[sosaneitsinsane]

fall in love again and again...

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[the-ladyrae]

That was delicious. I genuinely don't think I've seen anyone line up those scene parallels so well before. This was a perfect snapshot of every branch, rock, and mattress they hit on their way down

[everything-i-am]

gonna post a 22k hollanov fic later😌

[everything-i-am]

posted it :)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/81445546

[everything-i-am]

gonna post a 22k hollanov fic later😌

[blacksheepcolorfulskin]

One day Shane finds a shoebox full of random stuff at Ilya’s house like old hotel keycards, coasters, mini toiletries, receipts and can’t fathom why he’s kept these things. Then he slowly realizes they’re all little keepsakes from times they met up over the years.

[everything-i-am]

i wrote this exact fic two months ago😅

https://archiveofourown.org/works/77384991

[everything-i-am]

hozier and mumford & sons performing rubber band man on snl while connor and hudson are there when that’s my shane and ilya song??? when i wrote a fic with the lyrics as a title?? they did that for me🙂‍↕️

[twoshotsofsugar]

this, the tale of reckless love, justhockey, 7k words, oneshot

It was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.

i had the clearest vision of shanes face during this scene...

[wilmvandrr]

oh shane :(

[everything-i-am]

oh my god the way i was scrolling on the hollanov ao3 page and i see u writing them a huge win for me person who loves ur buddie fics !!!!! <3333

they’ve consumed my every waking moment!! thank you<33

[everything-i-am]

so what scene are they using all about us by t. A. T. u in, and why is it the scene when the fanmail video gets leaked

[sloanegabe]

SHANE & ILYA + parallels

[everything-i-am]

there’s something so inherently sad about new year’s eve to me. like, the time keeps passing and passing and we don’t get a choice. we don’t get a say in any of it. life keeps happening, and i can’t leave because there are too many people that i love and too many good things that i might experience, but i don’t really want to be here, either. i spend the whole year just waiting for it to be over, only for a new one to come back round again.

[everything-i-am]

“so he’s exciting, reading the new yorker?”

ilya baby, that conversation was 3 whole years ago. you are diabolically down bad, my friend.

[everything-i-am]

something about the fact that they had feelings from the beginning but it was too big and scary to face so all of their intimacy happened through sex, versus the end when they could be vulnerable and intimate with each other outside of sex so we got less explicit scenes…like we didn’t lose a shred of intimacy, we just got it in a different way

[everything-i-am]

“you were looking for me?” “of course not.”

ilya wasn’t looking for shane. they weren’t looking for this. but they found it anyway. they found each other.

[everything-i-am]

so ep4 is gonna need to be: hollanov meeting at ilya’s penthouse, using first names, tuna melt, rose, the club scene, the rose/shane breakup, the all-stars game.

ep5 will have to include: shane and ilya start texting, ilya’s dad dying and the russian love confession, shane getting hurt, scott and kip getting back together & then coming out after they cup final, and ilya telling shane he’ll come to the cottage.

ep6: the cottage, the i love yous, planning their future/dock scene, shane’s dad catching them, coming out/shane’s panic attack, the irina foundation.

[everything-i-am]

you’re telling me they killed bobby for realism, then sent hen and athena into space?? get out of here. this is why i’m done with this god awful show.

[dsmsix]

[dsmsix]

[naamahdarling]

"In the same way that your heart feels and your mind thinks, you, mortal beings, are the instrument by which the universe cares. If you choose to care, then the universe cares. If you don't, then it doesn't." -- Brennan Lee Mulligan, D20, Fantasy High

[inkskinned]

i. everyone keeps saying it's the hottest summer on record. you have your back pressed flat against the floor and a sweat drip in the crook of your elbow.

ii. generalized anxiety is seen as a disorder during the "ordinary" way of things. if someone were to ask you what specifically is bothering you, the answer is formless and senseless. you have a constant, physical sense of doom. it feels like a hand gripping your ribs. it feels like drowning, always, just-a-little bit. when you complain about it, your mother says - oh, you've been this way since you were a kid.

iii. but nothing is normal right now. what particular thing should you even focus on? your mind is in a terrible aperture, zooming in and out of the small and the large things. in some moments you can't breathe because of your rent bill and a breakup and your dog getting lyme disease. and then an hour later - you are overwhelmed by the shakiness of the whole world, by every person suffering, by the enormity of what is happening.

iv. you googled it. today's high was 94 degrees Fahrenheit (34.4C). it is ten degrees above average. a man on television laughs: but what if i want all of california to be under the sea?

v. how do you do therapy at the end of the world? your video-meet therapist is lovely and sweet and blonde and trying. sometimes you just say, "so... it's kind of just the everything that's happening." and then the two of you sit and stare at each other. more than once she's sighed and said, yeah. it's terrifying.

vi. things move so quickly now. you think about how your local school took six years to approve a new playground. now each day there is a development that makes your heart drop. sure, you can't afford rent this month, but - with everything happening, are you really doing enough?

vii. sometimes it feels like you cannot calculate priority - your body just reacts to each piece of information as an equivalent firecracker. money is tight, you need to get on food stamps, your car needs an inspection. and today another person got abducted. and there aren't any pollinators. and the bill passed the senate. when you try to shove it all into yourself - none of it fucking fits.

viii. you have seen almost no butterflies or bees or dragonflies this year. you go home and try not to overuse your AC. you are watching a debate about AI and water usage. the thousands of gallons wasted just so people can be fed misinformation. the man on television snorts. cry about it.

ix. you are constantly restless, sleepless, pacing. every one problem spirals into another, until they press into your temple and feed from your collarbones. you are trying so fucking hard to balance everything. and still! despite your efforts! it all just happens.

x. you aren't even in the "hot" part of summer yet, and it is ten degrees above average.

@nosebleedclub prompt: sweltering heat