未来

rules + muses

[teokyeo]

Hi, it’s me again.

I’ve decided to go on an indefinite hiatus starting today. I’ve already started to send private messages to people, but I thought I also needed to announce it here.

For starters: I do not feel safe. And it’s not because of the people on the internet — you guys are lovely people. It’s more of a personal, security and government thing that I would be very happy to discuss through private messages. People are being arrested for simple tweets and frankly, I don’t feel safe posting anything anymore, even if it’s just fandom related. So I will, from now on, refrain from posting anything, even in my personals, until the situation is over.

Second, my health is rapidly declining. As you may have noticed, I’m under a different timezone than my actual original timezone. This is because I work the night shift. Although there are times that I can sleep a full eight hours, stressful environments will cause me to lose sleep, and I’ve actually gone a week of not sleeping at all. Which sucks, and it definitely affected my performance at work. I started noticing abrupt changes in my body that are alarming, and I thought that I should halt my hobbies for a while just to keep my life and sleeping patterns on track.

Third and final reason: I’m still looking for that will to push through, despite everything that’s been happening around me. I’m not gonna lie anymore — things have been hard. I haven’t been okay, this government sucks, life sucks in general. And it’s affecting my writing and my will to write, therefore my will to live in general. And I don’t want that to affect anyone else, because I want to keep my problems as mine and mine only, and as much as possible I don’t want to drag anyone down.

I know these are such vague reasons, and I am so sorry. I feel so guilty having to leave everyone like this, and I will forever hold on to that guilt. No one deserves to be left hanging but I’m doing it anyway right now, and I’m sorry.

Threads will automatically be dropped. I’m really sorry, but I don’t know when I’ll be back here. I don’t know when it’s safe for me to post anything again. Some people from where I am discovered that messaging apps like Discord and Telegram gave security features so I’ll be staying there instead of hanging out on my socials for the time being...

Again, I am sorry. I loved it here, and I will continue to love writing with everyone until the very end. I don’t know what the future holds for me.

I hope I’ll still be here, I hope I can power through everything.

I hope you guys can forgive me for leaving.

[teokyeo]

Hi, it’s me again.

I’ve decided to go on an indefinite hiatus starting today. I’ve already started to send private messages to people, but I thought I also needed to announce it here.

For starters: I do not feel safe. And it’s not because of the people on the internet — you guys are lovely people. It’s more of a personal, security and government thing that I would be very happy to discuss through private messages. People are being arrested for simple tweets and frankly, I don’t feel safe posting anything anymore, even if it’s just fandom related. So I will, from now on, refrain from posting anything, even in my personals, until the situation is over.

Second, my health is rapidly declining. As you may have noticed, I’m under a different timezone than my actual original timezone. This is because I work the night shift. Although there are times that I can sleep a full eight hours, stressful environments will cause me to lose sleep, and I’ve actually gone a week of not sleeping at all. Which sucks, and it definitely affected my performance at work. I started noticing abrupt changes in my body that are alarming, and I thought that I should halt my hobbies for a while just to keep my life and sleeping patterns on track.

Third and final reason: I’m still looking for that will to push through, despite everything that’s been happening around me. I’m not gonna lie anymore — things have been hard. I haven’t been okay, this government sucks, life sucks in general. And it’s affecting my writing and my will to write, therefore my will to live in general. And I don’t want that to affect anyone else, because I want to keep my problems as mine and mine only, and as much as possible I don’t want to drag anyone down.

I know these are such vague reasons, and I am so sorry. I feel so guilty having to leave everyone like this, and I will forever hold on to that guilt. No one deserves to be left hanging but I’m doing it anyway right now, and I’m sorry.

Threads will automatically be dropped. I’m really sorry, but I don’t know when I’ll be back here. I don’t know when it’s safe for me to post anything again. Some people from where I am discovered that messaging apps like Discord and Telegram gave security features so I’ll be staying there instead of hanging out on my socials for the time being...

