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here lie esmé’s things

[heavensghost]

Good Luck!

[esmem-55]

牡丹江 means peony river

[pam3pr]

Jane O’Sullivan, Don’t forget that we are blessed, 2009. Ink on tissue paper.

[esmem-55]

你说，我小的时候，全冬天地上就是百色的。看不见土地。

今年，走在白雪地上, 我希望你小的时候我们可以是朋友。我低头的话，全世界都是白色的。每天走到学校，走回来。

今年我觉得我在知道你一点了。

草莓终于好吃了。树变录了。

我还记得，你说，

下雪天不冷。

真的。不冷。

[esmem-55]

love thaws in spring

[loveridden1999]

― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Sensible Thing

[esmem-55]

never the same love twice

[esmem-55]

[patronsaintofweepingmothers]

"JELLY SANDWICH HEART (BLOOD SUGAR LOW?)" (2007), ROBERT FORNAL

[esmem-55]

[esmem-55]

i feel like an empty pit. is a hole an object? is an absence a thing? i know i don’t feel like the ground around it, i know that i feel like the place where the dirt was. and now isn’t. this winter i made a snow angel for the first time. the snow has finally all melted. last thursday i was digging bricks out of the ground in the backyard to line the flowerbed. tearing up grass and moss, pulling and pulling, finally getting on my knees and pulling more, finally pulling the brick out. it left a perfectly rectangular impression. the dirt was surprisingly soft and smelled better than anything. i feel like something that was something else but isn’t anymore. i feel like i’m too late. my room feels like someone else’s. i remember lying in the snow in the dark and blinking at the snow falling on my glasses. i remember not feeling cold. i got up. it left an unfamiliar impression.

[tobiasforms]

[angelicdewdrop]

[esmem-55]

[dreamstars]

[esmem-55]

this snowdrop plant impaled dried leaves on the ground and grew through them

[mourningdoveee333]

[mollyhengcheang]

The City in the Fish Tank