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Bucky Barnes

I don’t want to hurt you (ongoing)

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[ellemcu]

I don't want to hurt you ( Bucky X hydra reader

Chapter 9

Words 1160

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You jolted awake breathless, your eyes darting around the room, your chest heaving .

You choked on air as your lungs refused to breathe in. You slowly lifted your light hands to your chest, desperately trying to breathe, scrunching up the sweater you had woken up in. A single tear rolled down your cheek as you were on the edge of fainting. Your poor body reacting to your awful nightmare, turning on her survival mode. Your eyes couldn't focus on anything in the room and the only thing that you could hear was your loud and quick heartbeat, blood flowing towards your lungs only to find that there’s no oxygen. A small whimper escaped your lips while your mind was reliving your nightmare, forcing yourself to keep your eyes open to not go back to that awful place.

You let out a quiet sob, so quiet it made no sound, as you finally gave up.

“Y/n" a loud voice in your head spoke, you recognized that voice immediately, FRIDAY. “Y/n, please” you shifted on the floor, clawing at your neck. “Y/n listen to me.” the AI spoke with a slightly urgent tone. “Breathe in with me. “ In the background your  a small vent  and air burst out of it. " Do it with me, please miss Y/n.” You forced your eyes open and you opened your dry mouth. “Miss Y/n I’m going to need you to do it now, your body is going into shock.” the AI spoke with a slightly begging tone. You could hear “her vents” let in and out air but you were unable to do the same.

You suddenly felt a tingly sensation in your brain as you gasped for air. Something in your brain clicked and you inhaled sharply and then coughed roughly. It went on like this for a few minutes until you finally reached a panting pace.

You sighed heavily, confused for all that had happened. After a few minutes of silence you finally spoke up. “Friday, how did you do that?” The AI stayed silent for a couple of seconds before answering back. “ I’m sorry miss Y/n I really didn’t mean to invade any of your privacy but as you were sleeping you were showing clear signs of distress so I scanned your body immediately, as a safety protocol, and thankfully you woke up although I think your dream was too real for your mind to comprehend that you had woken up. On your file it says you can read minds and so, although with great difficulty, I entered your mind, that's how you could hear me. I had called you several times out loud but you gave no sign of hearing me. I must say you have a very intricate mind.” you exhaled deeply, still processing everything. “Thank you Friday.” you breathed out. “No problem, Miss Y/n” she answered sweetly. “Do you want me to study those symptoms more accurately, maybe I could help you or should I alert Agent Barnes?” she asked. You thought for a moment before replying “No thanks Friday, please don’t disturb agent Barnes. Besides I’m sure it won’t happen again.” you lied. Of course they were going to happen again, they’ve been happening all your life, sometimes they’re easier and you catch your breath after a few minutes, others are a bit rougher, they knock you out and bring you back to that dreaded darkness. But of course things aren’t going to change are they? So, you either face them alone or tell someone and they’ll use it against you or worse, they’ll give you more things to have nightmares about.

You shuddered at the thought of telling someone your thoughts as you lied on the floor. “What time is it?” you asked friday quickly. “It is currently 2.03 am.” she answered back. You contemplated for a while about what you should do and sleep was certainly not one of them. You ended up deciding to train. Your master would always train you at this time of day for several hours, you had accustomed to this routine and it didn’t seem that bad especially because training was all you ever did, well except for killing. That’s what you are: a trained, killing machine. Nothing more. Nothing less

“Friday, is there by any chance an empty gym that no one ever uses that I could use?” you questioned trying to not sound too suspicious (P.S. failing terribly), noticing the hoodie you were wearing, distinctly remembering that you had fallen asleep in your sports bra. “Yes the gym on level -3 is empty” the AI spoke calmly. “Um… FRIDAY- whose is this?” you mumbled, pinching the sweater. “That sweater is Natasha Romanoff’s. She had left it here for you and while you were asleep your body temperature dropped so I slid it on you. 

You stood up slowly, rubbing your eyes lightly. “Are there any shoes I could use?” you asked, not having any other choice. “On your right, there’s a walk-in closet, you should find some shoes there.” she spoke while opening the shudders, letting the moonlight shine inside the room.

You hesitantly turned to your right, finding a small handle on the wall. You pushed it down and a door opened. The biggest wardrobe you had ever seen was displayed in front of you, well not that you had seen many.  You gazed at all of the shirts and hoodies that had been neatly folded and placed in drawers. You quickly noticed a low shelf which held different type of shoes. You knew none of the brands but you spotted immediately a pair of neon yellow shoes with a black sole and black laces. They were so pretty, not really your type because of how flashy they were but you couldn't deny how comfortable they looked. They looked perfect for training so you picked them up and slipped them on. 

You quietly walked out of the closet after having put on a pair of black leggings you had found in a drawer, which were slightly baggy, and an oversized grey hoodie because you didn't wanna ruin the one Friday had put on you.

The corridor lights flickered on as you lightly paced across it, not making a sound. " Friday, what time is it?" You whispered, hoping that Friday had heard you. " It is currently 2:34 am miss Y/l/n" she answered back, whispering too.

It was slightly inconvenient but you would have to make do. You decided to do what you would do at HYDRA in 36 intense hours, non stop, in just 5 hours.

You waited patiently for the elevator and walked in it once the metal doors had slid open, clicking the -3 button. " Friday, you 100% that no one ever uses this gym and that everyone's asleep?" You gulped. " Positive" she whispered as the metal doors slid closed.

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Hii sorry it's taking so long In truly sorry, my phone broke so I've been writing everything on paper and it takes so much time to copy everything from paper onto the computer. Tell me what you think!! Hope you like it :)

Elle

[ellemcu]

I don’t want to hurt you

Chapter 8

Word count: 1122 words

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You walked into an elevator and you stood in the corner, not wanting to be too close to James, just in case. “Agent Barnes, who is this other human form?” a female robotic voice boomed out of nowhere. In a blink of an eye you were already in a defensive position, with your fists raised to your chest, ready to attack anyone who came too close. You glanced around the tight space while James stared at you, waiting for you to calm down. “Don’t worry Fri, she’s a friend. She’s part of us now.” he spoke out. You looked at him with a very confused expression on your face. “ Listen I know you said you were all messed up here but I didn’t really think you’d talk to the walls. WHO APPARENTLY SPEAKS TOO!” you told him sincerely. He chuckled quietly and tapped the wall with his finger. “This is FRIDAY “ he answered calmly as if that answered my question completely. “ And what is a, um, FRIDAY?” You questioned, genuinely curious. “You should really ask Stark cuz I mean I know the basic stuff like its an AI but I really don’t know what AI stands for and this really doesn’t bother me cuz I don’t have to be incharge of it ya know?” he mumbled quickly, trying to answer my question, but trying not to confuse me too much. “Know what? You can ask her later. She’ll be more than happy to answer any type of question.” You nodded with a smirk on your face, amazed by how hard he was trying to not make you feel dumb for not knowing.

You closed your eyes, the name he said  triggering something in your mind. You were determined to not show him your weaknesses so you pushed that annoying thought to the back of your head and cracked your neck. James looked at you with a worried expression, noticing something in your clicking. Just as he was about to say something the metal doors finally slid open and you walked out of the small space. He quickly followed and got back to leading the way.

