I'm just crazy

thoughts of me, weird Hufflepuff who identifies as (gray) asexual/demi and thinks autistics are the best thing since sliced bread, skunks are my favorite animal, dandelions my favorite flower. Xe/her are my pronouns. Mx is my honorific.

[ellelarondelle]

so I have been going up in weight steadily since May 25, 2016

and I am now officially overweight

(stupid mirtazipine side effects *sigh* )

[roachpatrol]

i’ve been thinking for awhile about lance from voltron, and like— what if the kid has adhd? i saw a fic where the writer gave him that diagnosis just to make him super zany and childish and it’s not like that. 

it’s like if lance has adhd he’s now a fucking galaxy away from any medication that kept him stable. it’s like in an academic environment sometimes you and your friends all sit around and laugh at how many prescriptions you have between you and like sometimes, in a harsher one, a competitive one, like the garrison maybe, competition is fierce and if you’ve got any kind of instability you keep it quiet and they already say you’re a loser, some poor quota kid, obnoxious. 

it’s like lance checking his pockets over and over the first week in the castle, hoping he brought something with him, anything— resigning himself to the hard crash. spacing out. sleeping too much and then pacing the hallways, jittery, frantic, angry. headaches, a short fuse at a time you should be making friends, reflexive jokes cracked to cover the fact you can’t focus on a sentence from one end to the other, laughing off how you can’t remember— it’s like you never get out of that fucking invisible maze simulator. right or left? everyone’s yelling at you but you ram against the glass anyway, one dead end after another until you ache all over. there is no way out of this mess but through and you are already so sick of it. 

and lance’s teammates need to rely on him but how can they when he can’t even rely on himself? he needs to make it up to them. he needs to prove to all of them he can get something right. that he wasn’t a mistake. that he can do this. a galaxy rests on his shoulders now, on his head, on what’s in his head, on the scared fuck-up who doesn’t want to admit he just spent six hours hiding in his room because if allura looks at him like he’s an idiot one more time maybe he’s going to cry. 

it’s like lance does his best, he really does. he tries over and over. sometimes he gets it right. he flirts and jokes and laughs and he uses what he’s got, his daring and imagination, his determination. he saves the day. no one dies. the galaxy keeps spinning and it’s enough, he’s enough. he’s just barely enough. he can do this. 

[ellelarondelle]

... this hurts my heart

[soulbrotherv2]

[feedmeburgers-deactivated201601]

I wanna know their names

[the-stray-liger]

Their names are Carlos Polanco, Carl Snyder and Alex Hall and they defeated the Harvard debate team on the topic of access to education for undocumented children 

[thereallizzybennett]

Reblogging again for the names

[leupagus]

Heyo! I’m sure this has been mentioned before, but Polanco, Snyder and Hall were all part of the Bard Prison Initiative, a program at Bard College in New York that seeks to get higher education into New York state prisons. It’s been very successful and is funded by private donations - if you feel like chipping in a few bucks, here’s how you can!

[justsomeantifas]

The minimum wage being too low is costing us billions of dollars in tax payer money. A whopping 47% of those receiving public assistance work full-time. For every dollar that the minimum wage rises, government spending on public assistance goes down $5.2 billion.

http://www.epi.org/publication/wages-and-transfers/

This basically means that corporations are stealing so much money from workers that the government has to step in. That’s not capitalism or free markets, that having JUUUSSST enough social welfare to keep the fat cats happy and the labor class alive but suffering. The ones getting rich off welfare are the corporations, but they call that corporate welfare, and ain’t no one say shit about that. This is what welfare capitalism looks like, and why it’s still: bad.

[ellelarondelle]

Friends with Boys by Faith Erin Hicks

“So I’ve normally been putting my book quotes on my Livejournal and my emotionally questionable stuff on here, but ... well, book quotes with emotionally questionable responses go HERE "You'll do fine Maggie." 11

no one told me this about high school, or university

then again, in both cases I didn't really have anyone to whine to about worrying about adjusting

also, I DIDN'T do fine in university, and with high school, I didn't find anyone CLOSE to my people until GRADE TWELVE

my ACTUAL best friend ( http://nekobakaz.tumblr.com/ ), I didn't find until I took a grade 12 class in OAC (now called the 'victory lap' )

Basically, socially, it would have REALLY helped me if I could have repeated a year at some point... though I couldn't have handled the new curriculum's sex ed... though maybe my PTSD diagnosis might have been figured out earlier...

"I... I don't want to be here." 27

you and me both, kid

"There are too many people in this building" 28

I felt like this in grade 9, not so much by grade 12

"'You liked being homeschooled too, didn't you?' 'No, I like it here better." 30

"You gotta do this Magsby." 32

that is not useful. please try again.

"Makeout stairwell <u>AVOID</u>!!"

thank God I never found such a thing at my high school (there might have been physical violence)

"Now all you need is to find your people."

grade. fucking. TWELVE.

