Fat Trans Queer

I'm Cory, aka carp. A fat, queer, enby. My main is carpecarp.

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Yo so I’m trans and when I’m on my period I get crazy dysphoric, anxious and just overall a mess and recently I’ve been having those like embarrassing memories that come out at night usually come out during the day. And ex. Is when I almost outed my friend by saying ace of cards instead jack of all trades like a dummy and it haunts me so how do I deal with that?

When it comes to your period, I found I was least dysphoric if I used a menstrual cup.  The cups are great because for me, I could leave it in and forget about it for the day or night.  It won’t work for everyone, though.  It does require inserting something into your vagina which I know some guys can’t handle.  Also, if you have heavy periods, then it may need to be emptied multiple times a day/night or it can leak.  

I have gotten around the problem by getting on a birth control medicine that stops my period.  My gynecologist was very understanding and prescribed me norethindrone, which doesn’t contain any estrogen.  Since I am unable to take testosterone currently, he wanted to at least not make me take more estrogen.  There’s a lot of options for birth control, though, that can stop your period.  If you’re not comfortable coming out to your gynecologist, you can just say your period is a problem for you because of heavy flow and/or painful cramps.

As for dealing with anxiety in general, a couple things I’d suggest are breathing exercises and learning to be more forgiving of yourself.

You can google all kinds of breathing exercises.  Usually when I’m anxious I breath in for four counts, hold for seven counts, and breath out for eight counts.  Just do it a few times to try to recenter yourself.

And be kind to yourself. If you do something embarrassing, if you make a mistake, think of how you would talk to a friend who made a mistake.  You’d probably tell them it’s not a big deal, or everybody makes mistakes, or just generally that it’s OK.  Practice telling yourself that you’re a good person who means well.  It can take a lot of practice before it comes naturally, but even if you have to force yourself to think something nice, it will help in the long run.

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Aint you ashamed to accuse someone without letitng him giving his answer, giving his name when you stay anonymous? In justice an accused person is given the right to defend himself otherwise its just lynch, like other racised guys were. Don't you know the stereotype "male hormones make transguys violent" is denounced by trans community? The one who attacked him were jealous of his reputation. They put division in our community just for that. Queerism is gendermaoism, with its popular tribunal.

What the hell are you talking about?

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Hey i have 420 followers again!

Reminder, though: I have gone back to mostly using my main, @carpecarp

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nice

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Oh no i lost a follower!

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i guess i haven’t posted much in a while.  and now i’ve decided to post more, but i’m mostly posting to my main tumblr, @carpecarp

i still got this tumblr for things i don’t want certain people to see.

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nice

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the other day, i discovered a pocket of tumblr that contains people who seem to have some communist ideals, but are also misogynistic, racist, fuckbags.  

[reasonandempathy]

Millenials don’t believe in democracy because we have never experienced it. In the United States, Democracy was repealed in 1976 with the Buckley v. Valeo Supreme Court decision. This contended that giving money to political parties was “free speech” and could not be infringed. In the stroke of a pen, American Democracy was dead and replaced with plutocracy. The ability to vote can be powerful, but not nearly as powerful as the ability to bribe, and this decision legalized bribery and called it “campaign contributions”. Since then, virtually none of the after-inflation economic gains have been shared by Americans who are not high-earners and opinions of voters have had zero effect on policy. By contrast, opinions of donors have a very high correlation. Democracy has been dead since before any millennial was born, and every year the corpse that bears its name redistributes more wealth from the middle and lower classes to the corrupt. Can you blame us for disdaining a system that has done nothing but steal from us?

Justin Flynn (via sosungalittleclodofclay)

True enough statement, but also this guy is an MRA.

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I had to see this with my eyes so now you do too

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Fuck. The place I'm working is going to close at the end of the month. There's no way I can find another place that'll hire me to work ten hours or less a week.

[rodentmancy]

honestly this is ..so disgusting ..