He reached the end of the corridor and turned to his right. “Oka, so this is my room.” he said pointing to a black door with a silver door knob. “And this is your room.” he said, turning to your left, pointing to a black door opposite his. “Just in case you need anything, don’t hesitate to come to me.” he spoke out before smiling at you. “Thank you James:” you answered back to him. “Call me Bucky:” he said with a smirk while walking into his room and closing his door, leaving you alone in the corridor, your room waiting to be explored.

 You breathed in deeply before slowly twisting the door knob, the door opening smoothly. You stepped inside and the lights automatically turned on, showing a neatly made king-sized bed, a big white marble bathroom in one end of the room and a very long stained glass window showing the astonishing view of the black sky, painted with stars. The big city surrounding the compound, filled with small lights coming from different lampposts. You were mesmerized by the view when you noticed that the windows led to a small balcony.

You walked towards the window and slid the window open silently. You stepped on the smooth concrete floor, the cold air of the night hitting your warm face sending shivers down your spine. You breathed in the fresh air, your lungs finally breathing a full deep breath of fresh air for the very first time. You slowly lowered yourself on the concrete floor  and brought your knees to your chest. The light breeze moving your hair out of your face made you feel at peace: finally your inner war with yourself paused for a few minutes, nothing bothering you, your mind completely blank. You matched your breathing pace with the wind's flow and time became uncountable, endless. You felt free.

After a few hours you left the apartment to explore the room again. Once you stepped into the room the same robotic voice spoke out calmly. “Hello! I’m FRIDAY. Such a pleasure to finally meet you. Again:” You looked around yourself, fists raised again. “ Again?” you questioned . “ That information is classified.” She answered back coldly. After a few minutes of silence she spoke up again,” So what is your name?” you cleared your throat, not used to this much talking in one day: “ Um I’m Y/n, I guess. Y/n Y/l/n” you replied unsure if you should tell her your real name. “Y/n Y/l/n. The shadow. Belongs to HYDRA. Abilities. manipulating minds. Is that right” she asked innocently. “Yeah that's me.” you mumbled.

The AI kept talking, something about welcoming you and all the stuff she could do but you were busy trying to restrain your mind from wandering too much. Flashbacks of rough training sessions and missions flooded your brain. 

You stumbled on the floor, painting heavily, trying to stop your emotions from getting the better of you. You crawled on the floor, frantically trying to stop your mind from torturing you further. You sat down on the floor from your crawling position and felt tears stream down your face.

You forced yourself to breathe and decided to take your usual solution to your breakdowns : turning off your emotions.

 It would usually last for a few hours before the barrier would break and your emotions would gain control again. After years of being emotionally abused you learned how to control your emotions and when needed, you could turn them off completely.

You exhaled slowly before standing up again, your mind blank. You looked out your room, studying every inch of it. You then spotted a small corner in the wide room, it was the one farthest from the door. It was just perfect. 

You had spent your whole life living in dirty and unhygienic rooms. No bed, no windows, no carpets, no nothing. So you got used to sleeping on the floor,on your own and in the dark. Beds were far too squishy rather than the hard, cold floor. Your body completely rejected them. You sat down, leaning on the wall and burying your head in your legs. You inhaled sharply and closed your eyes.

 You hadn’t slept in a week and the tiredness had started to come out. You hated sleeping but you forced yourself to rest, even if that meant living in literal hell. Even if it would last for a few hours, in your nightmares time felt endless. You slowly drifted into an uneasy sleep, hoping your body would recharge soon. 

**************************** Hi I’m really sorry if the story is so slow. I gonna keep writing though, maybe make shorter chapters like this but more frequently. Idk tell me what you think. Oh and I have some very important tests this month so if the story gets a bit boring or um anything please excuse me.

I’m literally loving this story and I really want to keep on writing it. Sorry if its taking so long! elle 

[ellemcu]

Chapter 7

Words: 1584

Warnings: swearing

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You quietly groaned as your eyes fluttered open. There was a hard pounding in your head and your whole body was aching and burning. You slowly lifted your wrist only to be stopped by some chains. You quickly raised your head from the bed you were lying in, trying desperately to get off it. Your arms and legs had been strapped onto the floor and you were dressed in your black sports bra and your matching black shorts.

You started panicking, not remembering how you’d gotten here and what was going to happen. Flashbacks of old memories as a kid in HYDRA flooded your mind, drowning your every other thought. As a kid, you would often wake up in a room just like this. Handlers coming in the room and torturing you in all sorts of ways.

You whimpered quietly while you tried to get up from the bed, your whole body aching. You slowly stood up, the chains on your wrists starting to dig deep into your skin. You felt slightly lightheaded but you kept blinking it off, not trusting your surroundings. Your knees buckled and you crashed on the ground with a thud.

You were panting on the floor, slowly moving into a sitting position against the metal leg of your bed. You breathed heavily, trying not to fall unconscious.

After a while, your body started shaking violently. It had already happened at HYDRA after your body had gone through too much for it to handle which meant days of training non-stop.

It was very inconvenient because this was the most vulnerable position you had ever found yourself in and you couldn’t bring yourself to stop. You lied down on the floor rocking yourself at a slow pace to stop yourself from shaking even more. Your breaths became uneven and you didn’t know how to stop.

After what seemed like hours of shaking the bolted door flew open and three men with white lab coats walked in, each carrying silver cases in their hands. You had horrible memories with scientists. Doctors had always taken their anger out on you, torturing you after you fell unconscious several times in a row, pushing your body over the edge after a brainwash, just because I couldn’t fight back.

You eyed them very closely, still shaking violently, while they came closer to you. Without saying a word they started taking out their shiny suitcases, long needles. You shook your head, trying desperately to back away from them. One of them grabbed your ankles, trying to stop you from shaking and another one grabbed the chain that was tied to your wrist, tugging at it harshly. You winced in pain “No” you whimpered, while another man had wrapped his hand around your throat. “ Please.” you whispered desperately, fighting against the man’s pull. “No…… no……. please…… no…… please…...stop” you begged, a tear falling from your eye. “Stop.” you whimper, not having enough energy to fight back.

The scientist was about to take a blood sample from you when a loud voice spoke. You were too busy being choked by one of the doctors to actually hear it but the doctor froze in his spot. “Hey dumb ass you heard her. Back off.” the male voice shouted. Two of the doctors immediately got up but the one choking you still kept his tight grip on your neck. “ You really sure you wanna do that? Huh?”: The man swallowed slowly and stood up, they grabbed their things and left the room in a hurry.

You breathed in quickly, your lungs finally getting fresh air. You coughed loudly and rubbed your hands on your wrists, trying to ease the pain. A tall man walked into the room after they were all gone. A tall man that you immediately recognized: James. You crawled as far away as your body and chains let you, trying to gain control over your body again.

He slowly walked towards you with his hands raised, showing that he wasn’t armed although you weren’t gonna fall for that trap again.

You closed your eyes, concentrating on your uneven breaths. After a few seconds you opened your eyes again, only to find yourself in a small room, surrounded by tall, black walls. You finally felt at peace, your body no longer aching, no more shaking. You felt your body completely freeze (idk it's like a coma but you’re in a different place its like your inside your mind. Idek if it makes sense. Stranger things for reference.) You calmed your panted breaths and regained your brain’s control.

