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musings on love eroticism philosophy and theology; poetry + writing lover and a martyr https://substack.com/@eroticvalentine https://www.instagram.com/eroticvalentine

[eroticvalentines]

i wrote on the soul’s desires in forms of lust and love to find God or a lover, eroticism, vulnerability, berini’s ‘ecstasy of st. teresa’, the importance of sexuality in spirituality, the metaphysics of sex and marriage, a bit on alchemy, and the concept of mystery lovers! ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 https://open.substack.com/pub/eroticvalentine/p/a-souls-desire-love-lust-and-god?r=1a45tt&utm_medium=ios

A Soul’s Desire; Love Lust and God

God made all beings subjects and objects of desire. Some are more different than others, some rooted in love, some rooted in lust but all fr

[eroticvalentines]

i wrote on the links between mysticism and schizophrenia, psychiatry, psychedelic substances, mental illness, altered states of consciousness, saints, a bit on my own experiences, a soul’s union with a higher power, and the abyss of God’s love! 🤍 https://open.substack.com/pub/eroticvalentine/p/a-connection-to-god-schizophrenia?r=1a45tt&utm_medium=ios

A Connection to God; Schizophrenia, Psychedelics, and Altered States of Consciousness

Connecting to God and the abyss of love takes many forms and paths, no matter which you take love and the Divine will intertwine and never l

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I love art of Mary Magdalene, it's always so beautiful

[eroticvalentines]

love death and martyrdom

i’ve always felt like

i’d die due to martydom or love

to die with no purpose

is a death not worth losing life over

to die due to martyrdom is to say

i died for the greater good

to die due to love is to say

i died because i experienced a great

ecstasy

the two roles that have been granted to me

in this life

revolve around love for one and love for all

martydom in itself is loving

the willingness to use your life for a higher destiny

if something isn’t worth losing life over

can you really say you love?

[eroticvalentines]

affliction

i enjoy the physical pain inflicted

because that is deliberate and intimate

but the hurt you do with

no intention of infliction

that is the worst

unless that too is done with the intent of hurting me

then for you?

i will learn to enjoy that too

[eroticvalentines]

a suffering lover

only when i truly learned what it meant to suffer only then did i understand what it meant to be a lover

if to love is to suffer and to suffer is to love

then the pure agony and ecstasy

are intertwined

and forever tied

like you and i

[eroticvalentines]

fine china

i would murder and completely mutilate myself

over and over again

if it meant i got to see and feel you

even if for a moment

tearing my own flesh just to see and feel yours against mine

swollen cut and completely shattered

like the finest china that was made to be broken

for every word unspoken between you and i

leaves me completely open for pain

[eroticvalentines]

poisoned by love

you have poisoned me

not with venom

but with love

the two have the capacity

to kill

and i drank and took one

and it felt

and killed like both

[eroticvalentines]

masochism and desire

in my final moments

i wish for the desire of people

to consume me

to eat me

to use me

to torture me

to use me for their own pleasure

to live my final moments as a martyr in the name of masochism

for my life is one that treads on

free will and the will to freely be used

to own me

to please me

to love me

to surrender to me

to completely destroy me

to end my life

as a martyr

in the name of masochism

[eroticvalentines]

feelings

i feel so much if you’ve felt like this while waiting im sorry this all hurts too much but if i have to wait and feel like this alone without you by my side i don’t know how much more i can take you are all consuming all around me please come back to me and make me feel whole i cant take this

half a person half a heart half a soul

i cant do this alone