restless like the sea

eva | 22 a writer russian & queer — read my works on ao3

[evadwrites]

30.11.2023

russian supreme court labeled lgbt movement as ‘extremism’. it will make lgbt activism in russia practically impossible, and they will punish lgbt activists like they would punish terrorists. in the eyes of the government, we are the terrorists. in the eyes of the government, we deserve to be eradicated completely. i wish this was the end, but it’s yet another beginning. they’ll never stop until we cease to exist completely.

i’m russian, i’m queer, and i exist. we exist.

p.s. i wish i was brave enough to say that i’m not afraid, but i am.

i’m terrified, and i’m also very, very tired.

[emilyprentissmylove]

emily never had a real thing because she doesn’t think she’s loveable in that way, the only time she was truly loved was when she wasn’t even herself…it was when she was Lauren.

[pathologising]

ok well im going to build a good future for myself whether i like it or not

[pathologising]

literally this

[headspace-hotel]

You can give a little relief to future You. What a gift!

[ruffaloon]

Ava & Deborah | Now That We Don't Talk

toxic yuri prevails <3

[warningsine]

[inkskinned]

can someone invent a type of letting go that actually feels good instead of feeling like your soul is getting ripped out via large intestine

[glowcowboy]

i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

[shyjusticewarrior]

At some point "fanfic can be as good as professional writing" became "fanfic should be as good as professional writing" and that's caused major damage to fandom spaces.

[evadwrites]

hi! i recently read "that’s how i lose you" on ao3 and literally cried for days. i wonder if you ever intend on writing a sequel... 🥺

hi! as a matter of fact, i do.

i started working on the sequel as soon as i’ve written that’s how i lose you and wrote 11k+ words for it, so that’s 2 fully finished chapters and one unfinished. of course, as a true adhd-er, i’ve gotten side-tracked with other projects and Personal Things, but my plan has always been to get back to all the works i’ve left unfinished.

right now, all my free time goes to writing my bachelor thesis, but after i graduate university in may, i fully intend to get back to my older projects, like ‘a wicked game’ and the sequel to ‘that’s how i lose you’. i cannot give you a definite timeline, but i can, however, give you a little bit of hope. the sequel will definitely be a thing, as those two deserve a happy ending.

[write-on-world]

[hayscodings]

karma got fitz’s ass every damn time. when the kids were supposed to visit the white house but mellie canceled leading him to chew her out for being a cold mother and not loving them only for mellie to reveal to him that the kids repeatedly called her begging her to cancel their visit because they didn’t want to see their father? when mellie didn’t want to get out of the car to attend fitz’s 50th birthday celebration and he refused out of spite even though he didn’t want a celebration in the first place and then immediately got shot upon exiting the vehicle by someone trying to assassinate him? nothing was more satisfying than seeing that man get his just deserts

[tangentiallly]

rewatching scandal season 7 really is like. if mellivia didn’t fuck then what’s the point. the way that having too much power led to all sorts of reckoning and realization, the loneliness at the top with just the two of them, the isolation of it all, there’s only them. mellie saying that because she’s a single women that made her different from the previous men who held her position, the way the power scared away men and the restraints she has to live under, the way that olivia says she’s has to be on the seat arranging duty because mellie has no first lady to do the task, all the power and all the loneliness at the top all the “there’s only us, we alone have it all”, literally if they didn’t fuck what is the point. what is the point. when mellie is talking about how she can’t even smuggle an orgasm into this place ……. like. olivia is right there. i’m going crazy. their hand touches. olivia telling others “mellie is mine. mine to advise. mine to protect.” olivia telling mellie “there is only us” “you are never alone. you have me.” i’m going to scream.

[hayscodings]

i love scandal because what other show will have you saying that the president’s chief of staff pimped his husband out in an effort to out the religious and conservative vice president’s husband but it backfired and led to the disintegration of his marriage and the vice president murdering her husband in cold blood which he then had to help her cover up. the same chief of staff also put a hit out on his husband, a journalist, at one point because he was getting too close to going public about the conspiracy to rig the presidential election that got the current president in office, of which the chief of staff was naturally involved in. they just don’t make tv shows like that anymore

[appropriatelystupid]

KATIE McGRATH + GREEN

[evadwrites]

remember that episode where reid and prentiss went undercover to this religious farm thing posing as two social workers? after a news broadcast, the leader realized that one of them was an fbi agent and questioned them, pointing a gun at reid, ready to shoot him. and emily admitted to being the fbi agent. and, sure, it was always very significant, but it became so much more so when the lauren reynolds storyline was revealed. because it showed us that emily was not only an agent—she was, first and foremost, a spy. she lived a whole life undercover. she could’ve easily talked her way out of the leader’s suspicions, and she would have if it wasn’t for reid & her desire to keep him safe and unharmed.

when emily was being beaten later and kept repeating “i can take it” all over again, the BAU team should’ve known emily didn’t become a profiler after a desk job. she was already a fighter, and she was already a spy long before she transferred to the BAU.

[urfriendlywriter]

guys.

have u had any professors who do not profess the way they should and takes advantage of their profess title but they're doing a worse job than a 5-min craft video?

tomorrow is the exam of that professor and i have no will to pass the class. im still studying, half the syllabus to go. wish me LUCK WE GON GET IT SOMEHOW 🤞😧🙏

[hotch-girl]

PAGET BREWSTER as EMILY PRENTISS as LAUREN REYNOLDS

CRIMINAL MINDS (2005 — PRESENT)