"it must have been weird to have your mom for a teacher"

I am SO glad my Mom didn't try to be my teacher. We would have killed each other. Or at least there would have been physical violence (wait... that happened anyway... *shrugs* carry on.

“the volleyball team. Matt and his merry band of social conformists.”

social conformism? 

can I light it on fire?

please?

“the girl who killed the alien was very cool”

I want to watch her be awesome. 

I don’t really want to watch a horror film so I haven’t seen Alien yet.

‘the first time I saw “Alien,” I wanted to be Ripley’

I haven’t SEEN Alien and I want to be Ripley. I mean, I never will be, because it’s me, but ...

“Matt’s got this gift. 

He makes you feel like he’s the best person in the world [...] He’ll either be a politician or a supervillain when he grows up [...]

Matt doesn’t have much patience for people who aren’t his idea of normal.

Or people [...] who need something visual to prove they’re different 

[... {a brother to his sister}] You look like a freak.”

*summons fire Skyrim-style* you really don’t want to do that...  “we have a choice how we’re going to act [...]

I don’t WANT to be that guy being an asshole to that other guy just because he does theater instead of sports, okay?”

*after being beat up* “Y’know... I think I hurt his feelings”

COME AT ME BRO!

‘I’m a bad daughter. [...]

Mom should’ve had me, because I was a girl.

But I never wanted to be with her, because she only wanted to do girl things. 

I wanted to be with [...] Dad and do the boy things”

also, Mom was abusive and still does not have healthy boundaries, 

Dad is much better at this

[errwardo-deactivated20180108]

[digitalintimacy-deactivated2018]

this is what being poor is like

[theomnipresentone-deactivated20]

hey it would be great if people could reblog this

so

mainstreaming

people love to share “Cute” videos of “DEAF BABY HEARS FOR THE FIRST TIME/DEAF MOTHER HEARS HER KID’S VOICE FOR THE FIRST TIME” and everyone lavishes praise on auditory verbal therapists and everyone is so fucking glad that we might soon Cure deafness with the wonders of science and everyone thinks that deaf people with an opposition to any of this are just a product of Barbaric Deaf Culture Bullshit

meanwhile if you’ve ever spoken to any of those kids who were mainstreamed when they were 20 and had the mental capacity to comprehend and express how they felt about it all, way after all of those cute videos were long forgotten and they were gone from any sort of public eye, you’d notice a similar narrative

unrelenting trauma

you talk to nearly any mainstreamed kid who couldn’t integrate quite as well as the wunderkind that had a hearing problem that hearing aids could help and you’ll find out that they leave linguistics classes with haunted eyes that turn to tears because they can no longer handle hearing anyone deliberately enunciate sounds without reacting like they’ve been smacked and shaking as they desperately wish they could leave the room

it doesn’t matter if their Integration was formal or not, you talk to a grown mainstreamed person and more often than not they’ll tell you they can’t handle soundless videos anymore because the impulse bred in them to never Not Hear gives them panic attacks when something like that shows up (ps if you can recognize that a video has no sound you might want to start tagging it. the only reason i don’t is because i can’t fucking tell adequately at this point)

the kids who, when their moms (#mumblr) saw them removing their hearing aids (did you know that doctors often turn those things up so high that adults have reported their ears hurt on those settings?), had their hearing aids strapped to their heads; the kids who didn’t get to have a true choice between sign language and Being Fixed because their parents would never let them (and if any hearing parents get the idea that they can get around this i hope you realize that in a society that demonizes sign language like ours actually does under the veneer of caring about deaf people a 3 year old will never not be pushed away); the kids whose parents just thought they were doing well enough as is or could try harder and that would solve it all; these kids do not come out of this emotionally unscathed. they come out of this nervous wrecks who feel like crying anytime they have to ask someone too many times to repeat themselves.

auditory verbal therapy groups aren’t smarter about deaf issues, kinder about deaf issues, than deaf people. they create actual fucking little meme images where they don’t simply talk about the “necessity” of punishing deaf kids for failing, they laugh about it amongst each other.

these people willingly use information from the foundation named after the guy whose name was deeply associated with oralism, who didn’t want deaf people to intermarry to “keep the gene pool clean”, to tell everyone about how deaf kids are fine without sign language thanks to the wonders of auditory verbal therapy. they post shit like this.

people who have been mainstreamed spend the rest of their lives regretful that they’ve been kept away from other deaf people their entire lives, regretful that they’ve never learned sign language and instead have their language skills fried because they completely rewired themselves, hyperfocusing, to be able to hear just the people around them so they’d stop being yelled at, finally. they become more and more emotionally fragile around anything that makes them feel like they’re back to being lectured about how they say things funny or don’t understand sounds.

mainstreaming is fucking evil and the only reason you consider “fixing” it to be a good outcome for us is because you refuse to listen to any grown deaf people that didn’t come out of this golden

tldr: if you’re wondering why sharing “DEAF BABY HEARS FOR THE FIRST TIME” videos is bad and why deaf people hate you for it is because you are celebrating the very ideology that will lead to that kid being a regretful emotional wreck when they can finally understand “oh wait what i was actually given was a bunch of complexes to force me to pretend i’m functioning most of the time”

[loveisfree-kindnessisfree]

@sydnerella714 this explains my thoughts on implants well 😊

[boutella]

Gael García Bernal’s speaking onstage as a presenter of the 89th Annual Academy Awards 2017.

