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obsessive ramblings of a kdrama fan ~ vids that didn’t make it to tt ~ @eonni_92 on tiktok & twitter

[eonni92]

“Your beauty never ever scared me.”

Mary on a Cross

[mizldrizl]

"Are you worried about me, Inspector Han?"

"That's ridiculous."

"Are you worried about me, Inspector Lee?"

"That's ridiculous."

[eonni92]

Lee Dongsik: If… your father is connected to my sister’s death, will you be alright?

Han Juwon: Are you asking if I’ll be alright? Not you? Why are you asking such a question? Why does it matter if I’m alright or not?

Lee Dongsik: You’re right. Why am I asking you such a thing?

[renshengs]

making my return with another "i watched something and i don't know how to recommend it to others so i made a powerpoint" post!

come scream with me, it's fun in here, i promise. don't you want to watch a legitimately good crime show with real heart to it. don't you want to get hopelessly invested in a homoerotic duo. the door is wide open!

oh, and additionally: a link to my favorite (spoiler-free) review of the series. and a link to another good one.

[a-beyond-evil-rewatch]

Beyond Evil 2025 Rewatch Announcement!

I've finally gave in to the temptation to start a Beyond Evil sideblog and rewatch the series with Viki subtitles and since there has been some growing interest in the fandom to do more as a community, I thought other people might want to join/tag along for it - especially since I was planning to also use this sideblog to categorize all the Beyond Evil reblogs on my main that are a huge fucking mess.

(Also the re-watch is probably going to make me reblog even more Beyond Evil stuff as usual and I wanna spare my followers from an onslaught of Beyond Evil content).

As we all know from the official timeline (once again infinite gratitude to @rumpleteasa for all her translation work!), Lee Yoo Yeon died on the night of October 15th at 03:04 AM and Lee Dong Sik was arrested on October 16th at 14:00 PM - twenty years later, Han Joo Woon would come to Manyang on October 11th, so it felt very appropriate to start around this time to follow the events of the series in the appropriate season.

I will officially start the rewatch next week and watch two episodes a week as in the original airing order (schedule and whatnot on the pinned post) and if anyone wants to tag along they are more than welcome! I will be browsing and posting my musings in the #be-rewatch tag, so join there! You can also send ask and submission and whatever else you might be thinking of (more in the FAQs).

Honestly this is 40% about the rewatch and 60% about (re)sharing all the amazing works in the fandom. I will also be doing Fanvid Fridays because I have a consumed an absurd amount of AMVs and found some extremely good ones and the world needs to know, dammit.

If anyone has requests/suggests/questions/complaints feel free to use the ask button or flood the replies.

K. A.

[eonni92]

"If I could waste another life, l'd give my all and do you right. No matter who I change into, I'll always wind up missing you."

I'm Not Them

[vindicated-truth]

Dongsik finds him at the balcony of their hotel room.

He closes the main entrance door, drops the key card on the desk, and slides open the door to the balcony. He does none of these things quietly, deliberately alerting the other person of his presence.

Han Joowon does not react. Dongsik’s presence isn’t unwelcome then.

He sidles up to him and holds on to the railing, following Joowon’s lead as he surveys the view before them.

The sky above is overcast with fading light, with the sun ready to set beneath the ocean in an hour or so. The temperature is chilly but not cold, and the beachfront breeze is ruffling his hair. There’s a distant peal of laughter in the background, with little kids running around and playing in the sand with their parents.

“Second thoughts?” he asks softly.

A hand immediately slides over to cover his, fingers untangling his hold on the balcony to thread theirs tightly together.

“Never about you.”

Dongsik turns to Joowon then at his earnest declaration and offers him a gentle smile, understanding the deflection for what it is.

He understands Joowon far, far too well—even when Joowon doesn’t understand his own self.

“But you are having second thoughts.”

This time, Joowon hesitates, lips pressed tightly together with a frustration Dongsik knows Joowon doesn’t know how to articulate. Instead, Joowon tugs at Dongsik’s hand on his—and Dongsik, as always, allows himself to be led.

He will always go where Joowon tells him to go.

Which is just as well, as he once again finds himself in his favorite place in the world, safe and warm: wrapped up in Joowon’s arms.

He sighs in contentment, leaning back against Joowon’s taller, sturdier frame as Joowon hooks his chin over Dongsik’s shoulder. “They look happy,” Joowon murmurs, his breath a warm gust of air tickling Dongsik’s ear.

Dongsik follows his gaze—and his mouth quirks in amusement. It isn’t the sound of kids he’s been hearing after all—although by the looks of it, they may as well be children.

Jihoon is barefoot in the sand, screaming in mock-fear as he runs for his life as Jihwa chases after him, brandishing her own shoe at him. It makes Dongsik grin at the all too familiar sight; there had been one too many times when he’d seen Jihwa going after her little brother like this when they were growing up, especially whenever she’d find out that Jihoon had been skipping school for his idol auditions and trainings.

Jaeyi squeals in delight as soon as she catches Jihoon, who realizes far too late that the two women have teamed up against him and Jihwa has in fact been leading Jihoon straight to her. It seems to be a team game of boys versus girls, Dongsik muses, as Gwangyoung himself is running away from Seonnyeo, yelling at her to go after her husband instead.