You woke up with a jolt. James' face was covered with a confused look. “What have you done?” you snarled. “Listen, I know what you’ve been through but-” he answered calmly, but you quickly interrupted him, scoffing at his words. “ Boy, you have no fucking clue.” you mumbled. “Listen Y/n you may not know who I am because they never made us meet. They were too afraid. We would have been unstoppable together” he replied, closing his eyes as if he was trying to forget something. “ Uh uh. Sure. I’ll take that.” you answered back, not wanting to piss him off because this was the longest conversation you had ever held with someone and you were dying to see where it was going to end. “If you’re going to hurt me, could you please use one of the first 12 methods, I’m really tired of counting new ways to torture me after 1682.” you whispered knowing that HYDRA handlers couldn’t care less but what you didn’t know was that with Bucky’s super-hearing he had heard every single word and his heart broke.

As the Winter Soldier he had heard so much about you. They constantly compared her to him which amazed him greatly, he had heard that she was unbeatable, unpredictable and impossibly well trained. No one survived your missions. Ever. He had also found out that HYDRA’s men took pleasure from touting her, brain washing her and training her for hours non stop until she would faint 6 / 7 times. They forced her to go unconscious to take advantage of her. He was absolutely disgusted.

He had been through a lot and getting out of that infinite hole had been extremely hard but you had been through way more and for a longer period of time, getting out of it alive was going to be a hard challenge.

“What do you mean?” he questioned gruffly, determined to not show too many emotions, knowing you were able to manipulate any living thing. You didn’t say anything back, scared for your own safety, knowing too well a harsh beating would be coming soon. “You are going to stay here,” he announces. “And I’m going to help you.” You looked at him with wide eyes. Sometimes the moment in which after 20 years you were finally going to be free. Finally eat a full meal, walk outside, drink water without having to worry if its poisoned or not. That thought had ran across your mind a few times, briefly though before being cut off and silenced by brainwashing.

You scoffed silently “Yeah sure why would you wanna do that huh? Why would you wanna help a fucked up, high-skilled assassin like me?"You looked straight into his steel blue eyes. “ Because why not? I mean we’re all messed up here. What difference will one more fucked up person make?” He answered back, offering his hand out to you to help you stand.

You quickly stood up but lost your balance so you ended up putting your whole weight on the nearest wall. “What did you put in me?” you whispered, more to yourself rather than him. “It's to help you with all the drugs they fed you. It's supposed to bring back your strength.” He shrugged. “This burns like hell.” you whimpered, stretching your numb legs. You wiggled your wrists, showing him the chains you were still tied to. He nodded and the chains crumbled to the ground. You both made your way out of the room and found yourself walking across an empty corridor. “What's up with everything?” you questioned, not understanding why the corridor was so homey-looking. “Oh, don’t worry we just thought you’d wanna be with someone you trust at first and… um I guess as I’ve been in a similar situation, I wanted to help you too”. He answered calmly. You looked at him deeply “I guess they’re all fucking terrified of me aren't they?” He didn’t answer you. “Well I wouldn’t blame them” you mumble under your breath. “And um what makes you think I trust you?” You question with a cold stare. “Why aren’t you scared of me?” you questioned quietly.

The man walking beside you was different. His way of thinking amazed you. It was different. He didn’t see you as a poor captured girl, a very mentally unstable woman with a very insane mind. Not a girl with severe PTSD and anxiety nor a highly trained assassin with no backstory except HYDRA.

“Nothing scares me anymore. Besides I don’t see why I should be afraid of you:” He answered slowly, a small smirk making its way on your face.

"We'll see about the trust thing dude"

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I am truly so sorry that I've kept you waiting for so long. A lot has happened and I really couldn't keep on writing. I've missed it tho lol. I hope this makes up for it. This wasn't exactly what I was going for but I don't really hate it so I'll just go with the flow and idk we'll see. Oh and if you have any suggestion for what could happen please don't hesitate to text me!!!

Elle

[ellemcu]

I don’t want to hurt you

Chapter 6 

words:1464

warnings: none

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You were walking past many people and receiving many stares. The man you were now under his control and whose name was unknown to you kept walking towards the exit. You finally get out of the building and a big jet is there outside, waiting for you to get on it.

A bridge lowers itself towards the ground and you climb on top of it. The man walked in front of you and sat down on one of the seats, you just stood there waiting for further instructions, staring blankly at the floor and staying as still as possible. The rest of the team climbed on the jet, well Natasha and Steve. The jet turned on and started flying. The ride was awkward but you weren’t paying attention to that because you started feeling dizzy but you forced yourself to stand still. Your brain was reprogramming again and The Shadow was losing its constant fight against y/n y/l/n, just temporarily though. You closed your eyes and sighed deeply, trying to numb the pain. All eyes were on you and you quickly opened your eyes as Y/n. You took a shaky breath and looked around, the man was no longer sitting in his seat but was standing alert, not sure what was happening to you. You cracked your neck and forced yourself to speak, say anything, just anything that will make them understand that it's you and not The Shadow. You said, with a low and broken voice, “It left:”. Your voice cracked but you saw the man you had been controlled by letting his guard down, understanding what you meant. “Steve, it's her. It's not The Shadow anymore”. they both lowered the weapons they had raised and sat back down. You didn’t take your eyes off them as they kept eye contact with you. “This is James, I’m Natasha and this blonde guy, this is Steve” the lady called Natasha said with a calm tone. You gave them a cold stare, not knowing what to say. After a few minutes of staring at each other, you let out a shaky breath and sat on the floor quietly, resting your head on the wall. You were thinking about everything that had just happened and about where they were taking you. Your breaths became shorter and quieter as your heartbeat quickened. You were starting to overthink again and now was not the time to show total strangers your weaknesses. “Where are you bringing me?” You questioned with a low tone, trying to mask how panicked you were. “ Don’t worry, you’re safe now,” James said sitting back down in his seat. “They can’t get to you.” he went on. You let out a shaky sigh and wondered what was going to happen.

After half an hour the jet landed and they all exited the jet, you followed. Natasha was staring at your every move very closely but what she didn’t know was that you were looking very carefully at all of their moves, contemporarily. All of the slightest details were being shoved in your brain, hopefully, they would be useful, you never know what might happen.

You entered a massive compound and walked towards what looked like a meeting room. You could see people were inside the room from a distance, probably waiting for you. Steve opened the door and you walked in, still confused as hell about the whole situation. You made eye contact with every single person in the room. That was the first thing HYDRA taught you: make your targets uneasy, look at them straight in the eyes, without showing emotion but understanding theirs in a heartbeat.

“Make them feel what you want them to feel. Scared or uneasy.” Your handler used to say. He used to question you every day and after days of beating because you showed hesitation you knew by heart every answer to his questions. After years of training, you could make anyone feel troubled and anxious with just one look. Your handler made you train on real people when you were just 5 years old but you didn’t think any of it because you thought it was normal.

