OK SO THIS IS MY RANDOM IDK " HEADCANON " OR ANALYZE ON LAITO BUT IMMA NEED SOME REVEIW FROM THE LAITO GOOGLE HERSELF, PROFESSOR CORN. 💚
Laito always talks about how he hates sickly sweet love, which I'm not sure if he's referring to fake sick sweet love or that he just not comfortable with real affectionate and sweet love in general. But the way he phrases how he feels about it always reminds me of this one scene in Euphoria
" You know what's really depressing? I'll never have that kind of love. There's just no darkness, it's just sweet. I don't know if that would ever be enough for me "
Obviously we know that we doesn't trust people, especially women, and the way he works with then is a way to gain control over them. But I also always feel like he would be the type to stay in toxic relationships purposely ( this is hypothetically speaking sense it's hard to see him ever being in a " relationship " ). Because we obviously know he was a corruption kink because of his trauma but I think being in relationship with somone who he seems as " pure " would trigger his jealousy issues and make him feel worse, so I can see him being with people who are equally as screwed up as him to make him feel better about himself while having this person fuel his ego or just keep him entertained. Because Laito is somewhat aware that he is messed up, trying to have a sweet relationship would probably be painful for him because it results in him having to confront himself and his emotions. It's also foreign to him which leaves him vulnerable, even though somone hates their own trauma and pain it's also familiar to deal with, it's a pain your used to and thus know how to work around it. It's like when you have a bruise and you just keep pushing down on the bruise for no reason.
there's a quote from the horror game " Lacey Games " ( I know these are such random things I'm taking quotes from but it's has a lot of phycological themes and analysis to read into. 😭😭) when the character puts herself back into a cage that's has a lot of childhood trauma she says "Yes, I know. No one forced me back inside. But this pain just hurts so comfortably...".
I think the idea of " pure " love bothers Laito so much, even when it comes to Ayato he gags at the idea that Ayato would be kind to me. And when it comes to Laito the solution is Deny, Deny, Deny ( Laitos always in his Delulu era ). So he may find somone who just pushes and bounces right off his own flaws and negative traits, and maybe even reinforces them, both of them hurting each other in some way but just staying with each other anyway. This makes more sense for like some kind of Diabolk Lovers Human AU. You just know that one couple who are always on again off again but everyone knows they'll probably never stop seeing each other.
Anywhooo thanks for coming to my Ted Talk! Love your blog so much! You have fed my Laito obsession GREATLY I thank you from your services ☺️
holy shit. no notes, beautifully said
The bruise thing is such great imagery too holy hell
But to add onto something--it has been widely documented that people who have gone through abuse, especially extemely traumatic cases, will continuously put themselves in relationships (friendships too) that have those types of dynamics again because it's what they've always known, and are comfortable with. Anywhere outside the "box" can be uncomfortable, even if the "box" you were so used to living inside of was objectively harmful.
It's also good to keep in mind that abusers/predators seek victims with backgrounds like these. It's the reason why people on shed twt (i just found that specific part of twt from a ntts video and goddamn,,, that's awful) get specifically preyed upon because they're emotionally, mentally, psychologically and also physically unwell.
ALSO CALLING ME THE LAITO GOOGLE IS SO FUNNY LMFAO THANK YOU I GOTTA BRUSH UP ON LAITO THO (haha wink joke haha)--I HOPE IM THE OLD GOOGLE I DONT WANNA BE THE MODERN DAY GOOGLE LMFAOOOO
