i’m sorry i haven’t been on. this is just a little update of status thing under read more so i dont clog other people’s dashes.
i’m really not feeling the writing vibe or even being on here beyond scrolling a few posts at one time. i have a lot going on right now & really it’s just, exhausting. all the pre-uni stress & overthinking about whether i made the right decision to continue seeking a career in this sector has been weighing on me. not to mention all the ‘online camps’ & socializing. the panic is slowly rising & i’m so worried i can’t write.
i’ve also finally been talking to some of the closest people in my lives about something that happened in my past & am considering therapy after 10 years. so that’s a step forward, but i think it will be mentally draining too. other than that, i have a consultation to go for tomorrow & a possible minor surgery on saturday. i’m pretty much one big ball of blergh.
i’m so sorry i havent replied to any threads or even to IMs. i just need to put myself first for the sake of those who are important to me. i want to be better. if you would like to chat more, feel free to hit me up on my discord @ cy pres#3537 but please specify who you are ! i do want to talk to you guys more. i deeply apologise for this once again, & am eternally grateful to whomever reads this. <3