You snapped out of your daze when a man you knew too well started talking. “Well, she wants us all dead. Why the fuck is she here?”. You looked up at him but he was staring at Steve. “I don’t know ask Bucky” Steve shrugged. “Listen I know this sounds bad and she is a threat to all of us but we can fix her and trust me we need her on the team,” James said in a firm tone. “If you let me go I’ll gladly be on my way. I can go home and I won’t give you much trouble”. Everyone looks at you with a shocked expression. “How the fuck does she know English? I thought she knew Russian and Spanish, not English. That’s why I thought she was in here because she couldn’t understand what we were going to say. And if I may ask what’s so special about her? I mean she fights pretty well but that’s pretty much it right?” Anthony Stark says anxiously while you scoff at his question. “Stark, She’s HYDRA’s number 1 asset. Hell, she’s better than THE winter soldier. She knows more than 20 languages and aces more abilities than you can think of. God, she might even be able to bring a whole country down on her own because of how she was trained. I would not underestimate her, trust me.”. You smirk at his words keeping eye contact with Steve making him unbelievably uncomfortable. James notices quickly my actions and speaks up. “Nobody look at her!” but everyone’s attention is turned to me. 

You can feel your heartbeat speed up because of all the unwanted attention so you break eye contact with Steve. “Why Barnes? I mean sure she’s malnourished and hurt but are you sure she’s the one?” a guy with a bow in his hand questioned. As soon as the attention went back to him and James I let out a few shaky breaths, determined not to show them my weaknesses. “Hell yeah, I’m sure she’s the best hitman there is. She NEVER failed a mission. EVER.” you gulped hard not sure where this conversation was going.” I don’t know man, I still don’t trust her.” Anthony Stark said. “ okay listen as much as I agree with you I think Buckys right. C’mon man I mean look at her she might be the world’s best assassin but HYDRA’s all she’s ever known” Steve said with a slightly hesitant tone. “I think she needs help” A woman with long dark brown hair mumbled.

 Your head shot up to see who had made that last comment, as soon as you made eye contact with her you got into her head, reading her thoughts. You were desperately trying to find any of her weaknesses and to your luck you found plenty. “Stop.” She said clearly in your mind. “We really want to help you.” You were still searching through her mind while she was talking to you through your mind. “We will help you if you aren’t a threat, do you have any clue to who we are?” you scoffed out loud while everyone else in the room was arguing about what they were going to do to you. “Have you got any idea as to who I am?” you asked her through her mind. She shook her head as you came back to the world. (ya know cuz like you zone out when you read minds Idk if it makes sense).

“Listen, we helped bucky, Steve knew her.” the brunette said. ”Nah, I only knew her mother” Steve corrected her. “whatever, we gotta help her too, You have no idea what she’s gone through.” she goes on. “Ok fine whatever we got space. Who wants to help her?”. Stark questioned. “Nah it’s fine I don’t need help, and I don’t need to stay here. Now I’ll be on my way:” you said standing up from the chair you had been sitting in. “Hold up, you need help whether you like it or not,” James said with a calm tone. You completely ignored him and walked out of the room. Steve grabbed your arm right before you could walk out but with your fast reflexes, you twisted his harm and pushed it against him, making him fall on the ground.

You walked out of the compound but before you could start running towards the nearest airport (cuz like it’s easy for you cuz you have super speed and all that jazz) you blacked out completely. Your knees buckled and you fell on the hard ground, unconscious.

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I’m so sorry it took so long but here it is finally!! To be honest I don’t even know if I like this chapter that much cuz it’s not really how I wanted it to be. Please tell me what you think and if you have any requests or like any opinion don’t be afraid to tell me! elle

[ellemcu]

I don’t wanna hurt you

Chapter 5: Trust you? Again?

Part 1 \\ Part 2 \\ Part 3 \\ Part 4 \\

Word count: 1685

Warnings:Panic attack, swearing

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You slowly opened your eyes, feeling numb all over your body. Everything was blurry and your nerves felt as if someone was stabbing them repeatedly. You groaned and struggled to keep your eyes open. After a few minutes, memories of everything that had happened flooded your brain and you sat up quickly. You were in a small room with 4 white walls and one big mirror, which was obviously double sided, after all the years you had been stuck in a small room, being studied on, this was nothing new. 

You drew your gaze where you were sitting and you were lying on a small plain bed. Your whole life you had slept on the grubby floor and this new sensation was awful. You rapidly stood up but as soon as you put your whole weight on your knees they buckled and you tumbled on the floor. But you were determined to get out of this place because you need to go back to HYDRA, the more time you’re away the more pain they’ll inflict on you, the more they’ll train you until you don’t have enough energy to even breathe. You need to go back, at any cost.

 You slowly stood up again and ran towards the mirror and banged your fists on it, so harshly that blood started to draw. You kept on banging until you couldn’t feel your arms anymore so you stepped backwards until your back met the wall. You slowly slid down it until you sat down, bringing your knees to your chest, trying to catch your breath. You weren’t even tired but the more time you spent in this damn room the more your brain thought about all the possible ways you were gonna be punished. You were gonna kill every single person without thinking twice about it if it meant to go back home

 You felt as if your lungs had stopped working and breathing was becoming really difficult. You rocked yourself while trying uselessly to even out your small, choked breathes. Your mind was racing and suddenly, irritated by your whole situation you reached out your hand and slowly raised it, telepathically, bringing your bed with it. You made your bed float through the air, slightly tilting your head with a cold stare until you swiftly moved your hand towards the double sided mirror. 

The bed crashed into the mirror, making the whole room vibrate. You were sure that the glass was not made to be broken but with your super hearing you heard a slight crack. That was enough to make you stand up and accumulate more power. Your (e/c) started to turn purple and red sparks started to escape your hands. You swiftly lifted the bed and started to slam it against the mirror. After a few powerful strikes the glass shattered and what was on the other side kinda shocked you. 

You inhaled deeply and cracked your neck, a small smirk formed on your face as you took a step towards your new exit. On the other side there was a room full of computers and strange looking machines that made your shiver. You looked around thoroughly but the room was completely empty, there was no sign of any threat. Just as you were starting to let your guard down a door flung open. You froze and waited for someone to come in. Staring deeply into the door a man appeared. He was a tall, bald man with a black eye patch on his left eye. He slowly walked towards you, raising his hands to show he didn’t have weapons but you obviously saw through that after seeing a pocket knife he had strapped on his knife. You still hadn’t moved and were looking very carefully at his every move. “ Listen Y/N I’m Nick Fury and I know you must be feeling scared “ he stated while you scoffed at his comment, YOU scared? PLEASE-. “ Or you might be feeling uncomfortable because you feel like you need to get back to HYDRA” he continued as you looked at him with a confused look. “Listen I just want to help you,” he said, offering his hand out to you. You looked at him “ That's the same damn thing your friend told me and look at me now.” you murmured. “ Listen I don’t wanna fight because you are not my mission but if you are gonna stop me just know that nothing can stop me from going home”. You growled. You were about to leave when Steve walked in “I get it, I really do but listen”. You hadn’t stopped walking, you were tired of listening to these dumb people.” I knew you mom” he continued. You stopped dead in your tracks: “Yea, she was a lovely lady, extremely smart” he went on. “And I know for a fact that she trusted me, we were buddies, so please trust me. Just once. Please” he sounded so desperate. “You think I should trust you?Again? What, so you’re doing all this for what? Trying to help me? trying to help me not go back to what you think is wrong? Dude I don’t think you understand.” You answered in a low growl. Suddenly you felt a sharp pain in your skull, but it wasn’t external; it was as if your cells were reprogramming. You felt as if someone was crushing your skull while dividing your brain into their smallest atoms. You knew this feeling too well. It was HYDRA turning you into their 

soldier. You were turning back to The Shadow. 