Again, I am sorry. I loved it here, and I will continue to love writing with everyone until the very end. I don’t know what the future holds for me.

I hope I’ll still be here, I hope I can power through everything.

I hope you guys can forgive me for leaving.

[teokyeo]

Good day.

I might be taking a break until next weekend. Things are really not okay. I’m sorry. I’ll try to better myself so I can have more strength for RP.

Thank you to those who reached out, and to everyone, for being patient.

I still want to write. I still do. I just need some time off.

Please be nice to each other.

[allminetherainbow]

[edenslostwallflower]

Makoto + lynna for that ship meme 😂 | @teokyeo​ i hope this is the right one i went back until i found a shippy sounding meme.

send me a ship and I’ll tell you…

who is more likely to hurt the other?  It would happen eventually but not intentionally. It would probably be Makoto accidentally giving Leanna some hard fact/truths about something she had a solid view/opinion on (even if it was a wrong one). 

who is emotionally stronger?  Makoto. Definitely. This boy gets mad like once, I mean c’mon.

who is physically stronger?  Again, Makoto. Lookit that body. 

who is more likely to break a bone?  Oh Lynna, definitely. Probably already has. 

 who knows best what to say to upset the other? NO ONE UPSETS THE OTHER INTENTIONALLY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP. 

 who is most likely to apologise first after an argument?  It’s more likely to be whoever was in the wrong of the argument. They’d both be mature enough to realize one of them was being stubborn at the time. 

 who treats who’s wounds more often?   Take a guess on who probably slammed head first into the corner of a street sign cause they lack the capacity to not chase a cat. 

who is in constant need of comfort?  Lynna. Cries over everything. Not like in a pitying way though just.. she dropped her popsicle again and is crying about it. 

 who gets more jealous?  Lynna. She can in fact feel negative emotions. 

 who’s most likely to walk out on the other?  Lynna. She can’t handle conflict or confrontation and will literally run away from an argument even if she was winning. 

 who will propose? Makoto would be trying to do everything traditional and cliche. Setting up a romantic evening, buying the perfect ring, waiting for the right time to actually do the thing but when it comes to Lynna, she’s really hard to predict so the evening doesn’t go right to plan. You know what, that song from Frozen 2 (that was cut) is actually the perfect song for these two. 

 who has the most difficult parents?  Lynna. They had to raise a mermaid from almost the day that she hatched. They built her life around an itinerary so she’s always safe, they know where she is at all times, and most importantly that no one else finds out on accident. 

who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public?  Lynna. She’s very skinship oriented regardless if she’s in a relationship with him or not. She will be holding that hand. 

 who comes up for the other all the time?  I don’t… get the question what does this mean. 

 who hogs the blankets? Lynna. She is a cuddly sleeper and if she has no one to cuddle with she will cuddle the blankets. 

 who gets more sad?  Lynna. Being a mermaid means she feels emotions at 100% capacity at all times no matter the cause. 

 who is better at cheering the other up?  They both are pretty good at it actually. Makoto is good verbally and Lynna is good physically. So he’ll say something to make her feel better or she’ll keep imitating different fish faces until he laughs at one of them. 

 who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?  Lynna. I don’t think Makoto has the capacity to hit someone even playfully. 

who is more streetwise?  Surprisingly, Lynna. She has 1 braincell and somehow she can use that to dupe information out of people by thinking outside the box. Or she befriends a group of delinquents in Tokyo that come in to help them during some situation and NO ONE saw that coming. 

who is more wise? who’s the shyest?  Makoto is both wise and shy. Lynna has 1 braincell and it doesn’t know either of those words. 

 who boasts about the other more?  Lynna. She’d constantly be like watching Makoto in races letting everyone know she’s dating that one. 

 who sits on who’s lap? Realistically? Lynna sits on Makotos lap (imagine that boy just furiously blushing every heccin time) but there will be times where it’s like, one seat left on the bus and Makoto gives it to Lynna who’s like ‘Sit on my lap!! :D’ And he’s just ‘NO!’ and she’s always ‘ :( Aw c’mon. Standings no fun..’ Like she doesn’t see the potential risk of having a 6 foot back stroke swimmer sitting on her lap would have. 

