First day i have taken off all year from pure depression i mean I'm also sore and so tired but the depression is the main cause. I'm really struggling to motivate myself since getting back to school and i have been actually trying reasonably hard i often don't feel like I'm trying hard enough but i still have quit smoking and am keeping up yoga and meditating and stay on top of chores and cooking for myself which i havent done for a week really I'm eating like an ascetic but only because I've been so disorganised. It's so frustrating when you want soooo much and want to do everything that instead you feel overwhelmed and like it's all hopeless. And all you want to do is hang out with your friends forever. But hanging out is also enriched by your own quality of life. I feel so busy i do feel totally wrung out and i think that's reasonable when i look at the last couple weeks but idk. I'm not keeping up perfectly with everything because i am periodically emotionally distressed and then not sleeping well and then i injure myself and i am really struggling to maintain good habits when injured. Hmmmm. I feel like i need to see a therapist again. ANNOYING!!!!!