You breathed in deeply and opened your eyes though this time your expression was cold. Your mission was to kill everyone here. Every single person.

You stared at the floor for a couple of seconds before lifting your gaze towards Steve “ You did this?” he questioned not really understanding why you were staring at him. A smirk forming on your lips once again as you fisted Nick Fury's neck knocking him out completely. You grabbed a pocket knife and threw it with precision towards Steve. It hit his shoulder, just in the right angle to injure his muscle perfectly. You slowly got up and walked towards Steve who had fallen to the ground and was trying desperately to grab his shield even though it had slided away from him. Your eyes were emotionless as you telepathically choked Nick fury while pushing the knife from Steve’s shoulder up, towards his neck as slowly as possible. Everything was perfect, no time to lose. You were finally gonna go home. Out of the blue You heard a pair of boots run across the corridor towards you. You glanced at the door and there HE was. THAT muther fucker. You stood up, still moving the blade telepathically towards Steve’s neck while he squirmed helplessly. A woman came running in after the tall dude with red hair and a jet black suit. She raised her hand towards you, aiming to hit you with an electric shocking device, as if that was going to make a difference after all the electricity that had flown through your body. You scoffed at her action and stopped choking Nick Fury (he was about to die, just to say), you looked deep into her eyes and then turned your gaze towards the man you kept trying to kill, every time failing miserably. But this time his expression was different. You could read his emotions easily, which was impossible a few months ago and his eyes had a different look to them, not easily noticeable but if you paid enough attention to someone, like the highly trained assassin you are, it was easily detectable. After a few seconds of staring deep into his soul, his expression changed, now he was surely worried. “Natasha freeze” He shouted at the red head. “Barnes she is gonna kill us, what the fuck is wrong with you?” she murmured back to him, still keeping her wrist high. ”She’s under their control. She.. she doesn’t understand”. he shouted quickly back at her. “ Just let me deal with this” he continued quickly as you were about to attack Natasha. You understood completely what they were saying but you weren’t reacting in any way. You lunged towards Natasha and she tried to dodge your attack but she was way too slow for your quickness. You twisted her arm and pulled her on the floor, pulling out the knife that was in Steve’s collarbone, blood gushing out as you brought it to her main artery. You were about to stab her neck when the all in black dude said in a clam voice “Soldat. Stop.” you recognized that voice. The Shadow recognized that voice and froze. “I’ve heard a great deal about you. We even met but I don’t think you remember now, do you?”. You didn’t dare look him in the eyes. You never could  make eye contact with your handler at HYDRA so you kept eye contact with the floor. “Now stand up.” he said clearly. You listened and stood up from  Natasha and stood by her side. “Barnes how the fuck did you do that?”. You finally looked up at him, trying desperately to be able to see his next moves before he hurt you. He walked towards you and said in a steady voice. “Now follow me (Y/N), I know you’re in there.”. You nodded, following his orders as he walked out of the room and you followed.

 In the corner of your eye you could see Natasha run to Steve but you couldn’t disobey this man, even though you had no idea who he was, you were fully aware of what he was capable of.

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omg I’m really so sorry it took so long but school has been killing me. I know this is being very slow but I promise once we’re in the compound it will be so much better. I really hope you like it and if you wanna be tagged or you have any request on any sort just send it!

elle.

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[ellemcu]

I don’t want to hurt you (bucky x reader)

Part 1 \\ Part 2 \\ Part 3

Part 4  A different HYDRA

Word count: 2382

Warnings: sexual assault,cursing, gruseom deaths:),semi naked,

ATTENTION: THIS COULD TRIGGER SOMEONE and for personal reasons I am not going to be writing it in full detail the delicate subject, if you wanna keep on reading though just not that bit imma put asterisks when it begins and ends, there is no problem, I understand completely.

You felt a hand being placed on your cheek, smudging away something liquidy that had dripped down your cheek. Before you could open your eyes, the warmth of the hand quickly vanished and a hard punch hit your cheekbone followed quickly by another punch only this time on your temple. Now you realized what that liquid was and you shot your eyes open.

At first everything was blurry, a strong light shining over you but after few seconds your eyesight got used to it and your eyes darted around for wherever the fuck you were. That’s when you noticed a tall man standing in front of you, wearing a military camouflage suit with a very irritating smirk on his face. He lowered his head, slowly reaching your level of hight since you were strapped on a chair ”Добро пожаловать, милая, или, лучше сказать, хладнокровный убийца, Гидре.(welcome sweetheart or should i say cold blooded murderer, to HYDRA)” he whispered in your ear. You shook your head and rattled your chains just to see if they were really firm and they just rattled. You shook your body until you stopped dead in your tracks. You swallowed, hard, and lifted your head slowly to look around the room you were in. 

You were not in a room. You were in the middle of a gigantic open space, surrounded by footbridges and staircases that led to thousands of cells, more like cages, but they were all empty. All of their prisoners, or soldiers were standing right infront of you. They were staring at your bloody and bruised body as if they were enjoying it, as if you were on display for them. You looked down and saw your pants had been ripped ( idk like now they’ve become shorts) and you were only in a sports bra, leaving your skinny but muscular body showing. 

You were not ashamed of your body(bc you are perfect and yes i'm talking to you, not Y/N in my story, YOU and you are just perfect just the way u are, please never change, please<3) but the thing that worried you the most was that you were completely covered in blood, some wasn’t even yours but most of it was yours and it was gushing out from deep cuts that were everywhere. Your whole body ached and breathing was becoming very hard. You looked back at the whole crowd that was standing in front of you, searching for someone you recognized. I mean you were at hydra. You scanned the crowd and then made eye contact with the all-in-black dude you had tried to kill, holding a cloth on his neck.”So I did hit him after all” you mumbled under your breath. 

You were tired of being at the center of attention and were starting to want some answers. The man wearing the camouflage suit was standing behind you, this was your chance so you turn your chair facing him and you kick his shin. He groans in pain and leans over his leg and you knock him out cold using your head against his. You stand up on the chair and sat back down with force causing the chair to break.

You did that so quickly that by the time you were standing up, ready to fight the whole crowd was still looking at you with wide eyes. You smirk and crack your neck, ready to bring down other guards(damn, your cool as fuck) You squint your eyes trying to see any guards coming your way and lock eyes with the soldier you had tried to kill. His eyes were full of worry but at the same time his expression was cold, you were lost in those steel blue eyes but before you knew it s man grabbed your arms. You immediately reacted and jumped backwards on top of his shoulders. You punched his face a few times until you cracked his neck and he fell to the floor. you jumped off him before he hit the ground and searched for any guns or knives you could use since they had taken everything away from you but unfortunately you found nothing.

