[irhabiya]

Fundraiser Masterpost

this is a compiled list of families who have contacted me and have been vetted, with links to the fundraisers and verification, and the fundraisers' progress at the time of them being added to this post. this will help me keep track of everyone, i'll try to update this as regularly as i can. last updated: July 4th

Mohammed Bardaweel: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €6,119 raised of €37,000

Marah Salem: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €11,567 raised of €55,000

Renad Majed: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, £15,473 raised of £25,000

Tahani Shorbaje: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, $15,967 raised of $50,000

Husam Thaher: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €6,975 raised of €25,000

Tahseen Tawfiq: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €15,245 raised of €60,000

Firas Salem: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €33,245 raised of €65,000

Mahmoud Abu Hamam: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, $14,876 CAD raised of $50,000

Issam Aziz/Haifa Aziz: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €21,667 raised of €25,000

Sanaa & Rana Abu Ghaben: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, $5,576 CAD raised of $100,000

Nada Saftawi: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €11,163 raised of €16,000

Ahmed Alanqar: shared by @/palipunk (under the name Abdallah Alanqar but it's for his brother Ahmed), €23,120 raised of €35,000

Mohammed Alanqar: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein (again, under the name Abdallah Alanqar, this time it's for his brother Mohammed's family), €32,017 raised of €38,000

Abdelrahman Alanqar: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €7,110 raised of €20,000

Amira Alanqar: vetted by @/nabulsi, €11,905 raised of €20,000

Mohammed Hilles: vetted by @/nabulsi, €21,735 raised of €37,000

Tamer Al-Deeb: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €17,627 raised of €40,000

Mohammed Al-Deeb: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €18,423 raised of €30,000

The Sharif Family: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, $8,583 raised of $90,000

Aya Maher: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein, €4,388 raised of €25,000

Shahd Muhammad: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, $8,006 raised of $50,000

Mohammad Al Manasra: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, €11,020 raised of €40,000

The Shehab Family: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein (under the name Fahed Shehab), €18,861 raised of €50,000

Samer Abu Ras: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, kr59,051 SEK raised of kr450,000

Bassam Shaqoura: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, €23,571 raised of €45,000

Ahmed & Abdelrahman Al-Nabih: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, €4,872 raised of €30,000

Noor Alanqar: shared by @/90-ghost, €5,400 raised of €40,000

Siraj and his family: vetted by @/nabulsi, $3,176 CAD raised of $82,000

Mahmoud Ziad: shared by @/90-ghost, $12,615 raised of $30,000

Raghad Qanou: vetted by @/el-shab-hussein & @/nabulsi, £3,218 raised of £55,000

Eyad Sami: shared by @/90-ghost & @/mohammedalanqer (whose fundraiser is listed above), CHF5,442 raised of CHF20,000

Ashraf Alanqar: shared by @/90-ghost, €2,413 raised of €30,000

i still have a couple campaigns that i need to make sure are vetted in my inbox. please let me know if any of the links are missing/don't work!

[enby-axels]

also btw, to people who don't follow sports, ilya moves to ottawa because it's the practical choice for his specific needs. he wants to leave america, so that leaves only canadian teams to choose from. and of those teams, the centaurs are the best fit because they're evidently in the middle of a rebuild (just like boston and montreal were in the beginning!): they're in need of a star center, they have the cap space to pay ilya what he's worth, they're low enough in the standings to have the #2 draft pick, they sign wyatt and troy shortly after. moving to ottawa was far from a career-ending move and i'm tired of people who don't know ball pretending it was just to infantilize this grown white man lmao

[enby-axels]

ilya has this incorrect perception that he's sacrificing himself for shane by staying closeted, which is how he rationalizes his unhappiness and resentment at shane for being able to come out when he couldn't. a lot of fans buy into this perception and from there they somehow come to the conclusion that shane is making ilya stay in the closet. but that's not true at all!

their boxing day argument never implies any such "agreement" between them. it instead shows that shane was never aware of ilya's desire to come out or disclose their relationship to anyone and that he's confused by ilya's anger and any implication of ilya's closeted status representing some kind of unfairness in their relationship, all of which imply this is something they've never communicated about. and at worst, shane is wary of disclosing their relationship to someone who's not a close friend to either of them. (and, well, the "this guy might be gay but he was a homophobic douchebag to me before" of it all could be a factor too, although this angle is left unexplored)

later on, ilya himself admits that he's not actually sure if he's ready to go public or even come out to his closest friends whom he's lost touch with, because he's afraid of losing them. there's no "shane told me to cut them off or not come out to them," it's "i was distant because i was afraid." it was his choice. they were all his choices.