[teokyeo]

slowly but surely finishing some drafts. my only concern is it's not supposed to be this hard, but i just feel like words are harder right now than it was before. i'll try my best!! and i'm listening to the lofi beats playlist on youtube so i'm hoping that things will be fine.

[teokyeo]

KISUMI:

   Kisumi understood. If there was anyone in their little circle of friends to understand, it would be him. He wasn’t worried about whether Makoto was depressed or overly anxious about losing his footing in life, but he wasn’t about to sit by and let the other go through this alone. Soul searching together… the idea was appealing. Doing anything alone was always a daunting task. 

   So, he smiled, endeared by the suggestion. One more squeeze to Makoto’s wrist and Kisumi slid his hand back to his cup for a sip. He gave the menu one last sweep and clicked the button to call a server for the two to order. “Let’s take a trip somewhere,” he offered with a wide grin, passing it over to the lady who approached. 

   Once their orders were in, Kisumi relaxed once more. “Like the mountains or the ocean. When was the last time you actually got to see the ocean? We’re much farther now in the city, a change of scenery may offer peace of mind,” he pulled out his phone, pulling up a few housing options and getaway rentals. “We can look over our options. See? Take a week off from school. It’d be fun.” 

Sometimes, Makoto found himself wanting to know what went on with his friends, like how he would just know what was happening with Haru with just one look. And this was when he realized, even if he had, in one way or another, kept in touch with his friends, it was as if he was looking from another perspective, because his only focus was not with these friends, but somewhere else. Or rather, on someone else...

...and if Makoto were to be honest, it made him feel a pang of guilt. Had he been neglecting his other friends? He tried to shake those thoughts away, because he knew, a small sliver of him knew that it wasn't the case. Take Kisumi for example, they were both busy, but today they decided to hang out together, just the two of them, and it wasn't awkward. And maybe, just maybe, Makoto should stop thinking about the things that weren't really happening. He should maybe stop overthinking, because the reality was that he was the only one worrying about these things.

He should worry, though, that Kisumi just outrightly told him to take a week off of school, to which he responded with a nervous laughter. "Ah, but a week off from school..." he reached for his nape with his free hand, a trait he'd picked up along the way. "I'd love to go on a getaway, but... okay. How about this? I'll check a week or two that my attendance won't really matter, and you should, too - then we can match? And I'm not ditching you, okay? We should plan this out properly. So we can get the full experience."

Starting today, Makoto Tachibana would start to care less about what worried him, and care more about taking care of his friends. And he could start with Kisumi, with going with him on this trip.

[teokyeo]

RITSUKA:

     — his feelings for mafuyu and what it implied, what could it mean for his future, how he hasn’t felt this way before and while everything was new and exciting, it was also terrifying — and just when he was finally brave enough to embrace how he felt, his sister had to confirm that there was definitely something WRONG with him. the one person he trusted and wanted support from, called him and his relationship unnatural, and now she was apologizing? on his birthday? for weeks, the tension had been suffocating between them even if he tried to act as if everything was fine, but now they were finally talking about it and ritsuka was left speechless.

a few beats passed before he finally spoke,     ❛ 𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐰? ❜     his voice managed to remain passive, thankfully, despite feeling as if his heart was getting crushed deep within.    ❛ 𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐢 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐢𝐟 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢'𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤. 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭— 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧'𝐭, 𝐢 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞. ❜

why now?

the question resonated inside yayoi's mind because ritsuka was right - this wasn't the time to talk about serious things. but, like her younger brother, this had bothered yayoi for a while now. it has started bothering her ever since the words jumped out of her mouth, because she knew that the words she'd uttered had left a stinging taste in ritsuka's tongue as it did hers. the words that she initially thought were words that could help ritsuka, were the same words that hurt him, and would continue to hurt him if she didn't confront this -

while ritsuka's own birthday was not the perfect time to discuss this, yayoi knew that she needed to apologize immediately. because if not now, then when? when will they ever get the chance to have this conversation again, when she heard that ritsuka would be busy with the band and she herself had her own final exams to prepare for. but those are excuses, just excuses.