[pvellamagi-deactivated20231201]

i hope they’re equally as excited that all of their clients will hate them and stop paying them becauuuuuse

like they’re still an actual scum of a human being abusing power because im sure some clients/patients will have very little freedom to find and choose a different psychiatrist, but every single person who DOES have that power is going to immediately stop giving them money, so like

[rodentmancy]

tbh i hope their clients immediately report them as a transphobe, put warnings out online to NOT go to this dr as theyre too obsessed with themselves to actually give a fuck about their clients. shit just takes a few bad google reviews to warn folks off.

[kameratar]

This looks like an example in like a moral textbook on the term “evil” or “cruelty” tbh. Also, do these people realise that therapists pretty much already treat a huge chunk of their patients like they are non-dysphoric cis fakers???

Like, the only difference here, I assume would be that a trans person is doing it among the dozens of cis peers who is doing the exact same thing. This feels almost milder than the experiences (”horror stories” as they say) I’ve heard from friends.

I’m glad this person is at least honest that they have like some kind of fetish for having others suffer, instead of pretending like it’s ideological disagreement… But just, this person confessing to being evil and cruel.

[meangirlvibes]

Don’t worry, psychology degree = they’ll just be a psychologist, NOT a med doctor. Don’t know how it is in the US, but at least in most countries of Europe most of the medical transition process is arranged by actual medical doctors with a license, NOT psychologists (who are of course valued specialists in their field but it’s more of humanities than medicine, and they typically don’t prescribe drugs, though they are involved in diagnosis). Additionally, a psychologist with a psych degree (humanities, psych major) is NOT the same as a psychiatrist (med school, few years of experience in psychiatry). Probably won’t be able to do much anyway, and I am saying this as an actual med student.

Also they’re an asshole.

[mingisxfixon]

^as a premed student I can confirm that psychologists aren’t the ones giving prescriptions but instead a medical doctor with a license and that this person is a major asshole who needs help

[rodentmancy]

ok so as ive learned depending on where you are, the dr who actually prescribes the scrip can require a letter. and if you live in a shittier area, you are more likely to come across this sort of dr than one that goes on self determination. 

so i appreciate what yall pre-meds are sayin but its not really .. helpin..

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honestly, tell us who made the original post so we can find out where they're going to school and make complaints about them. They don't even have an understanding of what dysphoria means according to the DSM they should be studying.

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Like, honestly, fuck the cop who adopted the baby from the homeless mom struggling with drug addiction.

People struggling with addiction should be receiving free medical care, housing, food, etc to ensure they get healthy again.  It’s not a fucking miracle for a cop to adopt their baby.  It’s kind of a miracle he didn’t just arrest her, and force her to give birth in prison like happens to so many other moms in this situation. But just because a cop chooses to make one exception to the draconian drug laws in our country, it doesn’t make him a fucking hero.  He’s still going to be out there, putting people in prison for a medical issue.  

That mom was not in a position where she had any choice but to give up her baby.  And she’s in that position because of our violent drug laws, because we spend millions on enforcing those laws instead of investing in the basic needs of our people.  And that cop is a tool to enforce that violence and maintain the status quo that keeps people impoverished and sick and dying.  As far as I’m concerned, he stole that baby.  

[antoine-roquentin]

The first pathetic pieces of wreckage from North Korean fishing boats known as “ghost ships” to be found this year are washing up on the coast of northern Japan. These are the storm-battered remains of fragile wooden boats with unreliable engines in which North Korean fishermen go far out to sea in the middle of winter in a desperate search for fish.

The record of economic sanctions in forcing political change is dismal, but as a way of reducing a country to poverty and misery it is difficult to beat. UN sanctions were imposed against Iraq from 1990 until 2003. Supposedly, it was directed against Saddam Hussein and his regime, though it did nothing to dislodge or weaken them: on the contrary, the Baathist political elite took advantage of the scarcity of various items to enrich themselves by becoming the sole suppliers. Saddam’s odious elder son Uday made vast profits by controlling the import of cigarettes into Iraq.

The bureaucrats in charge of UN sanctions in Iraq always pretended that they prevented Saddam rebuilding his military strength. This was always a hypocritical lie: the Iraqi army did not fight for him in 1991 at the beginning of sanctions any more than it did when they ended. It was absurd to imagine that dictators like Kim Jong-un or Saddam Hussein would be influenced by the sufferings of their people.

