so shut up with all that BS", and then i would just brush her off. but as i've gotten older & started realizing things, her words really got to me. i don't need to be accepted by others, because whatever they say doesn't matter. as long as I accept ME, then i should be okay π. when i started applying that to myself, i started changing A LOT. this past year, i've made some major improvements with my newfound confidence. everyday, i think to myself, yeah, you may have big lips, a big nose, glasses (even though they cute π
πΎ), and acne & blemishes all over your face, but you're still pretty. so what if your body isn't in the best shape, you're still pretty. so what if you don't look like a model, or pretty ass girls that you see on social media, you're still pretty. so what if nobody else says you're pretty, you don't care about non-factor ass people πππΎ. just as long as YOU feel that YOU are pretty, you'll be OKAY. scratch okay, you'll be WONDERFUL ππ. every time i think that, my confidence goes from ππππ’ to ππΈπ½ππ½π
πΎ and beyond. even though i got a way to go, i'm making progress on my confidence and self esteem. i'm finally accepting the fact that i'm pretty, i'm finally loving myself for who i am, and i'm too busy blocking out the haters π. yeah, this progress is gonna be a loonnnggggg journey, but it's worth it, just like me βΊοΈ. and you ALL are worth it. no matter what anybody else has to say. someone else's opinion about you should not effect you. only YOUR opinion matters. excuse my French, but fuck everybody else's thoughts π and opinions π£π―, they are not FACTS & will NEVER BE FACTS. whatever they have to say should not influence the way you feel about yourself. just accept YOU for YOU. don't ever feel that you need others' opinion & acceptance to feel good about yourself. ACCEPT yourself π, COMPLIMENT yourself ππ½, hell even GET COCKY about yourself ππΈπ½π
πΎ. BE YOURSELF. not what others picture what you should & could be (which is not you). just be yourself, plain and simple π. if you need daily motivation, just say this: I, (fill in the blank with your name), am one good looking ass girl/guy. i don't need nobody, and i mean NOBODY, to tell me what i am, i already know what i am. i'm cute, handsome, pretty, charming, sexy, etc. yeah, i'm all that & NO ONE can tell me otherwise βΊοΈππ½π
πΎ. i hope that i helped anybody who has insecurity out to the fullest, & those who just need a little bit of inspiration. until next time my friends ππ.
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