[kit-harington]

iconic moment.

[annieelainey]

The Future is Accessible!!

End the segregation between non-disabled & disabled folx #EndAbleism #EndDisabilityErasure

Include disabled women, disabled PoC, disabled LGBT+, disabled people of diverse faiths, disabled immigrants, and disabled chronically & terminally ill!

The revolution must be accessible and it must protect those whose lives are at stake! For some their survival is their activism! Accessibility now!

[Photo: black and white full body portrait of Annie in her wheelchair wearing an all black ensemble and reflective sunglasses, wearing fingerless black pleather gloves as she adjusts them. Text reads, “The Future is Accessible”]

[library-mermaid-blog]

On Holocaust Remembrance Day, this twitter account is posting the names and photos (when available) of refugees turned away from America who became victims of Naziism. #NoBanNoWall #RefugeesWelcome 

(Please leave this caption in place.)

[snatchingyofav-deactivated20180]

KESHA WON THE CASE 🎉🎊🎈

[espikvlt]

OH MY GOD. YES, BABY, YES. I AM SO HAPPY. I WAS THERE FOR HER WHEN TIK TOK CAME OUT AND EVERYONE TREATED HER LIKE SHIT AND I AM HERE FOR HER NOW. YES YES YESSSS

[piratequeennina]

But like let’s talk about this for a minute? She just fucking won a major court battle against her abuser, like you go babe, tick tock round the clock and brush your teeth with a bottle of jack. She also won against the people who kept her abuser in a position of power over her. Like this is such a big deal. She gets to make music again and that’s awesome, but she’s a fucking rockstar for a whole host of other reasons.

[myrosecolouredgirl]

Remember this. Remember that the acting Attorney General was fired for saying “this law is illegal and I will not enforce it”

[gettyb]

“I am responsible for ensuring that the positions we take in court remain consistent with this institution’s solemn obligation to always seek justice and stand for what is right,” Ms. Yates wrote in a letter to Justice Department lawyers. “At present, I am not convinced that the defense of the executive order is consistent with these responsibilities nor am I convinced that the executive order is lawful.” - S. YATES

[trammelsb]

We are not alone

Women’s March on Washington -

Amsterdam

BARCELONA, SPAIN

BERLIN, GERMANY

LONDON

LYON, FRANCE

MALAWI!

NAIROBI

Rome

Sydney, Australia

Vienna

[cravings]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[overpricedvodka]

(Twitter)

President Velveeta plagiarized his inauguration cake.

A. Cake.

This is real life.

[ororomunroedontpullout]

They took the man’s cake design like they are so low down

[taffylemonknees-deactivated2018]

EVERYONE IS MISSING THE BEST GOSH DANG PART OF THIS STORY

THEY DONATED ALL THE PROFITS TO HRC!!

[dragkingandreweldritch]

it’s cool that the bakery also gave a shoutout to the original cake designer

like they absolutely knew how shady this whole thing was and managed to handle it in the best way possible

[miracufic]

Update on #cakegate.

[librarianbyday]

I came to learn that women have never had a history or culture of leisure. (Unless you were a nun, one researcher later told me.) That from the dawn of humanity, high status men, removed from the drudge work of life, have enjoyed long, uninterrupted hours of leisure. And in that time, they created art, philosophy, literature, they made scientific discoveries and sank into what psychologists call the peak human experience of flow. Women aren’t expected to flow. I read feminist leisure research (who knew such a thing existed?) and international studies that found women around the globe felt that they didn’t deserve leisure time. It felt too selfish. Instead, they felt they had to earn time to themselves by getting to the end of a very long To Do list. Which, let’s face it, never ends. I began to realise that time is power. That time is a feminist issue.

Brigid Schulte: Why time is a feminist issue (via librarianbyday)

My father, an activist and artist, told me I wouldn’t be able to be an artist when I had kids, because I would have to give all my time and energy to them.

This was said in 2005 when I was pregnant with my first child. 

And I have also been told on this very site that I had no right to have opinion, outside interests, or write because I should be taking care of my children. This was said, most recently, in November 2016, by a woman who claims to be interested in the rights of women. 

Let’s think about what that means.

(via toospoopyformyshirt)

TIME IS A FEMINIST ISSUE.

(via springsnotfail)