Desapego
So here it is, the trial you wanted. Detachment. Or how we say it in spanish Desapego. Am I really suffering this much or is it just the idea that I NEED to be suffering right now?
How do you answer this?
How do you know? How do you distinguish?
what am I supposed to do? to feel? does it matter?
Some people think that we create our own reality, if that’s true, you create your suffering, by the ideas you have. And yes, I have an idea about almost everything, I have the idea that you should suffer because a boy left, and because he is being nice but no as nice as you wish, or is he being nice enough? And you are just so concentrated in the idea that you should suffer and that his attention and details to you are not enough that I’m not seeing the whole picture, the reality of things.
I don’t know.
I wish to know.
I just have to let go...to ideas, to people, to standards, to complex thoughs, to made up scenarios...
I have to detach myself.
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