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@erynwithawhy
I want to go back to being oblivious to my knowledge. Maybe then I could play dumb better. But I know. And I haven't wrapped my head entirely around the situation in order to figure out a plan of attack. But know that we're nearing the end. It's time. This road has run its course.
Can someone tell me why the voices have returned? Why the screaming won't go away? Why I'm so delusional that I swore I heard you getting dressed and were leaving. Part of me was thankful I didn't have to do it anymore. The other half wanted to die and beg for forgiveness that I shouldn't need. I've done nothing wrong but you have created this world in my mind that everything is because of me and I need to apologize for anything and everything because I'm the fuck up. When part of me knows that's not true. That you should be fighting for me, appreciating what I do for you. You should be thinking of my needs sometimes, because making me happy makes you happy. But instead, I'm the paranoid cunt who lies, steals and is clingy. I didn't know that needing validation every once in a while was a bad thing. Because your actions show me that you don't care, that you don't appreciate, that you don't think. You're draining me, mind body and soul. I don't have much left to give except my last breath.
Sucks hanging out with friends you were once so close too and have moved on without. I don't do the party life. I don't do the drinking till I can't remember anything. I don't so the wild no responsibility life. I have my moments, don't get me wrong. But u have to work 2 jobs, handle the house, take care of my family, and when I get time off? I just want to sit in the silence and do NOTHING and not watch the clock. I hate time. It goes by too fast when I have to much to do and slow when I'm waiting for a break.
I quit. I give up. I am not strong enough to do this. I am not mentally prepared to handle this challenge. I am trying to run a company that I no longer give two shits about. I am trying to make everyone happy. I am trying to do everything for everyone else, and get no time for me. I am always on a strict time table, watching the minutes tick past as my To Do list grows before my eyes. Ask for help? Where the fuck do I begin to even know what to ask help on? I cook, I clean, I grocery shop, I load, unload, unpack and put away. I organize. I plan. I gather, I wash, I push through, I fold, I hang, I put away, I pack. I drive, I walk, I rush, I run, I jump stairs, I take shortcuts. I stay up late, I dont sleep in, I dont get naps, I dont know if I'm awake or asleep. I coordinate, I plan, I organize, I gather, I recruit, I assemble. I click, I clack, I swype, I qwerty, I v2t, I talk, I message, I mass, I respond. I pay, I budget, I pinch, I restrict. I DO SO FUCKING MUCH AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS GETTING ME. I feel so distant from my friends. I feel so distant from my family. I cant remember the last time I did something fun with my son that didnt end in me so frustrated that I gave up and let him do whatever. I feel so stressed that I am always in work mode, and never relax mode. I cant shut my brain down without feeling like I'm going to miss something important that is critical. My body is tired. My brain is tired. My skin is tired. I am so stressed I am breaking out in places I shouldnt be breaking out in. I am surprised I havent been hospitalized by how stressed I am. I know it doesnt always look it on the outside, but I cant stop hyperventilating on the inside. I want to run away and never look back. I want to just drop everything and go. I hate the fact you make me feel like shit for having to much to do. for being "dramatic" for expecting help without asking for it. I hate the fact that you can go to sleep with no thought about me. We're currently not dry, so right now, you're being super nice. However, what happens when this is gone? Do you turn into the dick that I know and expect? Who yells at me, who makes me cry. Who makes me turn into a terrible person? or do you realize its gone to far, and ruined who we are to each other. you're not the same person. I'm not the same person. I WANT TO BE STRONG FOR BOTH OF US, BUT AGAIN, YOU WONT BE STRONG FOR ME SO WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I CARE? Give up the dogs. Give up the house. Give up anything worth money. Give up my son. Give up my jobs. Give up my friends. Give up my body. Give up my brain. So this cycle can continue and tear us apart. WE WERE GOOD FOR EACH OTHER UNTIL WE ADDED SOMETHING INTO THE EQUATION. I want fucking out. I want out of this. I want the old me back. With boobs, butt, and fat on my body, but clear skin. I want the old you back who laughed and smiled and went out in the daylight. I want the old us back, who everyone envied, and now know nothing about. I want the old times back when I felt secure in who I was and where I was.
Yes my snooping may be the reason I am in a fit of anger. I may be reading into things that aren't there, trying to find anything to prove these thoughts in my head. I just am still so self conscience about my body and the fact the whole no anything for so long. Yes, my thoughts and feelings have made me distant and pushed you away a bit, but I can't help it. EVERY guy I've dated has cheated on me. EVERY guy has gone behind my back and done something to hurt me. EVERY guy I've trusted has broken that bond. I'm sorry. I won't snoop anymore. Because maybe you're being honest about everything and I'm going crazy. And the fact that I'm snooping WILL be the reason you leave. Then again, the vicious cycle will continue. Sit in front of the AC. Cool down. Calm down. Appreciate the things you DO have, and hope that tomorrow starts a new day full of no negatively or pain. It's time to respect yourself and remember that whatever happens will happen, no matter what you find.