Dosoo—who until then has been hiding behind where Ohsub is designated with what Dongsik can only assume are babysitting duties, as Huimang intently builds her sandcastle under Ohsub’s watchful eye—swiftly rises and backs away in fear as soon as he locks gazes with his partner.

And with Jihwa’s leading battle cry, all three women begin chasing after Dosoo, as Huimang happily cheers her mother on and Dosoo loudly complains about his kid having a favorite parent.

“They are happy, Joowon-ah.”

Joowon’s arms tighten around his waist.

“Sometimes I can’t help but wonder if—I deserve them.”

Dongsik twists as much as Joowon’s tight hold on him allows to stare at him. “Yah, I’m the one you’re marrying tomorrow,” Dongsik mock-complains, correctly predicting the fond, exasperated way Joowon huffs at him in return. “Shouldn’t it be my approval you’re worried about?”

Callused fingers gently lift his chin for him to meet Joowon’s eyes.

“Because with you, jagiya, I never had any doubt.”

And that’s a damnably deadly combination: the low rumble of Joowon’s voice; his heated, half-lidded gaze; the endearment that is less affection and more wholehearted, indefatigable truth.

Dongsik is thankful for the way Joowon is holding him up because it never fails to make his knees weaken, like this.

“Such a turnaround,” Dongsik teases, not even bothering to hide his breathlessness, “from the way you doubted everything about me the first time we met, Inspector Han.”

He has made this joke a thousand times before, but somehow it doesn’t land today, judging from the way the light in Joowon’s eyes unexpectedly dims.

Dongsik turns to fully face him, forcing Joowon to loosen his hold on him. “Joowon-ah,” he says quietly. “What exactly is it that you think you don’t deserve?”

You deserve the world, Dongsik wants to tell him, and it pains me that I fall short in giving it to you.

That I fail in making you believe you deserve it.

Despite disentangling himself from Joowon’s embrace, Dongsik is still caged inside Joowon’s arms leaning on the railing on either side of him. Joowon doesn’t really let Dongsik go—he never does. That’s the one thing Dongsik has never doubted about Joowon, too: that he will never, ever be too far away from Dongsik.

It’s Joowon’s wordless reassurance that he will always come back—even when he gets lost inside his own head, like this.

Joowon’s lids fall close when Dongsik reaches up to cup his cheek, thumb caressing the soft, sensitive skin beneath his eyes. His bags aren’t as prominent and deep as they had been a year ago, when Joowon had been in such excruciating physical pain, despite fighting his best to hide it from Dongsik.

Ever since he almost lost Joowon that day, Dongsik doesn’t take for granted all the chances he has to touch Joowon like this, reassuring himself of Joowon’s vow that he will always be by Dongsik’s side.

Even at death’s door.

Joowon reaches up to take Dongsik’s hand and presses his mouth at the centre of Dongsik’s palm; Dongsik’s fingers curl inwards, wanting to catch and keep that searing kiss with him forever.

Behind them on the beachfront below, there’s a resounding victory cry as Dosoo is successfully tackled to the ground, his own toddler jumping on his chest as she joins in on the game.

“Not fair!” Gwangyoung can be heard complaining good-naturedly. “Our team is outnumbered!”

“Then go make a son when it’s your turn to get married!” Ohsub can be heard yelling back to a resounding chorus of laughter.

“Joowon-ah,” Dongsik murmurs, “how can you think you don’t deserve them, when they’re your family too?”

“They were yours, first.”

Dongsik’s breath hitches when Joowon’s eyes flutter open to meet his.

“They’re here for you, first and foremost,” Joowon tells him softly. “Because it is you they loved first.”

Joowon’s lips brush along Dongsik’s knuckles as he speaks, the sensation a grounding counterpoint to the pang that shoots up Dongsik’s chest.

“I am simply someone they welcomed into the family because it is you they love, because your happiness is paramount to them—a sentiment that I fiercely share, given that I, too, love you.” Here Joowon smiles warmly at Dongsik, butterflies flying from Dongsik’s belly up to his heart. “And somehow, impossibly, you find yourself happy with me, and for that I will always be deeply, humbly grateful.”

It still takes Dongsik’s breath away when Joowon fills his personal space like this, foreheads touching and breaths mingling—close enough to bridge that hair’s breadth of a gap between their mouths. “Because of you, Lee Dongsik… I have a true family now, too.”

Dongsik would’ve kissed him by now, the way he has a thousand times before, like a sunflower drawn to never ending kisses from the sun. But Dongsik will not allow himself to be distracted at the moment because this—despite knowing Joowon from the inside out by now, he still doesn’t understand this.

“And what does all of that have to do with you not deserving any of it?”

Joowon’s gaze is assessing now, head tilted slightly to side, and Dongsik knows he hasn’t been able to stop the frustration from seeping into his tone. Dongsik has always been hyperaware of every single minuscule change of Joowon’s expressions, and he heartbreakingly recognizes this:

Contrite and apologetic, Joowon brushes his lips on the corner of Dongsik’s mouth—as if kissing Dongsik, too, is a privilege he can’t allow himself to deserve.

