"the volume that Maas wrote just to explore Nesta's character, makes the suffering of characters from previous books look less important and less strong. And I hate it."
That's what made acosf such a bittersweet book for me. When I reread the acotar series all the way through, it hit me just how little we truly got to learn about Feyre because of how chaotic her arc was. Her story followed the sequence of: Hunting and killing Fae wolf> taking care of family > kidnapped and taken to Prythian > survival mode at the SC > the entirety of UTM > dying and rebirth > domestic abuse > taken to the NC > doing side quests for Rhys and crew > mate! > more side quests > battle > back at the SC> WAR > story done!
Feyre never got a break nor anytime to have a solo journey that allows us to get more insight into everything that made her who she is. We know she was abused by her mom but how did that abuse look? What were her interactions with her sisters? How did little Feyre cope with loneliness? I can write a thesis about Nesta's character but am still trying to piece together things about Feyre and she's my favorite! Then you have people smugly claiming that Nesta is the most interesting sister when really, she's just the one SJM chose to do a full fledged character-centric story while sacrificing the plot. It was risky but it paid off.
Feyre gets written off as a shallow character who's only depth comes from her experience with abuse at the hands of Tamlin and her pregnancy story (this being new as of the CHD interview). And her experience with her family has been completely dismissed now. Sure, there are still readers out there who don't buy into the way the author tried to rewrite certain moments in acosf (like Nesta claiming Tamlin wanted to take her instead) but overall, so much of what we learned somewhat diminished Feyre's pov in the process because of how much light it shed. There's an older interview SJM did for the acosf promotions where she's like "Feyre didn't know everything" regarding Nesta and I'm like ma'am you wrote her as the neglected youngest sibling of course she wouldn't know!
This is long winded, I'm sorry. I just get really passionate about SJM's treatment of Feyre because I blame her fully for why she's not as strongly embraced by the fandom. Even now, there's such a stark difference in the way she talks about her other fmcs compared to Feyre.
My giant yes to all of it. I really thank you for these thoughts because I feel like my friends are tired of listening to my crуіng about Feyre and her story.
Feyre got me from the moment she said she couldn't read. I didn't like her at the beginning, but she somehow caught me and then made me love her.
It really was something different from all I had read. Heroines always were «not like others» — they loved to read, and in the knowledge gained from books lay the powers that always helped them win against all odds.
And I have nothing against them. Some of my loves are that type of fmc. I just say that with that Feyre was special for me. She was a girl who couldn't do this. She had no teachers, no family, no powers. Only her and her perspective. And she was still smart, still kind.
And because of it, her story and character development could be much deeper. She grew up in a family that insulted her. She believed that she was unworthy and incapable of anything. She was really tired of her life. Her child's mind suffеrеd because of this hunting — to take the lives of innocent little animals.
To understand what it's like, look at any puppy, imagine that you are fourteen and you must kill it because you literally need food. And you will eat that puppy. And this continued for years.
And then that Fae takes her. Someone whom she must literally hате. Her whole life she was taught to hате them. You are with two males who are stronger than you. They have a history of having your race as sІаvеs. They eat from golden plates while people in your land are sтаrvіng.
From this point, the story could reveal a lot of deep and hard thoughts and feelings. A lot. But instead of all the possible volume of тrаumатіzed memories and reflections about what happens in her life, we got these sentences about «his strong-as-stone muscles».
Get me right — I love romantic and erotic plotlines, but here all this traumatic past of Feyre looks like it was written just to create a background for the main character and then move on to the falling in love with this hot High Lord.
Her paints and thoughts were a good moment. But again, it looked like an added reason to show the connecting between Tamlin and Feyre.
And if we recall Maas's plan — to make readers fall in love with Tamlin first, and then move to Rhysand — we can understand why this book evokes these feelings.
Feelings like that were not a story about a woman and her path, but a story about the world, and we just looked at that story through her eyes. We see how beautiful all this Fae is. Those Courts. This High Lord.
She literally went through her dеатh. And all we got was one paragraph at the end of ACOTAR and one chapter in the meeting with the Bone Carver.
Or her magic. It's fantasy. She is literally an avatar. Some elements are the opposite of others, and all of it is within her. How does she feel about it? What is the connection between magic and her personality? How does she understand it? What has it changed in her understanding of herself?
Come on, part of the genre is fantasy. Where is this fantasy?
Or the Ouroboros. I have a post about it. The mirror that literally shows your true self. And what did we get? Crumbles.
Or father's dеатh? Or how he was bеатеn and she, as child, stayed and begged them to stop?
I feel this emptiness in how Feyre's character was revealed before ACOSF. After that, I felt robbed
I have giant hopes that my theory about Feyre being Wyrd (Urd) is true. That would explain the first-person narration, why she got all this magic and was able to feel the Cauldron before she even saw it, or why she was able to recreate it. Or why she is an artist — and art being a universal language that could be connected to the language of the universe. Or why, of all other Maas's fmcs, Feyre had the lowest beginning. Or why she got this title Lady of Many Faces. Or why all other fmcs saw her and got the same magic as she did.
But it's only theory. Right now, what we have in hand — it's very sad