This episode may not be action-filled or advance the plot much. But it’s not a filler.
It’s all about Porsche and his character development. (You know: Porsche. Literally one half of KinnPorsche. The show half named after him?)
In fact, most of the episode is from his POV. He’s in most scenes and most of them are seen through his eyes. He’s in his head and we’re right there with him.
We’ve already established most of this as viewers, but this is Porsche’s opportunity to come to terms with these things as well (since he’s getting a little break from getting shot at):
Porsche is in love for the first time in his life
Porsche is sexually and romantically involved with a man for the first time ever
Porsche realizes that despite his rather promiscuous past and adventures with the ladies, he knows nothing about love or relationships. (Has he ever made love sober? Has he? Has he ever been touched while not intoxicated? I don’t think so)
Porsche realizes he doesn’t want to lose this/whatever this is. He asks for advice. He says to Yok, verbatim. “I really don’t know where to start. What should I do next?”
Porsche works to make this work/whatever it is. He studies for their date/the first date of his life (kill me) and wants it “to be perfect”.
Porsche realizes that, unlike him, Kinn has known love before and has experienced it before.
Porsche experiences intense jealousy and insecurity for, possibly, the first time ever. He’s learning who he is as a lover. He’s learning new things about himself.
By the end of the episode, Porsche decides that it’s okay that’s he’s not Kinn’s first love, because he’s his now. Plus:
A: Tawan is literally dead. Kinn won’t stay hung up on a dead person
B: Kinn is convinced that Tawan never loved him, that he betrayed him, and that he was just using him. Kinn values loyalty above all else. Porsche is loyal. He’s not worried
Except everything crumbles at the end because:
A: Tawan is very much alive
B: Tawan is going to fight like hell to change Kinn’s mind about his loyalty and his love
So what’s the point of this episode? This ep is here to make the angst that will follow hurt A HUNDRED TIMES MORE.
Porsche, in his own way, said ‘I Love You’ to Kinn twice (when he slapped Kinn in Ep7 and when he said that Tawan’s ghost was just jealous that they’re “in love”)
Do you know how many times Kinn said it back or validated Porsche’s feelings with words? ZERO TIMES.
And do you know how many times Kinn mentioned the word ‘Love’? Twice. And do you know who it was about? Tawan.
1) “I couldn’t imagine how I could stop loving him [Tawan]”
2) “He never loved me [Tawan]”
Porsche is going to be heartbroken and so are we. We’ll likely get the “What was I to you? Did you ever even love me? Was I just a replacement for the real thing? Are you just going to throw me away now that you have him back? Now that he’s proved that he’s loved you all along and that he never betrayed you?”
Porsche is giving Kinn his everything. All of his firsts. (And all of his lasts). His first love, his first date, his first jealous feelings, his first kill, his first gunshot wound, his first fuck, (+ his first sober fuck), his first fight, his first slap, his first heartbreak.
Porsche is giving Kinn everything because he simply cannot not give him his all. He’s already crossed the point of no return.
Kinn is going to break Porsche’s heart. And Porsche is going to let him.
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