Dongsik feels like his heart is being squeezed from the inside.

“Because I haven’t earned it,” Joowon whispers. “I now have all this love from them—and from you—yet I haven’t earned any of it.”

Shamefaced, Joowon buries his face on the crook of Dongsik’s neck, even as he wraps his arms tightly around Dongsik’s waist to embrace him once again, holding on for dear life—frightened, it seems, that Dongsik will push him away this time.

Dongsik, meanwhile, is trembling from the scorching fury that erupts inside of him.

He’s been trying his best to not think of Han Kihwan these days, because the monster doesn’t deserve to be even spared a thought, but it’s the unavoidable conseqeunce of loving Han Joowon:

That everyday, Dongsik is reminded of the extent of Han Kihwan’s monstrosity through the damage he has done to his own son. 

How fucked up of a father do you have to be to teach your son all his life that love has to be earned?

The fabric of his shirt crumples as Dongsik feels Joowon’s fingers curl into fists on the small of his back, and it abates Dongsik’s boiling anger down to a simmer, Joowon’s touch grounding him as always to what is important to address.

Because Joowon doesn’t know, Dongsik realizes with a start.

Joowon doesn’t know.

Joowon doesn’t know that when they watched the music festival and Minjeong’s favorite song was being played by the band on stage, Jihoon revealed to Dongsik then that Joowon had once sought his advice, because Joowon saw Dongsik quietly weeping during the anniversary of Minjeong’s death, and Joowon had searched high and low for the already sold out tickets to the festival when Jihoon informed him of the event taking place on Minjeong’s birthday.

Joowon doesn’t know that Dongsik knows Joowon returns constantly to the morgue, both on the date of birth and date of death of Lee Geumhwa, offering his own gifts and prayers even though Joowon doesn’t believe in a god either, because it is Seonnyeo who always secretly assists him in bypassing the officers in charge who won’t allow him near Lee Geumhwa’s body, simply because he isn’t family.

Joowon doesn’t know that the caregiver in charge at The Forest Nursing Home once happily told Dongsik that they had been receiving a steady supply of tangerines for Kim Yeonghui from an anonymous donor, not knowing that aside from Kang Jinmook, Han Joowon was the only other person who knew that tangerines were the favorite fruit of Dongsik’s mother.

Joowon doesn’t know that Jaeyi had once pulled Dongsik aside and told him in no uncertain terms that it would be better for Joowon to accept his eligibility for citizenship in England so that he and Dongsik could get married there, because aside from the fact that their marriage would actually be legally recognized, it would also be safer for Joowon to be away from his father’s men in the National Police Agency, and that the only reason Joowon staunchly refused this logical solution was because he was determined to stay here in Korea for Dongsik.

Joowon doesn’t know that while he was recuperating in the hospital a year ago, Ohsub had called for an official meeting with all of the cops and detectives in their trusted Manyang circle—including Dongsik, even though he wasn’t a part of the force anymore—to inform them all of the constant danger Han Joowon was in as Han Kihwan’s men were determined to eliminate the son who destroyed his father’s fallen network, that this was the true hell Joowon once vowed he would go through, for Dongsik.

Joowon doesn’t know that Jihwa once went to Dongsik’s house in Okcheon lake alone, while Joowon was in physical therapy, and asked Dongsik—begged him, threatened him—to be a hundred percent sure of his feelings for Joowon, to be sure that Dongsik wouldn’t be stringing Joowon along, to be sure that Dongsik wouldn’t leave Joowon in the end, because Jihwa had just wrapped up the controversial case with The Community Safety and Traffic Bureau and she had burst into hysterical sobs in Dongsik’s arms because of everything she had found out—everything she discovered Jowoon had to go through—simply because Joowon chose to stay by Dongsik’s side.

Joowon doesn’t know that it was inside The Community Safety and Traffic Bureau that Dongsik unexpectedly found himself reunited with Park Jeongje.

Joowon is right—Dongsik is the one their family has loved first. But it is Joowon they now fiercely love more, because it is Joowon who needs that love more.

No one will ever love Joowon more than Dongsik. That much Dongsik is absolutely certain. But Dongsik also knows, as each member of their family has unanimously proven, that between the two of them, it is Joowon who loves better.

Joowon already deserves Dongsik’s love—and that of their family—a thousand times over. But that is not even the point Dongsik has to prove today.

Because Dongsik will not be like Han Kihwan. His love for Joowon will never be something Joowon has to earn.

So he gathers Joowon close and murmurs: “I’ve always wondered what it would have been like, had Yuyeonie fulfilled her dream.”

He feels Joowon stilling in his arms. Slowly, Joowon pulls back, his face carefully neutral to conceal the ever-present guilt he knows Dongsik doesn’t like seeing.

“I’ve always wondered what it would have been like to be the proud brother of one of the most brilliant minds this country’s judiciary will ever have the privilege of being served by.” Dongsik smiles at Joowon ruefully. “She was the only person in the history of Manyang to have been accepted in Seoul National University’s law department. It’s partly because of the way she set such a high intellectual standard that I’ve always been drawn to intelligent people.”