These are very real: I used to visit Iraqi hospitals in the 1990s where the oxygen had run out and there were no tyres for the ambulances. Once, I was pursued across a field in Diyala province north of Baghdad by local farmers holding up dusty X-rays of their children because they thought I might be a visiting foreign doctor.

Saddam Hussein and his senior lieutenants were rightly executed for their crimes, but the foreign politicians and officials who were responsible for the sanctions regime that killed so many deserved to stand beside them in the dock. It is time that the imposition of economic sanctions should be seen as a war crime, since it involves the collective punishment of millions of innocent civilians who die, sicken or are reduced to living off scraps from the garbage dumps.

There is nothing very new in this. Economic sanctions are like a medieval siege but with a modern PR apparatus attached to justify what is being done. A difference is that such sieges used to be directed at starving out a single town or city while now they are aimed at squeezing whole countries into submission.

An attraction for politicians is that sanctions can be sold to the public, though of course not to people at the receiving end, as more humane than military action. There is usually a pretence that foodstuffs and medical equipment are being allowed through freely and no mention is made of the financial and other regulatory obstacles making it impossible to deliver them.

An example of this is the draconian sanctions imposed on Syria by the US and EU which were meant to target President Bashar al-Assad and help remove him from power. They have wholly failed to do this, but a UN internal report leaked in 2016 shows all too convincingly the effect of the embargo in stopping the delivery of aid by international aid agencies. They cannot import the aid despite waivers because banks and commercial companies dare not risk being penalised for having anything to do with Syria. The report quotes a European doctor working in Syria as saying that “the indirect effect of sanctions … makes the import of the medical instruments and other medical supplies immensely difficult, near impossible.”

People should be just as outraged by the impact of this sort of thing as they are by the destruction of hospitals by bombing and artillery fire. But the picture of X-ray or kidney dialysis machines lacking essential spare parts is never going to compete for impact with film of dead and wounded on the front line. And those who die because medical equipment has been disabled by sanctions are likely to do so undramatically and out of sight.

Embargoes are dull and war is exciting. A few failed rocket strikes against Riyadh by the Houthi forces in Yemen was heavily publicised, though no Saudis were killed. Compare this to the scant coverage of the Saudi embargo on Houthi-held Yemen which has helped cause the largest man-made famine in recent history. In addition, there are over one million cholera cases suspected and 2,000 Yemenis have died from the illness according to the World Health Organisation.

PR gambits justifying sanctions are often the same regardless of circumstances. One is to claim that the economic damage caused prevents those who are targeted spending money on guns and terror. President Trump denounces the nuclear deal with Iran on the grounds that it frees up money to finance Iranian foreign ventures, though the cost of these is small and, in Iraq, Iranian activities probably make a profit.

Sanctions are just as much a collective punishment as area bombing in East Aleppo, Raqqa and Mosul. They may even kill more people than the bombs and shells because they go on for years and their effect is cumulative. The death of so many North Korean fishermen in their unseaworthy wooden craft is one side effect of sanctions but not atypical of their toxic impact. As usual, they are hitting the wrong target and they are not succeeding against Kim Jong-un any more than they did against Saddam Hussein.

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I’ve been sick all week and now i’m trying to catch up on my correspondence with some incarcerated penpals.  But I’m crying after reading and replying to one woman’s letter and I don’t know how to switch gears to another letter.

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Man yells, “Make America Great Again!” Before shooting 6 people dead.

Man wearing, “Make America Great Again” hat murders 2 strangers for no reason.

A Trump supporter murders 2 police officers because they told him he couldn’t wave a Confederate flag at a high school football game.

Two men beat a homeless man with a metal bar and urinate on him screaming, “Donald Trump was right, all these illegals need to be deported,” When asked for a comment about the incident Trump defends them saying, “My supporters are very passionate. They love this country and they want this country to be great again.”

Trump supporter attacks a Hispanic man and a Muslim student at a gas station while yelling, “Trump! Trump! Trump!”

Trump supporter stabs a black man unprovoked because he was holding hands with a white woman, tells police they need to release him so he can attend a Trump rally that night.