and ilya is afraid to take ownership over any of these choices because that's a scary thing to do for anyone who's chronically depressed and whose assumptions that all these major life changes (leaving a country that was making him unhappy or feel unsafe, starting the relationship he always wanted) would fix him were proven wrong. if you escape all the bad stuff and you're still unhappy, what do you do then? who do you blame? because you have to blame someone. you need to have something to overcome to reach your happily ever after, and it can't be yourself. because there's no defeating or escaping yourself, only a long and uphill journey toward a recovery that may never be complete

[enby-axels]

i keep thinking about how in bugonia, emma stone's character michelle said something along the lines of "i became the sort of human being i swore i'd never be" but like the "human" things she hates about herself were originally andromedan traits. humans were made in their image, both times around. like the andromedans wiped out the dinosaurs. then they had the hubris to rectify the mass extinction event they caused by creating a new species to populate the planet that looks just like them, but is weaker and meant to worship them. of course those humans genetically modified themselves in an attempt to become more like their creators. of course they wanted to "fix" the weakness their gods cursed them with. and of course they destroyed themselves. theyre just like their parents

[serendipitous-posts]

Just saw the interview where Curry Barker explained that it's totally possible to get a normal wish from the One Wish Willow, and I love the way they did that so much. The reason Obsession happened isn't because it's trying to twist Bear's desires into something evil. It's not even because he phrased his want wrong. Obsession happened because Bear got his hands on a magic item that could do anything in existence, and chose to force someone to fall in love with him, which is an inherently evil thing to do.

[colinfirth]

You're petrified by your own fucking standards - and your fear of failure! This is the truth. ANATOMY OF A FALL (2023) | dir. Justine Triet

[enby-axels]

btw while we're on the topic of anatomy of a fall, i dont think the husband killed himself on purpose or as revenge, i think his fall was a complete accident. and it's interesting how the defense brought that up as a legitimate possibility but said it could never work in court bc it wasnt a narrative that could assign blame. people love assigning blame and having neat little explanations that identify a clear victim and villain when there isnt one. you see that in court, in the media, in the marriage itself (particularly from the husband).

and also i do feel like the husband had real reasons to feel upset, but he wasnt looking for solutions, he wanted someone to blame. i also think sandra was a bit cold but she correctly identified his unwillingness to admit his own faults or that he chose this life and is playing off his cowardice as sacrifices he made for her. i love that she refused to budge an inch when the husband tried to push it all on her. i cant say what the "correct" decision would have been here, i just think this was a super compelling choice on her part that i can empathize with and she was understandably at the end of her rope. she's not a sponge for his resentment, she refuses to be the scapegoated woman, before or after his death, or to simplify their complicated relationship. and that, to me, makes anatomy of a fall a more nuanced and engaging piece of art than what the popular discourse reduces it to

[enby-axels]

the heated rivalry fandom would be so much more bearable if people could admit that the long game is just one extended, slightly polished whump fic where the main character blames his partner for the life that he chose (insert the iconic sandra hüller anatomy of a fall monologue). and there are racist implications to this due to the throughline of racial fetishization in these books and the overarching pattern of rachel's sad white boys (ilya, ryan, troy) having partners/exes of color (shane, fabian, adrian) from whom empathy is extracted but not returned to. because rachel is only interested in the interiority (and humanity) of the white halves of these relationships and in providing excuses upon excuses for them, while any semblance of struggle, individuality, and need for grace in the racialized halves is characterized as an audacious act of selfishness standing in the way of their white partner's happiness which must be overcome one way or another. basically what im getting at is the unending discourse about how so-and-so white boy deserves better is mind-numbingly stupid and i do think lesser of you as readers for not interrogating the racist writing

[jockadjacent]

adrian dela cruz is an insane character concept to me… like we’re supposed to be hating this guy because he cheated on troy with his director and got engaged to that director and came out in the same post announcing that engagement but like

he was in the closet with another closeted man who was being openly, disgustingly homophobic at work and was encouraged to behave that way by work (not to mention the violence inherent in the sport, injuring each other, ending people’s careers for a chance at the cup)

adrian must’ve had so much self doubt, this filming project was probably the first time he felt supported by anyone anywhere, to do a complete 180 on his feelings about being out and proud and not giving a damn about the consequences because he knows he can survive it

[enby-axels]

