𝐀 𝐒𝐦𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
Hi there, everyone! It's been a hot minute since I've been active (i.e. over 6 months), but I wanted to give you a long update on where I've been, what I've been doing, etc.! If you're not a big reader, I'd skip past this post - it'll be kinda lengthy.
possible tw: mental health/physical health, potential cursing, mentions of sex in relation to tumblr content - ALL SECTIONS WILL HAVE TW ACCORDINGLY
NOTE: THERE IS ALSO AN ANNOUNCEMENT ABOUT SOME UPCOMING FICS. IF YOU'RE NOT INTERESTED IN MY PERSONAL LIFE BUT WANT TO KNOW ABOUT WHAT TO EXPECT HERE IN TERMS OF MY WRITING, JUST SCROLL TO THE CATEGORY LABELLED "FANFICTION"
𝗠𝗬 𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟 𝗟𝗜𝗙𝗘
𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙠
I've spent extensive time going from one job to the next. I'm making a very similar transition again, hopefully for the final job. It's an even better full-time job that would make me twice as much as I make now. I was offered a position which means I'm well on my way to renting an apartment and getting a better car!
𝘽𝙞𝙧𝙩𝙝𝙙𝙖𝙮
By the time you see this, it'll be my 20th birthday! So just a little happy birthday to me and all my other April babies.
𝙋𝙝𝙮𝙨𝙞𝙘𝙖𝙡 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙈𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡 𝙃𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙝 (𝙏𝙒)
TW for this section, mentions of physical + mental health and mentions of weight. Please skip this if you're uncomfortable. I've also spent a lot of time being physically and mentally ill. I'm now officially diagnosed with several things. This means I'm on medicine, which makes me very tired, unable to do a lot, and made me gain weight as a side-effect of the medication. I've always had issues with my self-esteem, weight, and relationship with food - thus, I spiralled for a while and, being as stubborn as I am, refused to get help when I was suffering mentally. I still need help, but I'm happier and feel healthier too! I've learned to accept myself as I am and to love how I look. There was a ton of internalized fatphobia that I hadn't realised existed, and I've since been working through that. I'm also very slowly becoming friends with food again. Wish me luck! You're all good for TW now! Read on!
𝙈𝙮 𝙃𝙖𝙞𝙧
I've been grappling with other parts of myself too. My hair is one of them. It's been very feminine my entire life, and thus I've grappled with the length of it. It's also, at the same time, been my only source of comfort - something I could control and do with as I pleased. I've since come to terms with myself in many ways, so I've chopped all my hair off! I know it might not be a big deal to most people, but it took a lot for me to do that and admit that my obsession with it was unnerving and unhealthy. Imagine a mini mullet. If you're a close friend, you've probably been bombarded with pictures of my hair, but I'll leave the rest up to the crowd's imagination!
𝗜𝗗𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗜𝗧𝗬
𝘼𝙣 𝘼𝙣𝙣𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙚𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩
I'd like to very formally announce that I identify as genderfluid! For those who may support the LGBTQ community but don't quite know what the term means, I think WebMD sums it up pretty well for just a vague understanding: "Someone who is fluid -- also called gender fluid -- is a person whose gender identity (the gender they identify with most) is not fixed. It can change over time or from day to day." Usually, this will switch between he/him & they/them for me on a personal basis, so if we're ever having interactions and you're unsure, those are your best bet!
𝙈𝙮 𝙉𝙖𝙢𝙚
I'd also like to officially announce that my preferred name is Declan! This was decided after almost six months of thought. Ngl, there were a lot of sleepless nights, but here we are, and I'm very happy with who I've become! I don't intend to explain my decision. I've talked with my support system about my feelings enough for the life of me, but nevertheless, thank you for your support in advance!
𝗙𝗮𝗻𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻
𝙁𝙞𝙘𝙨 𝘾𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙎𝙤𝙤𝙣
A few fics are coming your way. I'll announce them here but will probably make a separate post too! Here's what's set to come out (note, no dates are listed as of this moment, I'm bad with dates, and I no longer want to make promises I can't keep):
Desperate For You - Seokjin x Reader - based on Desperate by Jonas Blue & Nina Nesbitt
take it and run - Taehyung x Reader - based on Friends by Chase Atlantic
Fallin' Without Caution - Namjoon x Reader - based on People Watching by Conan Gray
checkmate - Yoongi x Reader - based on Lost The Breakup by Maisie Peters
I have about 31 requests (I counted, holy shit) to get through, so I'll also complete those. I know it's been over a year, but I appreciate the unending patience!
it’s a very special day! we would like to wish one of our very own pollinators a super duper happy birthday! we hope you have a buzz worthy time declan @erotikkook 🐝 🍯 thanks for being a part of our hive!
Not sure if anyone was wondering where I was but tiny update: I was very sick for a long while. I found out about some issues with my heart and then I ended up getting a new (and permanent) full time job. THEN I graduated college with a pre-law degree. I’m going to be back to writing soon but life had me by the throat😭
I'm glad you think so! It took a long time to make! I have a few more angsty pieces coming out soon, but they're still WIPs for now - aka y friends hear me bitch about them at 2 AM ahaha but either way, I'm so glad you liked it <33
I'm glad you think so! It took a long time to make! I have a few more angsty pieces coming out soon, but they're still WIPs for now - aka y friends hear me bitch about them at 2 AM ahaha but either way, I'm so glad you liked it <33
Pauli (@kookstempo) said that if I can get 25 reblogs she'll tell a B O Y (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) that she wants to K I S S (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) him and I am trying to facilitate my role as Bad Influence sooooo let's make this happen!
If I get 25 reblogs, not only will Pauli have to be BRAVE with a BOY, I will also post TRIP early :) :) :)
Trip || 22k || KTH x female reader, JJK x oc, JHS x oc || camping!au, s2l, FLUFF
Summary: Your gigantic crush on Kim Taehyung is so bad that you drop whatever you’re holding every time he speaks to you. Your dirty liar of a best friend SWORE to you he wouldn’t be on this camping trip, but he is. Luckily, the trip gives Taehyung the chance to see you in a new light, admittedly with some help from his best friend (and definitely hired spy) Park Jimin.
the tea blog is up again, have u ever been on one?
if you mean chai-something or whatever(?) then I’m aware. To answer your other question — I personally haven’t ever been mentioned on a tea blog, no. My close friends have been, unfortunately, which sucks. I’m obviously not a fan of the gossiping going on atm. Hopefully it’ll fizz out🤢