Trump supporter attacks Muslim woman at airport.

A Trump supporter punches a 70 year old protester in the face.

Trump supporter arrested for brutally beating protester.

3 Trump supporters arrested planning terrorist attack to kill Muslims.

Trump supporter confuses an Indian man for a Muslim at restaurant and says, “Things are different now, I don’t want you sand n*ggers sitting next to me.” Before attacking the man.

“We got a new President you fucking f*ggots.” Men yell as they attack gay man.

Trump supporters track down and brutally beat an artist because she made a painting of Trump with a small penis.

Trump supporter who sucker punched protester: “Next time, we might have to kill them.”

Trump is asked to comment on his supporters brutally beating a black man, he responds with, “Maybe he should have been roughed up,”

“You fucking gorillas and baby monkeys, We voted for Trump. Trump’s building a wall, beaners, and you’ll be going back to where you belong.” Man yells at black elementary school children unprovoked before he swerves his car at them attempting to hit them.

Trump supporters beat black man so badly he’s hospitalized for concussion and call him the n-word.

Trump supporter pepper sprays a 15-year-old girl point-blank in the face after another Trump supporter groped her breasts, shouting “n*gger lover” as she attempted to run away.

Trump supporter walks up to a black man in the middle of a downtown area and says, “Donald Trump will deport you.” Before punching the black man.

“Trump is going to win and if you don’t like it I’m going to beat your ass,” Trump supporter yells at random black woman outside of convenient store.

Man attacks and kicks Muslim airport employee shouting, “Trump is here now, he will get rid of all of you.”

In 8 months Trump supporters attacked protesters at 20 different rallies.

Trump supporter tracks down a local Latino Democratic political candidate and tries to run him and his elderly mother over with a car. (The Latino candidate is also a former marine.)

“This is for Donald Trump!” man yells as he runs up a Latino person and punches them in the head.

Trump supporter goes to Hillary Clinton rally to disrupt the event, ends up punching someone when asked to leave.

Trump supporter punches, chokes and slaps protesters on video during rally.

An angry mob of Trump supporters brutally beat and grab a mans genitals because he held up a, “Republicans Against Trump” sign.

A Trump supporter yells, “Get your black kids out of here. Do you even have a job? Do you know what a job is, n*gger?” Before physically attacking a black man who had come to the hospital to get help for his sick 2 week old daughter.

Local Republican Politician sexually assaults a woman by, “grabbing her pussy.” and then says he is allowed to do it because now that Trump is president he doesn’t have to be politically correct.

Canadian man who was a vocal Trump supporter both online and in person goes into a mosque and murders 6 people.

Trump supporter physically assaults Comedian on stage for making Anti-Trump Joke.

Man yells, “Trump” while beating African immigrant cab driver.

A Trump supporter is arrested for burning a Mosque down.

A Trump supporter sees a car has pro-gay bumper stickers on it and then follows the car, waiting for the 75 year old driver to get out before brutally attacking him while screaming, “My new president says we can kill all you f*ggots now.”

A Trump supporter is arrested after brutally attacking gay men outside a McDonald’s. Witnesses describe the aftermath as, “There was blood everywhere.”

A Muslim refugee gay rights activist is kidnapped and raped by two men in retaliation for, “Trump being mocked.”

A Trump supporter is arrested on terrorism charges for building bombs he was going to use to kill Muslims.

Person spray-paints a transgender veterans car with the word “Trump” then sets it on fire.

A Trump supporter attacks two Muslim women and tries to push over a stroller with a baby in it while screaming, “Get the fuck out of America”

A Trump supporter tells a random Muslim woman he sees on the street, “I’m voting for Trump because he said he would send all of you terrorists out of this country.” Before attacking her.

Man shoots out the windows of two businesses from a car while shouting, “Hail Trump.”

[zennistrad]

“Leftists are violent thugs.”

[wodneswynn-deactivated-deactiva]

I support all women, and that includes ciswomen as well as real women

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I found two friends who want to read the new Jim crow with me, so the reading group is starting next month!

One of them also wants to read Capital with me