"i could never hate you!" she blurted out, not because she was angry, but because she had bottled this all up, too. the uenoyamas were a pair of young adults who liked to bottle up their emotions; perhaps she could speak for the both of them when she'd say that it was what made them strong, but deep inside, bottling up one's emotions wasn't good for anyone's wellbeing. "i could never hate you; i just... i didn't understand, and i didn't know, and i wish i could've said something else, or never talked at all..."

tears were now streaming down her face, and she tried her damn best to hide her face into the palms of her hands. "it's eating me up, that i didn't take it back immediately. but i take it back, i take all of it back now. nothing is wrong with you, ritsuka, but something about me - and the fact that i didn't...even try to understand...something is wrong with me."

"i'm sorry...i'm so, so sorry..." and by this time, all the guilt she had been bottling up spewed out into uncontrollable sobs, her tears washing away the remainder of the makeup she had on. in truth, she had already cried in the car with yatake, just a bit, because she didn't know if ritsuka would like the small gestures, the gifts - but that wasn't what her little brother needed. what he needed right now was this, understanding and support - and yayoi was ready to give all of that for him.

[teokyeo]

HARU​:

Haru let out a supremely happy noise as Makoto shifted his stance in order to embrace him fully. He smiled fondly at the shy manner in which Makoto hid his face away against his shoulder; even now he got flustered in the most adorable manner.

“Even if it might be early.. I would still say yes..” Haru replied in soft tones, lifting his arms up to return the hug. “Even if I had to wait a lifetime to marry you, the answer would always be yes..”

He then chuckled, closing his eyes as he gave Makoto a squeeze. “Then I’ll just have to do my best to spoil you in return..”

This seemed about right. Makoto knew that this was definitely the right decision - staying in with Haru, not worrying about the tomorrows that were to come. At least, just until he has to go back to class tomorrow.

“I’d have to prepare the perfect proposal for you, then. I don’t want to just ask you out of a whim, you know? I’d want to think about it properly.” he said, pressing a kiss on Haru’s forehead. “Let me know what you want to do today first, and then we can go from there?”

[naru-uzumaki]

psa. I want a passionate ship — a ship that has heart stopping angst, that allows your muse to pin mine against a wall and make out with them if they have the desire to, that makes me make the most inhuman noises when they are even close to one another, that let’s the muses just let their development fly and soar to new levels everyday, that will make me yell at you forever and ever for making me ship them more and more. I want that type of ship.

[wyntswonderland]

Serenity in the skies, and a rush of the ocean that wants to reach the warmth of the houses on the cliffs of Laguna beach.

[teokyeo]

UGETSU:

   Ugetsu smiled, relishing in those words as their eyes met. His hand came to cup the side of Akihiko’s face, trying to plant this moment into his memory to cherish. He felt the slight sting of tears threaten his eyes again. “That makes me so happy to hear,” he whispered, eyes searching Akihiko’s face for the truth. The truth was in the way those words shaped on his lips. In his subtle actions. The way they looked at each other now. All of it was solidifying in his mind, creating a small list of the reasons he was lucky to have Akihiko. 

    “You are the strongest,” Ugetsu reaffirmed, smoothing his thumb over Akihiko’s cheek. His smile softened, heart thudding hard in his chest. “When I get better,” he started, lips curling into a small line as he tried to find the words. 

