the fault in our daddies

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A commission for goddamnchou!! She wanted something inspired by her fic & I am an absolute dumbass! I didn’t read the request right sOOOO I decided to do two pictures for her, one of said fic (above) and the bonus (below). my idiocy, your gain etc. etc.

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I’m opening up a couple slots for reduced-price holiday commissions!

Because I need some moolah! At the moment I’m only offering chest up/bust commissions and if there’s more interest beyond what I’m taking now I’ll open them back up later.

Here’s how it works:

Fill out this Google form with your commission info. Preference is given to those who answer yes in the first question, because it streamlines my process and makes things go more quickly.  

I’ll email you an invoice from my Paypal. Payment is made up front.

Upon payment, I go to work on your commission. Turnaround time will be about 3-5 days.

I’ve been having a hell of a lot of issues communicating with people OL for a while now. I wanted to still take commissions, but the idea of it gave me a lot of anxiety. Even though most of them in the last few years were a private, case-by-case sort of thing, it hasn’t been any easier wrt talking to people :( Hopefully I figured out a work around that’ll reduce the stress.

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hittin all my sideblogs in case anyone’s interested!

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a little commish i did a few months ago for @keithyourpal!

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Happy birthday i can't believe Levi rode Erwin’s dick into the sunset wow

Thank you and thank you to Levi for riding Erwin's dick. It's canon.

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Happy birthday I can't believe eruri is canon

Thank you!! Eruri is canon pass it on.

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Im actually rlly glad erwin is dead so yall fuckers can stop shipping them thanks ! Erwin i s dead and i couldnt be happier thanks

It’s my birthday today and the fact that someone is so upset over me shipping Levi/Erwin that they’re sending me anon messages is a delightful gift. I love that it makes someone this angry heh

[erwinoutfitters]

You're the only one who has shit reading comprehension. :)

I found this in my inbox from 2 months ago and I have no idea what it’s about and I’m hollering. 

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Eruri commission for @gallifreyanphd with them being very in love, dancing some waltz after everyone left home (μ‿μ)❤

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the last idk 5 chapters of snk have cemented for me the depths to which fandom consistently lacks reading comprehension 

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Me, frustrated at my future kids: Erwin Smith didn't die so you could act up like this

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I should talk about the process for painting Erwin sometime (because it was SUPER CRAZY DIFFERENT and took forever) but I felt on a memorial picture it would be gauche 

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rest in peace, my love. (x)

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erwin and his uncomfortably shredded husband

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Isayama’s interview on Levi and Kenny, from the ANSWERS guidebook

Keep reading

[birbwin-deactivated20180427]

the big question for me now is whether isayama did this intentionally.

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“I think Shingeki will end in a traumatising way, so since Erwin has now been allowed to go to heaven, humanity is now going to hell. Now that I’ve seen Marco and Bert, I feel like there’s some kind of karma involved in decisions. I really think this story will have a bad end.” (x) (bold mine)

talking to @peach-oniisan (a blessing to us all) about the above and more, and this is basically where we’re at. as regards the aforementioned quote and chapter 84: if he did not do this on purpose, and the narrative does not punish them for these decisions, there really is no saving grace for this story at all. Imo this is the only course it can take - to subvert the original impression we had of these characters (transcending even the pervasive grey-morality theme), turn it on its head, and reveal that humans were truly the monsters all along. or are atleast equally monstrous. i hope they lose the war because they discarded of their real last hope (erwin) out of selfishness - and i don’t say that out of bitterness, but because that is the only realistic turn this story can take without spiraling into total rubbish. this needs to be didactic, at the very least a story about how humanity, as embodied by eren and mikasa, have dug their own graves. this needs to become a lesson and commentary on how they fucked themselves over. a lot of this will hinge on armin’s reaction and whether they ultimately succeed or not. i cant comment on whether isayama will see this through, my trust for such a thing is pretty shot. yet despite all my salt about this - and i’m still salty about a lot -  i’ve sobered enough to hope that this really is what he intended for the sake of the manga ive been following for two years.

