Nekoma's Meow~

Haikyuu is life fight me on it.

[ematopia]

Huzzah

Well my mum said she regrets having me so that's fun ok goodbye time to go cry

[siir-poesia]

[ematopia]

Current mood y’all

[ematopia]

Everybody listen up,

I think I’m in love. 

[ematopia]

Shit's about to go down

Sister went out with a (guy) friend for simple lunch and maybe like bowling idk. Said she'd be back at 6. Wasn't home until like 8:45. Why? Cause she's drunk out of her mind. We weren't able to contact her or the guy. Finally, we got through. Guy's parents and our dad, after a feisty blasting, headed to where my sister and the guy was. Brought her home. She's currently passed out but oh boy she's going to have (1) a pathetic hangover and (2) a pathetic lecture tomorrow.

She's 19 by the way

[ematopia]

My fear of spoons

Thinking about the fact that the reason I'm afraid of spoons is because when I was 13, I broke a spoon for the second time and this time i just started sobbing as my mother yelled at me and i subsequently lit my sister's work table on fire and failed my exam the next day. Basically I associate spoons with a bad omen. Also the reason why i drink soup in a cup instead of using a bowl with a spoon.

[catasters]

[ematopia]

*Record scratches*

Yep, that's me, about to chomp of hooman's favourite plant. How did i get here? well, let's rewind a bit, shall we?

[ematopia]

Yay Childhood

TBT when i was 12 and i was studying in my room when one of my neighbors came over. Like about 30 minutes later, i assumed they had left since i couldn't hear their voice anymore, so i moonwalked out of my room to get a book and she was just sitting there and didn't look at me but then i just grabbed my book and we made eye contact. She said i had grown taller and that my dance moves had improved. She laughed. I laughed. I was so embarrassed that I barfed. God what the fuck was wrong with me.

[ematopia]

Being Bisexual is so wild

Like there’s such a wide spectrum when you’re bisexual. Take me, for example. I like guys more than girls and yk i have thoughts about having a nice, fit, caring boyfriend but like, have you seen a chapstick lesbian??? I think this applies to lesbians too but when i see a pretty or attractive woman i’m always having a small argument with myself about whether i want to be her or i want to be with her like it’s such a tough decision. Back to the bi thing, it’s also weird that i feel so awkward letting a guy know i’m bi because well god knows what’ll happen or what’ll he think? but i’m so comfortable letting a girl i’m dating know i’m bi, and i feel like this is because it’s easier speaking about being bi to a gay girl rather than a straight guy but yeah that’s my take on it.

The weird part about my bisexuality is that i knew i was bi maybe since i was around 11 or 12 but i was never able to come to terms with it since i had this ENORMOUS crush on this guy (who liked me back haha what are the odds) so it was really hard to imaging myself with anyone other than him yk but i think another reason i didn’t recognize my bisexuality was probably because of my mother who basically used me to live out her unfulfilled dreams (i could go on about this but this childhood trauma is for another post). In that sense, i respected my dad a lot because when i was around 13 i asked him how he would feel if i was like gay and he was just like “yeah i’m chill i just wanna see you have a good life idc who you go around with that’s your problem kiddo” and to this day i think that exceeded my expectations of my parent’s reaction to my bisexuality. 

Woah this went on way longer than planned.

[ematopia]

Ruined childhood pt. 1

I remember one of the worst moments of my childhood being the time my mum and I were discussing about who I wanted to call for my 13th birthday party and let me tell you, that was the very moment I realized I didn't have friends. I had, like, 2 people to call, and I was only friends with one of them because our parents were close. It was by far the second most heartbreaking moment for me to experience. My mum tried to convince me that at my age people only called their close friends for their parties, and that what I was experiencing was normal, but I remember also realizing the fact that putting my 'close friends' aside, I didn't have any regular friends. The worst part was, I was a really big extrovert, so my friendlessness wasn't because of my personality, but actually because of another incident that took place a few months before (which I shall expand on in part 2)