“I know,” Joowon says simply, making Dongsik grin.

Joowon watches with curious eyes the way Dongsik reaches inside the pocket of his pants to take out his mobile phone. Dongsik taps on the messaging app and opens the most recent message he had just received a while ago, which is the reason why he had been looking for Joowon in the first place.

He holds up the screen for Joowon to see, and Joowon’s brows furrow as he reads the message.

Hey, just arrived here in Busan. Case in Seoul demanded overtime work. I’ll be checking in at the hotel later. Is there anything you’d like to go over with me before the ceremony tomorrow, as the officiant?

He sees the way Joowon’s gaze flickers up the screen to look at the name on Dongsik’s contacts—and his eyes widen.

BROTHER-IN-LAW

“Thanks to you, Han Joowon,” Dongsik tells him softly, “now I will never have to wonder what it’s like to be the brother of a brilliant lawyer.”

Dongsik is ready for it, catching him as Joowon crumples against him, the skin of Dongsik’s neck becoming wet with Joowon’s tears.

“Hyung is a poor replacement for Lee Yuyeon,” Joowon tells him with a warbled whisper.

“No one will ever replace her,” Dongsik murmurs as he strokes Joowon’s hair. “There will never be anyone in the world like Lee Yuyeon. But you also have to admit, Joowon-ah…”

Dongsik pulls back, and he tenderly brushes away the wetness from Joowon’s cheeks. “There will never be anyone in the world like Kwon Hyeok, either. And if it weren’t for you, Joowon-ah, I never would have known what it’s like to have a brother relentlessly fight for me, too. To fight for my right to love you.”

Joowon’s eyes flutter close as Dongsik reaches up to kiss his eyelids, tasting the salt of Joowon’s tears on his lips. “Joowon-ah,” Dongsik whispers. “You’re not the only who has gained a family.”

He brushes their noses gently together as Joowon looks at him once more, those beautiful eyes glistening the same way the Busan sea reflects the incoming moonlight.

“Because of you, Joowon-ah… I am a brother once again.”

—

“What the fuck are you doing here?”

“This is where I’ll be working now, too. Looks like it’s your first day as well. Who knew we’d be back working together in a place like this, eh?”

“You expect me to believe that your parole officer just happen to coincidentally assign you to The Community Safety and Traffic Bureau as a glorified janitor?”

“… I may have—suggested it.”

“So who really sent you here? Did Jihwa send you in here to be my handler, to make sure I don’t get into trouble?”

“Jihwa-ya doesn’t know that I’m here. I didn’t even know you’d be here either—although I guess I should’ve expected it.”

“Then why are you here? Because I don’t believe for a second that you’re here for no reason.”

“I’m not here for you, Dongsik-ah. I’m here for Han Joowon.”

“… What?”

“They hurt my friend. And no one gets away with hurting my friend. That’s why I’m here for the same reason you are.”

“And what reason would that be, Park Jeongje?”

“… Vengeance.”

—

“What are you doing here?”

The smile Jeongje gives him is small and hesitant as he stands and gives an unnecessarily polite bow. “I just arrived this morning. Joowonie—Inspector Han—invited me.”

“I know,” Dongsik says impatiently. “I meant—what are you doing here sitting at the back?”

Jeongje blinks at him.

Dongsik sighs. “Joowonie reserved a seat for you up front,” he gestures gruffly. “You’re his best man, you know.”

“I do know.”

Jeongje is still gazing at him contemplatively, and it’s making Dongsik feel antsy and unsettled. “What?” he bursts out.

This time, Jeongje’s smile turns wistful. “A long time ago, whenever the thought of you getting married used to cross my mind… I’d always imagine that I’d be your best man.”

Dongsik looks away. “Things… changed.”

Jeongje’s reply is soft. “I know.”

He’s already walked past Dongsik towards his designated seat before Dongsik is finally able to unstick the words stuck in his throat.

“Park Jeongje.”

He stops.

Dongsik swallows. “You can return the favor to Joowonie someday,” he says haltingly. “He can be the best man to your future wedding, too.”

He can be your friend now, because I can’t be.

Not anymore.

He sees the way Jeongje’s shoulders slump for a moment, before he suddenly straightens, seemingly bracing himself before he looks back at Dongsik.

His smile this time is bittersweet.

“The only girl I’ve ever wanted to marry is now at peace,” he tells Dongsik. “And I am content with seeing her brother finally have the happiness he deserves, too.”

By the time Dongsik remembers how to breathe, Jeongje has already taken his seat up front, where he is happily welcomed by Jihoon.

A hand on the small of his back grounds him—the soothing gesture as familiar as his own heartbeat. He relaxes into the touch, relieved and grateful. The smile he gets in return is fond.

“Your best man has finally arrived,” he informs Joowon softly.

“I see that he has,” Joowon murmurs in return, pulling Dongsik close. He allows Joowon’s assessing gaze on him, easing Joowon’s understandable concern and wordlessly assuring him that Jeongje’s presence is welcome. “Yours is the one who hasn’t arrived yet.”

