Call me the Trisha Paytas of tumblr. haha [because here we go…]
As a lot of you may know or may have read the one recent post and recent asks about this one guy situation…yeah. It will not happen. Like it’s just done. If you don’t know what was going on…basically a guy I was interested kind of faded away and I messaged him to figure out what was wrong. He told me a few difficult things that are going on in his life that he is trying to handle. I basically told him that I was there for him to help out and to support him. I just want him to be happy because I know what he’s going through and it is rough on the mind and soul. I kept sending a message every weekend to be a positive light in his hard times. I just wanted to make a smile on his face and him feel cared for. I knew he and I wouldn’t work out for now (boyfriend wise), but maybe later once things are figured out for him it would work. This was the catch up for those who didn’t know what was happening.
Now, I recently found out he unfollowed me. No reason way. He’s gone. I hate being angry because I know sometimes people are going through a lot and it is soooo difficult. At the same time, my heart dropped. My whole body got that shiver. My whole body felt lifeless for a second. Why??? Well, I waited over a month to not really get much from him and I continued to make sure I could be that one positive thing in his life to help him out. I spent my time to make sure I cared for him. I took time out of my day to make sure he was ok. I TOOK MY TIME TO CARE. Even if I knew we wouldn’t be dating now or soon, I just wanted to be that friend. That person who supported him with whatever he did. I am upset that he just leaves with no reason. This is why I have trust issues. This is why I never give my number out anymore. This is why I never take someone’s number. I just don’t trust others. I can do all I can to care for someone and just get blown off.
It hurts me so much because I know exactly what he is going through. I know how he feels. I still feel what he feels. I know how sometimes you just need that one person to talk to. I completely understand what he is going through and tried what I could to show how I cared for him as a person and his interests and his dream goals he wants to achieve. He told me he could see how much I cared and how much I took into his interests.
I asked him what I did wrong. I wanted to know. I like knowing reasons why people leave. I want to make sure I correct myself for future opportunities. He said I did nothing wrong. He just wanted to scale back on a lot. I guess unfollowing me is just part of his process for scaling back. I sent him a long message telling him how I honestly felt about that. Basically everything I said here. My body dropped, felt the shiver in my body. Overall just feeling upset and crappy because I feel like I failed. But again, he is such a nice person. I will always support him and his goals. I told him I’ll always be there for him no matter what. I’m not angry because I understand people make those decisions to make their life happier. It happens, but on the inside, I’m just so upset.
When it comes to something like this though, I now lose all trust in the other person. If they decide to come back months later to try and date, like the one other guy last year, I will reject immediately because I now have that mental scar. While I’ll always be a friend, I won’t be anything more. Time to move on. No waiting for him. No more contacting him unless he contacts me. ugh.
Everyone, please value your friends. Please give them a hug or virtual hugs. Please support one another. Make the other smile. If you haven’t talked to a friend in a while, send them a message!! Care for your friends. Make it known. I know a lot of people go through this, but I don’t want any of you to go through it. Hold onto your friends tightly. please.
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