looking up

27, trans girl (she/her), just a little sad, way too old for this (warning triggering content)

[skyofauroras]

I think I got a little better. I still have my hard days and sleepless nights. I still don't have a job or go to school. My house is still a mess. My relationship with my family could be better. However the days seem a little easier. I'm still not happy, but for once i actually want to be happy. I used to not want anything. Even if things could get better, I didn't want it. I don't feel happy but I feel like one day I could be.

I think I got a little better

[storybookprincess]

suddenly remembered this poem as i was making breakfast this morning & frantically googled “poem remembered to buy eggs?????????” & somehow managed to find it & it utterly knocked the wind out of me just as much as when i first read it

[blesstouchiing]

Sometimes I’m happy and I wanna live forever

Phoebe Bridgers// @boykeats //Ocean Vuong//Albert Camus//unknown source// @8-bitfiction //Mary Oliver//Charles Bukowski

[2006barbie-deactivated20210102]

essays on self - (1) // (2) The French Lieutenant's Woman by John Fowles {1969} // (3) Writers and Lovers by Lily King {2020} // (4) Ugly, Bitter, and True by Suzanne Rivecca // (5) On earth we’re breifly gorgeous by Ocean Vuong {2019} // (6) The Book of Disquiet by Fernando Pessoa {1982} // (8) //

[ojibwa]

[onecells]

[an4failure]

do you ever have the feeling that you suffered something traumatic as a kid but you can’t quite figure out what it was?

[geryone]

Dog Woman, Chris Abani

[cybermutttt]

tbh

[rottenn-angel]

i want to go home

[fawning-girl]

[softtoy1998]

[imakeartwheniwanttodie]

[chronicallyonlinesworld]

Please

[everybody-wants-me-dead]

[betweenmee]

You don’t get it, this pain never goes away

[metamorphesque]

— Natalie Diaz, Manhattan Is a Lenape Word