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wife + mama. designer. amateur photographer. pretty darn good baker. wannabe full-time crafter. what else?

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Dinner-time, a haiku

One single date square Standing up at the counter Ten o'clock at night Man I hate being too busy to eat 😩

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Also to the northern coast near giants causeway there's this rope bridge that is 100 feet above water (ALSO THE CRAZIEST THING IVE DONE) called carrick-a-rede

Thanks for the tips :)

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Exploring Ireland

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September! 🍀✈ My first real adventure, traveling to Ireland with two girl friends. I cannot wait.

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2016

Feeling anxious like maybe I should make a list of things I want for the next year? I'm spending my last day of 2015 pointlessly traveling almost 2 hours to work, to sit there and do nothing for 2 or 3 hours, to turn around and come home. Then we're gonna order pizza and drink and watch movies until midnight or until we get tired. And I'm ok with that. New Years Eve stresses me out cause it'll never be as good as the one I spent in NYC with my best girls.

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right place right time

So guys, I gave notice at work on Monday and tomorrow is my last day! I start a new job next Wednesday and I am excited, but I have to say, a little scared. I have been feeling a little undervalued as of late, which you might know if you've read any of my previous posts. So this is coming at a good time, if a little overdue. I've been "full time freelancing" at the same place for a little over 2 years now, almost been there 3 years total if you include my internship. Working full time without the benefits of being on staff. Sounds bananas, I know. But I didn't have a contract and thus, no end date. It was a pretty good set up, minus the whole no vacation time no benefits etc thing. So I just signed a 3 month contract at this other place, which has the possibility of turning full time ...if they like me. That's the scary part. I think I'm pretty likeable, I just hope I'm a good enough designer. Like I said, I haven't been feeling like I am lately.

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Obsessed with interiors.

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Learn how to sew: ✔

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Adulting

Frustrated. Stuck. Angry. Irritated. Annoyed. Depressed. Sad. Livid. Irate. Appalled. Mad. Those are all adjectives I've used to describe how my job makes me feel... It's not healthy. It never used to be this way - it started off really great! With great people and fun things happening everyday. I got my dream job right out of school. Not many people can say that. But I don't think it's my dream job anymore. Can that happen? I'm not learning anything new. In fact, I feel like I'm going backwards. I've been made to feel that way. It's not like I'm not trying but everytime I do I just feel dumb and talentless, so why bother? The thing is, they don't even care. These new people (women) just came in, flipped things upside down, with no regard for the people who have already been there longer (me. and others). I've had it. Most people I've talked to about it just think it's regular office politics, but it's not. It's so much worse than that. Devil Wears Prada 2.0. Thing is, I have no choice but to stay. The job market isn't great in my field. You have to be really good, and I'm feeling like I'm just not. So now I'm wondering, is it too soon for a career change? I NEED a change. I need something to happen because I can't keep feeling miserable when I go to work everyday. Miserable. There's another adjective. So what do I do? How do I figure out what I'm really good at, what I should be doing with my life and my career? Anyone out there have any thoughts?

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I'm not moving up and I'm not moving out

Sometimes I fear I’m not as talented as I have been led to believe. And that’s why I haven’t gotten so many jobs that I’ve applied and interviewed for. And that’s why I haven’t moved up where I am. I feel so stuck and I don’t know what my next move should be.

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I feel like every girl says "I don't normally take selfies but..." But really, I don't. I just felt like posting this picture because this past week I've been on holiday from work, which apparently also means taking a holiday from makeup. And I have actually never felt so comfortable with my skin. The camera quality isn't so great but you can really see all my freckles here, if you look closely!

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Books for dinner #feedthesoul #cantbelieveiwaitedthislong

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Last night, I'm not sure how, but A and I were talking about what our stripper names would be. You know, when you put together the name of your first pet and the name of the street you grew up on? He had a goldfish named Studley and grew up on Granville. I had a gerbil named Lily and I lived on Cloverfield. Studley Granville and Lily Cloverfield... I'd say if our day jobs don't work out we'd be set, lol.

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I've got thick skin and an elastic heart

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Walking to the subway on my way home from work, it's pouring rain and my feet are squishing in my keds and way up ahead of me a woman gives her umbrella to a lady carrying a small baby with a toddler by her side and if that's not the definition of kindness I don't know what is. Makes me believe there is kindness in this world after all.

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Weekend finds #antiques #mothersday #aberfoyleantiquemarket ...post about what I'm doing with the knobs to come in a couple weeks!

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Took some advice from the #juneissue of #chatelainemag and put some art on our walls! Just arrived last night from @society6