At this, Dongsik snorts. “When they say women take a long time to get ready, they weren’t kidding.”

“Yah, the nerve of you to complain when I’m doing all of this for you, you punk!”

Dongsik turns at that familiar childhood tone with a grin, which transforms into a sincerely delighted smile when he sees her. “Well, would you look at that! Our resident tomboy is unexpectedly a stunner when cleaned up like this! …Ow!”

Dongsik ends up hopping on one foot, clutching his shin that has just been kicked. “Yah!” he complains loudly. “Those heels are pointy!”

Jihwa straightens, smoothing her figure-hugging long gown with her bejeweled hands, and turns to Joowon with a raised eyebrow.

Joowon’s mouth quirks in amusement. “You’d have to forgive my uncouth fiancé, Jihwa-ssi.” He smoothly takes her hand and kisses the back of it, European-style. “You do look enthrallingly lovely today.”

Jihwa visibly preens in pride, even as a delighted blush colors her cheeks. “See, Dongsik-ah?” she huffs. “That is how you compliment a woman.”

“Yah, what is this, Han Joowon-ssi? You’re not even married yet and you’re already flirting with someone who’s also already taken?”

Joowon turns to smirk at her. “I would never be foolish enough to presume that either you or Jihwa-ssi would ever have eyes for anyone else, given that you both already have the finest partner in each other.”

Dongsik stares. What?

Jaeyi’s smile is radiant, complemented by her elegant updo and the shimmering make-up that lights up her face. “Knows how to compliment women and intelligent to boot.” Jaeyi arches a perfectly plucked eyebrow at Dongsik. “You’re marrying up with this one, ahjussi. You know that, right?”

Dongsik has always been aware of that, yes.

He isn’t aware of this.

“Your seat is already reserved at the front as Dongsik’s best woman, Jihwa-ssi,” Joowon informs her with a smile. “And as Jihwa-ssi’s partner, your seat is of course reserved beside her, Jaeyi-ssi.”

Dongsik is openmouthed in shock as both women walk down the aisle—holding each other’s hands. “When did—” he sputters, “how did—”

Utterly gobsmacked, he looks despairingly at his husband-to-be—who only blinks innocently back at him.

“You knew?”

“You didn’t?” Joowon smirks. “Why do you think the jewelry I gifted them for this occasion were a matching set?”

Dongsik’s mouth opens and closes soundlessly for a moment. “Han Joowon,” he finally settles on, “how many secrets are you keeping from me?”

“None of it was a secret,” Joowon informs him wryly. “You were just blind and dense.”

“Yah!”

“Considering Joowonie here proposed to you three times before you finally had the mind to accept, Lee Dongsik-ssi, I definitely have to agree.”

Dongsik glares, suddenly being reminded that this is unfortunately one of the consequences of having a sibling. “I can get another officiant for today, you know.”

Hyeok smirks back at him. “No, you won’t.” He points at Joowon. “Your fiancé here already paid me to be here.”

“Your rates are exorbitant,” Joowon deadpans, making Hyeok grin as he claps a hand on Joowon’s shoulder.

“Looks like all your guests are already here,” Hyeok observes as he looks around the beachfront venue and glances at his wristwatch. “We can start the ceremony soon.”

“Not yet.”

Hyeok blinks at Joowon’s firm tone. He looks questioningly at Dongsik, who smiles serenely back at him.

“We’re waiting for a very special guest,” Dongsik explains.

Hyeok furrows his brows as he quickly goes over the notes in his hand. “I don’t see anyone in this guest list who isn’t here yet,” he mumbles to himself. He peers at Dongsik. “Just how important is this ‘special guest’ that we’re risking starting the ceremony late?”

“Very,” Dongsik answers enigmatically, grinning at the exasperated look Hyeok throws his way at his cryptic answer.

“We’ve only been able to confirm this guest’s presence last night,” Joowon reveals as he shares a meaningful look with Dongsik.

Hyeok looks back and forth between them. “Why so late, though?”

“It’s—” Jowoon hedges, “a spur of the moment invitation.”

Whatever frustrated protest Hyeok is about to say is derailed as their attention is caught by the doors to the venue suddenly opening.

Dongsik brightens. “He’s here!”

Hyeok’s mouth drops open in utter shock. “… Abeoji?”

Joowon seems to be holding his breath as the guest of honor approaches them, his remarkable presence filling the venue the way light fills a room. The man looks at Hyeok first—and then at Joowon.

His smile is warm and comforting—like the hearth of a home. “My sons,” he acknowledges simply.

Dongsik turns to Hyeok, who looks utterly shell-shocked. “Aren’t you going to introduce us?” Dongsik prompts him gently.

“I—” Hyeok swallows; it’s the first time Dongsik has ever seen the normally unflappable prosecutor this rattled. “I would like everyone to meet my father. Kwon Seungjo.”

The elderly man places a hand on his chest as he bows deeply, which everyone rushes to return. “Wholesale fruit provider, at your service,” Seungjo straightens with a twinkle in his eye. “Although I believe I was invited here to provide a different service.”