So Confused
I am so confused. You act like you still love me.
You act like you still care. You act like you still want us.
But you wont touch me sexually, you wont please me sexually. You cant get it up and it doesnt seem to worry you. You are like, eh? It will at some point. But you’re still watching porn? When? At work on your lunch break in the bathroom? Because I have never seen you do it here and you’re never alone long enough.
Can you get it up for some porn hub slut? Is there something wrong with me now that made you change your mind? But you stay with me out of convenience and all the amenities I provide? I am just a hotel maid for you? I know I lost weight. I know my skin is a mess. I know I am almost non existent these days, but you’re not helping me by pointing out all my flaws and then never assuring me that we will be fine. That we will make it.
I feel alone in this relationship and I dont know where we are headed. After this weekend will things change? Will they change next month? What can I expect in the upcoming hours even?
I am sick with worry that I am not good enough again. Another failed relationship because I wasnt good enough. I didnt cheat. I didnt lie. I didnt steal. I just lost. I always lose it seems. And I hate it.
what do you say when you’re too fucked up what’s your girlfriend say when i smack that butt what do you say when you run outta drugs baby what you say when you bust a nut
Mickey Avalon (via summoningthespirits)
Part of me misses you and the other part hates you.
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Skin Issues
So I had TERRIBLE skin through middle school and half of freshman year, bad red oily gross skin that was just a pain. My parents bought stuff they thought would help, but nothing did. Till I went on BC. My skin was clear except when stressed or near my period. When I came off of BC I was doing hormone therapy which stabilized my skin still. Then got pregnant, and then back on BC. I'm still on it, but this is one of the most stressful times I've had to deal with, even over a divorce and being a single mom. My skin is hideous. I'm breaking out all over my chin and jaw. Deep ones that never come to a head. I am trying every single homeopathic remedy as to not cause my skin to break out more by the chemicals in normal acne meds. I put on a pore mask with epsom salt, then use witch hazel as a toner, tea tree oil as a spot treatment and aloe gel as a moisturizer. If I'm going to be home for a bit, maybe another mask or a epsom salt bath. Today I knew I was going to be home for a bit so I put a drawing salve on one deep one that won't come up and is under a scab. The lump was the size of a dice. I put the salve on for the hours and the lump has diminished by 50%. It looks nasty, as ♡ told me, my skin looks way worse than it has been. But it's because the salve is a sticky brown gunk. I have it on again now and will wash it off before I pass out at 3am as usual. I need to be drinking more water, taking vitamins, and getting some sun. I can't stay in the house all day. It's not healthy for me. I'm not happy but the only way to get me out of this funk is to force myself to do stuff. I am hoping over the next few days it will clear up even more as I start to take better care of my body. I need to eat right thought so I don't gain back unhealthy weight. Which is hard as I don't have the motivation to make meals unless I can microwave them. But again, I need to put in the effort to see the results I want. I have alienated my friends, distanced myself from my family, dropped tasks at work that I need to pick up and fix, and just made my self esteem go downhill in my relationship. Day 26 of NOTHING and he doesn't seem fazed and I've stopped asking and trying. It's not worth the disappointment of always hearing no. (Btw shouldn't this be the guy saying that, not the girl?) I am giving myself 2 more days of rough then it's back to the real world and putting on a happy face. If I don't fix things by Aug 5 then I am going to start a new path for myself and my life. Tomorrow I'm going to buy some herbal mood stabilizers I have been reading about. Should help with insomnia, depression and irritability. Only one I'm not irritated at is P. I have to get healthy and happy for him. He deserves a better mom than I have been for the past 2 months.
Well..
Weighed myself today. I'm at 112 lbs with my shoes and clothes on. So guess what! I'm down to freshman year of high school weight. To bad it all came out of my boobs. Diet secret: be stressed as fuck
People always ask her why she puts up with all of his shit, and she doesn’t have any sort of answer. She just rolls her eyes, laughs, and says nothing. She acts embarrassed that someone called her out on it, but she wishes they would just open their eyes. She doesn’t know why, except for the fact that she accepts him. Hell, she adores him, as ridiculous as that is, and it’s beginning to baffle her how nobody sees that.
Daily Tumblr Love Quotes (via thelovewhisperer)
*is a freak, but is too shy to go in for the first kiss*
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yeah sex is nice, but when you haven’t been held in months sex isn’t what you miss the most
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My clogged gland grew into a cyst and popped on my ear. This is 3 days of progress using just heat compression. It was so painful till it burst. Remind me never to sweat again.
Boys don’t understand that a jealous girl isn’t cute or funny. A truly jealous girl will start to hate herself and wonder why you would ever want her when you could have the other girl. She will make herself sick trying to understand why you are ignoring her. She will stay up late wondering why she wasn’t enough. Jealousy destroys. It eats away at her perception of you and eventually she will give up. On you, on herself and whatever relationship you had. So boys, don’t ever try to make your girl jealous.
