WORK IN PROGRESS...

WORK IN PROGRESS...

[ethanolvic101]

From time to time, depression hits so hard that you just want to stop existing. My experience here on Tumblr was very mixed, and i thought leaving this blog and making a new one would fix things up (and i also thought that everyone forgot about me), but holy damn was i wrong, how much i miss the times where i postes random crap and people liked it.

I know i kinda fell off these days, and i might still do because i don't reblog other peoples posts, i don't comment nor interact, i just wanted to post stuff on this blog that only belonged to me.

Trying to ignore the little amount of attention is so hard, but maybe i'll find my own audience one day if i keep posting about the things i love, which is my Pokemon AU.

One issue is that this blog is a secondary blog, so every person i follow or like their post comes from my main blog, in which i have nothing on it, and i dont think i can do anything about it, and its so embarrassing.

I don't want to keep venting all the time or overthink about deleting everything and disappearing off the internet, but at some point its the only thing i could think about.

I might try to fix everything, to revive this blog, and keep posting the stupid stuff, no matter if it gets little to no attention, but i also feel like im forced to draw what everyone else draws to get at least some kind of attention.

So, in a few days, i might continue to post on this blog, and also try to fix it of course haha

It will only be about pokemon. ( And OCs, i have a couple of them. That couple is about 100+ :-) )

Anyways, see you soon :')

[ethanolvic101]

Update

I know i wasn't supposed to post on this account anymore and move on (i have a new account by the name of @ethanolvic, if anyone's wondering, but its meant to be an experimental account), but i feel like i should stay and continue on with my rambles about my niche interest, no matter if it gets little to no attention. This pokemon AU that i've been working on for almost 3 years means everything to me right now, and i know due to mood swings i tend to delete stuff. But, to be fair, i don't know how social media works, and i had made so many accounts few years ago in an attempt at getting better. I have a huge attachment to this account/blog, and i hate abandoning it for a large period of time. I still don't know if anyone remembers my existence, but i genuinely do not know how to function on social media But, yeah, maybe i'll come back to this account and start posting again, but thats just a maybe Or i'll transfer everything from this account to my other blog and continue on from there

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Just finished this, i was simping the whole time unfortunately

You have no idea the things this man awakens in me, he is so... RAARAARRARARARRAAA

i gotta calm down😀

Eternian Ethan makes me feel things god damnit

[ethanolvic101]

Trigger warning for scary wooooooooo (/hj)

White haired ethan White haired ethan White haired ethan White haired ethan i love this silly little guy hes so silly and cool👬🏻🕺🏻

I love eef

[ethanolvic101]

Look at me dead in the eyes and tell me they are not mother and son.

Also the eyes....... just look at them

[ethanolvic101]

Trigger warning for blood/heavy scars (but poorly made)

(takes place after the pokemon league) (not good)

I really adore Ethan, i hate the fact that hes plain in pokemon masters or acts like a douche in pokespe, he deserved so much better. (So much better i mean by ruin him. So badly. Make his previous parents the bad guys, then make him the son of two of the most powerful trainers in Kanto (Red is the protective mom while Blue is the silly dad), make him go through an accident, get this man killed by a pokemon, become champion but at what cost, go through hell, get 2 more siblings who also went through hell (by that i speak of Nate and Victor), become god, die again, and so on)

Bonus :

(yes thats canon in the au, everything i draw is canon)

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"From warm to cold"

Originally i didnt plan on painting Red, i was trying to get rid of art block by painting something (like a face), and that soon turned into "that" as i have gotten an idea of what to make of this, somehow it took.. 3 and a half hours? that surprised me

Alao bonus doodle :-)

I like to imagine that after years and years (probably during Eternia arc), Red has gotten used to having white hair and red eyes, while Blue keeps having his life flash before his when he sees Red, kinda spooky if you ask me, but dont worry, their relationship/marriage is still stable, just added a few changes :'-D

[ethanolvic101]

V

I saw a meme a while ago and the expression of the face on it made me feel the need to draw

So i experimented a little bit (with the colors it had) 👀 (and by dragging the victim and using the colors from that meme lol)

And something else i experimented on but im not sure if i should be satisfied or confused

With eyes

But eitherway i like it so why not share

[ethanolvic101]

I was supposed to do an art request but i got ahead of myself so i made this

I made some creatures a few months back but i never shared them, but here they are now :)

They are a part of the au by the way

Also have men

Uh. And jolly gay month too

I dont know if my style changed much, but im starting to like it more :)

[ethanolvic101]

Im not dead, just busy with school

Have some doodles i made today :)

(trigger warning for edgy wooo)

Wanted to test out my small notebook, turned it into a sketchbook for my au stuff

+ doodle from few days ago, i really like this guy, he kinda chill

i like him

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This took 21 hours to make, but was it worth it? yes

I like to think that the characters become gods but also have a weird form that makes them look uncanny. (but thats for later)

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(editing the description because it felt cringe) Calem and Brendan are one of my favourite duos, i might have wanted to ship them due to their chemistry, but because i already settled up with different things for them, im not sure if that'll ever happen. Out of all characters, i think their designs are the hardest (my fault), but its also enjoyable as i get to practice making details :)

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≤[Calem/X]≥ (EDITED TEXT)

"Ever since Sycamore's d3ath and Lysandre's betrayal. after years of trust, Calem has been seeking vengeance, since then his behavior changed to a more cold and stoic one, as he thinks about nothing more than ending Lysandre's life. He's always on guard, ready to sh0ot him on sight. He will do anything to avenge Sycamore, as he can't stand losing more and more people close to him. He will bring back justice, and Lysandre's h3ad. He seeks no forgiveness from the man he once saw as a father."

Bonus :

He keeps changing smh

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≤[Volo]≥

I havent drawn much over the past month, but since i have my break i decided to draw one of the characters from the AU... Actually redesigning cuz what were the designs i made earlier🧍🏻Never forgiving myself🧍🏻

Anyways heres Volo (or V) :D

His design of all is.. my favourite ngl.. i ADORE it, you have no idea, i love Volo, i love this V guy, i love this man so much i would kms

Also correction with the necklace part, I MEANT SOON NOT SPON HELLO

[ethanolvic101]

THEM!!!!! :D

Also happy new year!! :) I do hope to be posting more art of my au and hope you all enjoy it to those who are here for it (i need to cope)

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Some recent art fixes

So i came to a conclusion that my new art style is down right horrible as it looks soulless and has the same shape as ever, so i decided to mix it with my older art style that i liked much more, im specifically talking about the way i drew faces and some other details as you can see.

I call this a fixing because i wanted to the drawings look better and not have the same face syndrome, even though it might still have it i dunno. 😭

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Most normalest family in history

This is just some crap i came up with days ago but never wanted to finish, but now that i havemy motivation back, i offer you this, uh. Yeah. Night👬