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[enby-axels]

it's interesting how the drama implies that sometime over the years, emma lost contact with her high school friends and was never able to make new ones on her own. and yet being friendless again didnt make her regress or default to her previous state. i think she really did change as a person and took ownership over her growth and beliefs. she never wanted to go back to that bad dream

and imo that really hammers in the theme that emma is just a person, like anyone else. like any other person, she is capable of change, both negative and positive. she can be radicalized and deradicalized. emma herself points this out as a teen, mass shooters can look like anybody! theyre not even all men. and charlie echoes her in the present day when he says there could be thousands of people walking the streets who were radicalized like emma and just like her they ultimately didnt go through with it. and when arguing with his friends about it, he accidentally stumbled upon the really great point that this is a very american problem produced by american gun culture. the individual of course bears responsibility for their actions and their growth, but if we want to understand and solve this problem on a broader scale, we have to understand it is bigger than any one person. it cant be boiled down to a few bad actors and divorced from the material conditions from which gun violence emerges

in contrast, multiple other characters in the drama independently use a very interesting choice of word to describe emma: "psychopath." they all, in different settings and conversations, use a term which carries an incredible amount of baggage in pop psychology and bourgeois psychiatry. their language indicates they see emma as an aberration, fundamentally broken and incapable of change. because that's the safe way of looking at it. it's easy to exceptionalize mass shootings and hard to look at the rot at the heart of the america, the massive amounts of violence we inflict which we take for granted as part of the status quo. because that's their normal and emma, to these characters, is intrinsically abnormal and therefore irredeemable

and look, i dont have an easy answer for whether or not we should assume the best of somebody who once planned a mass shooting. that's a hard pill for anyone to swallow. but the drama believes it's clearly possible for someone like that to truly change, and i want to believe that too

[madmonksandmaenads]

I wish I could make white people(and not just white Americans) understand how diverse the pre-columbian Americas were. The history, religion, culture, politics was at least as complex as Europe's. There was the full gamut of religions, from monotheists to animists to ancestral religions. There were city building empires, village farmers, nomadic traders, and so many other ways to live. This is all just based on what we know, the fragments left behind and the stories of survivors of an apocalyptic plague. All this before the most extended campaign of genocide in history was waged in an attempt to wipe out those survivors.

Over 500 years spent trying to cut down a whole trunk of human culture.

Do you understand how much poorer our whole species is because of it? Can you imagine where art, religion, and science would be if we still had these vast bodies of knowledge? The stain of the colonial project will never be fully washed clean. We owe more than just the land to those we stole from. We owe them a whole future, a future that could have been brighter for all of us. If only greed and fear weren't allowed to rule this land.

[boccher]

It's second nature for us transfems to understand how a closeted transfem behaves and presents, you kind of forget how the average person perceives them. Like genuinely, what do the people around me make of a depressed and friendless long-haired "boy" with an aversion to buying new clothes. What alternate explanation seems logical in their mind. I would have no clue.

[mousidy]

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I was in the latter category 🙃 same hoodie every day, not looking in the mirror, don't perceive me

[raangmanch]

Treat Hindutvadis as you treat Zionists. You have to make them feel unwelcome everywhere. Hindutvadis have consistently said that they dream of an India that is "pure" /"decolonized" i.e. a land only for Hindus. These are a lot of words for basically calling for extermination of every other culture, every other person who is not a Hindu.

[raangmanch]

No culture, no tradition no food habit no philosophy no connection to the land except that prescribed by the Brahminical tradition- that is the goal. They want to emulate that which Israel has done in Palestine- so basically every resource, material benefit is to be redirected to UC Hindus while everyone else is rendered a second class citizen. That is why so many of their talking points are the same as that of Zionists. You will hear them talking about "Hinduphobia" / genocide against Hindus/ reclaiming of ancestral lands. You have to nip these bullshit in the bud.

[enby-axels]

im seeing a lot of confusion about rachel reid's discord comments, because how can she assert that her major notes for TLG were about shane's selfishness and stupidity and inattentiveness to his sad boyfriend, when shane is the one who reaches out to ilya, gently suggests he's mentally struggling and could talk to a professional, and ilya is the one who rudely shuts him down?

meanwhile, when shane is the one going through it—he's anxious about being outed and doesnt want to come out due to the league's homophobia, he's personally threatened by the commissioner, he struggles with disordered eating, if not an outright eating disorder (outright saying he diets for a sense of control, feeling guilty about tasting lemonade on his boyfriend's lips, his low point is eating one singular snicker's bar)—ilya fails to reciprocate empathy. shane tells ilya about the commissioner threatening him and ilya basically goes great now my bitch bf will never want to come out 🙄 (compare this with how he reacts when his reformed bigot white bestie troy was threatened by the commissioner: ilya is automatically protective of him.) shane starts an unhealthily restrictive diet due to his fears of aging (read: being pushed) out of the sport, and ilya looks down on him for it and mocks his diet to his face. shane, who is a hypervisible athlete of color in an extremely white sport, looks uncomfortable in a room full of white people talking about the league's issues, and ilya deduces that this is because shane doesnt know "the dark side of hockey" the way he does. this is a ridiculous assumption that should reveal a worrying lack of empathy for his partner of color, especially since throughout the series there is a pattern of other hockey players targeting shane with homophobic language, which ilya has been present for. except rachel herself states shane has no trauma from the sport and shane's own pov asserts that hockey has never made him sad.