Hyeok looks completely panicked, both at being in the dark as the son and as the ceremony’s officiant, and Dongsik takes pity on him. “My family is Catholic,” he explains, “although I haven’t been a practicing Catholic for a long time.”

Hyeok looks at him in utter confusion; it seems like Dongsik’s explanation fails to clear anything up.

Thankfully, Joowon also steps up. “I, too, was baptized Catholic by my mother, as you already know,” Joowon says softly. “Dongsik and I talked last night, and we agreed that it is customary in the Catholic practice for the couple to have a godparent in their wedding ceremony.”

Joowon turns to Hyeok’s father and bows. “Kwon Suengjo-ssi—” he stops and quickly collects himself, “that is to say, abeoji—thank you, for agreeing to be our godfather.”

Hyeok’s eyes are wide as Joowon finally turns to him.

“I know that all of this is just ceremonial,” Joowon tells him softly. “But with abeoji as our godparent, this makes us—”

“—godbrothers,” Hyeok finishes breathlessly.

Joowon takes a deep a breath as he steps closer to Hyeok, who is looking at him like he has just performed a miracle. “A year ago, hyung, I was told that—in the hospital, you were not considered my family.”

Hyeok’s lips are quivering, his eyes glistening with tears that are starting to well up.

“I know that it is a long and arduous legal process, but…”

Joowon trails off as he meets Seungjo’s eyes, wordlessly asking for his approval.

Seungjo nods in assent, and Joowon swallows.

“As you know, my mother is deceased,” Joowon begins shakily, “and my father is serving several life sentences in prison. Which are both grounds for—”

“—adult adoption,” Hyeok finishes with a trembling smile. He turns to his father. “Really, abeoji?”

Dongsik’s heart feels like it’s swelling with the unabashed hope in Hyeok’s voice.

Seungjo claps a hand on Hyeok’s shoulder. “If there’s anyone smart enough and driven enough to make it happen, it’s you, my son.” Seungjo smiles at him. “You have always wanted a brother. Now, you can finally make that happen.”

Hyeok looks utterly devastated in the best way, and he squeezes his eyes shut before he once again turns to face—his brother.

“Joowon-ah,” Hyeok says, and it’s the only thing he can say, words completely failing him.

Joowon smiles at him softly. “Hyung.”

Dongsik looks back and forth at them, waiting, before he sighs in exasperation. He places a hand on the small of Joowon’s back and gives him a gentle but firm push.

Unprepared, Joowon stumbles forward—right into Hyeok’s arms.

“Hyung,” Joowon complains, awkwardly patting Hyeok’s back as Hyeok sobs onto his shoulder. “You’re ruining my tuxedo.”

“I’ll pay for the dry cleaning, you brat,” Hyeok returns without heat as he pulls back, smiling brilliantly at Joowon.

Joowon’s mouth quirks. “Does this mean I don’t have to pay you for your services anymore?”

Hyeok grins widely. “On the contrary, this just makes it easier for me to sue you when you don’t.”

Dongsik laughs as Joowon is once again hoisted into Hyeok’s bear hug much against his will, but he can clearly see that Joowon is smiling. He’s too distracted by the heartwarming sight that he hasn’t realized Seungjo has sidled up to him.

“Looks like you’re my son now, too.”

It’s that simple statement that knocks the breath off Dongsik’s lungs, striking straight through his heart like the bull’s eye of a gunshot.

And in that moment, the faces of Lee Hanoh and Nam Sangbae overlap with the smile Kwon Seungjo gives him as he says to Dongsik:

“You can tell Joowon that he doesn’t have to pay for the tangerines anymore.”

—

A beautiful piano piece begins to play, one that Dongsik recognizes by heart.

It’s one of his favorite pieces of Yuyeon’s original compositions, pre-recorded by Joowon playing the piece himself—the only person Dongsik will ever trust to interpret his sister’s music.

The guests all rise as they turn to face the two of them, the happiness for both of them clear on all of their faces.

“Thank you, Lee Dongsik,” Joowon tells him softly, “for giving me the family I never had.”

Dongsik looks ahead at the altar at the end of the aisle, where Kwon Hyeok and Kwon Suengjo are waiting for them.

His newfound brother—and father.

“And thank you, Han Joowon,” Dongsik returns, “for giving me back the family I lost.”

Joowon looks at him. Dongsik smiles.

He takes his hand—and they walk down the aisle together.

—

Also posted at AO3

Once again dedicated to @eonni92, because I can never hope to make up for brilliance of her multiple gifts, but I can still try, to the best of my ability, to return her generosity—for no other reason than she truly deserves the world ❤️

This story is a direct sequel to ash, and exists in the same universe as the thing with feathers, leave out all the rest, circles, and the sentence. And while this story can be enjoyed on its own, perhaps the full impact can only be truly felt when the references to previous stories are known and understood.

To all of you who have followed the journey thus far: thank you for being in this journey of love, forgiveness, and acceptance with Lee Dongsik, Han Joowon, and our beloved Manyang family.

