[eldeshield]

𝙃𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤,  this is an  indie rp blog for Kisara from Tales of 𝘼𝙍𝙄𝙎𝙀.  Written by 𝙁𝙖𝙪𝙣𝙖.   *Not spoiler free*      

𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝘃𝗶𝗯𝗲𝘀 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆.      rules

[eldeshield]

I really want to write as Giselle from the house in fata morgana .... I finished the first one and omg ....  I LOVE HER SO MUCH ....

AND THE VISUAL NOVEL...IT WAS AMAZING...

[silent-shanin]

Arise in a car

[eldeshield]

I AM... debating whether I’ll be keeping this blog. I adore Kisara but The lack of people joining is making me lose motive to sign on.  

I might just take a break and see if I can gather my muse back.   ---

[eldeshield]

I’ve been really exhausted and busy these last few days..

but tomorrow I have a day off -- sorta... I still have things to do...  but I SHOULD be able to get to replies soon <3

[eldeshield]

Sorry for my slow responses both here and on discord. It may not seem like it but these shifts are exhausting. I love the work but it’s definitely something that’ll burn you out quick!

That and with my dog recovering from

Surgery I’m like AHHH. Scatter brained … but I’ll get to things soon I swear !

[destinyconfronts-arch]

I’m scared. 

I’m so scared. I’m terrified to the point my hallucinations and nightmares are more vivid, they’re getting so much worse. Our house is in shambles, it’s a hoarder’s home filled with trash and mom and I are disabled, we’re unable to clean on our own. We’re also at poverty and can’t afford a true cleaner…

I’m scared. I’m so. fucking. scared. 

The bank gave us until march next year to come up with over $2000 to pay property taxes… Or else. they’ll evict us. Mother and I will be homeless. If we could pay the debt, we could keep the house, if we could afford to clean it. we could sell it and get a smaller, more affordable place. 

I can offer… pretty promo/mobile header banners. for $15 each. Examples under the cut.

I have a GoFundMe I initially set up for other reasons HERE  & my cashapp is $LokeanDevout

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[eldeshield]

Me: ugh I don’t wanna work

Me three hours later: I love working here! 😭

[eldeshield]

Ugh! Why did I agree to sub today? I’m tired 😩 ….. oh yeah … money!

Btw my baby’s surgery is today! Thank you to those who helped me… now I just pray she will be okay. My tiny little angel …

[eldeshield]

Plot ideas. 

STILL... really need that plot AU  where Kisara joins the guard only with the intention of assassinating Dohalim  ...  but as she gets to know him she starts to waver .. maybe she had several opportunities and can never go through with it ....  at one point she tries to just get him in his sleep to get it over with  ..... but as she’s about to  his eyes open ...jifejief   

JUST... THE DRAMA, ANGST....  tho I think doh would be like “I knew all along”

I alsooo would write out Kisara taking in Rinwell and Law....  because that would be so precious . ...  just some really wholesome vibes...

......I need to think of ideas for Shionne and Alphen....  IT’S TOUGH.... but I will because I love them. 

[eldeshield]

Is  The House in Fata Morgana good????  

[fireshot-deactivated20220317]

I… have discovered a new ship thing I enough is when two people have some sort of conflict  and are also time loopers   and constantly fight / kill each other through different loops.  

 but they remember each loop and the conversation so they know when the other is coming.   and then it just turns into a morbid game  …. until one finally gives up… or is defeated.

———————–

started in raging loop  ….  now higurashi sotsu ….   kinda weird it’s been a thing in two things i like—

anyway,  TIME / WORLD LOOPING IS SUPER COOL in general. specially if the characters remember the previous loop. 

[eldeshield]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰  | accepting.  

@firemaiden​ asked:  ❛  i  always  scared  everyone  away .  ❜

Kisara’s heart ached for Shionne,  despite being a Renan  --her life was no better than hers or anyone else’s in their little group.    And she suffered something SO unique, something no one else could fully understand.  It was no wonder she closed herself off from others.  - --   

“You’ll never have to worry about that when it comes to us.  We’re here for you  ...  no matter what may come.”

She only wished she could give the girl a hug ....   it wasn’t that she necessarily feared being stung by her thorns but causing her more guilt wouldn’t help make her feel better anyway  ...

“I’m your friend ...  and nothing will ever change that ... so I hope you can trust me...”

“I’m your friend ...  and nothing will ever change that ... so I hope you can trust me...”

[eldeshield]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰  | accepting.  

@destinydefied​ asked:  ❛  you  make  me  brave ,  &  i’ll  forever  be  grateful  for  that . ❜ // from dohalim !!

“Dohalim....”    Did she really do that much?  She certainly didn’t recall having done anything that would impact him in such a way.  Yet his words did caused the corners of her lips to rise, her hazel gaze soft.  

“I... will always be there for you.  Until the very day you say you no longer need me.  --   as your former guard AND friend .. I swear that is a promise I’ll keep.   --  There’s a lot you’ve done that I still haven’t shown my gratefulness for too .....”

[stnymeme]

SEND “👀🤷‍” IF YOUR MUSE WOULD CONTEMPLATE DATING MINES. / specify for multi-muses.

bonus points: add “+” for my muse to be aware of the interest and respond to it. 

[ohisms]

𝑺𝑶𝑭𝑻 𝑻𝑯𝑶𝑹𝑵𝑺 𝑽𝑶𝑳. 𝑰 .   (   sentence  starters  taken  from  /  inspired  by  volume  one  of  ‘ soft thorns ’  by  bridgett  devoue .  triggering  themes  may  be  implied .)

