Ella. 💞

🇵🇭-🇮🇹 "Im Bibliophile"📚 ...that type of love that oy fairytale book can speak of... "Magari non sei stato il mio primo amore Ma sei stato l'amore che ha reso Tutti gli altri amori Marginali."

[ella0126]

Tang ina yung emosyon ko stress na.. 😭😭

[ella0126]

Imisshim like wtf! Im thinking!😫

[ella0126]

Tang inang taon to!!! Sinasagad ang buong pag katao ko!

[ella0126]

Ogni tanto lo penso quello che successo al mio passato.. 😔

[sadbitchhxx--deactivated-deacti]

that one feeling-

TW: DEPRESSION/SADNESS/ANXIETY (might make you cry- has depression mentions)

you know the feeling when you are sitting in your room at night listening to songs, and that one song comes up which reminds you of someone specific and tears start rolling down your cheeks as you silently stare into space? hurts. it really does. and then you realize you have no one to talk to so you just smile and tell yourself you are okay even though you aren't? you just hold yourself. wipe your own tears. tell yourself you're okay. it hurts more. and then someone texts you, and they randomly out of courtesy ask you, "how are you?" and you just reply them back saying, "hi, i'm fine/i'm okay. wbu?" typing that while crying is the last thing that just punches you in the gut and you start telling yourself the truth about how you aren't okay and how you really need someone to hold onto, talk to, cry in front of...and then you sleep after crying your eyes out the whole night, wake up the morning, and get ready for school or work, and just smile at everyone and pretend like you are okay while you keep getting flashbacks of last night in your room. the final straw is when someone asks you if you're okay and you say yes, even though you just want to burst out and tell them everything wrong that's happening, about how okay you aren't, about how you just feel like the world is sinking in. it really hurts. doesn't it?

are you going through any of this? like any part of it? would you like to talk about it? because, you can always contact me. i am sorry you are going through any of this. we'll get through it together. also please get some help- reach out for some help if it keeps increasing. don't worry, i know, you might think 'they are just saying it, it isn't that easy.' trust me, i know it isn't easy. but you should know 'you matter'

ily

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[shyshybrain]

Depression is like being stuck between wanting to save yourself and wanting to end yourself.

-any

[ella0126]

Ang sakit!! 😭

[ella0126]

Si ricomincia a lavorare!!

Kaya ko to!! 🙏🏻💪🏻

[ella0126]

Kaya ko na ba?

[ella0126]

Its been one month since you left me ..

-Star

[ella0126]

Naalala ko nanaman ang sakit.. 😭😔

[ella0126]

Ngayon lang siguro to..

[ella0126]

Paano kaya kung bumalik siya? Handa paba akong tangapin sya ng buo?.

[ella0126]

Sobrang sakit na ng ulo kakaisip!!!

Gusto ko nang makalimutan lahat ng sakit ng ito!

Ang sakit sakit na sobra!!😭

[ella0126]

Miss na miss nakita

[ella0126]

Imisshimsomuch 😔😭

[theartidote]

“As you get older, you realize that you’re not always right & there’s so many things you could’ve handled better, so many situations where you could’ve been kinder & all you can really do is forgive yourself & let your mistakes make you a better person.” —lyjerria #NoteToSelf 🌙 artwork by Ana Novaes