hello everyone ! if you’re aware, you know im currently back from my break!
But my situation hasn’t gotten any better.
TW FOR ATTEMPTED SUI, MURDER MENTIONS, ABUSE - just my parents being horrible . Invasion of privacy
I don even know how to tag this properly.
Today on tuesday, July 30th 2024, 3:42 am as I am writing this.
My mental (and physical) health has worsened since everything had happend, My parents have been making me feel genuinely worst
I just happened to be in a call with a friend before oh- the first time, my parents came in and yelled at me.. my mother raised her hands up a bit, yes but. She usually does that so usually I am not affected by it but today was just. horrible.
After the first couple times they did this, they turned the wifi completely off, I was still In a call with said friend but I was muted. My parents were being absolutely horrible.
I would go detail by detail. syaing hooe the whole wrugement started but No, only thing I’ll be saying is.
My mother went absolutely ballistic and was trying to open my locked door. (Which I Have video of) she kept hurting md, threw something at me and just absolutely started screaming at me , she jus wnt crzy
My father laid his hands on me for the first time today aswell, it was a truly horrifying experience. I’ve always preferred my father over my mother yet - today trigged something inside my brain ? Made me genuinely hate him - myself , everyone around me. My younger brother was sleeping , yet we were fighting in his room .
The argument affected me, it was only an hour ago? .. couple minutes . im
not sure . It all went so fast my brain jusut ii
They kept tyryung to corneer mme and my mom trid to hold me in pllce , not allowing me to leave / get into Myy riom
I had to forcefully do so
I don’t even know what happened . Today started off so good yet endlu horriblly .
I tried to end it all after that conversation. I was messaing that said friend before, begging them to call help, crying . I’ve never felt more scared, weaker . Horrified . I tried choking myyosg and I still can’t breatffwi
im tryiy not sure how im writiing this but im doing it . I really hope I get my wifi back to be able to send this (if I do then that means I did)
I trid casling emergency servieces, I didn have service - no wifi, nothing. I ws basically stranded , in panic moddee
I wssso lightheaded, dizt and honestly felt like I eas dying (I stsuol am bu am doiing bettr(
I would’ve died if I kept chokiif myslf with it a bit longer
They were gona kill me though. They . Thhy said os
My mom sid my dad woul beat mme until I was dead and unconscious - my ddad sid he din lov me tdoy
My dad sid god woul mak that happen when I said I’d die
My mom threatened to murder me tdosy (twice or once) she was holding sormyuing when I ws forced to opn my door . I can’t rmebr but it was a utensil . N ths all I rembr . Was it a knife? No clie. was it something else ? no clu
Theve alwys been horubel but this was jut icing on cak . I just need to get mor evidence on wht tehy did . Then I havs my proof . (I mite attach wht my mom did to my lock . I rmeber . 4? 3? Years ago she brok it .
And now it’s even more borkn. It may not look like it but it is. N sometiije thi year she brok mmy doorhsndle. Iiz awful here
I truly wanna leave but I hav no choice)
I’m just so scard, I’m mortified geniunlly
photdo down here + vudeo if I can (took the screenshot at 03:51 so ths why it says tagt) plus one I jus took .
sory I knowthuu iz all too much but I’m so
done here. . I add more on as I can try and remember beter . I don’t feel like myself currently so it’s quite hard to remember stif that . Doesn’t but also does feel like me
Poease . If you rpost thji pls do . I need to get outta herre soon enough
If you wanna talk to me- @ahaclownnoises is my main / my discord