❛  you  are  the  brave  one .   ❜ ❛  you  make  me  brave ,  &  i’ll  forever  be  grateful  for  that . ❜ ❛  i  was  born  with  wide  eyes  &  a  fragile  heart . ❜ ❛  i  feel  everything  so  deeply .  ❜ ❛  i  am  not  yours .  ❜ ❛  you  never  asked  if  i  wanted  a  guest .  ❜ ❛  this  is  why  no  one  loves  you .  ❜ ❛  beauty  does  not  solve  problems .  ❜ ❛  someone  once  told  me  they  were  scared  of  the  truth  in  my  eyes .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  remember  love  as  a  child .  ❜ ❛  a  fantasy  in  real  life  is  also  known  as  a  lie .  ❜ ❛  i  was  eager  to  prove  i  was  good  enough .  ❜ ❛  scars  may  fade ,  but  they  last  forever .  ❜ ❛  i  always  scared  everyone  away .  ❜ ❛  i  kept  this  dream  hidden  away .  ❜ ❛  i  used  to  think  love  wasn’t  for  me .  that  i  wasn’t  worthy .  ❜ ❛  your  love  is  like  an  exorcism .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  one  who  reminded  me  i  have  a  pulse .  ❜ ❛  there  is  an  unspoken  truth  between  us .  ❜ ❛  i  crave  you ,  even  though  i  know  you  will  destroy  me .  ❜ ❛  you’re  just  standing  there  watching  me  burn ,  wearing  that  crooked  smile  of  yours .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i’m  not  perfect ,  but  i  felt  pretty  damn  close  to  it  when  i  was  in  your  arms .  ❜ ❛  in  another  lifetime ,  we  have  definitely  done  this  before .  ❜ ❛  i  never  thought  i  would  be  a  good  mother .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  love  you  back  together .  ❜ ❛  we  have  this  divine  bond  between  us .  divine  in  the  way  that  it’s  certainly  not  from  this  lifetime .  ❜ ❛  my  soul  craves  a  love  that’s  undeniably  real .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  experience  why  we’re  here  on  earth .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  tell  you  everything .  ❜ ❛  hell  is  watching  something  that  was  your  everything  slip  away  &  not  being  able  to  do  anything  about  it .  ❜ ❛  i  can  tell  that  when  i’m  with  you ,  you’re  with  her .  ❜ ❛  why  is  it  that  everyone  can  see  i’m  suffering  but  you ?  ❜ ❛  let’s  pretend  like  we’re  friends .  ❜ ❛  it’s  so  painful  to  talk  to  you ,  because  i  just  remember  everything  you  turned  out  not  to  be .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  how  to  fall  asleep  anymore .  ❜ ❛  are  you  pretending  to  forget  me ,  too ?  ❜ ❛  i  can  still  close  my  eyes  &  trace  every  curve  &  dip  of  your  soul .  ❜ ❛  those  who  don’t  believe  in  ghosts  have  never  had  a  broken  heart .  ❜ ❛  god ,  you’re  beautiful .  ❜ ❛  i  know  i  should ,  but  i’m  not  ready  to  give  up  your  memory .  ❜ ❛  i  never  told  you  how  much  you  hurt  me .  ❜ ❛  i  keep  falling  in  love  with  souls  that  feel  like  yours .  ❜ ❛  being  alone  was  never  hard  before  i  met  you .  ❜ ❛  you  must  think  i’m  crazy  for  missing  something  i  never  even  had .  ❜ ❛  i’m  lonely ,  but  i  don’t  want  company .  ❜ ❛  you  walked  away  far  too  easily  for  me  to  believe  it  was  ever  really  love .  ❜ ❛  you  never  loved  me .  ❜ ❛  when  you’ve  been  fed  lies  for  so  long ,  you  eventually  lose  your  appetite  for  love .  ❜ ❛  i  have  nothing  left  to  say  to  you .  ❜ ❛  you’ll  never  know  all  the  ways  i  died  for  you .  ❜ ❛  ‘goodbye’  is  easy .  everything  after  that  is  the  hard  part .  ❜ ❛  even  though  you  turned  out  to  be  a  liar ,  within  me  grew  a  love  that  was  the  most  pure  &  honest  thing  i’ve  ever  known .  ❜ ❛  nothing  was  ever  easy ,  but  maybe  that’s  the  beauty  of  it .  ❜ ❛  i  am  everything  that  you  are  not .  ❜ ❛  love  is  a  necessary  tragedy .  ❜ ❛  there  are  people  who  don’t  want  you  to  heal .  ❜ ❛  remember :  you  are  not  their  prey .  ❜ ❛  you  have  more  power  than  you  know .  ❜ ❛  the  most  dangerous  thing  we  can  do  is  forget  how  to  feel .  ❜ ❛  you  will  be  safe  in  the  right  hands .  ❜ ❛  love  makes  us  immortal  in  the  hearts  of  others ,  but  mortal  in  our  fear  that  it  could  all  be  gone  someday .  ❜ ❛  we’re  only  haunted  by  the  things  we  refuse  to  accept .  ❜ ❛  we  are  not  born  broken .  ❜ ❛  time  will  either  heal  you  or  kill  you .  ❜

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Some Dohalim icons I made under read more ~  psd by Jaynedits  (silver lining)   (going through my files for the name of the icon border creator )

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