💔 I forget everything except what hurts.
Every morning I wake up tired, like I fought myself in my sleep. I forget birthdays, deadlines, joy — but I remember every insult. Sometimes my brain keeps score of pain like it’s survival. The worst part? I can't find peace even when I try to slow down. My thoughts are loud. My heart is tired. My soul is busy. I zone out during conversations. I stare at screens and don’t blink. It’s like my brain wants to remember trauma more than dreams. And when people ask if I'm okay, I smile because it's easier than explaining.
Sometimes I cry for no reason. Sometimes I don't cry when I should. I hate that I need structure, but I also rebel against it. It’s exhausting being the overthinker and the people pleaser. But I started building little safe spaces for myself inside the chaos. Some days that space is just a journal. Some days it’s silence. And one day, it became something bigger. A soft system. I call it ClarityOS — not a fix, just a safe hold. It’s in my bio if you want something that gets it.