Music, musings, and shameless self indulgence

Hedonist/ Musician/ Socially unsatisfied trans girl I love getting to know people so feel free to drop an ask and say hi :3 ❤

[punlovsin]

every year.on this day..

.

[dr-jingles]

Can I offer some Gengar in these trying times?

[thatgaybitxh-deactivated2025062]

why am i dressed slutty you ask? to read classic literature alone in my room. mind your own business.

[somekindaspacecadet]

[quercus-queer]

Miss Susan of Texas really never misses huh

[laskulls-deactivated20250318]

enemies to lovers who are still pretending to be enemies for the reputation

[notquiteaghost]

fake hating.......

[marsapartment]

The cartoon network cancelled a cinematic masterpiece, only for it to come back stronger and with more vine-worthy content

[saintofpride201]

Batman: *lists the people who have left santa prisca without facing Bane*

Bane:

[galuby]

“be careful with my trees”

“I

KNOOOW”

[apatheticskeleton]

i can NOT stop thinking about when c.s. lewis introduced a character by saying “his name, unfortunately, was Eustace Scrubb” like BRUH no need to do him dirty like that 😭😭 you GAVE him that name. tf

[jedi-valjean]

You forgot he immediately followed it with “and he almost deserved it.”

[lioncalledparsley]

#clive staples you are throwing bricks in glass houses 

[somecutething]

Dolphins doing cartwheels with an aquarium guest.

(via Ant.Giovanni)

[luidilovins]

I'm loving this new trend of people going to zoos and participating in animal enrichment. We use to observe large exotic animals for our entertainment, but the fact is that we are now trying to make ourselves equally as entertaining for them. It's interactive, completely parpicipatory and I would argue that eventually someone's gonna come up with something new enough that it expland ethologists understanding about how some animals think, problem solve, communicate and feel and I think its fantastic.

[urbanfantasyinspiration]

Human: play?

Aquatic creature from an entirely different branch of the animal tree: play!

[lotrlocked]

Things like this remind me that the world isn’t all bad and that sometimes humans are very good and sweet.

[porterr-robinson]

[rubykgrant]

the freaking Pirates music

[mandaloriangf]

[mandaloriangf]

[tockthewatchdog]

#this gets funnier the more time goes on

[heritageposts]

happy anniversary 

[blobbynfriends]

Oh mom if you only knew 😅✨

[samgiddings]

cinematic parallels: tumblr somehow becoming one of the most bearable social media platforms in 2020/2021, and that speed skater who made it to the olympics because everyone else fell over

[samgiddings]

tumblr, doing the bare minimum of keeping posts chronological and not forcing targeted ads down our throats 24/7:

[commiecricket-deactivated202302]

does anyone else remember this meme?? it’s almost time for the josh showdown

[gumi-megpoidd]

Oh my god

[septicake]

oh lord

[veryfunnymemes]

[mjalti]

look if you decide to have a problem after midnight, that’s between you & God tbh

[harvestspriteirl]

Y’all highkey silence your phone forever. Make everyone wait on you. Remind them you are your own person on your own time. 

My phone is never on ring. You’ll be lucky if my bitch ass feels generous enough to put it on vibrate. The shit is in my hand at least 5 hours a day, if I don’t notice the notification or I’m busy then I wouldn’t have responded anyways, I would have just been irked that it went off at all. 

My contacts are at my mercy. They claw at my pants’ legs and beg for my attention. I feel nothing for my notifications except pure contempt and disgust when I can be assed to feel anything for them. 

[professional-moron]

I can’t stop laugh at these tags

[marxistbarbie-deactivated202109]

really though, “sneaking out” is such a white thing in every aspect bc firstly u need a big ass Suburban House™ with big windows and various levels of roofing so u can safely jump out. you also need White Parents™. forget getting out of the house my toe wouldn’t hang out of my bed w/out my mum knowing. let’s say u managed to best those eoc (ears of colour) how tf are u gonna get back in ? poc (parents of colour) all have a spiritual connection to their front door like they can telepathically communicate. 5 mins before i even approach that door u know my mum’s sitting on the other side waiting to kill me. it’s just not realistic. 

[arcardeofloneliness]

^^^^^

[afreakin-goddess]

this is no joke tho. one time my brother snuck out, managed to get past all the obstacles that come with having an African mother, except one. MY MOM HAD A DREAM THAT MY GRANDMOTHER TOLD HER TO WAKE UP AND CHECK ON THE KIDS! i was sleeping in the room with her so she knew i was fine, but went to my brother’s room and his ass was gone. that’s why whenever someone asks me to sneak out, im always like naw im good, the asswhoppin my brother got doesn’t need a sequel

[tadyak]

doc (dreams of color)

[brainsforbabyjesus]

The thing that makes me giggle about Letterkenny is that it’s marketed as “that show about redneck small town Ontario” and it lures in dudebros with plots about beer/hockey/farts/fighting/sex but then it casually has 2 gay characters, 2 bisexual characters, 1 polyamorous character, a whole bunch of poc, doesn’t slut shame women, pointedly punches guys that honk at women, and is pro-choice.

like, haha beer and farts, by the way don’t talk to women if they don’t want to talk to you.

[windwardstar]

In case anyone wants some perspective on how utterly random triggers can be. I haven’t lived in a house with a garage door in four-ish years. Right now at this moment, I honestly can’t recall what they sound like, except something metallic moving and rather clanky.

There was one on tv. I wasn’t even paying attention to it, I had my headphones on and was actively trying to tune the show out. My ears picked up on the sound of the garage door, and a jolt of adrenaline shot through my body as I grabbed my laptop and moved to get out of my seat and run to my room.

I realized what happened after about two seconds.

The sound is gone from my ears, but my heart is still racing and I’m waiting for the door to the house to open, to hear the jingling of my mother’s keys and her footsteps moving through the house. My muscles are still tense and I’m fighting the urge to run to my room and stick a board in front of the door.

For years, the sound of a garage door was my warning to pack up what I was doing quickly and retreat to my room if I was out of it.

I can’t remember the sound of the garage door right now, but I can’t tell my brain to stop trying to react to it.

[windwardstar]

This can be reblogged, if anyone was wondering. I wrote up this post with the intention that hopefully people who read it and didn’t really get triggers would understand a bit.

[the-real-seebs]

So, a thing that’s particularly important here: The trigger here is not the bad experience itself.

[jumpingjacktrash]

after my super funtime medical adventure, i had to change all my bath products, because my brain had associated the scent of them with being terrified and in extreme pain.

these were products i had chosen myself because i liked the smell. and they got connected to the medical phobia because i was using them to wash off the hospital reek and the fear sweat and so forth. i don’t know why they became a trigger. maybe because washing off the hospital smell didn’t make me not in pain. maybe because their ‘fresh pine ocean breeze bluegreen spicy stuff’ smell didn’t really replace the hospital stench, just mingled with it.

but for whatever reason, smelling these objectively nice soaps made me do flashbacks and get all hopeless and wobbly. so they had to go.

triggers are random. they’re often something that was simply present during a trauma, and you can’t guess what they’ll be. no one who hasn’t heard me explain this would ever associate suave naturals ocean breeze body wash with unbearable abdominal pain. so i guess the takeaways here are twofold:

- if you have triggers, remember other people can’t predict them, and don’t expect to be protected from them all the time. that’s up to you.

- if you don’t have triggers, don’t assume you can judge what a ‘real’ trigger is, and if someone asks you to accomodate them, don’t be a dick about it. even if you don’t want to make that accomodation, decline politely and apologize, don’t disparage their request.