KroniaAphrodite

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[epiphanygoddess]

New year is approaching.

New year, new me,

Same old shit, but there will be integrations

More problems, but less severe

Learn and earn

Talk less and do more

Walk it like you talk it

One lane, own pace, and own race

Reflecting instead of comparing

Rejoice instead of seek and destroy

Thriving and living instead of just surviving

[epiphanygoddess]

Am I too late for this?. Lmao, the, Game, Anime and Manga are so f**ked it reached the Vampire hipsters, and now majority are weird in the f**kin head.

Thought my mental health is unstable enough but boi do this confessions made it deteriorate even more. Goddamn, there's so much more worse than this and Motha Cordelia ain't even saved from this madness.

[epiphanygoddess]

Earlier on my way to School, I've encountered a dragonfly. In Shamanic Traditions, seeing a dragonfly means connecting to one's intuition, dive deep and connect to emotions and the subconscious. It also resembles love, hope, abundance and change. Uncannily, I've Received these three messages from our Psychology class right after. This is not coincidental, I believe in the power of the Divine, I was naive to think that my prayers may have not been heard but after seeing these...Maybe...Just maybe, miracles does happen..The fog may not have been entirely lifted, but I am for sure ready to receive my desires, goals, manifestations and dreams, I believe that things that are meant for you has always been written in the stars and are predestined to become one with you. I was just...Relieved and happy that I was being heard, supported and acknowledged by Divine will.

[epiphanygoddess]

So our Professor asked us to choose 1 quote from a famous Philosopher and we have to provide an explanation on why we have chosen it and how does it relate to our life path. We were also tasked to come up with our own quote and provide those explanations as well.

And I come up with these:

Lao Tzu (Chinese Philosopher)

Quote: Stop leaving and you will arrive. Stop searching and you will see. Stop running away and you will be found.

Explanation:

When I have my eyes set on something I start to fixate on it then get obsessive, so much so, that it becomes detrimental to the stability I have created for myself. And when the Plan fails, just as fast that I’ve started working towards my goal, i am also quick to abandon the whole situation as if nothing has happened in the first place. This also applies when I have achieved my goals, I am quick to jump off the cliff and move on to the next course, as a result I rarely celebrate my victories because it's either I don't acknowledge it or I have forgotten about it not until someone tells me to take it easy and to take time to appreciate my accomplishments while teaching me to be gentle with myself. There are times where I would sacrifice my own health for the sake of my goals, I was always running low on energy, I am prone to burnouts and I come off as reckless. This extends to other people too at times, especially my friends and family that I isolated myself from because I was so driven. But Now times have changed and I have learned to balance spontaneity by following routines where I can still be wild and free but at the same time to continue being stable and committed to my responsibilities as a Daughter, friend, student and most importantly to strengthen and deepen my self-love.

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My own Quotation (I even searched it all over the internet to make sure that there is no other copies lmfao.)

We are sad Robots living in a Aquarium world.

Explanation:

I feel like My Quote does not really connect with Lao Tzu’s but this quote works for me on a daily basis because I don’t feel like myself everyday, it’s always time travelling in the past with those horrible experiences or going way ahead of time towards the future and the present dissipates as if it's non-existent. Part of my quote which is the robot thing, I am not generalizing everyone in this category but I tend to perceive us Humans as a whole and as a collective, living in this universe in which more often than not, we experience lots of tragedies and are prone to negative thinking before we even get to the positive ones. Even if life gets unpredictable, we tend to endure the circumstance and be a robot in order for us to navigate the cold and harsh reality by being Smart, wise and to be objective when uncertainties and challenges arise.

I want to achieve the ultimate freedom but I know it is just wishful thinking because we live in a world where we are enslaved and been programmed to be competent and be of good use to Society. So that is why I prefer to be functioning like a robot, to express and feel less and just do things in a way that works for me. It is also my way to shield myself from being enslaved in the Societal norms and restrictions in which everything about you gets judged or misjudged by others and at the same time being a robot is my way of preparing my heart for the worst, hardships and failures that may occur at any moment. I'd say that My cold and aloof exterior is my greatest asset because it provides care and safety to my extremely sensitive nature and fragmented personalities and by this, I get to be grounded, stable and very resilient to whatever and whoever obstacles Is heading towards me in life.

