i dream of the end of empire

She. 30. unfriendly black.anti-imperialism. anti-apartheid. aspec bisexual queer. misc. chronic pain.living with long covid. kiss me in my dreams. always let me know if I reblog from a terf/swerf/etc. I'm on mobile. I will tag if asked.

[fishandshesmygills]

it’s so hard for me to not doxx myself every single day btw. my oversharer’s spirit is being stifled by internet safety

[catcrumb]

[prinnay]

Quick art, 80's (??) tiger girl :)

[deltaomicronfive]

Can anyone help a black transfem with tech and stability for my teaching job? I only owe 250 in rent and need help with procuring a good computer. If I had to set a goal myself it would 750 for other bills and tech by August, when my class starts.

Please please consider helping me out financially to get my best foot forward as a small time educator. Thank you.

Current Goal: 0/750

Link to a post with all my pay apps and gfm info below:

Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your

[deltaomicronfive]

Hey. Lots of notes. Only 50 dollars 😔

[deltaomicronfive]

Help a disabled black girl start a successful career 🥹

[drizzledrawings]

☆tiger☆

[shamebats]

"it's just stress" oh thank god, it's just the silent killer that slowly kills you, perfectly harmless, no need to worry

[cumslutshane]

you still want? I still want

[firstprinced]

Heated Rivalry | 1.01 | Rookies

[reeeneeereee]

(person who suspects they have ocd voice): what if every time i think something is an ocd symptom im actually faking it and stereotyping and ruining the lives of people with real ocd and im a terrible person

[marcusbrutus]

the worst part about ocd and ocd-like tendencies is that you think hyper-analyzing your thoughts and constantly psychoanalyzing yourself will fix you but that's actually part of the disorder. it's the disorder. disordering.

[cakepopsandcoffee]

Shane chasing Ilya's lips.

[yaoiblackmold]

Top 3 things people love insisting they don't have despite it being impossible

Pronouns

An accent

Bias

[notchainedtotrauma]

Those Monstrous Games We Play | Salt

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I wrote this (paywalled) poem as an exploration of the wounded flesh and of a history of anger that continuously ruptures the skin. Here are excerpts to contextualize the poem:

What we're not talking about is slavery;

blotches of dried blood 

against the wet clay,

a carpet of bees against the foggy light of the day

every corpse an evidence of

how sweet the manmade monster 

between our jaws.

and

"The girls hovering thoughtlessly above the ground,

a twisted interrogation in guise of

bodies..."

[strangehorse]

OCD recovery is cosmically unfair because it's the only disorder i know of where the treatment is 'okay! now make yourself feel worse'

[nonbinaryjudean]

OCD things that you don't hear about:

episodes of paranoia, delusions, and dissociation

cyclical thoughts/spirals

magical thinking

episodes that can be very similar to psychosis or mania

attributing human emotions to inanimate objects

dermatillomania and trichotillomania

false sensations (like bugs crawling on skin)

paying way too much attention to very small things

physical health issues caused by compulsions

symptoms that are "problematic" (doing things that are considered "wasteful", needing reassurance or validation from others...)

extreme, deep, dreadful fear of things that can't truly be explained

disconnect between emotional and cognitive/logical responses or thoughts

contamination fears

problems with addiction and dopamine regulation

other people trying to force exposure therapy onto you without your consent and it making your anxiety way worse

list making

[squishranger]

man i just dont know why im so afraid all the time (<- has the disorder that makes you afraid all the time)

[fairycosmos]

appearing in front of you as a ghostly apparition: take your headphones. you will need your headphones