Seeing couples on social media or in public, you tend to always see the good; the smiles, the laughter, and the joy these people bring to each other, and when I see that, as much as I wish I would be happy, I often find myself being envious. Envious because the happiness I experience tends to be washed away with the loads of negativity I face. I love every moment that is significant in my life, but in times or hardship (not very serious I may add, just pointless teenage drama) I'm drowned by the thoughts of everything that can go wrong than the positivity I've seen. The point of this was to specifically describe relationships. All I see on the YouTube videos I watch, and social media posts I view, is vibrant, glorious joy and I very much know that I only see what this specific person wishes to show, that every person and every relationship fights and has moments that are better left private, and I’d expect that to make me feel better, but it doesn't. Purely because I know that I myself, and my relationship, doesn't have moments of joy that can be captured as others may. No one will feel envious or wish they had a life like mine with friends like mine and a relationship like mine, because it isn't interesting, and I know that if I was a spectator looking into my own life, I wouldn't want it.
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