[epiphanygoddess]

Idk bout u guys but I used to find hospitals fascinating but now I find it creepy 💀💀💀💀

[epiphanygoddess]

[epiphanygoddess]

Nothing can exceed beyond my expectations.

Not even my own Parents,

And so am I.

however, I do not seek tranquility from interpersonal connections.

Mama said: "How pray and tell?"

Long story, short. It does feel nice to put on a show and do good and make others happy because it's just a part of who I am, and heck, my Senses are overflowing at this point and I have a tendency to be impeccable at my words, my actions, and having a stance with great conviction and confidence.

Though, it has it has its drawbacks.

Mama's futile attempts of comfort never really worked of me, I don't blame her, she loves me and that was all she could do.

I often think that no one truly gives a shit about who I was at my core, and yet again I've altered my mindset and approach to things in order to counteract these negativities.

I eventually came to believe and adapted a mindset that perhaps I was born for this, an entertainment. Nothing more. Nothing less and I took great pride in that. My loneliness don't matter as long as I could be of service to people and make them happy.

So I stopped opening up to people. And I just chose to indulge in activities that makes me forget about these certain thoughts and emotions.

[epiphanygoddess]

[epiphanygoddess]

"My mistake lies in having envisioned a future with you by my side."

"I want us to become partners in crime and work to fix this world together.."

"Attachments, friendships, love.."

"Those are things the extraordinary cannot afford and do not need anyway."

"This is a responsibility I was meant to carry alone."

"My mistake lies in having envisioned a future with you by my side."

"I want us to become partners in crime and work to fix this world together.."

"Attachments, friendships, love.."

"Those are things the extraordinary cannot afford and do not need anyway."

"This is a responsibility I was meant to carry alone."

So I took note of the words that cut me deep by one of my favorite artists' works... I can genuinely relate because I am chronically wired of being the doer, always the Masculine one who feels inclined to fix, make, get things under control and to do more be more and achieve more. I feel rather emotional today and y'know what I get to be cuz it is very healing.. Enough of being tough, idgaf and aloof demeanour..Today I'm allowing myself to be and feel feminine, vulnerable, beautiful and receptive.

[epiphanygoddess]

I just observed that Shit happens when you're chronically on social media 24/7, there's gonna be comparison with other people mostly with your peers and then.. There's gonna be feelings of dread, anxiety and paranoia that's fucking you up especially how you react and approach to certain things. I actually feel sorry for some people I choose to distance myself with cuz' they be stalking and then passive aggressiveness is on the loose and I ain't got time to deal with those things. So I'ma continue with my life, being busy, getting cash and gain more wisdom from people who actually makes sense and not be with people who are spreading and posting crap cuz they be clowning themselves and it's because the things they say doesn't actually align with wtf they doin and how they show up in the Real world Lol.

[epiphanygoddess]

I've been on a mental fog lately and I was processing stuff. Took me awhile to fully digest Fyodor's drama. I'm tired of predictin sh!t, I'll just wait for the next chap and it is what is.

Also me:

(Pls don't kill Sigma, and Screw Fedya for being fine at everything.)

[epiphanygoddess]

Ain't compromising my selflove EVER. I need to be crazy obsessed with someone as they are with me for it to work out LMFAOO.

[epiphanygoddess]

Perfection is fear in high heels.

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If you shout or had raised your voice at me, called me names, it may sting but I don't care. Life is all about less fluff as time goes by, I be just saying and doing things as it is, and people can react whatever the fuck they want.

[epiphanygoddess]

The muddles just don't get it.

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I just knew i'd never be with someone romantically if they're not into same shit with me.

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Uppermoon E.Xe (ft. DoAka)