Project 4: Performance
“Play Through the Chaos”
For this assignment I wanted to utilize music, as playing and performing music used to be pretty integral parts of my life. I didn’t want to just sit down and play a song, though, I wanted to communicate a feeling that otherwise I don’t talk about very often. Music, above all else, was my only coping mechanism for the life I was raised in and for the overwhelming feelings of anxiety that I felt as a young teen.
In this video, I’m trying to recall some of the chords to one of my favorite songs to play, “Even if it’s a Lie” by Matt Maltese, although rather unsuccessfully because of the chaotic noise in the background distracting me as well as my lack of practice with it. The papers surrounding me are some of the many songs I’ve written in my lifetime. The noise in the background may be the chaotic events outside of the moment, maybe they’re my internal feelings of unrest, but regardless I keep pushing through to get to the song. I no longer play much because a lot of the feelings I was trying to cope with no longer plague my life, and I was never interesting in becoming a big performer anyway. Regardless, it holds its place in my heart and I’ll pick it up from time to time in order to relive the peace that it brought me.





