[ematopia]

They were right

I never believed my parents when they used to say that I would get too obsessed with a show. Recently I started watching Boys Over Flowers (The Korean one), and my parents had already started commenting on how my obsession would come back to affect the family. Again, I thought they were lying. Anyway, after like 4-5 episodes I got really attached to Ji-hoo and keep in mind that Ji-hoo is practically obsessed with white fashion. So, today, I order a huge ass white, expensive, study table that has SEVERAL drawers, fixed with handles adorned with diamonds. My parents saw it as it was being lugged inside. They were right. I think I realized that too late. Well now I'm stuck with a big reminder of my Ji-hoo obsession bless my family good lord.

[ematopia]

And I'm the rude one.

My sister: *Is rummaging MY closet*

Me: Uhhh what are you doing?

My sister, looking at me like a cow: Nothing.

Me: Why are you so rude???

My sister: Because you're nosy.

My sister, finding a friendship ring I got: OH. MY. GOD. THIS USED TO BE MINEEEE

Me: Put it down, it's mine.

My sister, talking about how she had more of these: God I can't believe it's still here!

Me: It's literally mine put it down.

My sister: UHHH no. It's obviously mine I used to have this one?

Me: Addy JUST gave me this a week ago. It's mine.

My sister: Oh. Well you probably stole it no one would just *give* you this. Thief. Friendless theif.

Me: RUDE. ASSHOLE.

My sister: Bitch.

Me: Fuck you.

My sister: No you.

Me: *Flips her off*

My sister: *Proceeds to strip*

[ematopia]

What a shit day

I would just like to marvel on how shit today has been because I tripped on my way to receive my certificate at school, fell down later in PE and scraped my arm, and to top ALL OF IT, the guy I had practically fallen in love with (and who I thought loved me back) just blackmailed me. How fucking wonderful I am totally not having a mental breakdown.

[ematopia]

Why Have I Never Seen This?

I’m screaming. I just saw an old tumblr post about this guy who shot 7 episodes of a show in ikea. Obviously I looked up the show (Ikea Heights) on youtube and like holy shit how is this not a full fledged web series on a streaming site BECAUSE IT’S AMAZING and the main character looked familiar and I realized it’s because he’s FUCKING RANDALL PARK (from ant man and wanda vision if you’re unaware) this is unbelievable. 

Episode 1 go watch it you won’t regret it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V9gkYw35Vws

[ematopia]

Wholesomeness in Life

When I was around 12-13 years old, I had a crush on this guy friend I had, who already had a girlfriend. Either way, I mustered up the courage to confess to him (over text), but before I did so, I told him that I would understand if his answer was no, that I would be totally cool with it. 

After I confessed, he told me he guessed that I would say something like this. He said:

“Yeah, I guessed right..”

“Anyways, all back to normal now. all’s good”

And then he proceeded to speak to me about fnaf. No making it weird. No hurting my feelings. Just saying what he had to say and then moving on with life like a gentleman. I will always admire him for this. 

We need to see more attitude like this, guys.

[ematopia]

I forgot to mention this odd update back then- this guy I confessed to ACTUALLY confessed a few weeks later and WE DIDN’T EVEN DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT we were just like “cool” “ok”. I swear on life my middle school was something else.

[ematopia]

Updates (not so good)

Over the course of these few weeks, I’ve learnt two valuable lessons-

1. Don’t trust anyone except family (even if you’ve known the person for 3 years), because they will take your valuable secrets and reveal them in an extremely brutal fashion.

2. Don’t talk smack about anyone behind their back before thinking about their friendship with you. (and also stay away from their boyfriend)

Lessons were learnt, hearts were broken, and friendships ended. 

[ematopia]

God needs to be fired from his job immediately.

- My darling sister

[ematopia]

HELP AGAIN

So I found this meme on BLs or whatever, and I only know the first one so can someone please give me the names of the other two???

Help a gal out.