[erwinoutfitters]

didn’t isayama say before (like two different times) armin and eren aren’t going to remain friends or at least will have very radically differing points of view that are going to cause friction?

this might be what’s going to happen. i think so based on the fact that the manga is about choices, that armin seems to be the narrator from a point in the future, and i think isayama might be going for “humans are the real monsters.” (and if so, that’s kinda foreshadowed in the titans are humans too; deep down every monster is a human and every human can be a monster or whatever.)

like you said, we won’t know til we see the next chapter and armin’s reaction. buuuuut 

this needs to be didactic, at the very least a story about how humanity, as embodied by eren and mikasa, have dug their own graves. 

this needs to be what does happen. to salvage any hope to adhering to narrative coherency. 

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If you might have noticed, I've been really absent from this blog and my presence on Tumblr in general decreased in the last two years -- very bad physical/mental illness  getting worse. I've pretty much withdrawn from the world in general and as much as I miss being active in fandom (any fandom, but esp. SNK) I can't be.

So, my point is, I'm not sure if I have the emotional or mental energy to work up a good argument about anything regarding chapter 84 even though I'm full of thoughts. 

Some notes on characters, emotions, grief, personal and not. Meandering.

My thoughts, if I boiled them down to one emotion, are mostly sadness. But I’m disappointed, surprisingly, in some of the fandom, I've got a lot of disagreement with some of the things being said in reaction to this chapter. 

I’m not sure how to begin sorting that out. I've never been a fandom meta or argument sort of person. That's not where my interest lies and I really don’t intend to start now. I don't think it's my place either to tell people how to react, especially when something they were invested in and loved hurts them. 

But I've been dismayed at the reactions some people have had specifically towards another character --Levi.

To be honest, I know a portion of it is emotional reaction. Which doesn't invalidate it by any means, but it's a moot point to dissent to emotional reactions, because they're not my emotions. I don't need a say in what you feel. Whether people feel the same when they've been able to process Erwin's death is a different matter. Maybe I will come back and say some things when I feel an atmosphere for them.

I don’t mean to say emotions make one wrong or irrational. I mean I just don’t feel it’s a time for me to start arguing a point.

Even though Erwin is a fictional character, fans of said character are grieving. Grief is a feeling of immense sorrow -- it's a misconception that we only grieve the deaths of our immediate loved ones. We grieve for people we don't know personally, have never physically touched, and even people who don't exist. We grieve over the loss of things precious to us, even time. 

Fans are passionate. We loved Erwin and we grieve losing our favorite character. That’s how it is. And for some people, they grieve losing a story they loved because they know they cannot go back to it and have it be the same. The saddest gulf is the one between changed states of being.

I have no patience for anyone who sneers at the reactions of others and tells them there's no reason for it. A friend wise beyond her years once told me if she broke a finger and I broke an arm, her finger would still hurt. Being sad over something --that, admittedly, in the long run of your life might be small -- invalidates nothing.

Six years ago in July, a relative of mine who was more like my older brother than cousin died. The following winter, I sat across the table from my father while he told me that my grief shouldn't be so much because I only lost one person. He gestured to a book he had about Vietnam veterans. "This is real grief," he said, bluntly. "Try losing that many people around you." I never spoke to my father again.

As my father erroneously thought, there's no real measuring grief, because it’s an emotion. By default, mourning a fictional person never overshadows real life grief. That's ridiculous and arguing that it does is just churlish. On any scale, stepping into someone's emotions doesn't work.  I’ve broken my arm before and my finger. My finger still hurts.

I don't want to argue with grief.

But I will say this: as sad as we are and angry as some might be, I don't disagree with Levi's decision or hold him in any contempt over it. My reasons are various and murky but all the same I'm very sad to see so many people reading into a specific "meaning" over it. 

I don't think Levi let Erwin down, and I don't think the message is "if you’re depressed, just die." I don’t think people are understanding Levi’s character motivation, his dynamic with/love for Erwin, and the situation. 

We’re all just reacting right now and that’s okay. And that’s all.