   “Let’s move out of this cell and find a place full of light,” he murmured, tone a little strained. It was important to hold on to the future for them. “I want large windows. Large enough for the world to see that we made it. Because we will. We’ll make it,” he rattled on, inhaling shakily. His hand slipped from Akihiko’s cheek to caress the strong slope of Akihiko’s neck. Fingers danced around the seamline of his shirt and he leaned forward to kiss him. 

    “You’re my sun and sometimes I feel like I’m your moon,” Ugetsu whispered against his lips, hand sliding over the curve of Akihiko’s hip. 

It was easy to believe in words - this was the realization that Akihiko had started to actually believe as he pursued this relationship with Ugetsu. Words were easy to release, because they could mean anything and nothing at the same time. Akihiko a few days ago wouldn't believe, a hundred percent, all the words that came out of Ugetsu's mouth, because that's how Akihiko got smitten in the first place - words.

But this was different, in so many ways. This was different, because when Ugetsu met with his eyes, Akihiko only saw sincerity and bits, fragments, of tears. He knew this was different because Ugetsu had never insisted on words that were in the benefit of the two of them before. It was always just one-sided, Ugetsu's words. But these words, the sentences that promised a better tomorrow - this was new, foreign, yet very much acceptable. Even in the smallest of words at that moment, with Ugetsu narrating the life he wanted outside of this cell - Akihiko was convinced that, indeed, things would get better for the both of them.

"You're starting to sound like you're really into recovery," Akihiko said, pierced lips curving into a genuine smile. "and I'm proud of you. I hope you know that."

This intimacy wasn't new to him, at all, but with everything that happened, it felt fresh. Like it was the first time that he was meeting Ugetsu, and everything was still up for his own discovery. Akihiko hoped, at the back of his mind, with every new kiss that Ugetsu pressed against his lips, that this turn for the better would be worth it.

And it will be. It will be.

[teokyeo]

i'm online but at what cost ahaha so i'll do my drafts now

[cancdian-blog]

psa on posting speed;

i am a slow roleplayer. not only do i get distracted easily, i get overwhelmed easily. sometimes i can’t talk and do drafts at the same time so i am sorry if i ignore your message. i am deliberate and methodical with every word choice. i like to spend my time on my writing and getting to that emotional level within myself to evoke a proper response with each reply. i’m not good at whipping out thread after thread. i never have been. i’m sorry if that’s the way you roleplay and i don’t match up, but i like to think the quality of the writing makes up for my lack of speed. thank you so much!

[mafuyuh]

“blooming in spring, withering in autumn but over and over, it sprouts again”

yoru ga akeru (夜が明ける)

[teokyeo]

Hi, dropping by to say that life hasn't been that great and I just have to accept that instead of being in denial! I want to say sorry for being gone, but I'm working on a compromise because I really like writing with everyone.

So here are my plans!

My activity will continue to be erratic until September 25 as this is my last day in the company I'm currently working at, so I ask for your patience once again (I am sorry). Weekends are the only times that I can completely throw myself into "me time" mode, which for me is the following: Domestika courses, freelance work, and RP.

However! If you would like, I'm transitioning to Discord as well, so you can find me there if you want. I write faster on Discord as I can sneak in a reply or two, but again, it depends. I lowkey like it better.

I might permanently be on a US time shift (that's GMT -4 if I'm not mistaken) but in my real GMT +8 Asian timezone, I am active from 4pm onwards and I usually go to sleep at around 8am tops during work days.

My reply rate might slow down, so if you have threads with me, I'd just like to ask for a bit of patience. I will now reply within a day to five days because of real life circumstances and I apologize for that! I want to write, I'll just be slow!

I guess for now that's it! Also: I added 707 from Mystic Messenger if you guys wanna interact with him as well.

Again, I'm not gone, I'm just...trying to figure out this adulting shit, and so far it has sucked.

Please continue to stay safe, take care, and be nice to each other. I'll be here. I'll always be here.

[mari-maritimus]