(gif made by the beautiful @pascalplease💕)
Word Count: 6082 (I’m so sorry babes lmao)
Warnings: Smut (18+), adult content, death/violence mention, weed smoking, soft Javi, any shitty formatting because I’m not posting from mobile lmao
Summary: Over passing months, Javier and Nell realize their true feelings for each other.
The time glowed neon red from the alarm clock on the nightstand as Javier stood by the window, finishing his cigarette. The scent of the smoke that filled the room was mixed with incense and the lingering essence of the afterglow. A sheer maroon scarf draped over the bedside lamp veiled the room in soft orange while John Denver’s Windsong album played from Nell’s record player in the corner of the room. He turned his head, taking in how she looked laying nude on the queen size bed as a subtle smile came to rest on his lips. The scene was something akin to a painting. The way her hair laid along her collarbones as she rested her back against the pillows. Like water in a stream, flowing over rocks. Her left leg bent with her knee in the air, her skin so smooth it was as if she was sculpted by Michelangelo himself. The sheets were bunched into a corner of the mattress, evidence of their previous lust filled movements. She sang along quietly to the music as she rolled a joint on her stomach. She was art. He put out his cigarette in the ashtray on the windowsill and turned to face the bed. He gazed at her for a few moments, his teeth catching his bottom lip as he began making his way back to her. He took his pants back off and crawled onto the bed, stopping at her feet and kneeling in front of her. He ran his hand under her calf, lifting her leg and trailing his fingers up and down slowly, stopping to draw soft circles at her knee. He cupped her ankle in his hand and littered soft kisses along the side of her foot. Nell jerked her leg back instinctually but Javier kept a firm grip on her ankle.
“You don’t have a foot thing do you?” She raised an eyebrow before she slid her tongue along the small white paper, sealing the joint while a playful smirk danced on her mouth. He stopped his motions and looked at her before his head fell with a laugh. He shook his head a few times, raising it after a few seconds so his eyes met hers.
“No.” He smirked, resuming his trail of kisses up her ankle and the side of her calf. “I have a you thing.” A small giggle left Nell’s chest as she watched him make his way, his hand sliding up to cup the back of her knee as his lips trailed over it. She grabbed the lighter off her bedside table as she continued singing along to the song that filled the silence.
“All of her nights have gone sad and shady, she’s gettin’ ready to fly…” He peppered kisses around her thigh as she sang, bringing her leg down to lay on the bed as he slowly slid himself down to lay on his stomach between her legs. He laid his head on her upper thigh as her leg came to rest. Propping his chin up, his fingers moved up to gently trace over the faded black crescent moon inked into the skin of her hip. His eyes flickered up at her as the tiny flame lit the joint held between her lips, his gaze falling back to the ink slowly.
“Do you ever want to stop? Traveling…” he trailed off, turning his head to press a gentle kiss to her thigh. “It has to—you must get lonely sometimes..” he spoke softly before looking up to meet her eyes once more. She smiled down at him before she took a slow hit, her fingers brushing through his dark hair languidly. She blew the smoke to the side and shook her head a tiny bit.
“I’ve never really known anything else. Not sure I’d know how to stop.” She kept her gaze on him for a few moments before she took another hit off the joint, exhaling slowly, her nails gently scratching his scalp. “And I’m always lonely, Javier. Everyone is. Most of the time…but no one is willing to admit it. It’s too scary, the thought of being lonely. But really..it’s not so bad. You’d know, you’re lonely too.” Javier’s brows furrowed as he looked at her, his gaze moving back to her hip quickly. She was right. He’d been lonely for longer than he could remember at this point. They stayed silent for a few moments, letting the air fill with music and the smoke from Nell’s joint. He looked up at her after a song came to an end and shifted himself as he began his trail of kisses once more. Sprinkling featherlike pecks up her stomach and around her chest as he settled his hips between her legs. She bit her lip softly, putting the joint out in the ashtray beside the bed as his lips ghosted over her collarbones. Her hands settled on his shoulders while he kissed up her neck and slid his hands into her hair, moving up to her face. He pressed himself against her, letting his body weight settle on top of her. His thumbs brushed against her cheeks, looking down at her as he let out a soft sigh.
“My little moon..” He watched her cheeks flush slightly at the nickname and a tiny smile danced on his lips. He peppered soft kisses on her forehead, her cheeks, her eyelids before pressing a deep kiss to her lips. She was a little breathless as he pulled away and brushed his nose against hers, their eyes still closed. It was quiet for a few moments as they opened their eyes to meet each other’s gaze. Javier stroked her cheeks with his thumbs gently as he kept his eyes on her. She blinked softly a few times and swallowed.
“Do you want to stay?” Her voice came out in a whisper. Javier’s eyes scanned her face for a few silent moments. The record player had stopped, their breathing filling the empty space it made. He leaned down slowly, answering her with another deep kiss as he slipped his other hand down between their bodies. A small gasp escaped Nell’s lips as he brushed his fingers against her center. She kissed him back a little harder, her fingers curling into his hair. He grinned lightly against her lips as he lined himself up with her entrance. He pressed a light kiss to her forehead before pushing into her, sheathing himself inside her fully. The whine that escaped her was muffled by Javier’s lips crashing against hers once more.
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