[eonni92]

I get off a fifteen hour flight running on no sleep in the last thirty hours to find this absolutely BEAUTIFUL story waiting for me in my inbox. Again dedicated to little old me. I feel undeserving, but will greedily accept as I can never get enough of these two and especially this little universe @vindicated-truth as created with her amazing series ❤️

I was not going to cry. Maybe laugh a little, maybe sniffle once or twice, but no, now I am full on sobbing. How do you do this to me every time? My heartaches when I understand how Joowon feels, and no logic can undo such trauma. I want to wrap him up and protect him from the world as I know Dongsik does.

Seeing little snippets of how much Joowon is loved by each and every one of the Manyang crew warmed my heart.

Joowon is right-Dongsik is the one their family has loved first. But it is Joowon they now fiercely love more, because it is Joowon who needs that love more.

And isn’t that the truth. Not that Dongsik doesn’t need it, but he already has it. Has had it for years.

"Your best man has finally arrived," he informs Joowon softly.

Park Jeongje CAME as Joowon’s BEST MAN. I’m not crying. I don’t know why but Jeongje’s declaration of “… Vengeance.” had me cracking up.

Of course, Dongsik was clueless about Jihwa and Jaeyi’s relationship.

"None of it was a secret," Joowon informs him wryly. "You were just blind and dense."

Too wrapped up in Joowon and too close to the girls to see what was going on.

I don’t have words to describe how I feel about Hyeok and his father and how you have intricately woven them into Joowon and Dongsik’s life giving every one the family they deserve.

"-godbrothers," Hyeok finishes breathlessly.

Joowon takes a deep a breath as he steps closer to Hyeok, who is looking at him like he has just performed a miracle. "A year ago, hyung, I was told that-in the hospital, you were not considered my family."

Meanwhile Kwon Seungjo beams in the background. “It’s a two for one deal.”

Just… I have no words. I am just so incredibly happy, sobbing, but happy. Thank you so much for sharing your amazing gift with me and with all of us. It was the perfect ending to my stay in, of all places, Korea ❤️

[eonni92]

When you’re accused of a crime isn’t it natural to deny it?

A guilty person will deny it.

An innocent will deny it.

But Lee Dongsik never does this.

The entire time Han Juwon was hounding him he threw out taunts and his own accusations expounding on Juwon’s belief that Dongsik must be guilty.

I alway wondered why he didn’t say, “I didn’t do it.” Not that Juwon would have believed him, but not even saying it once? To the accusation that he killed his sister, his twin? He must have been choking on the words. So why? Why allow this arrogant little shit to continue to show up day after day and push him around?

In his own way Dongsik was protecting Juwon. Because what if…

What if he actually convinced Han Juwon that he WAS innocent. Because Han Juwon is smart. He’s got the wrong guy this time, but he’s still smart. The evidence might persuade him. But what then?

What if Han Juwon gave up Lee Dongsik as the suspect. No, no it would be much worse than that.

What if Han Juwon took his stubborn self and his relentlessness and started hounding someone that really was a killer.

“Oh ho, look at your little self. Did you just brake into my basement and no one knows you’re here? I just happen to be fixing up this hole that happens to be body shaped. Let me show you.”

And Han Juwon was never seen again.

Maybe it’s not likely, but that’s where Dongsik’s mind goes. People disappear in this town.

So he smirks and acts the crazy everyone thinks he is just enough to keep the kid coming back to him, to his basement, and if his shirt collars continue to be wrinkled… oh well

[vindicated-truth]

Shin Hakyun’s letter to Yeo Jingoo

I look forward to meeting you again through our works even 20 years from now

part 2 here

[jadekamin]

realizing dongsik calls juwon by his first time and not his title or full name for the first time while assisting in his own arrest.

[eonni92]

“It’s not just where you lay your head. It's not just where you make your bed. As long as we're together, does it matter where we go?”

Home

[icarusdiesatdawn]

[kandadze]

Beyond Evil, episode 15

[ID: 2 gifs from episode 15 of the show Beyond Evil, showing a closeup of Han Joowon with his eyes down; he moves from resting his chin against his folded hands to bite at his left thumb. /end ID]

I'm about to start the final episode. I've never been this close to nervously biting my fingernails.

[eonni92]

“Cause you were the reason that I survived”

Make it Right

[ohandsowedrown]

If the universe did not want me to be this way, it should not have put so much rot in my blood.

[eonni92]

“Juwon-ah!” Dongsik can hear his own voice breaking on the name. Desperate. Pleading. “I told you.” Tears are blurring his vision, but he can’t breakdown. Not now. This can’t be the end. How to cross this distance between them? “I told you that you’re not your father.”

Juwon laughs loud and agonizing. He shakes his head. His feet slipping in the muddy grass. “It’s not about that. I’m not my father’s son.” Said with such certainty as if he believed it. His knees hit the ground either from the wet soil or Juwon has finally given up on running.

His hands are shaking, and he holds them up as if in offering as he looks up to Dongsik still some yards off above him. They’re covered in blood. It’s smeared up his coat and flecks splatter his neck. None of it is his.

The howling wind ghosts down the hillside dancing the reeds around them almost stealing Juwon’s last confession. “But I am my mother’s son.”

[ohandsowedrown]

I do not want to be loved gently. I want to be understood violently.