In the meantime the crowd of people started running in all directions, seizing the opportunity to escape this damn place. You were still under their control so that thought didn’t come to your mind. From all the chaos you started running towards the man you had killed. You ran up to him and you both started throwing punches and kicks (idk imagine your fight scene however you want :)) until you jumped on his back and swung yourself backwards making you both fall down. He hit his head and you took this chance to get on top of him with both of your knees on his sides, holding his metal arm with one of your hands and the other one was gripping his throat, your grip tightening by the second. He was trying in every way to move but your position was holding him unbelievably still. He was knocked out cold for sure but that wasn’t enough for you. You wanted him dead. Just a little bit more and he would’ve died but someone elbowed harshly your neck, pain once again flooding everywhere.

It distracted you so your grasp loosened as the man took a long and loud breath. You were about to choke whoever dared stopping you but someone pulled your hair, dragging you away from the man laying on the floor. You quickly turned your body around making the person holding your hair release his grip. You punched him in the chin, knocking him out dead. You were surrounded but that wasn’t going to stop you ,hell no. You took down 6 soldiers quickly but then a dozen charged towards you, making you stumble on the ground. They were all punching and kicking you senseless until one of them stuck a syringe in your arm and injected something in you, making you dizzy. “Great, here we go again.” you sated, locking eye contact with the man you wanna kill so bad. His eyes were filled with fear and something else you couldn’t quite understand: Then it all went black, again.

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You woke up with someone slapping you. Your eyes shot open as your reflexes kicked in and you shot your arm up only to be stopped by some leather straps. You groaned in annoyance and started looking around. You were in an oddly familiar room but it wasn’t quite the same. Then it hit you, you were surrounded by the same machines from your HYDRA. You breathing quickened until a man stepped in the room. ”Well soldier, it was about time you woke up.” he started. “You injured many of my most trained men, how did you do that?”he went on, your heart beating faster by the second. He started walking towards you and you spoke up,”(How long)сколько”. He snickered, “два месяца (two months)”. Fuck. He gotta be lying, you can’t have been out for 2 months, that's impossible but the way he looked at you told you otherwise. He was getting a bit too close though. ”запусти машины, я буду наслаждаться этим (start the machines, i'm gonna enjoy this).” he said with a calm expression which was not reassuring. A scientist pressed a big red button and electricity started running in your body again, only this time it was way stronger and blood was actually escaping your stained skin. You were shaking violently, screaming at the top of your lungs even though nobody could hear you. Your chest rising and lowering at an unimaginable pace. Just to add a bit of spice, some needles were injected in your muscles and shot something in your body making you numb but at the same time the pain became even more unbearable. The pain increased painfully slowly until it all came to a halt. The machines detached from your sensitive skin and you opened your eyes slowly, caching your breath. You were shacking uncontrollably and feared what the man was going to do to you next and just to your fucking luck the man was staing right infront of you with a grin on his face.

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As he stepped closer to you, you tried moving your arms but they were firmly strapped to your sides, he leaned over you and mumbled in your ear “Such a beautiful lady, with amazing skills, who wouldn’t fall for that?”he said tucking your hair back. “убирайся от меня (get the fuck away from me)” you warned him with an intimidating cold voice “ or I swear to god your gonna regret this, im gonna break every single bone in your body, watching you suffer and slowly rip your organs out of your body, painfully slow, starting from your eyes and ending with your heart all while you’re still alive.” you spoke up not liking one bit the position you found yourself in.

He grinned to the feistiness you had in you. He then started touching your body, in places you never wanted anyone to touch, though many already had. Tears were starting to develop in the brim of your eyes but you wouldn’t let them fall. Hell no, you wouldn’t give him the satisfaction of that. You had to stay strong, I mean it was soon all gonna end.

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It all came to an end as he stopped and nodded towards the scientist. He got up and stared at you, mesmerized by your beauty. The maschines started whirring and the electricity ran through your veins once again. but this time after the stress your body had gone through you weren’t sure if you could take the pain much longer. You were trembling when after, god knows how many hours later some guards untied you and carried you to a small cell. Your body was exhausted and needed a break but you knew that you didn’t have much time before they came back for you in the morning. You crawled in a ball against the wall and concentrated on your breathing, it was very shaky and you could only take short breaths because of your neck and rib bruises, which were probably internal too. You obviously couldn’t sleep, not after all that you had done, it would all come back so you concentrated on the sounds that could be heard outside your cell.

After a few minutes you heard gunshots and screaming, someone’s here. You stood up as quickly as possible looking around yourself to find anything you could use to protect yourself with and to your luck you found an old and rusty crowbar, but that'll do just fine. You picked it up and placed both hands on it, ready to harm anyone that came too close to you. You heard footsteps coming closer to you and a man with an oddly familiar voice screaming stuff like “mercy”, “please”, “she’s in here” and someone started firing bullets to your door with a gun, after a bunch of shots someone kicked the door off its hinges. You squinted your eyes slightly, not used to the light that was coming in the cell. A tall blonde man entered your room, he had a shield in his right hand and a helmet on his head. You tightened your grip on the crowbar showing the man that you were not afraid to use it. He took a step forward which was confusing for you because he surely knew who you were but he still wasn’t showing any sign of being scared. ”Listen, Y/n I’m Steve, we’re gonna get out of here alright?” he asked with an oddly calm voice, offering his hand out: You didn’t know if to trust him or not, for all you knew people kept trying to torture you. Your brain didn’t trust this guy at all, but you had a feeling that he was surely gonna bring you somewhere better than this. You nodded slightly as you walked towards him, as soon as your hands touched you weren’t really sure if you made the right choice, never trusting anyone was the best way to go wasn’t it?

You feared your choice was the biggest mistake you've ever made. The man grabbed you and twisted you around, your body so weak you winced in pain, and he injected something in your neck.Your body started to feel numb, starting from your toes, up your legs, to the muscle of your neck, till your eyes. You fought to keep your eyes open, this was not happening again. You crouched on the ground and spun yourself in a circle with your leg straight, making the man,who called himself Steve, fall to the ground, you picked yourself up and punched him in the face, hard, making his face bleed.

All of a sudden you collapsed on the ground, an indescribable pain flooded in your chest and neck, it must have been the liquid he injected in you earlier. You were trembling and you couldn’t breathe. 

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You sat on the floor with your fists on your chest, you weren’t gonna leave this place without a fight and you were not going to leave with some stranger. He stood up quickly and your eyelids started to feel heavy, he walked towards you as you lied down on the ground, shaking violently again. “What the fuck did you put in me?” you murmured with a menacing tone. You closed your eyes, not having enough energy to keep them open anymore and you slipped  in unconsciousness.

Part 5

I know, they inject lots of stuff lol. But i couldn’t think of a better way to do it. This is a long one to make up for the last one which was pretty short. I hope you like it ! If you wanna be tagged, just ask :) 

Elle

@vicmc624

[ellemcu]

I don’t wanna hurt you ( bucky x reader)

Part 1 \\ Part 2 \\ Part 4

Part 3: And he is there.again.

Word count: 889 words

warnings: swearing

You were being kept inside the van for half an hour until one of the soldiers next to you stood up and looked you deep in the eyes. It was your signal to get out and do your job. You stared at him blankly for a few seconds, studying his facial expression and then for up and reloaded your gun. You raised your shirt and your shot wound had stopped bleeding after you had taken out the bullet with your bare hands.

