I’m Trying My Best

Hi! I’m 20, struggling, hyperfixiating, and very stressed. Like art and will be cringe I do have another account by the same name and I made it when I was a child plz ignore it-

[endiecutieo6]

Thought I should probably do something like this at some point, especially if I want to be serious about being an art creator, so hello everyone! This is me ig! I thought I’d have more to say but I can’t articulate myself very well rn so I’ll add on when I can.

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Another accounts!

Instagram: EndieCutie.06

BluSky (nsfw): EndieCutie06 but nsfw

YouTube: EndieCutie06

Pokémon tumblr account: Pokecutie06!

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Fandom additions:

+ Deltarune and/or undertale

+ Backrooms (Tho more Kane Parsons ver)

+ The Walten Files

Blorbos additions:

+ Flowery

+ Felix Kranken

I think that’s all I have to add for now lol

If you’re struggling to read the text I’ve made an alternate thing here so it’s easier to read.

I really hope this actually helps and doesn’t just make it worse

[godlikedyke]

essentially all I’m saying is that you need to be less afraid of being a pervert. You have to train and practice the pervert muscles in your heart so they can grow strong. Literally everyone is a pervert about certain things and many people still think they’re perverts for chill regular things like being gay because their upbringing has left them with atrophied senses of sex. We solve both of these problems at once by encouraging burgeoning pervertedness at every step of the way and ensuring people do not feel like they have to hide it under lip service to norms

[endiecutieo6]

Had a weird dream where I went to Disney world but couldn’t remember a thing, all my memories being just a dream. It was actually rather distressing and I was very upset I couldn’t remember anything.

Another part of that dream though was Maxwell don’t starve being at Disney for some reason and telling someone off for being racist bc they assumed he was racist cuz he was born in the 1800s and I think that matters

[3447]

[sergeon]

Finally did the other Flowers design

Also here's some post-knight flowery too

[redstonedust]

"i know this show was made for children but i enjoy it too." > awesome and cool. watch whatever you want forever.

"i know it LOOKS like it was made for children but its SECRETLY for us. calling it a kids show is an insult cause kids could never understand these THEMES and EMOTIONS. we're the TRUE fans." > i dont think i trust your opinions. you seem lame as fuck.

[thewitchofart]

Reference to the Toby' bsky post

[ifeelsickening]

Reposting this coz i saw it in my camera roll again this is by far one of the funniest interactions ive come across on ao3

[big-bad-ron]

Who dares to hurt my husband?! >:(

[wiisagi-maiingan]

I do actually find the term "main character syndrome" helpful because I think it really does a good job describing this trend where people think that they are the only ones who are interesting, who have hobbies and interests, who have complex internal lives, and who care about things like privacy and being treated with respect.

Anyway I just saw someone say that it's performative to read Sylvia Plath in a coffee shop and I am so deeply exhausted.

[wiisagi-maiingan]

And the thing is that I do think that there's some truth to the idea that publicly engaging in hobbies is performative but not in the disdainful way that a lot of people think it? I think for a lot of people, doing things like reading their favorite poetry book or knitting or whatever in public is performative in the sense that they desperately want to form connections with other people with similar hobbies and so they're doing those things in hopes someone will talk to them about it.

And I don't think that's a bad thing! I think we are at a point in time where people are very deeply lonely and seeking connection in any way they can get it and sometimes that means being vulnerable and "cringey" where other people can see. And instead of judging them for that or making a disdainful tiktok or youtube "essay", maybe you should walk up to them and ask about what they're doing. You might just get a new hobby and a new friend out of it.

[endiecutieo6]

Felix Kranken and Clark Backrooms are in my “I somehow understand them by seeing the absolute worst of myself in them even though I don’t ever think I’d get that far before I did myself in” by the sheer fact that they both just keep moving forward because if they stop now then everything they did meant nothing. All the pain and denial, all that shit they put themselves through, would mean nothing that therefore everything they did would amount to nothing. Fuckers desperately clinging onto whatever fucked coping mechanisms they have, making everything worse for others and themselves, digging and deeper and deeper hole because not only is climbing out hard, but all that time and emotion you put into digging would’ve meant nothing. Becoming literally the worst versions of themselves by the day to cling onto a facade that it was all “out of their control” because the moment they accept that they could control their actions they would have to accept that they chose to fuck up, to be fuck ups, to fuck everything and everyone up, and at that point why even live if you’re such a fuck up?

I cannot articulate myself any more and have to go back to being a flowery kinnie because if I think about how I still relate to both Clark and Felix while also hating their actions then I’ll hate myself lmao might delete later

[wowbright]

Friendly reminder that you're not required to publicly take sides in any geopolitical conflict you don't understand.

[minyardlumberyard]

tags too good to leave in tags @hyperrbolic-orange

[anxiette]

also way too valuable to leave in tags! from @carolinanadeau

[halfwaything]

something something freddy riley kins henry higgins and doesn't see a problem with it.

[otakusparkle]

Identity V Official 2019 Chinese Birthday Art Survivor Part 1

Part 2 3

Hunter 1 2

[humankk]

more of my great idea, which could be an alternative to my other post, or perhaps a prequel.

really though have anyone ever like, think about the limit of what he could do with this? Like can he add color, how big how tall how far how detailed he could make this?

Like if you omit his stem can he just basically make a puppet of anyone? Maybe this is part of him that's Determined Asriel's dust and therefore has the same mallability as the amalgamates? You know the one that can shapeshift into save points and whatever obscure stuffs.

[sistertaxon]

actual criticisms of academia:

cost of education acting as class barrier

exploitation of graduate workers

colonialist past and present

ties to military industrial complex

danger of power structure entrenching and justifying orthodox views on social issues

criticisms of academia that get made:

those damn ivory tower academics are wasting money learning about things

[endiecutieo6]

There’s nothing quite like the feeling of fucking up your recommendation page on YouTube because you got kinda interested in something (but didn’t hyperfixate) and watched a couple more videos in it than you should’ve and now everything is fucked and you don’t know how to un-fuck it

Like damn I just kinda got back into pvz wtf is everything either pvz or some drama