do you guys get where im going with this? the elephant in the room is race. rachel narratively blames shane, hyperscrutinizes his flaws and justifies or provides excuses for ilya's, because she has implicit racist biases and subconsciously sees empathy as a one-way obligation in their relationship. ilya lacks empathy for shane because she lacks empathy for shane and thinks ilya is right. she monopolizes empathy for ilya because he is white and because she doesnt see characters of color as fully people and capable of having their own interiority or struggles to explore. if you've read tough guy or role model, you can see this same exact thing play out in ryan price and fabian salah's relationship or with troy barrett and his ex adrian dela cruz.

and remember how i said that there's a pattern of other hockey players being homophobic to shane? this is never brought up in shane's pov, not even hinted at. we only see these instances through the pov of white characters and are only given explorations of how they feel, not shane. shane is completely absent except as a prop to make her sadboy white characters feel tormented and angry, and rachel never connects his "self-absorbed" anxieties about wanting to stay closeted to the disproportionate homophobia he already faces, because rachel is uninterested in giving shane grace.

so when rachel says ilya's biggest flaw is his fear of being hurt (note how the language centers his hurt, not how his actions cause hurt), while shane's is his supposed selfishness (is shane not also afraid of being hurt? isnt that where his food issues and unwillingness to come out come from)? when she said shane is too focused on his "ridiculous" diet and not on "actually important things" like his depressed boyfriend? when she said in a reddit AMA that she only gave shane food issues to give ilya something to poke fun at? when that one interviewer asked her about the criticisms of how she wrote her asian character and she pivoted to talking about ilya's childhood trauma? her fetishistic descriptions of shane and fabian, to the point you can tell she wanted to call them exotic and her editor probably told her to tone it down? the way she contrasts adrian's appearance and supposed shortcomings with harris? her insistence that her books are challenging hockey culture while completely dismissing how hostile and dehumanizing it can be to people of color? and last but not least, THE DICK SIZE RANKING?

it's racism all the way down guys

[enby-axels]

i might genuinely be the world's first ever adrian dela cruz apologist. like role model completely failed to convince me that he actually did anything wrong. oh, he told troy he was never in love with him? maybe troy should have tried being lovable. he fell in love with someone else while dating an awful bigoted white hockey player and probably cheated on that hockey player too? good for adrian. like you literally cannot pay me to feel bad for troy here

also, me personally, i think the way the book presents harris as the white, nurturing, non-threatening, sweet, sincere, loyal improvement to the brown, self-centered, more muscular, catty, duplicitous, cheating ex—while never even giving any concrete examples of adrian being toxic!—is crazy racist.

this paragraph in particular stuck out to me because this is where the subtext becomes explicitized, and adrian and harris are directly contrasted in terms of their appearances, their races

so yeah i am suspicious of the way adrian's written and what the narrative takes for granted about him. because he's not even a real character! he doesnt appear once on the page, he's just a vaguely ethnic minority boogeyman ex whose only purpose is to make troy more pitiable to the readers and be compared to harris

if i didnt know any better, i would assume that rachel intentionally wrote troy's perception of adrian to be biased. but unfortunately i do know better, so i know this is just her being a boymom to yet another emotionally tortured white male character and she probably just assumed that the nothingburger she told us about adrian should be enough to make readers hate him, empathize with troy, and root for the new and innocent white4white hockey romance

[philcollinsenjoyer]

saying this in a soft tone but i dislike this presentation of artemis 2 in the least political way possible as a wholesome and uncomplicated win for humanity as a whole like it's not american propagandism of the highest and most vulgar degree

[voicelessv]

"For me, the most ironic token of [the first human moon landing] is the plaque signed by President Richard M. Nixon that Apollo 11 took to the moon. It reads: "We came in peace for all Mankind." As the United States was dropping 7 ½ megatons of conventional explosives on small nations in Southeast Asia, we congratulated ourselves on our humanity. We would harm no one on a lifeless rock."

Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot: A Vision of the Human Future in Space