The serum mixed with your abilities made your wounds close up incredibly quickly but that wasn't such a good thing at hydra. It was seen more of an invitation: if the pain they inflict on you doesn't stay for long then it wasn't enough so every single time the pain would be harsher and more unbearable.

You rolled your shirt back down and moved in front of the sliding door, ready to attack any moment now. You waited for the soldier to nod and then she opened the door and hopped out of the van easily. You scanned your surroundings until you saw it. The same damn man. Only this time he was shooting grenades with a RPG at some people at a short distance: two men and a red headed woman.

The man in the black suit made a blonde guy fall from the bridge on top of a bus and that's when you realized those were the people you were sent to kill. "(This dude has just crossed the line) Этот чувак перешел черту'' you mumbled yourself. You started running towards the bridge where they were fighting, debating wether you should kill the man first and then finish your mission or complete your mission and then take your time to torture and eventually kill this asshole who keeps getting on your way. The second option sounded way better.

You were exactly under the bridge when the woman fell down one side of the bridge and then started running towards your direction. You were so ready for this.

You grabbed your gun and reloaded it,raised it towards her and started shooting at her. She rolls on the floor and then throws a small metal ball towards you and before you know it you are being electrified. Energy running through your veins, once again, you looked in her eyes while shaking from the electricity. She kept on running under the bridge until she reached the side where her blonde friend had fallen. She raised her guns and started shooting at the all-in-black dude.

 That was your man to kill, not hers.

You grabbed the small ball and smashed it with your hands, the energy dying instantly. You stood up slowly from the ground and started running towards the bridge. Change of plan, first you're gonna kill the dude who looks just like you and then you'll get over with your mission.

You get to a light post and climb it with ease as it brought you high enough for you to jump on the bridge where your first target was shooting, fortunately he hadn’t noticed you, well, you weren’t called shadow for nothing. You stood up straight on the pole and lifted yourself up on the bridge. You pulled yourself up easily and crouched down on your knees. 

You lift your head and look at his actions, the way he held his gun, the way he placed his feet on the ground to keep a steady posture, his shoulder- length brown hair moving swiftly thanks to the slight wind blowing, his robust and powerful muscles showing underneath the suit he was wearing, you could’ve sworn you’d seen him somewhere and those swift moves aren’t easily seen around, not that you were out in public, enjoying yourself much. 

You let out a deep breath and grabbed your AK47 from your back, reloading it making an old bullet fall to the ground. You look inside your viewfinder, aiming for his internal jugular vein on his neck. You had a clear shot on it because while he was shooting tilted his head slightly, maybe to have a more precise aim. You tightened your grip on your pistol grip and moved your index finger on the trigger.

You were still looking in the viewfinder when you pulled the trigger. 

You wanted to see your mission die, at your feet. You wanted to see his blood oozing out of his neck. You didn’t care who he was. You didn’t care if he suffered and you obviously didn’t care if you had to kill another. It was your duty right?

You were waiting for the bullet to hit him until you felt a throbbing pain in your lower abdomen followed by another excruciating feeling on your chest. Damn my chest is really getting killed lol.

 Then something hit your upper nape and everything went black.

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Part 4

Fuck, im into this story too lol. This may be worse than my other parts but I swear to god i can really write so much better but my power is gone and I didn't have much time but I still wanted to go on with the story so here it is. Ik it's shorter too, really sorry guys. I promise the next part is gonna be way better. Hope you still like it,

Elle

[ellemcu]

I don’t wanna hurt you

 Part 1

Part 2 Your mission in DC

Word count: 1576

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You grabbed all of your weapons and put on your black suit. You were sitting on your bed, which was a battered old mattress on the ground, waiting to be escorted out of your cell, not thinking of anything in particular until the door swung open and a dozen guards flooded into your tiny cell. You stood up from the ground and studied their faces with a fixed stare, looking deep into their eyes so deeply it was as if you were staring at their soul. You looked around and that's when one of them put a pair of handcuffs on you and brought you to a plane. You didn’t fight back, you had already tried too many damn times and it all brought back to the thing you dreaded the most: torture.

You sat on the plane and it departed quickly, everything was planned perfectly so you couldn't afford being one minute late. The flight was really long but unfortunately you couldn’t sleep, you hadn’t slept in weeks. You kinda feared sleeping because your mind would remember all the lives you took, all the tortures you went through it was as if you were reliving those moments again and again and again. So you kept to yourself, thinking about what moves you were gonna use in your mission, still focused on each and every move the soldiers in the plane made.

After hours you finally arrived in Washington and you were brought in a secret bunker under the city. You waited for the time to strike and went inside a black van. The car kept moving for a couple of minutes until it came to a stop. 

You got out of the car ( looking like a bad bitch) and stood in the middle of an empty road. You saw a tall and muscled man standing in the middle of the road ahead of you. He was wearing a black suit with knee protections, a black mask and some goggles, moving exactly like you did. He looked so familiar so you studied his actions thoroughly until something wasn’t right. 

He was standing exactly where you were supposed to be. 

He was gonna make you fail and you were not gonna let that happen.

You started running full speed towards him reaching down to where your gun was. In less than half a minute you had run up the whole street and was standing a few feet from him. You raised your gun “ Двигай мудак (move asshole)” you spat at him. His eyes darted towards you and then his head turned towards a car speeding towards our way. “кто ты, черт возьми (who the hell are you?)” he snapped back at you. You were not gonna let this man who spoke your language stop you therefore you aimed for his leg with your gun so you could question him about why you were identical. 

He hissed in pain and grabbed a pocket knife from his thigh and started flipping it in his hand, ready to strike. You dropped your gun and brought your fists to your chest ready to box. You punched him in the side and was ready to throw an uppercut to him but he tightened his grip on the pocket knife and stabbed you on your shoulder, dragging it down your whole arm . You cried out in pain as you grabbed your 9mm pistol and shot his side. He hissed in pain but grabbed an automatic pistol and aimed for your stomach, he shot the bullet but you dodge it easily. 

He grabbed you by the neck and pushed you against a nearby wall, pushing your head on the wall, not to kill you but to knock you out but as a supersoldier it's almost impossible to knock you out. He was choking you on the wall, slowly tightening his grip, you closed your eyes and without thinking twice you lifted a trash can( with your mind) and threw it against him. He turned his head towards the flying bin which distracted him so you kicked his shin and elbowed the arm which was choking you while he was busy dodging the trash can. He rolled on the floor while you stood exactly where he was earlier, ready to flip your target’s car. 

You took out your vehicle grenade and threw it under the SUV coming your way. You stepped back, letting the car flip in front of you. The car continued to slide down the road until it stopped on its back. 

You walked to the car with a shotgun in your hand, breaking the window but being pushed off by someone with high force, sending you sliding on the hard gravel on your side, face first. You breathed heavily looking towards the car, seeing the tall man standing over the car. He ripped off the side door and looked inside but froze. 

You squinted your eyes to try and see why he had frozen until he retracted himself from the entrance and turned his gaze to you, studying your body. He sighed deeply and began marching in your direction.You weren't scared of him but you knew he wasn’t gonna treat you nicely and after you shot him. You tried to sit up from the ground but a sharp pain stung in all of your body, You had already felt that pain: you had broken your rib. You groaned in pain trying frantically to get up, at least to sit up or kneel on the floor. Lying down on the floor made you vulnerable and you knew that. 

