La Vita è Bella

"There is a beautiful thing inside you that is thousands of years old. Too old to be captured in poems. Too old to be loved by everyone, but loved so very deeply by a chosen few." ~Nikita Gill

[emrosebella]

[emrosebella]

💕⚘

[emrosebella]

Let the dream begin, Let your darker side give in ⚘

[emrosebella]

Before and After I got dolled up for nothing...... again 😁😍😘💋⚘💁

[hydro-homies]

She really does

[skyofauroras]

I think one if the saddest things is when you don’t want anything anymore. You’re not in despair, you know you’re not alone, you know it can get better, but you dont want any of it. You’re just tired of living. I’m not sure if anyone can really help at that point.

[sad-but-happy-ish]

[potatogorl-deactivated20160408]

being emotionally abused has made me incredibly defensive towards being told what to do, but at the same time has made it hard for me to do things without someone telling me that it’s ok to do out if fear of doing something wrong and getting in trouble

[lost-broken786-deactivated20200]

[goruma]

my brain: ur dumb/annoying/ugly

me: 

[misfitoffate]

[unsends-deactivated20170829]

i felt like I had to get this out of my system. There is nothing beautiful or fun or cute or romantic or poetic about borderline personality disorder or having bpd. It is a nightmare. It is tiring. It is tiring having to rely on everyone else for your own validation because you’re so emotionally and mentally broken to do it yourself. It is tiring watching people leave you because you push them away because that is a symptom of your disorder. It is tiring getting attached too quickly and then getting unattached at the same rate. It is tiring feeling like no one will love you because you’re “too much to handle”. It is tiring feeling like you want to die and not knowing if it’s for real half the time. It is tiring having a personality/mood disorder. It’s not romantic or poetic. It is goddamn exhausting. Try living with it everyday. It tears you apart.

[nekomatakiss]

me: i want attention

also me: is isolating myself and not bothering to talk to my friends

me: what the fuck?/?/ why is no one giving me attention???

[hydro-homies]

Parenting struggles amirite

[hydro-homies]

What is going on?

[wildbpd-deactivated20200301]

PTSD Symptoms and If Someone You Know Has PTSD

Symptoms

Nightmares

Guilt

Poor Judgment

Intrusive Memories

Poor Memory

Survivors Guilt

Flashbacks

Startle Reflex

Hypervigilance

Irritability

Anger and Rage

Self Destructive

Lack of Feelings

Insomnia

Poor Concentration

Hopelessness

Poor Self Esteem

Negative Self Image

Apathy

Mistrust

Isolation

Avoidance

Excessive Blame

Dissociation

If Someone You Know Has PTSD

DO:

Acknowledge the reality of their struggle

Offer to go with them to see a counselor

Listen to them

Encourage and support them

Try to imagine a day and night in their shoes

Accept you will never fully understand what they went through and are going through

Respect their need for space

Ask how you can help and support them….then do that

DON’T:

Call them crazy or weird

Say it is all in their head or they’re making a big deal out of nothing

Assume you know what they’re going through

Judge, pity, or try to fix them

Tell them to suck it up, move on, or just get over it

*Feel free to reblog and add more! These were just the things on the handouts I got during my most recent stay in the hospital.

[galina-ulanova]

Marianela Nuñez in Symphony in C (Royal Ballet, 2010)

[saying]