[eonni92]

[eonni92]

“I had lived just for the moment but once I met you I realized that everything had a meaning.”

Fallin Flower 🌺

For @vindicated-truth who always gives the best song recommendations. I hope I did it justice ❤️

[vindicated-truth]

I'm currently preparing for an international trip which I'm supposed to depart for in a few hours—and the main reason why I've been mad busy with real life lately—and I really should be getting sleep at the moment, but I cannot not react to this incredible masterpiece because oh my god.

Oh my god.

Both Beyond Evil and SEVENTEEN are incredibly close to my heart and so precious to me, and to see it so seamlessly integrated like this fills me with overwhelming joy and gratitude (once again!!!) for @eonni92 because you didn't even know it's my birthday soon and yet this is already the best birthday present I can ever ask for.

And what overwhelms me the most is how you've truly distilled the essence of the song and how the entire meaning of it—one of my absolute favorite songs in the whole world, bar none—fits so perfectly for Joowon and Dongsik.

"He waits for someone to approach him first. But he's too weak to make the first move. Even when someone reaches out, he won't even take that hand. He pretends to be okay, strong, and indifferent. He's a fool that will imprison himself for the rest of his life." "Nobody reaches their hands out towards the fluttering falling petals With a frigid smile that seems mixed with sadness"

The heartrending lyrics juxtaposed with Han Kihwan's cold words about his own son captures heartbreakingly perfectly the tragedy of how alone Joowon has always been, deprived of love the way a flower is deprived of sunlight—the way a flower falls and dies without anyone reaching out to it.

Except when someone finally does.

When Dongsik finally does.

"Swaying, dancing"

Overlaying the lyrics with the swaying, dancing reeds at the field where it all begins and ends is such a masterful, perfectly poetic choice. Oh my god.

"The destination for this falling heart Could it be even warmer than it is now?" "Joowon-ah."

Once again, the choice of overlaying the lyrics with the warmth of the sunshine kissing their skin and their hair at Okcheon lake as Dongsik calls out Joowon's name with that new, heartrending familiarity and warmth, oh my god the perfection of it all.

"Withstanding the summer Being drenched in the light rain Wanting to fall for someone I have lived just for the moment but Once I met you, I realized that Everything had a meaning"

I am utterly in awe at the montage of clips chosen for these lyrics, and it gives me goosebumps at how perfect it's aligned with the lyrics, from the scene under the rain when it all began, when the perception of each other was shifting, to the meaning of the handcuffed hands willingly surrendered.

"Falling towards you I want to see you right now Someday, surely, you will be in my heart"

The hope in these lines. The hope of "someday, surely", that this is not the end, but rather the beginning of something new, something beautiful, is a such perfect reflection of the burgeoning, blossoming hope of a new start—one of peace, of joy, of love, for both of them, now that the ghosts of their pasts are finally laid to rest, so beautifully sang by DK—is such a shot to the heart with how impactful it all is.

The hope that, as the flower is dying, it will not die in vain.

Someday, surely, someone will finally come to appreciate this falling flower.

And that's exactly what makes the transition to the next lines and scenes so perfect, because—

"I am a flower" "Nice to meet you. I'm Inspector Han Joowon." "I am a flower" "What's a pretty flower like you doing in broad daylight?"

Oh my god I can cry. The juxtaposition of these scenes with these lines of the show enriches and deepens each other's meaning because yes, Han Joowon is the flower, the one that nobody used to reach out for—and yet here, now, is Lee Dongsik who finally sees him.

He finally sees him.

"I believe in letting beautiful flowers bloom" "Keep up the good work, Inspector Han."

And Lee Dongsik doesn't just take the flower for the selfish reason of keeping it until it dies. No—Lee Dongsik seeks to nurture that flower, to let it grow, to let it bloom.

Lee Dongsik finally sees the lonely, dying flower, and saves it just in time so it can finally blossom.

"To you, now, I'm falling"

And in return, Han Joowon isn't afraid of falling anymore. Even the impending natural death as a flower doesn't faze him, doesn't scare him anymore, because he knows—he will also be reborn. Over and over again.

Because that's what love is: dying and being reborn in the arms of the one you cherish the most.

The one who cherishes you the most.

It is Lee Dongsik who is handcuffed. But it is Han Joowon who finally, finally surrenders.

@eonni92, my friend, not only did you give the song justice, not only did you give the show justice—

You did what the song is exactly portraying.

You made everything bloom.

[eonni92]

I feel like Han Juwon, and I don’t know what to do with such high praise lol.

Where I struggle when it comes to writing, you were able to beautifully lay out exactly what l was trying to convey 🫶

I think this was the first time I was nervous to post an edit since my Korean is still very limited. But I’m working on it.

Fallin Flower is forever stuck in my head now as I must have listened to it 30 times and researched all the lyric translations to try to get the timing to mesh with the video clips seamlessly. I don’t mind at all though because it’s such a beautiful song!

Reading your response was both a relief that it turned out good and almost as much fun as making the edit itself. Thank you so much for sharing your favorite song for me to play around with and return this for you! Happy Early Birthday!! ❤️❤️