You placed your left hand on your ribcage, trying to ease the pain but suddenly something in your mind clicked. It was as if someone had turned off your ability to sense pain turned on instant kill. You knew it wasn’t gonna last long so you had to act fast.

The man was walking quickly towards you as you got to your feet, blood running down your forehead but you still couldn’t feel it one bit. You grabbed your pocket knife and when he was close enough you threw it with precision to his heart at an incredibly fast speed.

 A normal human being wouldn’t have seen that coming, the knife you would have pierced through the muscle easily and been dead in a few minutes but that man was surely different. He dodged the knife slightly and it hit his shoulder but to your surprise it made a loud clunk while hitting metal and it bounced off his shoulder and  landed on the gravel.

 The man kept striding your way, nothing stopping him. 

Just as he was about to grab you, you picked up the car door that was laying on the ground beside the car and launched it with all of your power towards him. He was standing directly in front of you. You punched him in the ribs and threw yourself in the air, flipping yourself forwards to dodge the car door coming that way. He was clutching his ribcage when the car door hit him violently and made him collapse on the floor.

You breathed in and out after seeing him fall. The effect was wearing off and you were losing too much blood to stay conscious for much longer. You limped to the overturned car and peared in. Fuck. The man had made a hole in the ground and had escaped. You were about to jump in the hole to find the man but your body was incapable of moving. 

You put your whole weight on the car, sliding down the side of it until you were on the pavement breathing shakily. You looked at your arm, blood was gushing out. That fucking bastard, it’s all his fault, I’m gonna kill him. You ripped off your suit covering your ankle to wrap the cloth on your cut to stop the bleeding. After a few moments you stood up and made your way where you had left that mysterious man. You felt an agonizing pain on your hip bone, you slowly raised your top to see a gunshot wound on your pelvis, it was curable but man, it hurt like hell. His shot might have not missed after all.

You raised your head in the direction to where the man had fallen and he wasn’t there anymore. That caught you by surprise as you inspected the full perimeter and there was no trace of the man. “черт(damn it)” you sighed. You started limping back to where you were gonna get picked up by the van. Your mind blank only thinking about your next mission. You couldn’t fail that too.

 The truck was waiting for you at the end of the street. You walked to it, opened the sliding door and shut it quickly. All of the car ride you remained silent with a cold and emotionless facial expression, clutching your ribs.

Your eyebrows knitted together “who the fuck was that man? And why the hell was he there?” you thought to yourself while thinking about all of his actions. 

His moves, his precision, his suit, they all looked too familiar. 

He looked way too much like you.

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Part 3

So what do you think? sorry if it’s been a while if been busy with school

If you have any requests or if you wanna be tagged tell me , no problem! I really hope you like it.

Elle

[ellemcu]

I don’t wanna hurt you

Part 1  The beginning

Warnings:torture,brainwash(if thats a warning) and I think thats it

Word count: 1045 words

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There you were, being tortured again because you didn’t answer immediately when the soldiers asked you to report your mission. You had just come back from a mission in France to eliminate a possible threat to HYDRA. You were strapped to a cold metal chair, ready to be brainwashed.

You were the best soldier they had, you had all sorts of abilities and you aced each and every one of them. You had been in HYDRA since birth because your mom had been captured while she was pregnant with you. They waited for you to be born and killed your mother since she was no use to them. They trained you for 20 years non stop though when the war ended they put you in ice because you were too good to be wasted. It’s funny because every time they brainwash you, you never forget your past, your mom ,your missions , all the lives you took, but that wasn’t the point of it all. The aim was to make your brain numb, incapable of comprehending so that they could get in your mind and make you do anything without you even knowing, you weren't aware about all the people you killed, tortured or abused. Your mind was completely under their control and brainwashing it worked perfectly. You were way too perfect to go to waste. You had a flawless aim and you could reach high speeds in little time, you spoke more than 50 languages, you could blend in plain sight, infiltrate in a whole SHIELD base in half an hour, bring a whole country down in one night and your stamina and endurance was incredible. You couldn't remember but they also used you on multiple experiments. They tried using a serum that hadn’t been successful on thousands of other men. It was supposed to make you ten times stronger but instead your DNA reacted to it in a totally different way and that serum gave you the ability to move objects with your mind ( I know, like wanda but i mean you’re way cooler and you have physical abilities too which are so awesome). You had trained your whole life, you were unbeatable and you completed all of your missions phenomenally. Every time people were so scared of you but you really didn’t have time to think about other people’s fear, you would probably end up killing them anyway. Word spread about you, about how you were unstoppable, about how you never failed, about how you were untraceable, about how there were never survivors wherever you went, about how you could trace anyone anywhere, about how you were like a myth, a legend that haunts your nightmares.They named you “The shadow”. They often compared you to a man called Winter Soldier though you hadn’t the slightest clue to who he was. (you were kept in a bunker in Havana, Cuba and he was kept in Syberia so you never met)

So there you were, being strapped to a metal chair while lost in your thoughts though it all soon ended with an excruciating pain that went from the bottom of your spine to the back of your skull. It was as if a knife was stabbing each and every one of your nerves, on by one. The last thing you remember was not being able to keep your eyes open, the pain was unbearable, as a loud scream escaped your mouth. Electricity running through your brain, everything was happening so fast but so painfully slow at the same time, you wanted the pain to end so badly. 

All of a sudden it all stopped. Your head shook violently for a few seconds and your mind went blank. They were in your head again. It was as if it was waiting to be reset, ready to be used. A man behind you started reciting some words, which might have seemed useless but they were the most important step to enter your mind. “Тоска” the man said in a firm voice “ржавый, топочный” he continued, circling around you “рассвет, семнадцать, доброкачественный” he went on, walking by you chair “девять, возвращение домой, один грузовой автомобиль” he quoted, reciting the words clearly. He then stopped “добро пожаловать обратно, солдат”. You looked into the man's eyes without showing emotion, “готов подчиниться”. You were completely under their control, You were not Y/N anymore, you were the shadow once again. “готов подчиниться” you answered with a blood freezing tone. “ We have a new mission for you, soldier.” the man spoke with a calm but loud tone. You closed your eyes, took a deep breath and raised your head. You gave the doctors around you a penetrating stare and then looked to the man who had spoken earlier, waiting for further instructions.

“Soldier, you’re gonna go to Washington DC to eliminate an old friend, you don’t need more information” the man said as he closed a small red book. You started walking towards the door but the men standing in front of it stopped you “Oh and Soldier, you have to succede or you know what will happen to you.” he said with a smirk on his face. You stopped dead in your tracks. “I. never. fail.” you answered with a low and firm tone. You walked out of the room with a cold facial expression, nothing was gonna get in your way, nothing on your mind except one thing. Completing your mission.

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Part 2

Ok so this is like a bit of a beginning for it all, I mean it's just to give you a bit of an idea, like when a film starts and then there's the theme song. Idk. I hope you like it and if you have any suggestions or opinions tell me.Oh and this will have many parts and if you wanna be tagged tell me or if you have any request too!

Elle